Oh lord, I miss her so much, my baby girl. I wish things were different. I wish I was holding her in my arms. I wish I was up now at 3:50 am doing my best at breastfeeding her and changing her diaper. I wish I could snuggle her and tell her how much I love her. I don't understand why it had to be her. Why we have to go through all this. Why did she have to suffer with a broken heart, why did she have to die. I want her back so bad, I'd do anything. How come she died I would have taken her place if you let me. The possibilities she possessed, she could have done many more great things on earth than me. You saw her she was a fighter. She didn't want to go, she wanted to stay here with her dad and I. If she had to go, why didn't you take me too. She needed me, I need her too. I just can't get over this question of why. Even if I know in my heart it was for the best and part of the "greater plan" I wished we were not involved in that plan.
I know I can't have her back. But at least let me know she made it safely. How is she doing? What do you do together. I'm so worried about her. Dose she really know how I feel? Lord please tell me, tell me now. I pray but haven't gotten any answers. I need your help Lord, tell me what to do.
Kassandra, I love you so much. I never asked for it to be this way. I hope you are alright. I miss you so much, and so dose your daddy. Your big brother Nicholas says your name a lot. He calls you "baby Aussie". Today Nick called you "baby Sassie" for the 1st time. He's trying so hart to say it right. He looks at your pictures everyday. Sometimes he even kisses them. He's always trying to be close to you. He likes to get into your things. Please sweetheart watch over him, don't let anything bad happen. I can't handle losing another one of my children. Love you always!!! MOM