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Motherhood and More

Motherhood is not for wimps. My friend wrote this on a card she sent to me days after my first son was born. At the time, I was in the middle of the first few haggard days of very little sleep, trying desperately to get the hang of breastfeeding, and choking down my panic at what I had gotten myself into by having a child. So that quote definitely resonated with me then, and it still makes me smile and feel proud to be called a "mother"...to be a part of this gritty group who have had their lives forever changed by having children.

But I certainly don't think I deserve a gold medal just because I gave birth, or for the sacrifices I have made as a mother. It's just a part of life. I chose this life for myself the moment DH and I decided to try for a baby. And while I never could have imagined back then the way our lives would change, and the tough times ahead of us, I also never could have imagined the amount of joy motherhood has brought me.

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Oh, how I love Oreos. :drool: That's just one of those things that I don't eat that often, and I always forget how good they are in between. So anyway, I just had one, and thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm really surprised I haven't gone back for another one.

Well, I thought it was time to get my rear in gear and really start on this journal. A lot is going on with us lately in the way of big time decision making for our future. I suppose I will start with the basics. If anyone is reading this journal and doesn't know my history, here is a link to my other journal. That one has all of my background, but it's mostly about Jake, the baby we lost last year to a fatal condition.
http://www.pregnancy.org/bulletinboards/showthread.php?t=571956

So, the dr. told us he recommended waiting 12-18 mos. to TTC again. I probably thought about TTC way before I should have, before my heart was ready to, so for a long time I wavered back and forth, and the scale mostly tipped toward fear. There were so many emotional hurdles in the way- fear of having another child with problems, fear of a rough pregnancy, fear of losing another child. My mind and my heart could not see past these things. But somewhere along the way, the scale started tipping toward desire for another child, and fear lost its edge. I just kept thinking of holding a healthy baby in my arms, and that made me want to try again. I couldn't deny what my heart was feeling once it decided what it wanted. Smile So DH and I talked about it, and lo and behold, he felt the same way. It just felt right. Of course I am still scared of all the things that could go wrong, but it's not an overwhelming scariness anymore. What in life is without risk? Every pregnancy is a risk.

So it's been a year since Jake's birth and death. I'm 36 y/o, about to turn 37 in less than a week. In my mind, we don't really have the leisure of thinking about it for years and years. So, DH had said he wanted to look into genetic testing if we decided to TTC again. He was worried that there was something "wrong with him", :confused: , even though Austin is perfect, and the research I had done about TD said that it is a spontaneous cell mutation, and that the drs. had told us it *shouldn't* happen again (beyond the "normal" 1 in 50,000 or whatever chance that everyone has). But I emailed the geneticist that we saw when I was pg with Jake anyway. I figured maybe she could give us an answer without us having to drive an hour to her office and pay for a visit. I'm sneaky that way. Wink Well, I never heard back from her, so I went ahead and made an appointment. That was like a month and half ago. The appointment was scheduled for this Thursday. Well, yesterday totally out of the blue, she emailed me back! She basically said, the chance that one of us carries the mutation is very, very low. She said nothing in this business is ever zero risk, but the risk of recurrence is certainly much lower than the other kinds of problems like Down syndrome, etc. She also said there is no testing to be done on either of us. Well, yee-haw! DH and I agreed that there really was no need to keep the appointment since we found out what we needed to know, so I cancelled it.

So, here we are. I haven't really had a chance to talk to DH, since all this blew my mind yesterday but I assume we are still going forward with TTC. Yikeys.

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I cant wait to read about your pregnancy and see pictures of you holding a brand new healthy baby. Many hugs and positive vibes coming your way.

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Thank you Alissa. I wish the very same to you. ((HUGS))

DH and I just got back from a very nice 2-day getaway in the big city for my birthday. We had planned it when we thought we had the geneticist appointment...of course we ended up cancelling the appointment but decided to go ahead and go for the getaway anyway. It was so good to be together, just hanging out and watching TV in the hotel, going out for dinner, shopping, and watching movies. We went to the Melting Pot, which is a neat fondue place, very fancy and 'spensive. We had never been there before but I have always wanted to go. I'm such a dork, I didn't realize that you cook your own meat in the pot. Even though there was a pot of boiling broth in front of us, when she brought out the meat, I looked at the plate, and my thought process was, "Eww, that salmon is RAW...I know it's very sophisticated to eat your fish raw, but I just don't go for that, dude" then my eyes wandered to the rest of the meat, and it was all that way...so then I thought, well, maybe she forgot to cook it, then I thought, well, maybe it's one of these hibachi type places where the waiters cook your food at your table. After I exhausted all possible explanations in my head, I finally figured it out. :rolleyes: I'm just clueless sometimes. Thank goodness I didn't make a fool of myself by saying something about it. Even DH was wise to the whole situation...he was like "Oh yeah, I knew that we were going to have to cook our own food." And he didn't even know what the Melting Pot was before we went. Evidently he is infinitely more knowledgeable about fondue than I. Lol

I definitely did nothing to help my weight loss this weekend. My goal was to eat at as many places that we don't normally get to eat at, as possible. Definitely not on the Weight Watchers plan, ha! But hopefully I didn't do too much damage. I have lost 30 lbs. since last July on WW. I credit WW 100% for my success. I would gladly do a WW commercial, if asked. Lol However, I am thinking about cancelling my membership for now...I haven't really followed the plan at all for the past couple of months...and I haven't gained any weight back, I guess I sort of maintained, so that is a good thing. I would like to eventually lose about 15 more lbs. but now that we are going to TTC, I don't really see the need to keep trying to lose more. I know that I can eventually lose it with WW, so I will pick it up again when I get done having a baby.

