Thread: Life's a bowl of cherries...............

Do I get a discount for providing major medical services to a worker?
Went down to St. Thomas to pick up Mer's jugs (so funny to get two, I barely fill one a third of the way) and her hat. Took it to her at work. She is doing her 24 hr on Sun and they'll draw her serum on Monday. Moving right along!!!!!
C managed to get 1,000 sq. ft of the tile today. We have to pick the other 2,000 sq. ft up on Saturday. I don't understand why it didn't all get delivered to the same store, but hey that's the least of my problems, right?
I am so excited Custom Fab gave us our Corian for the same price they sell it to Home Depot for, plus we don't have to pay taxes. That made a drastic difference in price. WOO HOO!
Only thing was they were ready to install next Fri. The cabinets won't be in by then for sure so we had to put it back a couple of weeks.
Then when all the cosmetic is done, they'll run the air scrubbers and such and this nightmare of a year will be in the books.

Now, I'm waiting for the stupid kid that hit my neighbor's mailbox yesterday to come fess up to my neighbor and show me the money. Because I really don't want to shell out the $400 it cost to get his box rebuilt! Although I will probably go ahead and pay them to have it replaced and get the money from the kid myself. I hate to put my neighbors in a bind. And my fil knocked ours down on Christmas Eve one year and it sucked not having a box for a couple of weeks.

Onto other stuff in life besides transplant and mold. Baby Nathan will be one tomorrow. Gosh he is the cutest little bloke. Michael's first birthday party is tomorrow. I don't think I'll be able to go but for a minute. Got lots to do plus we are going to ride early tomorrow. Everyone else is camping at the track tonight but this city girl only goes camping at her cabin that is furnished, has running water (can't drink it but it runs), a screened deck, a full kitchen and most importantly ac! Call me crazy but I'm a funny like that.
Emily is doing wonderful as usual. She helped DeeDee make a meatloaf last night. Very proud of that. She was sore today from company class but that is a good thing. I actually have her class on my agenda next week.

Wow, my ever so precious husband just informed me that we are co-hosting a bonfire this weekend with the next door neighbors. That's fine and all but have you looked around at your palace lately Prince Chris? People, here in my house. Uh, I don't even want to be here right now.
He insists everyone will stay outside and Vin said that they could use his facilities. That's nice since the only working toliet in this house is the one that is built into the little closet in the master bath.
I do hope that Vin plans to prepare all food, I mean I'll help out and make some stuff but since our kitchen is now an empty room I'll have to use theirs.
Went out yesterday! I had to get out of this mess as I was completely loosing my mind. Went shopping of course. Steph and I went to TGIFriday's and then shopped the mall. Got Emily the cutest outfit for pictures today. It's a lavendar corduroy skort and jacket. Too cute.
I also bought clothes for me since shopping doesn't fully make one feel better unless they buy for themself, too.
My sister is on her way over here with doughnuts (I know, bad, bad me) and pledge dry wipes and we are going to get to dusting this hell hole of a place that is supposed to be my home!
This will all be over exactly 1 year from the day we contacted Fred on it. WOOOOHOOOO!
We have to go without ac or heat until the house is done but it's nice fall weather here this week so shouldn't be too bad. Actually it will be nice since C likes to keep the house so cold you can see your breath.
I think when this is all said and done we are going to take a vacation at our house. No working on it, just hanging out and enjoying our house like we did when we first moved in. Then after a few days of that we will hopefully get back home for a couple of days. My surgeon worked at Sinai so he said he could easily get me an appointment at their clinic. Now if only I could get over my phobia of sharing a machine. I think I want to go home so bad that at this point who cares. I mean just about any other dialysis pt goes to a clinic. I guess I can do it once.
Hope to get to go to the track this weekend. My leg injury has healed and yes just like it says on the back of the owner's manual stupid does hurt.
I will have one hella scar now, it looks as if I've had an arterial graph because of where the scar is.
Jenn's mom brought over my pampered chef order. I think I have just about everything they sell. I ordered the professional griddle for C and he can't wait to have a kitchen to use it in. Yumm, he makes the best french toast in the world.
Our coffee pot was molded. Therefore I do get to go get the stainless steel bunn I've been so desperately eyeballing, lol.
My brother is coming to night to get the old appliances and our headboard/footboard. I'm so happy to give it to him. It's nice just having him and Mer in my life. They are so low maint. compared to the rest of my estranged family!
My mother in law is really getting under my skin. I was playing with Brody Friday night and she told fil that they "have to get *me* a baby" because I freaking smile at Brody. What do you want me to do when he is smiling and playing with me, make ugly faces at him? Give my mil a beer or a case and watch out, no secret is ever safe. The whole world knows how I can't and won't have another baby for *her*. And how much she ****ing despises me for it. OOOO, I'm such a bad person, watch out world. I won't give my mil a baby! STraight to Hell on that one, right?

