I was looking forward to not having the kids for two nights, but you know what? I miss them like crazy. I swear I hear them. Yesterday morning mom called while I was in the shower. DH said she thought A had a ear infection. So I call her back and she said A said her left ear hurt and she had been very sensitive. So I go on over and A is just pitiful. She has the pet lip and tears pooling in her eyes and says "mommy I'm sick, I need medicine". I said "ok you want mommy to take you and make you feel better?" A said "yes, mommy". So I call the docs and get an appt for an hour out since that is how long it takes us to get there. On the way there she said I don't want to go to the doctor he hurts me(referring to her flu shot she got) I just need medicine. So we get there and go back to the room and she wants me to hold her and she falls asleep. The doc walks in and she wakes up and says me left ear hurts and I just need some medicine. Sure enough she was at the beginning stages of an ear infection and is on antibiotics. Poor thing, I felt so bad for her. I just wanted to hold her for the rest of the day. So we get everything and go back to g-mom's since I had a party to go to.
We had a nice dinner at Dutch's. I walked out of their stuffed. You could have stuck a fork in me. I even passed on the yummy desserts as I was afraid to stick anything else in me for fear of exploding.
It's sleeting this morning. I don't mind winter just the nasty weather that can happen. Hard to believe it is the 2nd of Dec and only 23 days to go to Christmas. I think I will wait to put their presents under the tree for I fear Mr. Logan will open them. He was taking all the bows and ornaments off the tree last week and was just so proud of himself.
I wonder if it ever really sinks in that you are a "mom". I sometimes still can't believe it and wouldn't change a thing. They are my sunshine. I sometimes sit and watch them play and think my god this two kids are mine that I love with everything that I am. Then I get all mushy and sentimental with them. I looked back a the photo album's over the past couple years and my how they have changed. I sometimes think what about another, but it lasts a very short time. I have my hands full with two and two is just fine.
I just called in to work and said I will not be in. Logan did not go to sleep until 4 this morning. Something is going on so I need to call the doctors when they open up to see if I can get him in today. I just want to make sure his ears are clear because of his hearing loss. Having an ear infection will lower his hearing level. So if he doesn I need to nip it in the bud. A has an ear infection, another child at dc has an ear infection and another child was tested for strep. I hate this time of year when it seems someone at dc is always sick. And why do parents send there kids to dc if they know they are sick. I will send my kids if they have a clear runny nose but that is it. If it is green, they have a fever or are just really grumpy and not themselves they are not going. My job isn't that important.
Poor little man ended up having an ear infection in his right ear. 5 out of 8 kids at daycare have ear infections. Wednesday we ended up getting 5 inches of snow. It's not fun commuting in bad weather with two kids. The kids enjoyed playing in the snow at dc Wed and Thurs until I showed up. Then they started crying because they were cold and wanted me to make them warm. Logan is in a much better mood now that his ear is clearing up. But his has been Mr.Sneaky. I let the kids have 3 crayons each to color on Thurs night while I was cleaning. I turn around to see what was going on and here he is coloring on one of my newly painted walls. He was so proud of himself and started clapping. How can you get mad at that? Thank god for magic erasers. Then yesterday I thought he was in his room playing and something didn't sound right. I check his room, A's room and my room and he was not in there. So I check the dark bathroom. Sure enough there he is. He had poured a whole bottle of shampoo all over his head and it had pooled on the floor. He started licking it and then was blowing bubbles. I just had to laugh, but let me tell you shampoo is not easy to clean up.
He had his therapy yesterday with Diane and Diane. He did really well and was very silly. He loves signing gorilla and lion. He thinks it is hillarious. He has met one of his goals which was to sign 15 words in 6 months which he has done in 1.5 months. Now we just need to get the 15 words. I'm so proud of my little man.
Been awhile since I have made an entry. Why do the holiday seasons have to be so busy? Two more days and it will be done and over with. Don't get me wrong, I love the season but it seems much longer this year. I can't wait until Christmas morning. For dh and the kids. He will be surprised with what I got him. I got my gifts early. I got a foot massager, neck massager and my Nikon d40 so I am happy. DH is out shopping right now for something else for me. I told him I dont' need anything since I got my camera I had wanted. The kids had a good week at daycare. They made me these adorable picture frames and Ms.M took their pictures and put in them. Monday I took cupcakes in for them and then on Thursday was their gift exchange and Santa dropped off some gifts at the end of nap time. :)All the kids said they heard his bells. You have to love the innocence. A wanted to know how Santa would get in our house since we don't have a chimney.:) I never thought about that at 3. I told her we will leave the door open for him. She was content with that answer. We're going to make Grandmom some gifts when we get up from nap today.