About that, I wanted to clarify something. Even though *I* have decided that I want to try for another baby, I feel sure that God will reveal what is meant to happen with us and having a baby. In my prayers, I acknowledge that it is in His hands. I am okay if He never gives us another one. It would be wonderful if we are blessed with another little one, but if it's not supposed to happen, that is fine. I have a beautiful little boy already, and the hope of seeing my other beautiful little boy again some day. I just hope I can maintain this attitude of "being okay" with it either way. When I go down the baby aisle in Target and get a whiff of the baby lotion and see the big packs of diapers, I get a little excited, I won't deny.

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Thanks to the wonders of facebook, today I've had birthday greetings from several people I haven't seen or talked to since we graduated high school 18 years ago. Kinda weird, but I'll take it, I guess. Smile

Today's been a pretty good day. I don't know if I mentioned it or not, but I've started a new "job" as of the first of the year. One of the teacher's aides from Austin's preschool decided not to come back after the Christmas break (she's preggo), so they offered her job to me. I had subbed a few times this past fall, so I kind of knew what to expect, but I had never subbed for this particular class before. The kiddos are 2-3 year olds. They are sometimes a handful, and there are a couple of little toots in the class, but mostly they are good kids, and I love it. I really love it. At first I wasn't sure if I was going to or not, but I have come to know the kids and their personalities, and we have all settled into a routine, more or less, so it's all good now. It's only 2 mornings/week. So anyway, we had school today and then went to lunch with some friends. Austin fell asleep on the way home, so when we got home, I put him in my bed and then I took a big ol' birthday nap. lol

Austin just did something so precious. He had to go to the bathroom just now, so after he was done I was helping him turn on the water to wash his hands. He got up on his little stool, and grabbed my hand, and said, "I love you, Mama." :bawl: I love that sweet kid so much. My parents were keeping him a few days ago while DH and I went for our weekend getaway, and Austin told them that he wanted to get me some earrings for my birthday at the "Brown Walmart". So they took him to the brown Walmart (so called because it is painted brown on the outside, as opposed to some Walmarts, which are blue) and apparently he had a specific type of earring in mind - he wanted some with gold AND silver on them (what can I say, my kid is extremely detail oriented. ha ha!). So they searched until they found some gold and silver earrings, wrapped them up for me and helped Austin pick out the sweetest card, then had him draw me a picture in it and gave it to me when DH and I got back. So precious. I'm so very blessed.

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Well, we are in the middle of our first cycle TTC. Maybe. Sort-of...ish. I'm not sure that I want to call it "trying"...I guess I'm not ready to commit to calling it that yet, but it *could* happen that I end up pg. haha. I don't like to get into too much detail on here, 'cause I'm just not that comfortable with revealing that much personal information about TTC. Dirol But, I would kind of like to try to keep up with what CD I am on. I think I am CD 17 today. Maybe this qualifies as TMI but oh well: I am not sure why, but I have had some really strong cramping? I guess you could call it, down low, today. Maybe I've got some sort of UTI or something. Ever since my c-section, everything feels weird down there, in the way of cramping. "Cramps" don't feel like they used to. It hurts in different places than it did before, if that makes any sense. :dry: And I've been nauseated off and on today, which is really strange for me. Who knows. DH has been having some of the same symptoms, so maybe it is a touch of a stomach virus.

I am still really okay with whatever happens with TTC. I really, highly, seriously doubt that I am pg this time, because, well, I just assume with my age and my history, that it will probably take a while. And even if it does happen, my chances of m/c are pretty high too, I would guess. So, just going with the flow. I'm not sure how long we will "try" but it will not be for infinity. Maybe 6 months to a year? There will be an end to our efforts at some point- I'm just not personally interested in trying after I turn 38 or 39. Not that I have anything against that; it's just not for me.

Soo...in other news, there is somethin' a-brewin' on the home front. I don't want to say exactly what it is, but it would involve a HUGE life change for our family (not a bad one). I wish I could talk about it, but I'm paranoid that someone will find out who is not supposed to find out. Is that vague enough? heheh. So that has been occupying my mind a lot lately. And we have been really busy lately, just one thing after another. I am not the kind of person who likes a crazy busy life. I don't mind the occasional hectic streak, but I would rather chaos in my life be the exception, not the rule. I much prefer my world to be calm and rather orderly most of the time. Maybe that makes me boring, but I am okay with that.

So I've been praying about both the TTC thing and the "huge life change" thing. 2011 should be an interesting year.

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Good luck with the baby trying, I am routing for you Smile

xx

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Thanks Kristi. You're a sweetheart. :giveflower:

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AF never showed up last week. :eek:

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NO WAY!!!! Squee!!! I'm so excited!!!!!!

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OMG!!!!!!!!! I am soooooooo happy and excited for you!!!!!!!!!! Congrats, and a very HH9M!

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Kim, I am so thrilled for you. Congrats!!!

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Thanks Rachael, Alissa, and Lenora. I am still kind of in shock, if you couldn't tell!

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Congratulations!!! HH9M!!! Biggrin

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Thank you Kelly!

Still just chugging along over here... trying not to stress out too much about things. This week has been kinda stressful, not the preg. part (amazingly that's going pretty smooth so far) but just other things.

