Well this morning I got the kids up, dressed, hair combed, shoes on, back packs found....and ready to head to the bus with time to spare!! WOOHOO....Right from waking them up everything just kinda fell into place and ran quite smoothly.....a Rare happening in this house....Theres usually atleast one misplaced shoe.
Today I'm going into town and ordering the kids' new beds....The guy from the furniture store called about 8:30 am and said that all of their bedroom furniture was going on sale.....So each best will now only cost me $129.00....They were marked at $175.00 per bed before.....of course this doesn't include mattresses....but when ya think about it I'm actually saving $$....To buy a bed and dresser would cost alot more then $129.00 and with what I'm getting is beds with built in dressers....so saves floor space as well. I also want to look at desks for the 4 school aged kidlettes to have in their rooms....for homework and such.....Doesn't have to be anything fancy....I'm looking for functional and something that will match their beds.
Also gonna pick up a few groceries today.....Going to do something I normally don't do....and thats buy some easy preparation type things....I usually make everything from scratch...as it's cheaper....but in order to get everything prepared for the house...for the mean time I'm gonna have to skimp on meal preparation time....it's really the only thing I could possibly find to budget more time from....that I'm not gonna feel totally guilty about robbing time from.
I want to get everything done so when T's friends get here to start on the addition...They have absolutely nothing to do...but start on the foundation and framing.....After all the sooner they get started the sooner they are done right!?!
On other subjects....I'm not positive but I think I'm at the beginning of a kidney infection....am having that tell tale dull ache in my back....So gonna stock up on cranberry juice and call my doc to see what he thinks....I've had so many of them in my life....That most of the time he will just give me a prescription without being seen.
On the TTC homefront.....AF is due to arrive on the 10th...and I'm not having any signs of her showing up....*KEEPING FINGERS CROSSED* that she stays the hell away!!
Well need to get going...need to shower and get me and the 2 little girls ready to head into town.
WEll I'm back from town....Got the kids' beds and also found 4 desks for the older school aged kids....and I must say Slumber Land ROCKS Since I bought so much stuff....6 beds and 4 desks....They gave me another 10% discount off my total cost!!
Also got my groceries....DAMN those quickie type meal things are spensive .....So I'm gonna be busting *** to get things done so I don't have to use them for very many meals.
Also had to get the kids' health insurance straightened out...what a ****ing mess that was...I was at my insurance ageants office for a good hour just trying to get things figure out.....They were trying to charge me extra premiums for Shelby and Amy.....When it states right in the policy that I have that after 5 children....any other added children won't up your premium.....I mean damn....They already get $2987.56 from me every 3 months....and they really don't pay for **** anyway....no dental, no well check-ups, preventative care, chiropractor, opthomologist, immunizations.....the list goes on and on for what they WON'T cover....and for each one of us we each have a deductible of $1500.00 and then 20% of the next $10,000.00......The insurance business is such a freaking scam.....They know ya just can't be without it...so they screw ya coming and going and ya don't even get so much a little lube or a thank-you when they are done!!
Poor little Amy was soo tired in town....She doesn't take naps every day.....I just allow her to take naps as she needs them....Well today was obviously one of her need a nap days......Boy was I glad that I had my sling with me....I snugged her up real tight against me and she layed her head on my chest and totally zonked out.....Poor baby didn't even wake up when I took her out of the slling and put her in her carseat....she even slept all the way home.
I must say though...I'm actually starting to feel just a bit spoiled.....Something that I haven't felt since I moved out on my own....I left a home where I lived with fairly well off parents....to completely on my own and with in 3 months moved in with T...who's whole existance pretty much depends on God....no rain=no crops=no money.....and I must say there are have been some damn tough times....but we have survived it and grown from it...I swear I could budget a $1.00 now if I had to.
Oh T has come up with another little $$ making deal.....I was totally LMFAO at....He's now gonna take up trapping racoons......They run rampid around here and you can get $20.00 per live racoon....he plans on using the extra cash to give the kids a raise in their allowances.....so the kids aren't complaining any....but me....well I can just see the fool getting bit by one!!
