Well I'm gonna give this whole journal thing yet another shot...lol....mostly in this journal you will just find thoughts and events of my borring life.
Well so today is Saturday....My oldest DS spent last night with a little friend of his from school....He called earlier this morning and wants to know if tonight his little friend can spend the night here so they can ride horses....So later I will be going to pick the 2 of them up....I also need to go and bring Cruiser (my older tamer horsie) In from the pasture....Cruiser is my most trust worth horse.....The one I allow the kids to ride....He's very mild mannered and would never hurt a flee.
In the last few days so many people have asked me about my dear sweet angel son.....Before it was almost like everyone was affraid to speak to me about him....on the contrary though....I enjoy talking about him...It keeps my memory fresh of him...and that memory I don't want to fade....Even though the sound of his name may bring a tear to my eye...it sings a song to my heart and soul.
School will officially be out for summer break on the 15th of this month....I literally can't wait.....Will have all the kids home and the freedom to come and go as we please without having to worry about school stuff...fun fun fun....So many plans for acitivities with the kids this summer.....hopefully will be able to pack them all in....in the 3 short months of vacation they get.
I'm worried about my youngest DS starting kindergarten this next yr....Not so much worried about how he will academically do....but worried about how the other children will treat him....his differences in other children his age are very noticeable.....and it breaks my heart when he is treated bad.....I have a few play dates set up for over the summer with a little girl who will be in his class...this little girl's mother and I went to school together...So we know each other very well....Her DD is a little sweet heart...So hopefully my DS and her will be able to establish a good friendship before the start of school.
Some people IRL claim that I worry to much about my youngest DS....but they have not gone through all I have with him....From him being born clinically dead at 30 wks gestation....to him being revived....a just over 2 month stay in the NICU...during which time being told on 3 different occasions that he more then likely would not make it through the night......My little man is a TRUE fighter....even though his battle scars from his fight are very noticeable....He continues a daily battle day in and day out fighting them as well....and still able to shine the most beatiful smile I've ever seen....It truly makes a mommy proud.....Most parents wish for a healthy baby....and I did to before my DS was born...but now I can't imagine my son being anything else then what he is...after all he wouldn't be who he is today if he had been born any other way....and he truly is the sunshine of my darkest day....He's so loving and careing and no matter what it is always seems to see the best in everything....I'm very proud of the fact that I'm the one he calls mommy. Out of all of my children I have to say he is the one who has taught me the most....Showed me so many things that non of my other children can see.
I don't have much for plans for today....just going to spend it with the kids...and what happens happens.......It's beautiful outside today...so will probably spend the day outside.....Take a bike ride....a nice long walk....ride horses....and just play the day away.....I so enjoy spending days looking through the eyes of my children....They most certainly can teach us how to live....instead of falling into that rut of just surviving from day to day...that so many adults seem to fall into......I don't want to just survive...I want to LIVE!!! and I'm greatful to my children for helping me be able to live.
Well going to close need to get out the door and go bring in Cruiser and then go and pick up oldest DS and his friend.....Today is going to be great....I can just feel it.