Austin is sick. Terrible, non-stop cough, runny nose, and fever. Ugh. I hate when my baby is sick and I especially hate fever! I can count on one hand the number of times he's had fever in his life. Hope it's just a cold virus, or sinus infection or something like that, and not something more serious. :confused:

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A few minutes to update. Austin is much, much better. Took him to the dr. last Monday- uppper resp/sinus infection. All related to allergies, which I had suspected. He has to be on Zyrtec for the next 2-4 weeks, which should help with this same allergy-related junk that he keeps getting every few weeks. We had a few hairy nights of little sleep last week because he was coughing so much, but he is pretty much all better now. Dr. said little red-headed boys tend to have allergies.

One semi-concerning thing the dr. found when we went in- Austin's frenulum (piece of skin that attaches from your tongue to the bottom of your mouth) is probably going to have to be clipped. Sad He has been tongue-tied since he was born (so is DH), and his dr. has always known about it, but it has never been a problem till now. When the dr. asked him to stick out his tongue so he could look at his throat last week, he noticed some scar tissue on the frenulum which could mean that Austin is trying to push his tongue out farther than it wants to go, basically tearing it. Sad The dr. said that his mouth will (obviously) keep growing, but the frenulum will not grow to keep up with his mouth, so it could cause speech problems and other issues. Austin cannot say his "TH's" and his "L's", which makes sense, because those both involve the tongue. We have a consult with an ENT doc on the 27th, I believe. The dr. said he rarely ever has to recommend that the procedure be done on a child this old, it is mostly something done on babies, which indicates that he thinks it is something pretty serious, that needs to be taken care of. Austin will have to go under sedation, but it is a pretty short and common procedure, I think. Still, the thought of him having to go through that is scary to a mama.

Also I found out last week, when I called to make my 1st prenatal appt, that my OB/GYN (whom I've seen for 6+ years) is no longer delivering babies. :mad: Well, good grief!! Something else to add to my list of stressors. So, I have an appt with a new dr. tomorrow - not actually him, really it's the nurse practitioner - but hopefully it will work out. This dr. delivered both of my good friend's babies, and she says he is a good doc. They won't do an u/s tomorrow, this first one will be patient history/bloodwork/etc. First u/s will probably be in 2 weeks.

I just realized I have only used sad or mad smileys so far in this post- ha ha! I guess I am just not feeling too perky or upbeat today. I have just been dealing with extreme fatigue and nausea for the past week or so, and that always gets me down. More positive posts to come...check back with me in a few weeks, and I promise I'll be a little more cheery! Wink

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6w3d

Had my first prenatal appt at the new clinic today. All went well. Had to fill out a bunch of paperwork, pee in a cup, then go over my patient history with the nurse. My history of pregnancies is somewhat complicated now, not as easy to explain as "1 prior pregnancy: 1 living child". It's more like, "3 prior pregnancies: 1 miscarriage, 1 living child, 1 deceased child". And then the explanations, etc. :confused: Blah. Kinda makes me sad and aggravated to fill out those darn forms, but oh well, I got through it.

I got confused for a minute when the nurse who showed me into the exam room said, "today we'll be doing some bloodwork, taking your patient history, you'll be getting a full pelvic exam and pap smear, and after that, we'll listen for the baby's heartbeat." What?? Totally wasn't expecting that today! That freaked me right out for a few minutes until the nurse practitioner (who did my exam) told me that it's too early to hear the heartbeat. (yeah, that's what I thought! Get your stuff together, nurse lady!) So, I have an appt in 2 weeks with the dr. and he'll do an ultrasound then. Yay! Or... more like yay! (*scared voice while biting nails*) The first appt is such a nerve-wracking time for me, never knowing what the dr. will say when that image first shows up on the ultrasound screen.

For now, EDD is Dec. 8, with a repeat c-section at 39 weeks. The NP called in some anti-nausea and heartburn meds if I need them, along with a prescription prenatal. Here we go!

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Congrats, Kim!! HH9M!! I'm so excited for you!

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7w6d

Thanks Kelli! You're so sweet!

Thought I would update on Austin's frenulum consult appt. The ENT dr. agreed that he would do so much better if he had it clipped. He offered 2 options: in-office (w/o sedation) or in the OR (with sedation). In-office would involve just a local anesthetic, although the downside is that he can't trim all of the tissue that he would be able to if the procedure was done in the OR, so there might be some scar tissue that would grow back. If he does it in the OR, Austin will go under mild sedation, and the dr. will be able to really get in there and remove/trim all of that extra skin, so it should be a better result. In the end, I went with his recommendation for the OR and the procedure is scheduled for May 19. It should be very early in the morning, should take about 15 minutes, and the dr. said he could even go to school later that day if we wanted (although we scheduled it for a day he doesn't go to school, I just felt it would be better that way).

Re: being pregnant. Even though I haven't talked about it before, I guess I should comment on how SHOCKED I was to get that first positive pregnancy test! It was March 30. I had taken a dollar tree test the morning before and got a stark white BFN, although being the weirdo I am, I kept the test on the counter. Austin and I spent the day at a friend's house, and when I got home like 8 hours later, I swear there was a faint pink line. I wasn't sure if it was an evap though. But add that to the fact that I hadn't started my usual pre-AF spotting, and I decided to go get a FRER the next day. Got home and took the test. I watched as the control line started to appear, and darned if a little pink line didn't show up on the test area too! You could have knocked me over with a feather. Here I was proclaiming that it would take forever to get pg, if it EVER happened, and we manage to do it on the first month! Believe me, I am still in awe.