Well I'm gonna go and skim through a few of the boards and then cook dinner.
What have I accomplished today??? NOT A DAMN THING!!!
Was up until 1:45 am going through stuff...boxing some stuff up to put in the attic...Took apart Amy's Crib and packed it to put it in the attic...(not that she has ever slept in it...and was mostly being used like a toy box as of late)
Was up again at 6:00 am to get the school kids up and on the bus...Then came back home and collapsed on my bed.....This over whelming feeling of exhaustion took over and besides cooking lunch and getting up to go to the bathroom I've spent the rest of the day in bed...With my 2 babes...reading books, watching movies and sleeping....Both girls actually took a 3 hr nap and actually did so at that same time....So guess who snoozed right along with them....ME.....Back out of bed at 4:00 pm to pick up the kids from the bus....and the feeling of exhaustion is still over taking me....Why the hell am I so damn tired...especially after sleeping soo damn much.....Hell I'm used to going on hardly any sleep and have never felt this exhausted....I've been having to avoid my nice soft comfy blanket cause just as soon as I wrap up in it I'm down for the freaking count!!
Going to go to bed early tonight....hopefully I can get caught up on sleep so that I can be productive tomorrow....I HAVE to get this stuff done before the builders come...The builders HAVE to finish up the foundation, fraiming, and atleast have the outer walls up BEFORE the snow flies around here....It's already September and so that doesn't leave alot of time.....We've been known to have snow on the ground by Halloween!!
My Dad and brother have volunteered to come and help me out this weekend...so I jumped at that chance.....More bodies more working getting done....Just hope I can restrain myself and not rip my brothers head off when the first smart assed thing leaves his mouth.....I really should be greatful that he is willing to help....but he should also have enough self control to not just stand around and bash every ounce of my existance and the style in which I choose to live my life....Like he's perfect or something......2 wives 2 divorces.....My parents supporting and raisng his kid...constantly bashing both wives right in front of my nephew.....and is constantly lying about **** his first wife (my nephews mom) has done or said.....See I still talk with his first wife....she's such a sweet person...and how my brother got custody from her is truly criminal on his part....and his main reason for wanting his DS....well cause the child support he gets for his pays his car payment on his brand new Ford Mustang convertible!! My brother is a total clone of my mother except for the fact he has a penis......I'm sooo glad that I take after my Daddy...I truly don't think there is a more loving, careing, helpful, hard working, all around great guy on the face of this earth.....and I love my Daddy with all of my heart!! He's the only one who has stuck by my side through everything....when everyone else had turned them backs on my....there was my Daddy...with a good strong shoulder to cry on...to kiss my cheek pat my back and tell me that everything would be ok....That there will never be a problem that I wouldn't be able to find a solution to....I wish everyone could have a Daddy as great as mine is!!
He's the one who has always seem my potential even through my faults....HE was the one who when I would fail and fall would be the one to be right there to pick me up and dust me off and gently point me into the right direction....When all anyone else would do was push shove me to be who they wanted me to be...or who they thought I should be.....My Dad always has been and always will be a HUGE part of my life.....I'm very thankful that he is my Dad.....He's played the biggest part in me becoming who I am today.
WIth his never say never attitude....I've learned that I can try anything...and even if I do fail at it....no one can come back and say I didn't atleast try...I can't and don't even want to think about what life will ever be like without him.
Well this entry has jumped from one thing to another to another....probably doesn't even make a whole hell of alot of sense...but like I said....I'm exhausted...so the ol' brain isn't functioning properly....which means I better go before I'm seen as completely insane!!
So today is the 10th....I should have woke-up this morning to AF making her big appearance....But did I??? NOPE sure didn't......although I do think that the old hag is just toying with me.
