Hey! This is my journal and I suppose I ought to introduce myself. I'm KC, I'm 30 (will be 31 in Jan) and I'm married to Kelly, 29 we have one DS, Preston who was born 3-20-02. We're also Mommy and Daddy to four furbabies - two cats Princess and Winston and two dogs Wagner and Sampson.
We recently moved from Colorado Springs to Gillette WY in order to give Preston a better upbringing. I work part time at nights as a waitress - and yeah - it sucks, but the money is great for part time work. We're hoping that in a few months to a year that I will not have to work at all and will be able to totally stay home.
I wanted to start a journal in order to help me stay motivated and on-track. I have been feeling overwhelmed and quite frankly sorry for myself - and it is time that changes! I subscribe to the flylady.net program and it's helping. I'm starting to change my mindset on a lot of things - but being a perfectionist I expect instant gratification. We are also TTC #2 - and again the instant gratification expectations make for some serious letdowns.
So I need to put my goals down for the next 3 months (Now through Christmas-time) because once they're on paper maybe I can follow through!
1. Keep my sink shiny - this is a flylady-ism. Check out her website www.flylady.net if you've never heard of her - she's excellent.
2. Start going to the gym three times a week. I need to get registered for step-aerobics at the rec center. Their morning classes run right before Mom and Tot swim classes - so Preston can be in their day care while I get my butt kicked and then we'll have fun time together!
3. Save for Christmas so that it's not a big panic two weeks before. This includes having a garage sale so that I can get rid of some of our overwhelming clutter!
I would say that another goal would be to get pregnant, but I know that will happen when it's supposed to and not a moment sooner.
I woke up feeling sick. My throat is sore and I have a headache. To top it all off - still no AF. I'm still having a little spotting on and off, but no official start of AF. I'm trying hard not to hold onto any hope that I might be pregnant - it just doesn't seem possible - and I don't want the "BIG" disappointment. I'm three days late - best I can tell - and I've had three BFN's. So......the old hag must be on her way.
Kelly made me feel good today - he thinks I've lost more weight. I've not really been trying, but have been "moving" more and watching how many sweets I've been eating. I'm going to try the new Dr. Phil thing. It's starting today. I have to be at work at 4:00 - Dr. Phil starts at 3:00 - I guess I'll tape it. I think maybe on one of the cab;e stations it comes on earlier - I'll have to check it out.
I feel good about my morning routine - I got up and got both beds made, the dishwasher unloaded and have the dishes from this morning soaking, I've unloaded the dryer and folded and put away its contents! So far, so good.
Kelly and I decided to save a little $$ last night and use the clippers to cut Preston's hair ourselves. BIG mistake - we really thought that we couldn't screw it up using clippers - but we did. Poor kid looks awful. At least it will grow back. It's worth the $15 to get it done right next time!
Stupid AF. Even though I knew she was coming - I still hate her.
My babysitter dropped the bomb on me last night that she will not be watching kids after this weekend. WTH? A weeks notice is not cool at all. Now I have three days to find someone to watch him part time.
And I'm sitting here typing in my journal - I guess I ought to log off and start making some phone calls!
I started feeling bad at work last night. All of my muscles around my stomach and chest were soooo tight that I was having a hard time catching my breath. So I went to the hospital because it hurt so bad. So needless to say - I sat there for hours and took a bunch of tests and the only thing they could figure out was that I might have either the flu or acid reflux. I shouldn't have told them I'd had green chili for lunch. That's what started the whole reflux thing. THe only problem with that pat answer is that I eat green chili all the time - seriously - and have never had any problems digesting it before.
Today I'm really not feeling too much better. I called off of work - which I shouldn't have since I really need the money.
I still don't have a sitter lined up. Don't know what I'm going to do next week. I may have to have them take me off the schedule during the week and only put me on weekends. I may also have to look into getting a job that starts later - after Kelly is usually home.
Well, thankfully the sitter issue is resolved. One of the cooks at work has a friend who does daycare who luckily had an opening and can take him!!! YEAH!! I think we could have made it whith me just working weekends. But this works out so much better!
I got a call from my father last night. I hadn't heard from him in months and months. My grandmother had sent me an email about coming up with my father for a visit. I had sent the email back saying that I didn't hold my breath for my dad to come visit. He has never made me a priority in his life and I didn't expect him to start now. I did mention to her that I felt it was his loss. He has a beautiful grandson who is an amazing child and my dad is the one losing out. Preston is growing up faster and faster and he's missing it all. So you know what - his loss.
Anyway - I guess my grandma forwarded the email to my dad so he felt guilty and is now coming for a visit. I really didn't want a "guilt" visit. It would be nice if he just wanted to come see us.
I can't believe that I am 30 years old and my dad still upsets me so much.
We went to Rapid yesterday to do a little shopping. We were good, spent a little over $200 and that included some grocery shopping. I bought an OPK kit. Maybe that will make the difference and this can be our month!