Austin's frenulectomy (?) is scheduled for tomorrow. We have to be at the surgery center at 6:15 a.m... ack! Not looking forward to that. But we can get it done early and he (and maybe Mama) can come back home and take a nap. I will admit, I am nervous and worried, even though I know it is a common and short procedure and it will most likely go fine. It's just scary when your baby has to go under anesthesia, no matter what it is. I will be sooo glad when it is over!
I also have another ultrasound at 2 p.m. tomorrow because the dr. said as long as I was still spotting, he wants to see me weekly. I almost cancelled the appt because my spotting went away almost a week ago, but then today I had a little more (veerrrry light) brown spotting again. Ugh! I actually rented a doppler, though, and it arrived yesterday. I tried to find the hb yesterday afternoon and was surprised when I was able to find it and it didn't even take very long! So that is reassuring. I have been having tons of PVCs (sort of a "skipped" heartbeat thing that I've had off and on for years) at night when I lay down and I have been so worried that it was harming the baby, even though I told my dr. about it at my first appt and he reassured me it wasn't hurting anything. I didn't have them during my first 2 pregnancies, though, so this is new territory for me.
I think it's time for an update in here. BTW, I changed my ticker to reflect the Dec. 8 EDD, which is what my dr's office has on file, and baby measured very close to that at the NT scan on Wednesday, so that is what I'm going with now. I just fast forwarded through 2 days of pregnancy! yee haw!
Last day of preschool was Monday, May 23. Even though that means I'm no longer gainfully employed, I really don't care! ha! I don't plan on going back next year. I really enjoyed it the half-year that I worked, but I was so ready for it to be over by the end.
Anyway, let me update on Austin's tongue-tie procedure, since that is where I left off last time. I was very nervous, even though he was just getting gas, because he's never been under any type of sedation before. When it came time to go back to the OR, he walked himself back there with the nurses. The dr. even looked around at him and commented, "he's walking? ha ha!" (because most people going back into the OR for surgeries and procedures were being wheeled on beds) I turned around and the last thing I saw before he disappeared into the OR was the back of his orange Handy Manny shirt, and him holding the hand of the nurse. But he did great, and it literally took less than 10 minutes. The dr. said he did great and everything went well. When we were allowed to go back and visit him in post-op, he was a little squirrely. ha ha! He looked like he had just woken up from a nap (which he did- a short one) and his hair was kinda crazy. He kept moving around and wanting to get down off the bed..we had to make him stay up there for a little bit because he was still wobbly. I guess he was a little disoriented. Anyway, I think the nurses were ready to move on and use the bed for someone else, because in a minute they were like, "Do you feel like you can get down now?" I felt like they kind of rushed us, but oh well. Austin was fine, he wanted to walk himself and he did for part of the way, but DH ended up carrying him the rest of the way out to the car. He kept complaining that his tongue hurt, so we gave him Advil & Tylenol a couple of times that day.
And then Austin had his 4-yr checkup at the pediatrician the next day. The doc said he is a healthy little 4-yr old. He is in 50th percentile for height and weight - happily average, I say - and got 4 shots. They are the last ones he will have to have until he's 11. Tough guy didn't even cry! He is such a great little kid. I miss him right now, he is with my parents 3.5 hours away. I am glad for the break, and DH and I are having a great time together just the 2 of us, but you don't realize how much life Little A brings to this house until he is gone for a few days. He'll be back tomorrow though.
We still haven't told him about the baby. We will probably try to hold out until we know for sure what the gender is. But someone may say something to him before that, and I don't know what will happen then. Maybe he won't think much of it. But knowing him, he will ponder on it, and then when you least expect it, he will start barraging me with questions. "Why did so-and-so ask me if I'm going to have a baby brother or sister?" He's already asked me how babies get out of their mommy's tummies.
