Emily getting ready to go boating. I love the view from the front deck of the cabin, especially when the sun sets.
A pic from the photo shoot I did of Emily at sunset, they didn't come out as well as I wanted but it was a really hazy evening.
The beautiful sunset from the steps at the side of our cabin. I love to sit on the screen porch and watch the sun go down.
We had a great time at the cabin. We are hoping to go back in a few weeks. We used to go just about every weekend. But now it is just too much work for me.
I spent most of this week and last going back and forth for more test. I think they are finally done poking and proding at me, but hey everytime I say that they call with another appointment for another something. We are meeting with the surgeon on Monday, Schaefer is his name. Don't know who he is but I do know he hails from Vandy.
Our stuffed animals came. I got the cutest giraffe and Merri the cutest little frog. We were very excited to get them. First and Main is where we had to order them from. They have the cutest stuffed critters I have ever seen.
I have been hounded all day today by my neighbor, well actually it began last night. I know she wants me to watch her kids. She needs to find some teenager to use. Ah, it just frustrates the **** out of us.
Rudy is doing good. He has settled down soooo much in the past few days, thank god.
Emily made it through her first week of school. She loves it. Which I knew she would. I am really happy with her teacher as well. She taught my siblings and I went through school with her son.
Daddy just took Em to a skating party. I hope she doesn't brake anything. She is not a very good skater yet.
Getting nervous for some reason. I really need to be out of here. I have to stop by the dance store before picking C up for our appointment.
My parents have told my sister that she shouldn't expect them to help her recover from the surgery. And that they just may not ever speak to her again if she goes through with it. Nice, isn't it.
Rudy slept all night again, that's 3 nights in a row. He is crashed out under the table right now. He is so cute.
Gosh has it been that long? Huh.
Rudy, he's getting so big so quick. He looks more like a mini weim now than a puppy. He's sleeping better at night, well except he hogs the bed. He is biting everyone a lot less. Potty is going well, too. He's sleeping in my arms as I type this. He'll go to the vet again on Tues. I'm guessing he's already about 12 pounds.
The House: it is official, we will begin the remediation officially at 10am on Monday morning. The floor man (who doubles as dh's closest friend and his best man from our wedding) came over with his son (holy crap he's already in seventh grade!) and double checked the measurements for the floors. Saw the tile we picked out, now just have to settle on the wood color for Em's room and her steps. The appliances have been picked out, this time we are going for Kitchen Aid everything. I love the hard industrial look of their stainless line.
The cabinets, well, still not sure on that. But I do know we are going with the Zodiak countertops.
Lots of work to be done, little time.
Transplant: I take Merri to the hospital on Monday for more extensive testing. Then in two weeks we will have a definate yes or no on her. The only way she won't be able to is if she has cancer or something crazy like that pops up. So pretty positive she'll be perfect. Now as long as our crossmatch is neg. The doctor said we'll be able to set a date in about two weeks. I am so nervous. And yes, it's a little creepy, too.
Chris is a doll! I swear I couldn't have hand made a better husband or father if I tried. Truely heaven sent to us.
Em is loving second grade still. Had a forgetful week but have since had a greater talk about being responsible.
Brody is spending the night with us tonight. That should be so much fun. He is already 3 mos. God where did the time grow. He is on cereal and jumps in his jump up thing and laughs and coos. Time flys I guess. I feel so blessed to be able to see him all of the time.
I wish Jenn would hurry her *** and move back here before baby red head comes.
For you JW, be with those of us who have gone before you. Give Amy a big hug and kiss for me.
May you finally find the peace and the happiness you've been looking for all of these years.
We'll remember you, Always.
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow
Don' you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of heats is always your best bet
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get
Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no youger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone
Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're loosin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you, before it's too late
Went to the track to ride today. I must say it is pretty cool being a part of a private track with only 10 member families. It turned out so nice!
I rode the 50, jumped and crashed. Next time I will not leave my bike at home, that 50 is too pepped up.
Took Rudy with us today, he was good, just hung around. I was afraid he'd go run off with JED but he didn't.