Christmas is finally over and dd is waiting for Christmas again.:) I told her she had a ways to go before Santa was ready again. Christmas Eve we drove 2 hours to dh's dads house just north of D.C. The kids each got a tricycle and a lot of other stuff. Good thing we took the Suburban. We got home around 11 and then Santa had to do his work. I guess I got to bed around 1. I was up at 6:30 waiting for everyone to get up. They got up an hour later. It took us over an hour to open presents because the kids didn't want to. They wanted to play with the train table and Thomas train set that Santa had left. Boy did I ever go overboard this year. The biggest hit was the train table and Thomas tent. It sucked we had to go to work the next day. I was exhausted and needed a breather. New Years Eve I was in bed at the normally scheduled time. I can't remember the last one I've watched.
Besides that not much has been going on, except for last night. I was taking the kids downstairs into our unfinished basement and told them to sit on the steps so we could scoot down. Logans foot got stuck as he was scooting to the next step and his forward momentum and the foot stuck was not a good combo as he ended up falling all the way down the stairs. I screamed bloody murder (dh said he never heard anything like it and the hairs stood up on the back of his neck.) and ran after him. When he landed he looked at me then started screaming. Once I held him he calmed down. DH had scooped dd up as she was coming down with mommy. I went up stairs and put him down to check him out and he graps his butt and says "owwww". Then he wanted to go back down. Took awhile for my heart to calm down and to stop shaking. Nothing I ever want to experience again. I'm resisting the urge to go wake him up just to make sure he is ok.
We are getting ready to put down laminate floor in L's room. We have carpet right now and it always get so dirty plus with the radiant heat the heat has to work that much more back there. Can't wait until it is done then I will decorate it for his big boy room and hopefully get his big boy bed.
We put down the laminate floor in Logan's room two weeks ago and I love it. Last weekend I painted his room. It is now three colors. The bottom color is a navy blue, then a green and a cream color on top. It's now my favorite room. I still need to put up curtains (not sure what color yet) and hang everything on the walls. I bought a little tikes car toddler bed off of ebay to see if he will sleep better in that then his crib before we go get his twin bed. So we will see how that goes. I pick it up on Saturday.
He had his 6 month hearing test today. It went well. He had wax in his ears which he never does,so we had to go next door and have one of the doc's remove it. Then he had good ear pressure on both ears (YAY! If it is negative it means it is likely he will get an ear infection). Off to the booth we went. He kept pulling out the ear pieces so I had to pretty much hold him down and he was fighting me. At this time I smelled a poopy. Nothing like being confined in the tight confined room with the smell of a poopy diaper. We go into the office and she said he is maintaining his consistency in his tests. He has a higher loss of earing in higher pitch sounds. So we get the ear mold impressions going, but one didn't set and we had to do it again. But before we did I needed to change him. We go to the bathroom and the diaper bag always stays in the car and it never dawned on me but the wipes were frozen. So I have one hand hold his legs while I put a foot on the wipes package to try and pull them out. Poor guy had a fright when those cold things hit him. From him sitting on my legs in the booth I smelled like poopy too. UGH! So we go back to the office and get the other ear mold done. She had to keep one hearing aid to send it out for it be repaired since the battery door was broken. It should be back by Monday. The other one might have to be repaired too since that was the one he always took out and chewed on and the case is cracked but still works. The warranty is up in 2 months so I rather it be taken car of now. She said she will probably adjust the levels since it has never been done and he got them when he was 4 months old.
I guess I am doing ok. I feel completely off balance and frazzled this week. Don’t know what is going on. I wish I had more time to spend with Logan. When we are home he wants to follow Autumn around all the time or wants nothing to do with me. I want my baby to talk, I want him to be able to tell me what he wants, I want him to be able to tell me what is wrong, I want to hear “I love you mommy”. Is that so much to ask for? Then when I do get time to spend with him I feel guilty because Autumn needs time too. I feel like I have gypped her. I am so stressed I hopped on the treadmill last night to walk to see if that made me feel better and it didn't so I ran a bloody mile. I hate to run. I just hope I can get out of this funk.
