I have decided to start a journal as well. I have no intentions on having a pissing match through journals with anyone but have decided I need a place to keep my thoughts on things and if others want to read it then that is fine. Maybe it will give them some insight into my mentality.
I used to be a very petty & small person. Very small minded and selfish. I like to think that I have grown as a mother, wife & friend. I have a new found tendency to allow things to just slide now that I would have gone nuts over just a year ago. I have learned from many great friends that some things just aren't worth it. Fighting with people, whomever they might be, on the net, RIL, takes something from me and I am not willing to share any piece of me with those that aren't worth it. Only those I love and care for are worth giving myself to.
Well Nathan & I are off to watch Harry Potter 2. Dave got it for us on the net! We've seen it already but it is sooo good!
"Mommy, I don't want a war to happen"
-Nathan, age 10 - My son
Edited so that I can keep track of my various signatures! That would be neat!
Like I said in my previous entry I don't want to get in a pissing match so I have decided not to read anyone else's journals. Why should I? These are my thoughts and yes they are public and if someone wants to read them that is fine, if they want to make snide remarks in their journals, well that is their perrogative, I don't need to see it. It does absolutely nothing for me.
I'm so sad for some people. People who don't know what life is really all about. I understand that life is a learning experience and it takes time to grow and learn but it just seems like sometimes some people never learn.
Some people have nothing better to do then be mean and disresepctful. I really don't need that stress in my life and don't deal with it. I just move on. I must admit that I NEVER forget though. I may forgive on occasion but I never forget. If I were a smaller pettier person I would have reacted differently but why stoop to that level? What will it do for me? Nothing but make me stress out and at 24 weeks pregnant I don't need the stress. I have more important things to look forward to.
The birth of my beautiful baby in June.
How lucky I am to be having this baby.
The 2 gorgeous healthy boys I already have.
A husband who loves me and accepts me for who I am and would NEVER hurt me or my children.
Awesome friends. My sistras are the ****. They have supported me through so much especially all that has been going down as of late.
What more could I ask for? A bigger house? Maybe. More money in the bank? Maybe. But I am happy and that is all that matters. Too bad everyone is as lucky.
"Mommy, I don't want a war to happen"
-Nathan, age 10 - My son
People are so mature. I have a whole slew of people backing me but yet this handful of petty people still manage to make it under my skin. Maybe a hot shower will cure it. LOL
Overall today has been a good day though. I got alot of stuff that I have been wanting to do around the house done. Mark should be home soon. So nice to have a healthy loving relationship. Tomorrow is our 7 year anniversary. Dinner & a movie. Can't wait!
Well we had a good anniversary. I won't say great but it was nice. Nathan had a hockey game at noon and they won against a team they hadn't beat all season. Kicked their butts actually (6-3). Then we scooted out to Lou's game, it was a memorable one. Kilrea's 1000th win. Lou scored too! Awesome! After that we zoomed out to Barrhaven to drop the kids off at Lisa's (SIL) place so we could go out for dinner. We decided to skip the movie b/c the one we really want to see (Bringing down the House) doesn't take passes and we have free passes that we didn't want to waste on anything we didn't really want to see. So we ended up at a Chinese Buffet, the food was BAD! I ate one plate of food, wasting most of it, one plate of veggies and dip, a bowl of soup then I had Jell-O for dessert. $15!!! Never going back there again! I did have a glass of wine though - bad girl! But it was a special occasion and one glass of wine isn't going to hurt the baby. The back to Lisa's to get the kids. We hung out for a bit and she went on & on about how advance Tanner is compared to her friend's son who is like 4 days younger then Tanner. He doesn't say anything and Tanner speaks sentences! LOL They all balance out eventually. She also gave us a Teletubbies video & Elmopalooza for Tanner. Her kids have outgrown them. LOVE IT! Gotta love being the wife of the baby of the family, we get whatever we want from that side. My side, we are the oldest, what a difference!!!
I have been battling another migraine though, I think it's the stress of the idiots here. I dunno. I have made my complaints known to management and it is their hands now. I prefer the Wah Wah's anyways. I wouldn't want to be friends with people that could turn on you that fast. I feel sorry for one of their friends who is trying to juggle it all.
This pregnancy is going so well. I am so blessed to be having this baby. I was supposed to have my prenatal this morning but my doctor has the flu so I go in next Tuesday. That is fine, with this headache and the bright sun & all the snow outside and no sunglasses I wouldn't have made it anyways.
Mark is off today and it is March Break so we are all having a lazy day. I slept in (off & on) till noon, MAN THAT WAS NICE! Gotta love Mark. He is going for the big V soon. I have to book him an appointment. He is getting it before the baby somes so we don't have any more! Eeeek! LOL Even though he would probably love more, there is no freaking way I am popping out anymore! LOL
Anyways that is about it for today so far, I'm sure I will be back later.