So, here we are. Waiting for the first u/s. 3 more days. I am nervous, but I've got to tell you, I am waaaaay more at peace with this pregnancy than I was with the last two. It's really in God's hands. I just feel like, if it is meant to be, it is meant to be. If it is not, I am okay with that too. I am anxious to see if there is a little heart beating on the screen at the appt, but if there is not, then it was not supposed to work out, and everything will be all right. Even if there IS a heartbeat, that is just the first hurdle. There's lots of other stuff that could go wrong after that - there's still the threat of m/c, the baby could have anencephaly or something, the baby could have any number of health problems, including a fatal condition, I could go into PTL, I could develop pre-eclampsia, the c-section could go badly and I or the baby could lose our lives during delivery. Oh dear, I'm so sorry that this is so morbid, but I HAVE to list these things out here. I can't verbalize them to anyone. I hope that you all don't think I am some sort of depressed psycho. I'm not. I am not truly worried about any of these things, but it is just a defense mechanism to think of all the things that could go wrong, and therefore prepare myself for the worst. Aaagh. I hate that I am this way, but it comes with the territory, I guess. I am just very matter-of-fact at this point. In the meantime, I'm so very tired and nauseous. I am just a bundle of peppy, aren't I?! Lol

Aaaaanyway, guess I better get off here. I will update more after my appt next Tuesday.

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8w2d

Ugh, it's been raining for 2 days straight. So. much. water. And it's dang cold too! Like in the 40s today. That is downright crazy for May TX weather. Luckily it's supposed to warm up to the 70s later this week. I am very fond of weather in the 70s. I think it would be dee-lightful to have weather in the 70s all year round.

Morning (or "whenever-it-feels-like-showing up") sickness: The smell of my chapstick and lipstick are starting to make me nauseous (if I'm not already) when I put them on. Sigh. I am not a girl who does well without my chapstick. I even purposely stopped using my new birthday body lotion and spray when I started getting m/s so that I wouldn't end up gagging at the smell of them. Also, my beloved Dr. Pepper has unfortunately become a victim of my strange 1st trimester sweets/soda aversion. This has happened to me every time I've been pg. So sad. Don't forget me, Dr. Pepper, I'll be back in a few weeks!

Will update more after my appt/ultrasound tomorrow afternoon.

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I'm having some brown spotting today. Sad I'm not too hopeful, but I guess we'll see at 4:00. 3 more hours to wait. Boo for late afternoon appointments at times like this!

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Thoughts and prayers sent to you and little bean! Hugs!

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You are in my thoughts. :bighug: :bighug: :bighug:

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Oh no. Hopefully the spotting will turn out to be nothing to worry about. I spotted red, pink and brown for ten weeks and this baby is still ok so hopefully your little bean will be too. Good luck.

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You're in my prayers :bigarmhug: I hope it's normal spotting and goes away soon.

Cindy

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I'm so sorry I didn't update sooner - the appointment went GREAT!! Blum 3 I went in expecting the worst, so when the image showed up on the ultrasound screen, I was craning my neck around trying to see a little heartbeat, and there it was, beating away! Dr. measured the heartrate at 160-something, which he said was excellent. He said it was a good, strong, steady heartbeat, which is an excellent sign. The baby even wiggled a little. Smile The Dr. said he couldn't see any signs of why I would be spotting - no tears, no hemmorhages, no fresh blood flow. He said the placenta and the gestational sac look great. Baby measured at 8w3d, which is exactly what I thought I was, because I am pretty sure when I ovulated, but they are not moving my due date of Dec. 8, which is based on LMP, so that put me at 8w5d in their records.

I really like my new dr! This was the first time I had met him. He is very soft-spoken, and very comforting. He went out of his way to make sure DH and I were comfortable and felt reassured. He apologized for making us wait - he had to go deliver a baby so he didn't get there until about 45 minutes late - and even said at the end of the appointment that he felt like he rushed us, even though I didn't feel rushed at all. He was very accomodating to answer any question or concern we had. He even wants me to come back next week for another ultrasound, for no other reason than to make sure I feel comfortable, given our past history. He was very optimistic and said the odds are in our favor that this pregnancy will be viable.

He did put me on 48 hours of "bed-rest" just because he wants to make sure the spotting doesn't get worse. So I am not working today, just hanging out at home on the couch while DH took Austin to school. I just watched "Temple Grandin" - wonderful movie. My spotting is very faint and brown, and only happens occasionally now. I hope it goes away for good soon.

So all in all, I felt great about the appointment, and am cautiously optimistic. It took me a while to process all of it, and to wrap my head around all of it, which I am still doing. We will have an NT scan at around 11-12 weeks, so that will be the next step.

Thank you all for your kind words and your concern!

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Beautiful Blessings!!!! So glad things went well and your new Doctor is working out great.

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That's so great Kim. I'm glad the u/s went well and that baby is doing great. Hopefully the spotting will stop soon.

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Oh Kim, I am SO HAPPY to hear this. WONDERFUL NEWS!!!!

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9w5d

Thanks, y'all! Smile

Had another ultrasound on Tuesday and everything still looks great. Baby had grown a lot and even looked like a baby this time, instead of a piece of shrimp. ha ha! You could make out the head and little limb buds. He/she was moving around and waving. Very cute! Heartrate was around 156-160. I was still having a little bit of brown spotting at the time of my appt so my dr. wants me to come back for another u/s next week. However, since then, I *think* the spotting has stopped. Hopefully!

Today is my baby boy Austin's birthday- 4 years old! We have had a fun day. He got a couple of presents from DH and me to open up, and he helped me make his birthday cake (marble cake w/vanilla icing and sprinkles). Smile His birthday party is on Saturday with a few friends and family.