HeeHee that is so my couch right now. It is brown leather with a nice coating of white dust on it, just as everything in the house.
Mother Fuc*er that hit the neighbor's mailbox was here when I got home today. Not one f****** word about the box. Well then I'll just have the bill sent to you for the repairs and damn have you ever heard of "Sorry that happened and I left you and your neighbor in a rut". Nothing. Jackoff.

Went for a lab draw today and as I expected more toprol. A whopping 100mgs more. Okay well I agreed to that if she'd agree to let me taper the clonidine if *I* feel it is okay. Of course she agreed then she took me to meet my mentor and some of her chums for lunch. Great lunch! Wonderful topic of discussion today, breastfeeding. Boy I can't wait to get my hands on that research. Oh to be so very nieve.
I've got to get in high gear. I am supposed to fill in for a 7 o'clock class tonight. Or should I say I have to fill in.
C is going to ride fitties with da gang and I'm going to play prima ballerina. NO FAIR! "I WANNA RIDE, I WANNA RIDE, I WANNA RIDE" to quote the greatest commercial ever made. And it is so true. It's addicting. Oh man, I wanna ride.

That about wraps it up folks.

This entry will probably consume my entire day, but at Chris's request, I'm taking it here. He wants to know how I feel inside yet I am having a hard time figuring it out for myself. So here it is, I know you will read this. It may be in a few seperate posts though. It's hard to search your sould whilest floor layers are up your ***.

First, I am highly disappointed at myself. I never imagined that this was coming even though I should have stopped to think about it from a doctor's prespective. And I didn't. Which in all actuallity I think that is why I am so mad at myself. Gee, and I was considering going back to school. Maybe it isn't the *best* idea anyway. If I can't see an obvious bump in the road concerning my own health care how will I ever make it? Well, not going to even go there right now, I know how you feel about it and we'll just leave it at that.
Disappointed about the situation, no not really. I'm really not. I mean it's better this way. If I **** up and lose it there is no love lost. I'm am not ready to talk to anyone else either. So please understand. I don't want you to call your mom or dad. Nor do I want anyone else at this point. In a round about sort of way I'd really like to poof and disappear. I'm not one to look for a pity party and I especially don't want one right now. I know that everyone has been calling there all day looking for me. Please take the calls and explain that I want to be left alone right now. I love my friends but have no desire to talk it out today. I did however talk to K so see, I'm not as bad off as you think.
Get off the computer and back to work. I'M FINE. Love to my boys and I will be back there as soon as I am ready.

I post for him, now I post for me and after reading that for my friends here who are like wtf is that about?
My sister is no longer an option for a kidney. For some reason they just don't want to take the chance since she hasn't had children yet.
SOMETHING THAT COULD OF BEEN BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION LIKE YESTERDAY? I'd never heard of that myself and not all doctors take that train of thought.
I'm okay with it, I really am. It's my sister who I am worried about. She is devestated to say the least. To make matters worse she called and told my egg donor about it and she replied with a ton of bs that it's for the best and I don't deserve it anyways, bad people deserve to die.

Ahhh, ****s and giggles about it is that my parents only consider me a bad person because I don't hand them money 24/7 and according to them I "owe" them.
Imagine wishing your own child dead. Pretty sick folks, It makes me puke just to think of Emily ever not being a part of my life let alone any mother wishing that on their child. What a wonderful world.

They actually finished tiling the main living area. WOOOOOHOOOOO, it's so about damn time. They swear the kitchen will be done tomorrow, whatever
I just want it all over with so I can have a PARTY!

I got my official listing letter yesterday. Now the wait. Will I be a lucky one and wait a few short months or will it be years????? I hate surprises, too so this really suckos!

I hate my parents. Well especially my mother!! I can't wait until the day their ship sinks so I can stand on the dock and laugh my ****ing rich *** off! I just can't wait. They'll have nowhere to live, nowhere to sleep, nothing to drive and I'm not going to even offer them a stay in our doghouse!

What are you doing and why are you here?