Ok, now for an update on the NT scan. Seriously, one of the best appointments EVER. First we met with a genetic counselor, who went over our history and then told us what was going to happen, and then we went in for the sonogram. I was like a clumsy ox, my hands wouldn't work right, because I was so nervous. My heart was beating so fast, and I thought I was going to die waiting for the sonographer to get in there. But it didn't take long, and she came in, and put the wand thing on my stomach, and the baby popped up on the screen, and he/she was soooo cute! Then she started doing the measurements. The counselor had told us that the nuchal fold should measure under 3mm, so I was watching like a hawk when she measured that part. I saw 1.2 come up on the screen, and I was like, "whew!!" She measured it a few more times, and came up with 1.2 or 1.3 every time. She told us that everything looked great. Then the perinatologist came in. I really liked him, he was really laid back and a little hippy-dippy. We had had some bad weather/storms the night before, and he was like, "hey, were you guys trippin' on that weather last night or what?" He is a good doctor though, I'm sure. He did another ultrasound, and came up with 1.4 for the nuchal fold. He said that is good that the sonographer's measurement and his measurement were nearly the same. I asked him if 1.4 is good, and he said, "that is perfect...better than perfect." Awwww! He looked at a few more things, said everything looks good and healthy, and told us he could guess the gender if we wanted him to. I said "YES!" a little louder than I meant to. hee hee! He said he is 80% accurate at this stage. I'm very vague on how he did this, but I'll try to explain. He didn't look between the legs (maybe it's too early for that) but he looked at a particular screen shot which showed a side shot, sort of a cross section of the baby, maybe around its pelvic area. He said there is a bone? that points downward for girls, and upward for boys at this stage. Well, based on what he saw, and he didn't hesitate to make a guess, it looks like we may be having a little...... GIRL!!! hee hee!! I knew it! I have had a girly feeling all along!! But I am most happy that everything looked great and healthy. I had to have bloodwork too, but the dr. said that based on the good NT measurement, he doesn't expect there to be any problems with the bloodwork.
The doctor said, "you will probably have a good outcome from this pregnancy." Those words were so sweet to my ears. They are so particularly sweet because they are 180 degrees from what I heard with my last pregnancy. I distinctly remember the last peri telling me, "you realize that you're probably not going to have a good outcome." (Btw, my new peri's office is right across the hall from my old one. ugh...bad memories when I saw that old office.) I can't tell you how wonderful it feels to walk out of a doctor's office and feel so light on your feet and happy because you've just gotten the best news possible, rather than trudging out with dread in your stomach because you've just gotten more bad news.
Agh, but anyway, everything looks great, and I even got a call from the dr's office yesterday with my bloodwork results. They were all great, and my chances for Down syndrome went down from 1 in 200 before the testing (compared to general population for my age group) to 1 in 425 (my personal risk). That is a .2% chance! And my chances for Trisomy 18 went down to 1 in 10,000. So, all looks good so far. I have to go back for more bloodwork in the 2nd trimester, to narrow the chances down further. And he wants to see me at 20 weeks for another ultrasound. I'm glad things are being checked out thoroughly. I am still cautious, but starting to get a little more excited now.
I have been thinking of Jake a lot lately, and thinking of how he will always be my middle child, and how he is going to have a little (probably) sister. One day we will of course tell Austin and her about their brother in heaven. Lately, when folks find out I'm pg, they ask me if this is my first or second, etc. child and I tell them that this is #3. (unless it's some random person that I don't want to get into a whole story with, and I just tell them #2, and I hope that's not disrespectful to Jake...I feel badly for leaving him out). It feels and sounds weird to me to think that I'm going to be a mother of 3, one in heaven. Once we find out when this new LO's birthday will be, I want to get a necklace made with all 3 birthstones. I think that would be so cool.
Gosh, I am a horrible journaler. I just can't seem to get in the habit of updating here often for some reason. But I really like to have this outlet and this record of what is going on in my life, and this pregnancy. BTW, I tried to change the name of this journal to include "pg ment" to warn folks that there is info about my pregnancy on here, but for some reason it wouldn't let me change the title.