I wanna write more but will have to wait.

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Austin's frenulectomy (?) is scheduled for tomorrow. We have to be at the surgery center at 6:15 a.m... ack! Not looking forward to that. But we can get it done early and he (and maybe Mama) can come back home and take a nap. I will admit, I am nervous and worried, even though I know it is a common and short procedure and it will most likely go fine. It's just scary when your baby has to go under anesthesia, no matter what it is. I will be sooo glad when it is over!

I also have another ultrasound at 2 p.m. tomorrow because the dr. said as long as I was still spotting, he wants to see me weekly. I almost cancelled the appt because my spotting went away almost a week ago, but then today I had a little more (veerrrry light) brown spotting again. Ugh! I actually rented a doppler, though, and it arrived yesterday. I tried to find the hb yesterday afternoon and was surprised when I was able to find it and it didn't even take very long! So that is reassuring. I have been having tons of PVCs (sort of a "skipped" heartbeat thing that I've had off and on for years) at night when I lay down and I have been so worried that it was harming the baby, even though I told my dr. about it at my first appt and he reassured me it wasn't hurting anything. I didn't have them during my first 2 pregnancies, though, so this is new territory for me.

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12w2d

School's...out...for...summer....School's...out...FOR-EVAH!!

I think it's time for an update in here. BTW, I changed my ticker to reflect the Dec. 8 EDD, which is what my dr's office has on file, and baby measured very close to that at the NT scan on Wednesday, so that is what I'm going with now. I just fast forwarded through 2 days of pregnancy! yee haw!

Last day of preschool was Monday, May 23. :woohoo: Even though that means I'm no longer gainfully employed, I really don't care! ha! I don't plan on going back next year. I really enjoyed it the half-year that I worked, but I was so ready for it to be over by the end.

Anyway, let me update on Austin's tongue-tie procedure, since that is where I left off last time. I was very nervous, even though he was just getting gas, because he's never been under any type of sedation before. When it came time to go back to the OR, he walked himself back there with the nurses. The dr. even looked around at him and commented, "he's walking? ha ha!" (because most people going back into the OR for surgeries and procedures were being wheeled on beds) I turned around and the last thing I saw before he disappeared into the OR was the back of his orange Handy Manny shirt, and him holding the hand of the nurse. :cry: But he did great, and it literally took less than 10 minutes. The dr. said he did great and everything went well. When we were allowed to go back and visit him in post-op, he was a little squirrely. ha ha! He looked like he had just woken up from a nap (which he did- a short one) and his hair was kinda crazy. He kept moving around and wanting to get down off the bed..we had to make him stay up there for a little bit because he was still wobbly. I guess he was a little disoriented. Anyway, I think the nurses were ready to move on and use the bed for someone else, because in a minute they were like, "Do you feel like you can get down now?" I felt like they kind of rushed us, but oh well. Austin was fine, he wanted to walk himself and he did for part of the way, but DH ended up carrying him the rest of the way out to the car. He kept complaining that his tongue hurt, so we gave him Advil & Tylenol a couple of times that day.

And then Austin had his 4-yr checkup at the pediatrician the next day. The doc said he is a healthy little 4-yr old. He is in 50th percentile for height and weight - happily average, I say - and got 4 shots. They are the last ones he will have to have until he's 11. Tough guy didn't even cry! He is such a great little kid. I miss him right now, he is with my parents 3.5 hours away. I am glad for the break, and DH and I are having a great time together just the 2 of us, but you don't realize how much life Little A brings to this house until he is gone for a few days. He'll be back tomorrow though.

We still haven't told him about the baby. We will probably try to hold out until we know for sure what the gender is. But someone may say something to him before that, and I don't know what will happen then. Maybe he won't think much of it. But knowing him, he will ponder on it, and then when you least expect it, he will start barraging me with questions. "Why did so-and-so ask me if I'm going to have a baby brother or sister?" He's already asked me how babies get out of their mommy's tummies. :help1:

Ok, now for an update on the NT scan. Seriously, one of the best appointments EVER. First we met with a genetic counselor, who went over our history and then told us what was going to happen, and then we went in for the sonogram. I was like a clumsy ox, my hands wouldn't work right, because I was so nervous. My heart was beating so fast, and I thought I was going to die waiting for the sonographer to get in there. But it didn't take long, and she came in, and put the wand thing on my stomach, and the baby popped up on the screen, and he/she was soooo cute! Then she started doing the measurements. The counselor had told us that the nuchal fold should measure under 3mm, so I was watching like a hawk when she measured that part. I saw 1.2 come up on the screen, and I was like, "whew!!" She measured it a few more times, and came up with 1.2 or 1.3 every time. She told us that everything looked great. Then the perinatologist came in. I really liked him, he was really laid back and a little hippy-dippy. We had had some bad weather/storms the night before, and he was like, "hey, were you guys trippin' on that weather last night or what?" Lol He is a good doctor though, I'm sure. Smile He did another ultrasound, and came up with 1.4 for the nuchal fold. He said that is good that the sonographer's measurement and his measurement were nearly the same. I asked him if 1.4 is good, and he said, "that is perfect...better than perfect." Awwww! He looked at a few more things, said everything looks good and healthy, and told us he could guess the gender if we wanted him to. I said "YES!" a little louder than I meant to. hee hee! He said he is 80% accurate at this stage. I'm very vague on how he did this, but I'll try to explain. He didn't look between the legs (maybe it's too early for that) but he looked at a particular screen shot which showed a side shot, sort of a cross section of the baby, maybe around its pelvic area. He said there is a bone? that points downward for girls, and upward for boys at this stage. Well, based on what he saw, and he didn't hesitate to make a guess, it looks like we may be having a little...... GIRL!!! hee hee!! I knew it! I have had a girly feeling all along!! Wink But I am most happy that everything looked great and healthy. I had to have bloodwork too, but the dr. said that based on the good NT measurement, he doesn't expect there to be any problems with the bloodwork.