Was collapsed in bed last night by 9:00 pm and slept all night...got the kids up at 6:00 am and on the bus.....still feeling very tired.
We finally got some rain last night.....just to bad we couldn't have gotten it a month or so ago....when it would have been beneficial to our dry land crops......I just have to keep the faith that this is all in God's big plan...and trust in him that this will all work out and everything will fall into place.
Me and the 2 little ones have chiropractor appointments at 5:00 pm today....Amy and Shelby are always sooo calm after they've had an adjustment....which is always such a plus for me.....It's a little over an hr's drive to get to the chiropractor we go to...but soooo worth it.....He's the most amazing chiropractor I've ever been to...always leave there feeling like a new person.....and he isn't just one of those snap crackle pop see ya later type chiropractors.....you get the works when ya go there.....a massage, then adjusted, then ultra sound therapy and another massage......it's absolutely WONDERFUL!! He's very gentle as well.
I'm very much looking forward to going.
oops....gotta run for a bit....my Dad's on the phone!!
So it's now 6:50 pm on the 10th....Still no AF....Even tempted fate and wore white undies and a pair of my white pants to my chiropractors appointment....Went one step further tempting fate and didn't bother taking along one single maxi pad.....and she still hasn't reared her ugly head!! Please OHHHHH PLEASE let this be it....let me be PG.....2 yrs is more then enough time to be dissapointed cycle after cycle after cycle....I've tried not to get my hopes up to high this cycle...but I just can't help myself now.....and I know that when AF does show up is she does....How Utterly dissapointed I will be.
Our appt's went awesome...both little girls actually fell asleep on the way home. I feel so much better.....doesn't hurt to move now...which is a major plus...T even went along and got an adjustment as well....I had one heck of a time actually staying awake during my final massage....I quite litteraly could have just drifted off and slept through the whole night I think.
Brought pizza home for the kids so I'm gonna get them fed and off to bed....then I'm gonna grab Amy and snuggle into my own blanket.
11:10 pm and I'm getting ready to head to bed....AF still hasn't shown kidlettes are all in bed and the house is very very quiet.....Life is good!!
As I sit here in my quiet house though...I can't help but think of what tomorrow marks....such a sad, solom time for our entire country....For the rest of my life I will never forget turning on the news and watching live as that second plane flew into the twin towers....I found myself not able to breath....feeling like my heart would literally drop from my chest and discontinue beating.....The utter terror that pulsed through my body.....Wondering, WHY,HOW, Who could have done this......"Then after hearing of the plane that went down in pennsylvania....wondering if there were more and where they were at....I have never in my life felt so helpless as I did that day.....All those poor lost souls....from infants to the elderly and the families who they left behind....
I'm also thinking of all our military men and women.....and their families...Those who are deployed, waiting to be deployed...and those who have ultimately made the greatest sacrafice for our country.....I pray for all those who I have listed....A prayer with more emotion then I have ever prayed.....The tears that fall from eyes are tears for them.....For those I know and those I have never met.
GOD SPEED and SAFE RETURNS for all of our military men and women!! May the answers come soon and the battle be a short and easy one from this day forward.
As the flood of emtions overwhelm me....I say good night.
Well AF is officially a day late!!! but since I'm a bone head and didn't have any hope what so ever when I was in town....I don't have a P/T to use.
I attended a prayer service late this morning.....and then early this afternoon I went to a candle lighting service at my old high school.....Both were very spiritual and very emotional...I'm very glad that I made the time today to attend both.
I came home this afternoon and was feeling a sence of non accomplishment......Feeling like I need to do more....Not for myself....but for others....even complete strangers.....So as being a survivor of Domestic Abuse....I decided to call the domestic violence women and childrens home in town and volunteer one day a week....I wish I could do more...But with still having 2 small kidlettes at home...makes it a little harder.....So from now on my Saturdays will be spent with Women and children who are just fresh out of abusive relationships....I hope that I can be some sort of help to them.