Well, let's see. The last time I updated, it was the calm before the storm. The next week, I started having tons of menstrual-type cramping and even a few "contractions". I had also noticed my urine had been cloudy a couple of times that week. I just felt like something was off down there. So I called my dr. and told them my symptoms and they had me come in. Turns out I had a UTI, so they called in a prescrip for antibiotics. While I was there, the NP tried to find the heartbeat w/the doppler, since I was already there. She couldn't find it so she took me to the quickie u/s room and there we saw the little babe moving around. So cute! I continued to have the cramping on and off for a few days, but it went away. I have only had like 2 UTI's in my life before this, and never while pg. Weird.
Also, I think I mentioned the heart palps that I have been having. Well, they reached an all time high about this time. Grrrr! They were sooooo frequent and even pretty constant some nights. I was exhausted trying to sleep, and worrying that I was gonna die. They were awful. It is impossible to sleep when your heart is flip flopping in your chest every few seconds. So one night around 1:30 a.m. I told DH, I'm going to the ER. I couldn't stand it any more. I left DH and DS at home asleep and drove myself there, 10 minutes away. I was so stinkin' tired and my anxiety level was through the roof. I thought, this can't be good for the baby. I have to see what's going on. So I walk myself in there and tell them I'm 14 weeks pregnant and having tons of heart palpitations. Luckily they weren't that busy so I got right in. They did an EKG, urine analysis, bloodwork, and put me on IV fluids because they said sometimes dehydration can cause them. Whatever. They also listened for the baby's heartbeat (fine-yay!) and put me on a heart monitor for the 3 hours I was there - of course the palps stopped and I only had a few the last 30 minutes I was there, NOTHING like I was having at home. That is usually the way it goes. But all the tests came back normal, so, they sent me on my merry way 3 hours later with instructions to follow up with my OB (and a $1700 ER bill...yikes- sorry honey). I called my OB the next day and they wanted me to follow up with a cardiologist. So, I did that on Thurs. of last week. I had seen this particular cardiologist 2 years ago when I was having so many of these PVC's (I wasn't pg at the time) and they did a workup and deemed them to be "benign PVC's" and nothing was wrong with my heart. Well, that still seems to be the case. My heart is healthy (the dr. kept pointing out my valves and the "squeeze motion" of my heart pumping on the echocardiogram screen and saying "look at that!"-- I guess he's not used to seeing healthy hearts, sadly). Anyway, I had to wear a heart monitor for 24 hours and I go back in 2 weeks but I'm sure they will make the same diagnosis- benign PVC's. I asked the dr. if they would damage my heart and he said no. And I asked if they would hurt the baby, and he said no. And my heart is apparently healthy. Which is all I wanted and needed to know.
More to come later. Have to convince 4 yr old to take a nap.
I'm still having the palpitations but some nights they are not as bad. I'm not sure if it's just the fact that I am not as anxious about them anymore or what, but anyway. I wish they would go away for good, but I decided that I can't live my life in fear of them.
But boy, the nonchalant attitude I had at the beginning of this pregnancy is long gone. I forgot how nutty pregnancy makes me. I worry about everything. My latest worry is that my body will not do what it's supposed to, and I will go into pre-term labor or my water will break at some terribly early time, and the baby will not fare well. Often I will get up from a chair or something, and I will imagine my water breaking like it did with Jake. I just can't get that feeling out of my head. My track record is not great in baking babies past full term. So far, my water has broken at exactly 37 weeks (Austin) and 32.5 weeks (Jake), even though the situation with Jake was not "normal"- I had such severe polyhydramnios that it was just a matter of time before my water broke or I went into labor. But alas, these are the experiences I have to base everything on. I am just praying that my body will stay healthy and that the baby will have a safe home until it gets full-term.