Rudy loves riding in Daddy's big ol' truck. We just layed the back seat down and he slept the whole ride. He liked playing in the bed, too.
Mer and J came over tonight. We ordered pizza and watched sex and the city. Emily starts brownies again tomorrow. I have to go to the first meeting with her.
We have to get so much accomplished tomorrow it's surely to keep me up all night. From ordering the floors and the countertops (that I am still not sure I am happy with the colors on) to getting the rest of the work in line. Ah, just more stress.
Standing back for exactly 3 months now there are things about my family that I can not believe I put up with before. I simply do not know if I even care to ever know them or about them again.
They keep their precious cj on his pedastal. Wow! Isn't he something to be proud of. Winner for sure. They believe every word that comes out of that horses mouth.
From the outside looking in I have realized that my parents are the white version of Samford and Sons. No freakin lie! They have decided to keep the truck and my sister said they are going to put ****ing tomato plants in the bed. WTF! Dh said he is going to call codes on them. Folks can we say White Trash!
Jer and his roomate stopped by last night. Merri and I baked a homemade chocolate cake. Boy did we ever make a mess. It took me over an hour to clean up. We had a great night though. They surely kept me entertained while I did my tx. I swear laughter is the best medicine. Last night was the least painful tx I have had!
Floors are getting torn out, cabinets, countertops and it is leaving this house looking like shambles and it leaves me no where to put stuff. If I make it out of the next few weeks sane it will be a miracle.
We gave our snake away to one of Bo's employees today. When he saw her the other day he fell in love with her. I told him he could have her as he already has one and will pay much more attention to her than we can right now. He came today and got her and he said his sons were at home sitting on needles they were so excited. I'm so happy with the arrangement. Although I hate to see her go, she's far better off.
Emily got sent home from Bay's today. NO, my child was not misbehaving. Bay was. Emily said "mommy, they sure don't know how to dicipline" (I was trying not to rotflmao!) I said why and she replied "Ms. Jen kept saying she was going to spank her over and over and over, you know she isn't gonna do it, but honestly, Bay needs a good spanking". Chris, Em and I all busted out laughing at the same time. Kid does need a few good *** whippins though, it's sad but true.
I am so upset. I can't believe I broke my engagement ring. I tried to be funny (and succeded as usual) when I told dh. I told him that I was no longer bling-bling but simply bling now. He thought that was cute, lol. I know it seems so trivial (hell it's trivial compared to everything else I'm going through) but I am so sad. I want my ring on my finger. I want my bling-bling back!
They are still here creating messes in my house. Oh well. It will be so worth it when this nightmare is over. I can't wait!
I went and saw my boy Brody yesterday. He laughed! It was so cute. He kind of surprised himself. It is amazing how fast these three months have gone by. He is such a sweet boy!
Emily is going to the DeeDee and PopPop's tonight. Her Frank daddy moved out of there house this weekend, to Old Hickory Village of all friggin places. Just where a recovering crack head needs to live, in the ghetto of Old Hickory!
If he doesn't make it work this time I will be so heartbroken. I know if it doesn't work this time it will be the end of him.
I can't believe we still haven't gotten my sister's hla and dna back yet. It has so been two weeks!
I just can't wait any longer, although the longer it takes the better the chances I will get to put this off until mid Jan. I am getting really depressed about having to be isolated for 3 months. If we did it asap I would miss our Halloween bash, the cruise, turkey day, the Rocketts (which I already have killer tickets to), Nutcracker (which omg, I so need to help out and of course watch my princess), Christmas, New Year's and Emma's birthday. If we wait then it will be at a down time of the year. We'll see. It is so hard to decide, do it now=feel soooo much better and no more needles or wait, live life on tx a little longer and enjoy the holiday season.
I guess as C says, we'll let the numbers decide.
Jenn just called. She was having some spotting so they did an ultrasound. She has slight placenta previa. There is still a good chance it will move so please god, please!
Anyway, at 14 weeks 2 days little Little Bean decided that *it* would show off his tallywacker! It's a Boy!