My kids school is talking about going to a 4 day school wk....Which will mean adding on 2 extra hours a day......As it is now....My kids don't get home until 4:00 pm add 2 more hours and that puts them home at 6:00 pm I can't see how this will work...especially with the homework load that is already put on the kids as it is......There will be no time for anything else after school but homework....I can't imagine them going an hour earlier and staying an hour later.....As it is my kids have to be on the bus at 7:00 am.....and they are the last ones to be picked up by the bus....I can't imagine what time that would put the first kids picked up!?!
The schools total enrollment K-12th is only 85 kids....This whole 4 day school wk is a way to cut expenses so that the school can afford to stay open...They are also talking about cutting other things as well.....And to tell the truth I can't see where there is anything else left to cut.....There is no music, physical education, or art programs......What after school sports that are offered (football, Basketball, track) are already all co-oped with another school....There are no elective classes in high school.....The only classes that are offered are required course.
I'm leaning more and more on the idea of sending my kids to the school from which I graduated.....They have sooo much more to offer.....Not only academically but also in extra curicular activities....Most of the teachers that I had when I attended school there are still there....So I know they will be recieving 110% from the teachers...All of the teachers are acredited...which then means that all of the courses offered are acredited...Un-like the school they are attending now...So many more opportunities.....I don't see how I can deny them that.....Infact the ONLY down fall I can even think of is that I would have to drive them to school everyday.....but even that seems so menial when it comes to their education...I know loosing 4 more students from the school that they attend now well actually 6 if you actually think about it....could be devastating to the school....but I have to look out for the best interest of my children's education.....So what ever happens to that school is out of my control...It's not like they haven't had their tit in a ringer before....They are on probation with the State Department of Education as it is....I found out recently that 90% of the people that they have their teaching are not even educated past high school level...which means they don't have teaching degrees.....I knew there were a few of them...but I was only thinking a couple...not 90%
I want my children in a learning enviroment where they can thrive...not one that strives to hold them back.....by switching schools it will give them the enviroment to thrive.....I refuse to allow any one or anything to hold them back.
I will be calling my old school tomorrow to find out what I need to start doing to get them transferred....I know with the states open enrollment policy that it is a whole process that you have to go through.....and I want to be able to have them switched by the end of the first 9 wks.....Leaving behind their friends I'm sure will be hard.....but they can make new friends and it's not like they will loose total contact with their friends now.....I know this is the right thing to do......So I'm going to push ahead to make it happen.
Still no sign of AF showing up....I can't help but get my hopes up....I just hope my hopes are not crushed yet once again....If AF is going to show up I wish she would just show up instead of taunting me.....and damn it....Why was I a **** the other day in town....WHY didn't I just go ahead and buy a couple of HPTs!?! ARGH!!!! I'm such an impatient person....It's definately one of my down falls......Hell even as a small child.....I was one of those kids that scowered the house in seach of christmas presents.....because I couldn't stand not knowing what I was getting.....Once I knew I was completely fine with waiting until christmas eve eveing when we would open out gifts at home....but until I knew what I was getting it was quite literally all I could think about.....I've even considered going out and sacraficing one of the kids rabbits. if I just knew what to do with it to figure out if I was pg or not!!! Oh well guess it's best I don't....atleast the rabbits are safe!!
I just know though that with each day AF is late...I won't be able to curb my enthusiasm over the prospect of actually being pg......BLAH!!!! Have I mentioned how badly I HATE WAITING!!!
DAmn it Damn it Damn it.....I can't sleep and I'm exhausted.....My body is screaming for sleep but my feeble little mind is running at a million miles an hour....Some one needs to just smack me up along the head with a baseball bat.....That should make me go nighty nite in a hurry.
I wish I didn't mind driving in the dark....I'd head to town now and hit the 24 quick shop and even willingly pay # times the cost of a HPT at a regular store.....Just so I could know one way or the other!!!!
Well guess I will go toss and turn some more....or maybe just stay up and do some more laundry!?!