I have already gotten attached to this little baby, even though I tried to guard my heart. I hope and pray I get to hold a healthy little him or her in about 5 months, but every time my mind goes there, it pulls back and says, nope, don't think about that yet. Aaah. I am just trying to take 1 day at a time.
Our gender u/s is scheduled for July 1 (less than 2 weeks!)!! We get to find out for sure what this little person is in there! My mom is coming down and I am excited! I am mostly just hoping to hear the magic words that everything looks healthy.
Happy Monday! This is going to be a weird week. Austin is taking swim lessons but I decided not to take him today b/c he woke up this morning with his eyes all crusty. Last night I noticed that he had green goop in his right eye and when I would clean it out, it would come right back. He was also kinda snotty and congested when he went to sleep, but he seemed to sleep all right - I checked on him before I went to bed. Then around 4 a.m. he woke me up out of a sound sleep, he was standing on my side of the bed and had a book in his hands, and was asking, "Mama, will you read this book to me?" Poor kid must have been half-asleep. I said, "no, baby, you need to go get back in bed." So I took him back to his room and he went back to sleep. Then this morning, he came into our room around 8:15, which is a little earlier than he has been getting up. Poor little guy- his eyes (mostly his right one) was all crusted over and puffy and his nose was crusty too. I cleaned out his eyes and nose with a wet washcloth, and I've been watching him all day. He is eating normally, doesn't have any fever, and is acting like he feels fine. My mom and I thought it might be pink-eye at first (I called her to see what she thought) but I really don't think so. His eye is not really very red, and he said his eye doesn't hurt or itch and he never said a word while I was cleaning it out. Not sure. So I kept him home from swim lessons in case it was something contagious, and gave him a Zyrtec, thinking it might be allergies. His eye is still puffy but it's not too bad.
Then the rest of the week goes like this: tomorrow if Austin is better, I'll take him to his swim lesson- pretty normal day. Then Wednesday: swim lesson, and my mom comes down. Wed. afternoon, I have to go get my blood drawn at the peri's office for the 2nd part of the sequential screening (2nd trimester blood draw). Hopefully this will narrow down my chances for birth defects even further. Then, Thursday- swim lesson (last one), then I have a cardiologist appt (follow-up) in the afternoon. Then Friday, we have our gender ultrasound! DH is taking off work and my mom is coming with us. I was thinking the other day what a bummer it would be if the babe doesn't cooperate and show us the goods. ha ha! I have heard of that happening. But oh well. We'll just deal with whatever happens.
I think we are going to take Austin with us for the ultrasound. We'll have to talk to him first and kind of explain what is going on...I have been trying to lay the groundwork with him, talking about little brothers and sisters when it's appropriate to work it into the conversation, asking him casually if he would like one 'someday'. He is very open to the idea, and says he would like to have one someday. Good thing! Of course he will not have a clue what it is going to actually be like until the baby gets here, but it helps that a lot of his friends have little brothers and sisters, so the idea is not completely foreign to him. I'm not sure why I am so nervous about actually breaking the news to him. I know most people are probably saying, "JUST TELL HIM, for goodness sakes!" I know he will probably be fine, he has always been a very adaptable and easy going kid. It's just that he's been our one and only for so long.
On a completely different topic, I have gained about 3 lbs in the past couple of weeks. Bleh! I got on the scale last night and gasped. For a while there I was staying the same weight and even losing because I wasn't eating much. But finally my nausea went (mostly) away and now I have been going ape crazy with my eating, because everything tastes so darn good! I don't know. I feel like a bottomless pit. I am def. going to have to tap the brakes, though, because I still have a long way to go. I just lost 30 lbs last year and now I'm gaining it back. Oh well. Hopefully this eating binge will level out some.
Well, we told Austin a few days before our u/s that he was going to have a baby brother or sister. I was nervous to tell him, but it really didn't seem to faze him at all. We said there was a baby growing in mama's belly. He asked if it was going to be a baby brother? We laughed and said, "we don't know yet". Then he said, "maybe there's 2 in there!" We said, "no, there's just one". Then he said, "I'm hungry".