The doctor said, "you will probably have a good outcome from this pregnancy." Those words were so sweet to my ears. They are so particularly sweet because they are 180 degrees from what I heard with my last pregnancy. I distinctly remember the last peri telling me, "you realize that you're probably not going to have a good outcome." Sad (Btw, my new peri's office is right across the hall from my old one. ugh...bad memories when I saw that old office.) I can't tell you how wonderful it feels to walk out of a doctor's office and feel so light on your feet and happy because you've just gotten the best news possible, rather than trudging out with dread in your stomach because you've just gotten more bad news.

Agh, but anyway, everything looks great, and I even got a call from the dr's office yesterday with my bloodwork results. They were all great, and my chances for Down syndrome went down from 1 in 200 before the testing (compared to general population for my age group) to 1 in 425 (my personal risk). That is a .2% chance! And my chances for Trisomy 18 went down to 1 in 10,000. So, all looks good so far. I have to go back for more bloodwork in the 2nd trimester, to narrow the chances down further. And he wants to see me at 20 weeks for another ultrasound. I'm glad things are being checked out thoroughly. I am still cautious, but starting to get a little more excited now.

I have been thinking of Jake a lot lately, and thinking of how he will always be my middle child, and how he is going to have a little (probably) sister. One day we will of course tell Austin and her about their brother in heaven. Lately, when folks find out I'm pg, they ask me if this is my first or second, etc. child and I tell them that this is #3. (unless it's some random person that I don't want to get into a whole story with, and I just tell them #2, and I hope that's not disrespectful to Jake...I feel badly for leaving him out). It feels and sounds weird to me to think that I'm going to be a mother of 3, one in heaven. Once we find out when this new LO's birthday will be, I want to get a necklace made with all 3 birthstones. I think that would be so cool.

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Gosh, I am a horrible journaler. I just can't seem to get in the habit of updating here often for some reason. But I really like to have this outlet and this record of what is going on in my life, and this pregnancy. BTW, I tried to change the name of this journal to include "pg ment" to warn folks that there is info about my pregnancy on here, but for some reason it wouldn't let me change the title.

Well, let's see. The last time I updated, it was the calm before the storm. The next week, I started having tons of menstrual-type cramping and even a few "contractions". I had also noticed my urine had been cloudy a couple of times that week. I just felt like something was off down there. So I called my dr. and told them my symptoms and they had me come in. Turns out I had a UTI, so they called in a prescrip for antibiotics. While I was there, the NP tried to find the heartbeat w/the doppler, since I was already there. She couldn't find it so she took me to the quickie u/s room and there we saw the little babe moving around. So cute! I continued to have the cramping on and off for a few days, but it went away. I have only had like 2 UTI's in my life before this, and never while pg. Weird.

Also, I think I mentioned the heart palps that I have been having. Well, they reached an all time high about this time. Grrrr! They were sooooo frequent and even pretty constant some nights. I was exhausted trying to sleep, and worrying that I was gonna die. They were awful. It is impossible to sleep when your heart is flip flopping in your chest every few seconds. So one night around 1:30 a.m. I told DH, I'm going to the ER. I couldn't stand it any more. I left DH and DS at home asleep and drove myself there, 10 minutes away. I was so stinkin' tired and my anxiety level was through the roof. I thought, this can't be good for the baby. I have to see what's going on. So I walk myself in there and tell them I'm 14 weeks pregnant and having tons of heart palpitations. Luckily they weren't that busy so I got right in. They did an EKG, urine analysis, bloodwork, and put me on IV fluids because they said sometimes dehydration can cause them. Whatever. They also listened for the baby's heartbeat (fine-yay!) and put me on a heart monitor for the 3 hours I was there - of course the palps stopped and I only had a few the last 30 minutes I was there, NOTHING like I was having at home. That is usually the way it goes. But all the tests came back normal, so, they sent me on my merry way 3 hours later with instructions to follow up with my OB (and a $1700 ER bill...yikes- sorry honey). I called my OB the next day and they wanted me to follow up with a cardiologist. So, I did that on Thurs. of last week. I had seen this particular cardiologist 2 years ago when I was having so many of these PVC's (I wasn't pg at the time) and they did a workup and deemed them to be "benign PVC's" and nothing was wrong with my heart. Well, that still seems to be the case. My heart is healthy (the dr. kept pointing out my valves and the "squeeze motion" of my heart pumping on the echocardiogram screen and saying "look at that!"-- I guess he's not used to seeing healthy hearts, sadly). Anyway, I had to wear a heart monitor for 24 hours and I go back in 2 weeks but I'm sure they will make the same diagnosis- benign PVC's. I asked the dr. if they would damage my heart and he said no. And I asked if they would hurt the baby, and he said no. And my heart is apparently healthy. Which is all I wanted and needed to know.

More to come later. Have to convince 4 yr old to take a nap.

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15w4d, cont.

I'm still having the palpitations but some nights they are not as bad. I'm not sure if it's just the fact that I am not as anxious about them anymore or what, but anyway. I wish they would go away for good, but I decided that I can't live my life in fear of them.

