Wow it's been a while since I've written! :shock:
My baby is 2 today!! and my other baby turned 1 last week!! wow...
they are getting so big!!!
Things are going ok. Dh is still here, for now. There are rumors that he will be deployed in a few months but I really don't want to think about that right now....
I am going to vegas in 4 weeks!! I am meeting a gal from another group that I belong to ( a much smaller group where we vent about everything, it's so great) and I just can not wait!!! We are going to have so much fun. I will get a full nights sleep for the first time in two years!!
anyway, be back later, got to get the phone....
I'm lonely!! dh is flying tonight and not going to be back until 2 or 3am!!
I hate being in this house alone! It's creepy. *sigh*
The girls have been sleeping for about an hour now. They both went down early tonight. They also both have to go to the doctor in the afternoon to get their check ups and shots. :cry: I hate it when they get shots!
uh oh... think I hear Krista... Guess I'll just put her back down and get to bed. I'm so tired tonight.
one more week until VEGAS!!! I've never been before and I'm so excited! Mostly because I get to finally get some sleep! I haven't had a full nights sleep in two years. I am looking forward to seeing everything and getting some rest.
the girls didin't sleep well last night and are still tired.
got to go, be back on later today....
grrrrrrrr! :x waited too long to get the girl's costumes and now they are out of stock!! :evil:
I have no idea what they are going to be for halloween. Dh is going to be out of town for two weeks and miss halloween anyway. I was just going to give out candy that night but my neighbor invited us to a party. So now i need costumes and they are out of stock! GRRRRRRR....
Maddie put herself to sleep tonight! yay!! We've been trying the CIO (checking in on her every 5min.) for about two weeks and it's finally worked!
I've leaving for vegas on Friday and I just can't wait! There is so much I want to do and see!
tired now, going to bed :sleep:
wow. It's been a while since I've posted here. I"m bored right now so I'll start this up again.
The girls are sleeping and the house is so quiet. I hate being here alone and really can't wait until dh gets back. My mom just called and said she would be driving up here today. Usually I wouldn't be so happy about that, but I am soooooooo lonely that I'm happy. I think we may try to take the girls somewhere fun this week, just to get out of this house. Every day is the same to us, we do the same things, I need a chage! and I need Chris to come back home. We all miss him. War sucks.
Taking a break from some of the sites I post on, including this one. I may still post in my journal, but I'm sick of reading about certain things and think it's best to just not visit the boards all together.
I'm so stressed out now it's crazy. I need to vent but not now, I'm tired. I'll try to come back later..... oh and I still miss dh.
I am soooooooooooooo BORED. I miss Chris the most when the girls are sleeping. It was "our" time. Put the girls down early today because they were very tired. They work up waaaaaaay too early this morning and have been little grumps all day. Not fun.
I thought chris would be back in about three weeks, but now it seems that was just a rumor and not true. Sooooooo, I have no idea when he will be back. I just hope it's before I have the baby in Aug. or late July.
I have no fricking clue how I am going to handle three kids. Esp. if Chris gets deployed again. I have a hard enough time taking care of two! They drive me crazy most days. It would help if we lived near someone, anyone, that I know and could leave my kids with for just a half hour, so I could get out of the house!! and it would also be nice to have someone to talk to, who isn't under the age of 3. *sigh*
ok enough of my bitching. Going to start watching cold creek manor, I watched cabin fever last night and didn't like it. It wasn't really scary and it was too gross. Hope this movie is better...
Maddie threw a huge fit in target today. She was fussy when I took her out of the car, i never should have even gone in. :roll:
They are sleeping now, well, maddie is, Krista is still up in her room talking. In fact I think she is about to wake maddie up. I wil not be happy if that happens, they I will have two grumpy kids on my hands for the rest of the day. *sigh*
I haven't heard from Chris today, so I'm wondering where he is. I hate it when I dont hear from him. Tons of things go through my mind... I can't wait until he comes back and things get back to normal. I don't see how some wives can go though this for a year. It's been almost three months and I can not take it anymore. :cry:
ugh. trying to email chris a pic of me but my digital camera is CRAP! It's not taking very good pictures. This is the best I could do
and that's not very good either. Oh well..... it's the best I can do. and my table is a MESS(mostly dh's crap), see the zoo pals plate! lol, I had a sandwhich for lunch. going to clean it up now too.
The girls are down for their nap, I'm trying to think of somthing to do with them after they wake up. It's a pretty day, just very hot!! We may try to go to the park or get ice cream later, if they wake up in good moods. I really want a snowball but for some reason they dont sell them anywhere around here! In Louisiana there are snowball stands all over the place, but all they have here is some very hard shaved ice crap and it is so not the same. It's yucky!