So, at first he was fine with going to the u/s with us, but the morning of the appt, he announced that he wanted to stay with Papaw in the waiting room. He said to me, "I don't want to go see your baby". ha ha! It didn't really bother me, I just chalked it up to 4-year old shenanigans. But when the nurse called me back to the u/s room, he all of a sudden said, "I wanna go!" So there ya go. 4-year olds. sheesh. When we got back there (my DH, mom, dad, and Austin were all in there with me), he was fine, and really enjoyed seeing the dr. put the gel on my belly, hearing and seeing the heartbeat, etc. so it ended up fine, and I was glad we took him. He hasn't said much about the baby since then- he never brings up the subject, but if we talk about it, he will say something.
Anyway, the u/s went awesome!! We saw the baby's brain, heart (hb was 152 I believe), spine, legs, feet, hands, and even got a couple of cool 3D shots. I have never gotten to see any of my babies in 3D before (my old dr's office didn't have a 3D machine) so that is sooo neat to me. Aaaaaand, the dr. was able to see the gender! He announced, "it's a little girl" without hesitation. Awww! Most important, he said everything looks healthy and is measuring on track. When he got to the femur (leg bone) I asked if the measurement was all right. I was very nervous about this measurement because Jake's leg and arm bones always measured at least 3-4 weeks behind b/c of his dwarfism. But the dr. said it was measuring just fine. Overall, it was a really great appointment, and we left there feeling so happy. Thank you God!
Now we start buying pink! ha ha! Actually I've looked at some stuff, but just can't bring myself to buy anything yet.
On another note, I went to the urgent care clinic this morning and I have tonsillitis (I guess...that is what the dr. circled on the pink sheet anyway). He didn't really tell me for sure, but I have some type of something going on. I have had the WORST sore throat for 4 days, and the glands on the sides of my neck are so tender. He said my tonsils are very red and inflamed...he didn't think it was strep but he gave me a prescip for antibiotics just in case. Ugh. I feel like the baby is behaving herself perfectly and MY body is breaking down. I don't ever remember having this many issues in pregnancy before. First a UTI, then the darn palpitations, now this throat junk. I know things could be a whole lot worse, though.
I saw the cutest little girly pink 0-3 months outfit at Walmart today on clearance for $5. It was a cold-weather outfit, too...it had a little pair of pink pants and a jacket with a little hood on it...I neeeeearly bought it, but I just couldn't. I don't know why! I keep telling myself that I can always bring the stuff back if the baby doesn't make it. Terrible that I think that way. I am just trying to bide my time until I get to 25 weeks, then 28 weeks, then 33 weeks. 25 weeks is probably the soonest viability milestone, although 28 weeks is a LOT better, then 33 weeks is when I will feel more comfortable. The hospital I will be delivering at (our local hosp) doesn't have a NICU, and our ped once told me that he considers ~33 weeks to be a milestone that we probably wouldn't have to transport a baby an hour away to a NICU hospital in the event that he/she was born at 33 weeks or after.
I am feeling MUCH better cold/throat-wise. I started taking the amoxicillin (sp) Sat. night and took a dose of cough syrup and propped myself up on about 400 pillows that night so that the drainage wouldn't be so bad on my throat. Not sure which one of these worked, or a combo of all 3, but I woke up yest. morning with my sore throat almost gone!! Ahh, I was so relieved. I seriously try not to be a baby about being sick, but this one was about to do me in. I am now coughing up some nasty stuff (TMI!) in the mornings, but I am feeling so much better.