But boy, the nonchalant attitude I had at the beginning of this pregnancy is long gone. I forgot how nutty pregnancy makes me. I worry about everything. :rolleyes: My latest worry is that my body will not do what it's supposed to, and I will go into pre-term labor or my water will break at some terribly early time, and the baby will not fare well. Often I will get up from a chair or something, and I will imagine my water breaking like it did with Jake. I just can't get that feeling out of my head. My track record is not great in baking babies past full term. So far, my water has broken at exactly 37 weeks (Austin) and 32.5 weeks (Jake), even though the situation with Jake was not "normal"- I had such severe polyhydramnios that it was just a matter of time before my water broke or I went into labor. But alas, these are the experiences I have to base everything on. I am just praying that my body will stay healthy and that the baby will have a safe home until it gets full-term.

I have already gotten attached to this little baby, even though I tried to guard my heart. I hope and pray I get to hold a healthy little him or her in about 5 months, but every time my mind goes there, it pulls back and says, nope, don't think about that yet. Aaah. I am just trying to take 1 day at a time.

Our gender u/s is scheduled for July 1 (less than 2 weeks!)!! We get to find out for sure what this little person is in there! My mom is coming down and I am excited! I am mostly just hoping to hear the magic words that everything looks healthy.

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16w4d

Happy Monday! This is going to be a weird week. Austin is taking swim lessons but I decided not to take him today b/c he woke up this morning with his eyes all crusty. Last night I noticed that he had green goop in his right eye and when I would clean it out, it would come right back. He was also kinda snotty and congested when he went to sleep, but he seemed to sleep all right - I checked on him before I went to bed. Then around 4 a.m. he woke me up out of a sound sleep, he was standing on my side of the bed and had a book in his hands, and was asking, "Mama, will you read this book to me?" Lol Poor kid must have been half-asleep. I said, "no, baby, you need to go get back in bed." So I took him back to his room and he went back to sleep. Then this morning, he came into our room around 8:15, which is a little earlier than he has been getting up. Poor little guy- his eyes (mostly his right one) was all crusted over and puffy and his nose was crusty too. I cleaned out his eyes and nose with a wet washcloth, and I've been watching him all day. He is eating normally, doesn't have any fever, and is acting like he feels fine. My mom and I thought it might be pink-eye at first (I called her to see what she thought) but I really don't think so. His eye is not really very red, and he said his eye doesn't hurt or itch and he never said a word while I was cleaning it out. Not sure. So I kept him home from swim lessons in case it was something contagious, and gave him a Zyrtec, thinking it might be allergies. His eye is still puffy but it's not too bad.

Then the rest of the week goes like this: tomorrow if Austin is better, I'll take him to his swim lesson- pretty normal day. Then Wednesday: swim lesson, and my mom comes down. Wed. afternoon, I have to go get my blood drawn at the peri's office for the 2nd part of the sequential screening (2nd trimester blood draw). Hopefully this will narrow down my chances for birth defects even further. Then, Thursday- swim lesson (last one), then I have a cardiologist appt (follow-up) in the afternoon. Then Friday, we have our gender ultrasound! :boogie: DH is taking off work and my mom is coming with us. I was thinking the other day what a bummer it would be if the babe doesn't cooperate and show us the goods. ha ha! I have heard of that happening. But oh well. We'll just deal with whatever happens.

I think we are going to take Austin with us for the ultrasound. We'll have to talk to him first and kind of explain what is going on...I have been trying to lay the groundwork with him, talking about little brothers and sisters when it's appropriate to work it into the conversation, asking him casually if he would like one 'someday'. He is very open to the idea, and says he would like to have one someday. Good thing! Wink Of course he will not have a clue what it is going to actually be like until the baby gets here, but it helps that a lot of his friends have little brothers and sisters, so the idea is not completely foreign to him. I'm not sure why I am so nervous about actually breaking the news to him. I know most people are probably saying, "JUST TELL HIM, for goodness sakes!" I know he will probably be fine, he has always been a very adaptable and easy going kid. It's just that he's been our one and only for so long.

On a completely different topic, I have gained about 3 lbs in the past couple of weeks. Bleh! I got on the scale last night and gasped. For a while there I was staying the same weight and even losing because I wasn't eating much. But finally my nausea went (mostly) away and now I have been going ape crazy with my eating, because everything tastes so darn good! I don't know. I feel like a bottomless pit. I am def. going to have to tap the brakes, though, because I still have a long way to go. I just lost 30 lbs last year and now I'm gaining it back. Oh well. Hopefully this eating binge will level out some.

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Well, we told Austin a few days before our u/s that he was going to have a baby brother or sister. I was nervous to tell him, but it really didn't seem to faze him at all. We said there was a baby growing in mama's belly. He asked if it was going to be a baby brother? We laughed and said, "we don't know yet". Then he said, "maybe there's 2 in there!" We said, "no, there's just one". Then he said, "I'm hungry". Lol
So, at first he was fine with going to the u/s with us, but the morning of the appt, he announced that he wanted to stay with Papaw in the waiting room. He said to me, "I don't want to go see your baby". ha ha! It didn't really bother me, I just chalked it up to 4-year old shenanigans. But when the nurse called me back to the u/s room, he all of a sudden said, "I wanna go!" So there ya go. 4-year olds. sheesh. When we got back there (my DH, mom, dad, and Austin were all in there with me), he was fine, and really enjoyed seeing the dr. put the gel on my belly, hearing and seeing the heartbeat, etc. so it ended up fine, and I was glad we took him. He hasn't said much about the baby since then- he never brings up the subject, but if we talk about it, he will say something.