It has been brought to my attention that someone else is bashing me in their journal (since I don't read other's journals) and I say GOOD FOR THEM! At least they are taking out their frustrations in their journal where it belongs and leaving me the heck alone! For them I say this: You need to turn off the computer and play with your kids and maybe work on your marriages. I'm sure you will read this so that is the best advice I have for you. I feel really sorry for you that with little children running around you have nothing better to do then pester people online and follow one another around like sad little puppies. I pity you really.
Now that that is over & done with I wipe my hands of it. I'm done! I will not allow immature children who have no business raising children stress me out. I will pass everything troublesome off to management and let them deal with it. That is what they are there for. Thus far they have been a HUGE help. This is the last message I will post in my journal that is not for me.
I had a good day today. Nothing particularly exciting. Just the usual. Life is going good and I don't want to mess with it, things are still rough financially but we alwas pull through. The boards are quiet. Winter blahs I think. I am so sick of the snow and we are supposed to be getting more. UGH! I need sun heat, not bottled heat! If I could I would go to the fake & bake just for the rays. I have decided to give up coffee completely. Two cups today and the baby is doing sommersaults. It is crappy for your body anyways. I have also decided to start having smoothies for breakfast, I was inspired by Oprah today. I so need some kind of energy boost and I am a breakfast skipper. Anyway, that is it for today unexciting but it's MY LIFE!
Tanner was up ALL night! He is getting his molars already, the far back ones. I thought we were done for a while. UGH! He went to bed at 8, woke up at 11 and he doesn't just wake up crying, he screams bloody murder!!! The we got him back to sleep, he woke up at around 1ish, Mark brought him downstairs, we cuddled for a bit then Mark got a call (he was on call) and I put Tanner to bed, then 2ish he starts screaming again, he refuses to go back to sleep. So I bring him downstairs we cuddle and watch Judge Mathis. LOL So then Mark comes back home, looks at me and says "again???". Well he snuggled for a bit then Mark put him in his bed, he went to sleep. Of course I am now wound and need to relax so I lie on the couch & Mark comes down & lies on the floor, we conk out. At about 5:30 Mark's pager goes off again waking us up. I go up to bed, he goes to work. I fall right to sleep then at 6:00 Tanner decides it is scream time again, I was done! I went in his room, yelled at him, closed his door then he started yelling at me - Did I really think yelling "Go to sleep right now or else" was gonna work with a 17 month old??? So he is screaming and already woke Nathan twice and probably the neighbours since we are attached and so I go get him and take him to bed with me. I am singing him lullabies, rocking him, stroking his face, get him all calmed down then Mark comes home and he is all "Dadda??" UGH! So finally he goes back to bed about 7ish and I decide it is time to pull out the drugs - Tylenol. I gave him some and he slept until 9ish. I am SOOOOOooooooooooooooo tired.. Mark is off today & he is still in bed right now. Tanner will hopefully be going for a nap soon. Just when I give up coffee huh??? Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
An interesting thread was started on the debate board about "jerky Dh's". I thought it was great! So true for so many women here. It is a personal subject for me. I have been there, maybe not as long, not as drawn in. But it was hard for me to leave to. I feel sorry for these children that see their mothers allowing themselves to be used as a punching bag. Yes allowing. If they don't leave then that is what they are doing. It makes me really sad.
I hate the fact that I am doing what I had hoped not to do, get in a pissing match through my journal but it seems the only way to actually be able to express myself to these "women" without being publicly throttled.
People are sad. My journal does not revolve around 1 certain person (yes you know who you are), there are other people in this world besides them. FYI, having a controlling husband who mentally abuses you & your children is just as bad as a man that uses you for a punching bag.
It makes me very sad to think that some people value their lives and the lives of their children so little that they stay in these abusive relationships. They aren't fooling anyone. We know. The way they portray themselves to the public is a direct refelction of the happiness or rather unhappiness they feel. Some people are just bitter and angry and it shows how pathetic their life is. People say their children are their #1 priorities but their behaviour proves otherwise. I still refuse to read their's journals as tempting as it may be. If others wish to read mine, so be it.
Of course this debate turned into a "bash Kalisa" free for all again. Like I thought anything else could come of it.
I decided to read your journal this time Kristin because I knew you would address me and I just want you to know that I don't need my friends to "help" me. I can handle things on my own. I don't feel the need to bash people or need others to help me look immature. I'll leave that to the small and feeble-minded. And yes, I have talked to management and they are great, helped me out tremendously.
From this moment on I will never again read another person's journal without their permission.
I love how I have kept my cool through all of this. No stress at all. I have the support of the people that really count and to hell with the rest. Life is good.