I talked to Chris and he's doing ok. I think he has a few days off to catch up on sleep. He worked for 25 hours the other day. Most days he works for 18 hours. Still very long days. He is so ready to come back home.
I keep having BH contractions. I don't know why. I asked the doc about them and he said if I have more than four in an hour to call. But I really don't want to go to the doctor any more than I have to. It's hard taking both girls. Maddie hates being there and screams the whole time. I really really hate it. Soooo, I've just been trying to drink a ton of water and lie on my side. It seems to work.
be back later................ days is on~ lol
Krista didn't nap, she read books the whole time she was in her room for nap time. So, she is really tired and really fighting her sleep right now. ugh.
I talked to Chris today. Seems that his squad. are being assholes and unfair. Just a lot of shit is going on and I have to agree with dh that it's bullshit and not fair at all. I don't even want to think about it becuase it just pisses me off......
I don't feel all that great either. The baby is moving all around, and I think I'm having a BH at the same time. I just don't feel good, I guess I should just go to bed now. :cry: Night time sucks.
I am so fucking pissed right now. Dh got this in his email box this morning
Chris - Checking availability of personnel for a (-edited out-),
scheduled last week in July, first week in August.....do you have any
leave plans around then?"
they are supposed to let him come back a month before I am due and be sending him anywhere else. They have done this for all the other guys in the squad. If they screw us one more time I will go off. I swear, I am so pissed it's not even funny. They are supposed to fucking know that I am pg and when I am due. There are a fucking ton of people who have never deployed in his wing and are could take his place, he has deployed the most out of all of them.
I am just so pissed I can't even type anymore.
I have decided to take the paci away from both girls today. So, since they were up early this morning, I just put them down for their nap. They are both reallly mad at me and screaming for the paci. Well, they were, I don't hear anything right this second... hmmm.... I'm sure they will start up again :roll:
Anyway, I give it about three nights. Then it should get better.
I have been trying to type in this journal for almost a half hour, I keep getting emails from Chris, going check on the girls and phone calls!
wow, just went to chck on maddie and she is sleeping! yay. Krista is still up making a ton of noise in her room. She quit screaming at least.
Anyway, phone is ringing again, be back in a bit.
Kids did great last night. They screamed for just about five min. when I first put them to bed, then they slept the whole night with no paci! never aksed for it or anything when they got up this moring either. They were up at 6am though :shock: too early for me. I keep waking up every two to three hours at night. I am so tired. But the girls did great, looks like we have gotten rid of the paci! Now I need to get my butt in gear with the PT again.
My housekeeper will be here this morning, so I need to get the girls out of the house for a few hours. I hate being here when she is here b/c the girls get in the way and slip on the wet floors and so on...
I have no idea where we will go though. I may be brave and try to take them to the park. It's just hard when you are alone and pg to take them. They each run in two different directions and I can't keep up with either one! But, on weekday mornings the park is usually dead and we have the place to ourselves.
I got in a little fight with Chris last night. I think we are both stressed/ pissed off about everything and taking it out on each other. It sucks.
Going to fire my housekeeper. She cleans well, but she isn't that smart. She has thrown out an important pice of my vaccum, keeps changing the days she comes in on and the times, and this morning she forgot her key and said she had to pee, so she left her mop outside at my house, left and never came back. She called and asked if she could come on Sat. I hate it when she comes on sat. I've just had enough. It's hard getting the kids out of the house for two or three hours. I never know exactly when she will show up, and she waits unilt the day she is supposed to show to call and tell me that she won't be able to make it.
I guess I need to start looking for someone new now.
Maddie is still up in her room talking or singing or something. She is making a ton of noise and so is Krsita. They have got to take naps! I am too tired today to put with with two fussy toddlers. ack.
I saw something brown and furry running away from me in my garage this morning! AHHHHHHHHHHH! I have been telling dh that I've heard things in there and he said not to worry about it, it was prob. a cat. Well, this was no cat. I do have the garage doors open so that the cats can go in there and kill what ever it is though. ewwwwww!
The girls are supposed to be taking a nap, but I still hear them. I hope they go down today becuase yesterday they didn't take on and were hell for the rest of the day/night.
I'm tired. Maddie was up at 5:30 crying. If I could just give her that paci she would sleep and not cry so much. ugh. This is day three, I hope it starts to get better.
Everyone I know has plans this weekend. Of course we don't. *sigh* I really wish dh were back. We would have a four day weekend and get to take a trip or take the girls out somewhere. He is at work right now, b/c he has been emailing me. I'm so tired of this and ready for it to be over. also ready for this baby to GET OUT! but I still have, ten weeks, I think left. :cry:
Just got done reading the stepford wives. It was a short book! (Amber, if you are reading this, I read your journal and you sound like one of them.... cleaing until 1am :shock: good lord girl!)