Logan had his 3 month evaluation on Friday. We had icy weather so Ms.M and Ms.M were not able to make it. Ms.D wants to increase his words/acclimations and signs to 30. And to also work on his frustration some more. And to get him to say names instead of calling everyone "Mama" because he knows he will get a reaction. It has dramatically decreased which I am so thankful for. I need to work on him with 3D objects and asking him to hand me said one out of 3-4 to make sure he visually understands as well. I got to leave work early this morning. Ms.M was sick and not feeling better. She just called and has the flu with viral bronchitis. So needless to say daycare will be closed tomorrow and the kids will go to g-mom's. Then to top off my day i get an email from the rental company where I was going to book our vacation and the people decided not to rent this year. So back to square one as this was the house I was so set on for the past 2 months.
Ms.M called last night. She sounded downright awful. I felt so bad for her. She asked if Ms.M was coming today and I said I didn't know and asked if she wanted me to call. She said yes. I told her to take the rest of the week off. No use trying to work when you have the flu and aren't up to par dealing with 8 kids. I'd rather her be healthy. I asked if she had spoken to the other mom's and she said I was the first because I am the nice one. I said you should call me last and get the nasty ones out of the way first then I can cheer you up:). Poor thing started crying. I asked her why she was crying and she said because your nice and you care. I said I wouldn't trust my kids to anyone and that she was one of the special people.
But you know what this just pissed me off. What the lady that will do anything under the sun for your child and teaches them so much and offers them so much love that she isn't allowed to get sick? My goodness the last time she was sick was last Feb for 2 days of the stomach bug. Having 8 kids invade your home on a daily basis with all the germs they pass around because the parents send their kids sick, because heaven forbid that their kids come before their job, and she actually gets sick this one time. Let them withdrawl their kids. She can replace them just as fast as you walk out the door. They just are not deserving of her. I'm off my rant now.
Went and picked up Logan's hearing aid today. It looks so pretty and new since they replaced the casing. Not that he will notice but atleast water can't get in as easily. Next week we go in for his new ear molds. I swear that is the only way I know the kid grows by how often I have to have new ones made.
It's been a little while since I've posted anything in my journal. It has been rather chaotic. I am home from work because both kids are sick. Just got back a little while ago. Autumn has a viral respitory infection and Logan has the same but he is once again cursed with a double ear infection. He had just gotten over one so it was not the news I wanted to hear. Logan is slowly chugging along on his speech. Gosh darn I try to be patient, but it is so dag gone frustrating. My little man tries so hard to talk and he will go off in his little story telling but I have absolutely no clue what he is saying. I believe there will come a day when we won't be able to keep him quiet.
Mom and I had a falling out last week. UGH! It's been 4-5 years since we've had such a blow up. She is an alcoholic. Need I say more. Autumn wanted to call yesterday and talk to g-mom, how could I say "no". She doesn't understand the situation yet. So I let her talk to her and then said good bye. My aunt was at her house and said she did not sleep Saturday night and was really upset and hurt. Well yeah, I said some very hurtful but true things to her. I just can't keep living with the negativity and walking on eggshells. Sure I can have a relationship with her but I want the above gone. Period end of story. I don't need to deal with that and having to phrase things certain ways so as not to set her off. She called a little while ago to see how A & L were. She said she can still come for Easter if I want her to. What was I suppose to say to that? No you can't come see your grandchildren have an Easter egg hunt. She is literally the only family I have that I talk to. G-dad is too busy with Gretchen and her family and I was never close with my uncles and aunts, plus they have more problems that I don't want to deal with. I feel weak for talking to her when I said I wouldn't but I don't know what to do.
I am so ready to scream right now! My kids are still sick. Logan has a deep chest congestion and ran a fever yesterday morning of 103. Makes no sense after having several doses of antibiotics. DH worked half a day yesterday so I could go to work and then when we sat down for dinner Autumn proceeds to tell me her throat hurts. So after dinner I looked at she has white dots all over the back of her throat. So I had her gargle salt water and look again and it's still there. So I call and left a message with the doctor and he called back. Dr.B called back, thank goodness. He is the one doctor I absolutely love. He was a neonatologist in another country and he was one of Logans doctors in the second NICU. He said it sounds like something is going on so I am sitting here this morning waiting for him to call me. He said he would call in a prescription for her. But I am ticked, I knew there was more than what the doc said on Monday, I know my kids. The poor girl keeps telling me "Mommy I don't feel me better yet". I just want my kids back to normal. Knock on wood I have not been cursed yet.