I thought i'd give this a try. There's so much i want to express that its hard for me to actually find a place to do that. There's so much that bothers me that well i need a place to put all of that in. But then there are happy times as well... hopefully i find a good support system that helps me with all this. I've grown alot in the last couple of years and i can honestly say that i am happy where i am at now. I have a wonderful man in my life (i wish we were married) From what i understand its in the works (we're engaged). And we have 3 beautiful children combined (I have 2 and he's got 1) They're the joy of our lives, now we are currently TTC our first child. Its funny though how life brings you across ppl that u'd never thought when u were young you'd connect with. Well... I'm off... I'll write more later
We argued last night... I cried... i guess i've just had enough... of alot of things. :censored: i constantly feel like i have to impress or prove a point to somebody. and half the time i feel like i never do anything right. I let him get the dog cause he wanted it and just like it is with sara, i end up taking care of it. he sleeps most of the day due to his schedule and im stuck taking care of... lemme stop. im just as tired and exhausted as he is. All i want is a break. The kids are in Florida with their dad. So i feel as though im somewhat entitled to one. If he helped out more it wouldn't be an issue. I just need time to be me... :yoddle: even if its for a little while.
On to lighter things... He did promise we'd spend the day together on sunday. :love10: I dunno what else to type... im off.. hopefully i'lll have things to write about this weekend.