Anyway, today was ok. I guess. The housekeeper did a great job with my house. It's a shame she can't pick a day and time and stick to it. She really cleans well, I swear, she just isn't too bright.
The girls are watching wiggles a little early tonight. I needed a break. They may go to bed a little early too. They didn't take naps again. but they have been ok today, I guess. Although, Maddie started screaming in walmart... She threw a fit b/c I took her away from the fish. :roll: I finally got her to quit screaming by giving her a pair of sunglasses. She loves to wear them for some reason.
My neighbor said she would stop by tonight. Well she called about three hours ago and still hasn't come by. I'd like to take a bath and get ready for bed. I wish I knew if she was going to stop by for sure. I hate it when people say they will come by and never do. ack.
Talked to Chris today, he is doing ok. Just misses us and is ready for this to be over, same old stuff.
I also got my sex and the city season 6 DVD in today. So, that's what I'll watching tonight. Another boring weekend is almost over.. yay...
Krista peed in the potty for the first time today! YAY!!!! I was so happy. I gave her a ton of treats! so, needless to say, she didn't want to eat dinner tonight! Oh well! I'm so happy. At least now I know that she "can" do it.
Chris should be back before too long. Just a few more weeks, or so he says. You never know, they always end up changing it on us. He is "supposed" to be back right now :roll:
Other than that, pretty boring weekend.
Think I'll go to bed early, I'm so tired!
Not having that great of a day today. I haven't heard from Chris and ever since he has been gone, I have heard from him by now. I'm getting a little worried.
Krista peed in the potty again today, so I took her to get Ice cream like I promised. We also went to the book store and then I let them run around outside. Now, they are playing in krista's room.
I guess I need to start thinking of what to cook tonight.
I'm just not in a good mood, I'm worried and depressed right now. :cry:
be back tonight....
I'm tired today. I woke up at 3:30 and couldn't go back to sleep, then Krista wakes up at 4:30, talking. When I finally went back to sleep it was, 6 and time to get up! :roll:
Went to the mall this morning to get a book (ANNA KARENINA, doing the whole oprah book club thing, and it's a long book!) and Maddie threw a fit. So, I just got the book then left. She screamed all the way home and now they are both taking a nap!
Chris called this mornig, he was "working" yesterday so he didn't have time to email. He sounded good this morning. I don' t think it will be too much longer before he is home, I hope anyway. I miss him.
think I'll order out tonight, I'm tired of eating turkey sandwhiches! ick.
I am sick of the crying!! I have no idea how many fits Maddie has thrown already today. I can not take any more of it. I don't know if it's her teeth or what but she is a PITA today! and has been for most of the week.
I'm also pissed off at the fricking sign store. I ordered dh a welcome home sign, paid a good bit of money for it, and it was supposed to be ready this week. Well, I went by yesterday and they said to come back that afternoon or the next morning. Soooo, I go back this morning and it is still not ready. The second I get home, they call and say it's ready now. :roll: I told them I was just in there, and he says, "well, we just threw it together for you." WTF???? It had better not look thrown togeter for the amount of money I paid for it. So now I have to drag the kids back there later today. :roll: And I can't even vent about this to dh b/c he would freak at the amount of money I spent and its supposed to be a surprise. ack.
Good news, my doctor's appt. went ok yesterday. Maddie only cried when the doctor came in, but he didn't stay in for long. It was a quick check up. Maddie wasn't too bad yesterday. but that was the only day this week she has been ok.
My housekeeper also did a good job and came early yesterday. I may see if she keeps this up and if so I'll keep her on.
That's about all that is going on over here. We are getting ready for another boring weekend. I can't wait for Chris to get back. I don't know how much more of this being alone crap I can take. It gets very old, very fast. :cry:
Just put the girls down. Krista is very tired. She had no nap today. She is fighting her sleep though. :^(
We finally got our truck back from the couple that had asked to use it like two months ago. While they were here, KRista wanted to watch her potty video. So, I let her, and she was sitting on the potty while watching it. Well, just before they left, she stands up and pees on the floor! :evil:
Now, she hasn't done anything like this in weeks. I know she did it just to get a reaction out of me, I know it. I could tell by the way she was looking at me. little monster!
This couple has no kids and I just have no idea what they thought of me! They must think my carpet is full of pee. why did she have to do that? She hasn't done that in weeks!! I thought we were past it. ack.
and of couse she peed in the potty for the rest of the night and didn't do it again.
She has been acting out a lot lately, from hitting maddie to destroying her room, I dont' know what is with her. I hope she acts better when Chris gets back.
still no word on the exact date yet either.....
I did get a pic of his crew, and I got to see him finally! He has put on weight! How can you put on weight out there?? they must be feeding them a little too well! his face is just a lot bigger! We both need to go on a diet after this baby is born! :shock:
Just one more week!! we finally got official word.
I am sooooooo happy