My next appt is July 20 with the perinatologist. He is going to do one more u/s to check everything out, which I'm glad about. Hopefully everything will look fine and I won't have to see him anymore. I am a little concerned b/c the other day, I was looking up safe antibiotics online to check out amoxicillin after the urgent care doc prescribed it. (he didn't seem all that knowledgeable about safe drugs during pregnancy since he told me I could take some Advil or Motrin for the pain ) So I wanted to double check amoxicillin even though he told me it was safe for pregnancy. He's like 150 years old, he's a nice doc, I've seen him before but, good grief, everyone knows Advil & Motrin are no-no's for pregnancy. Aaaaanyway, amoxicillin is safe, but while I was searching online, I came across an article about a 2009 study which linked the antibiotic Macrobid with birth defects during pregnancy. Well, this is what the NP at my OB/GYN's office prescribed me for my UTI a few weeks ago. Sheesh! It said it could cause malformations of the eyes, holes in the heart, some other heart defect, and/or cleft lip or palate. Good grief! I'm hoping since I didn't take it in the 1st tri that it is not much of a concern. I was like 13-14 weeks when I took it. Surely, those things are already formed or on their way to being formed already? Well, I will be glad to have this u/s on the 20th to take another look at things.
I felt quite a bit of movement from the little one last night- I half woke up in the middle of the night and she was swimming around in there quite happily- bummer that I was half asleep so it didn't register fully with me how cool it was, but I know that's what it was. Yay!
I really need to change the sheets on all the beds today. Not my fave task, but I know my family would appreciate clean sheets since it's been waaaay too long since I've changed them. I mean seriously, it's disgusting to think about how long it's been. I love clean sheets as much as anyone, but I am so lazy about changing them.
I love fresh fruit! (boy am I random today!) Austin and I got groceries earlier and I thought about how happy it makes me when I can buy strawberries and blueberries and nectarines and they are all SO tasty. I cut up some and made a fruit salad for our lunch today and it was so good. That's one good thing about this hot TX summer I guess.
Thanks Kelly! It's good to know there's someone else out there who hates changing sheets too!
DS Austin ~ May '07
DS Jake ~ January '10, a moment in our arms, a lifetime in our hearts...
DD Allyson ~ December 1, 2011
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Well, I DID get those darn sheets changed, yee-haw!! Now I have to fold the ones I washed and put them away, ugh. They are currently squashed into big heap-balls in the laundry basket. They are clean, though!
Austin is currently in the bathtub in his underwear playing with his new toy. He out of the blue said yesterday that he wanted to give away some of his old toys that he doesn't play with anymore. Heck if I'm gonna argue with that! The kid has so many toys it's insane. So here we go trekking off to his room and found some that we could donate to Goodwill, and I told him that since he was being so nice about giving away his toys, that I would take him to Target and let him get a new one. $10 limit. So we went to Target today, and he really wanted one that was on clearance for $15, so I gave in. It's a Hot Wheels car wash thingy that uses bubbles, yay. I made him play with it in the bathtub since it has the potential for a huge mess. He seems to be enjoying it.
The other day Austin asked me if we could hear the baby crying in my belly. haha! I thought that was cute. He seems to be okay with the baby coming, I think because he thinks it's gonna be a LONG time before she gets here. He has made a comment or two about that. Of course 4.5 months is a long time to a 4-year-old, I guess.
I have been feeling the baby move a lot more lately. It's funny because all of a sudden a few days ago (around 18.5 weeks) there was just this movement explosion! The movements started feeling different and definitely more frequent. I now feel her several times a day kicking and punching or whatever she's doing in there. She seems to be a pretty active baby so far.
I told DH that I am starting to get a little excited about wearing maternity clothes and all that comes with being in the later stages of your pregnancy. Last time when I was pg with Jake I went around trying to hide my belly from people so they wouldn't ask me questions about when I was due, etc. This time it will be nice to proudly show it off and have people comment and not have to be so short with my answers. And it's nice to feel a baby move in your belly and not feel a twinge of sadness. Although the last part of my pregnancy with Jake, I didn't feel him move a whole lot because of the extra fluid- maybe once a day I felt him move. Mostly I felt his hiccups, and that is what I remember most. This time around it's just nice to feel happiness in all these little things. Thank you God for your blessings.