Anyway, the u/s went awesome!! We saw the baby's brain, heart (hb was 152 I believe), spine, legs, feet, hands, and even got a couple of cool 3D shots. I have never gotten to see any of my babies in 3D before (my old dr's office didn't have a 3D machine) so that is sooo neat to me. Aaaaaand, the dr. was able to see the gender! He announced, "it's a little girl" without hesitation. Awww! Most important, he said everything looks healthy and is measuring on track. When he got to the femur (leg bone) I asked if the measurement was all right. I was very nervous about this measurement because Jake's leg and arm bones always measured at least 3-4 weeks behind b/c of his dwarfism. But the dr. said it was measuring just fine. Yahoo Overall, it was a really great appointment, and we left there feeling so happy. Thank you God!

Now we start buying pink! ha ha! Actually I've looked at some stuff, but just can't bring myself to buy anything yet.

On another note, I went to the urgent care clinic this morning and I have tonsillitis (I guess...that is what the dr. circled on the pink sheet anyway). He didn't really tell me for sure, but I have some type of something going on. I have had the WORST sore throat for 4 days, and the glands on the sides of my neck are so tender. He said my tonsils are very red and inflamed...he didn't think it was strep but he gave me a prescip for antibiotics just in case. Ugh. I feel like the baby is behaving herself perfectly and MY body is breaking down. I don't ever remember having this many issues in pregnancy before. First a UTI, then the darn palpitations, now this throat junk. I know things could be a whole lot worse, though.

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18w4d

I saw the cutest little girly pink 0-3 months outfit at Walmart today on clearance for $5. It was a cold-weather outfit, too...it had a little pair of pink pants and a jacket with a little hood on it...I neeeeearly bought it, but I just couldn't. I don't know why! I keep telling myself that I can always bring the stuff back if the baby doesn't make it. :confused: Terrible that I think that way. I am just trying to bide my time until I get to 25 weeks, then 28 weeks, then 33 weeks. 25 weeks is probably the soonest viability milestone, although 28 weeks is a LOT better, then 33 weeks is when I will feel more comfortable. The hospital I will be delivering at (our local hosp) doesn't have a NICU, and our ped once told me that he considers ~33 weeks to be a milestone that we probably wouldn't have to transport a baby an hour away to a NICU hospital in the event that he/she was born at 33 weeks or after.

I am feeling MUCH better cold/throat-wise. I started taking the amoxicillin (sp) Sat. night and took a dose of cough syrup and propped myself up on about 400 pillows that night so that the drainage wouldn't be so bad on my throat. Not sure which one of these worked, or a combo of all 3, but I woke up yest. morning with my sore throat almost gone!! Ahh, I was so relieved. I seriously try not to be a baby about being sick, but this one was about to do me in. I am now coughing up some nasty stuff (TMI!) in the mornings, but I am feeling so much better.

My next appt is July 20 with the perinatologist. He is going to do one more u/s to check everything out, which I'm glad about. Hopefully everything will look fine and I won't have to see him anymore. I am a little concerned b/c the other day, I was looking up safe antibiotics online to check out amoxicillin after the urgent care doc prescribed it. (he didn't seem all that knowledgeable about safe drugs during pregnancy since he told me I could take some Advil or Motrin for the pain :rolleyes: ) So I wanted to double check amoxicillin even though he told me it was safe for pregnancy. He's like 150 years old, he's a nice doc, I've seen him before but, good grief, everyone knows Advil & Motrin are no-no's for pregnancy. Aaaaanyway, amoxicillin is safe, but while I was searching online, I came across an article about a 2009 study which linked the antibiotic Macrobid with birth defects during pregnancy. Well, this is what the NP at my OB/GYN's office prescribed me for my UTI a few weeks ago. Sheesh! It said it could cause malformations of the eyes, holes in the heart, some other heart defect, and/or cleft lip or palate. Good grief! I'm hoping since I didn't take it in the 1st tri that it is not much of a concern. I was like 13-14 weeks when I took it. Surely, those things are already formed or on their way to being formed already? Well, I will be glad to have this u/s on the 20th to take another look at things.

I felt quite a bit of movement from the little one last night- I half woke up in the middle of the night and she was swimming around in there quite happily- bummer that I was half asleep so it didn't register fully with me how cool it was, but I know that's what it was. Yay!

I really need to change the sheets on all the beds today. Not my fave task, but I know my family would appreciate clean sheets since it's been waaaay too long since I've changed them. I mean seriously, it's disgusting to think about how long it's been. I love clean sheets as much as anyone, but I am so lazy about changing them.

I love fresh fruit! (boy am I random today!) Austin and I got groceries earlier and I thought about how happy it makes me when I can buy strawberries and blueberries and nectarines and they are all SO tasty. I cut up some and made a fruit salad for our lunch today and it was so good. That's one good thing about this hot TX summer I guess.

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Pink Congrats sent your way! BTW don't feel to bad about the sheets... I admit I have to force myself to do them as well.

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Thanks Kelly! It's good to know there's someone else out there who hates changing sheets too! Wink

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19w1d

Well, I DID get those darn sheets changed, yee-haw!! Now I have to fold the ones I washed and put them away, ugh. They are currently squashed into big heap-balls in the laundry basket. They are clean, though!

Austin is currently in the bathtub in his underwear playing with his new toy. He out of the blue said yesterday that he wanted to give away some of his old toys that he doesn't play with anymore. Heck if I'm gonna argue with that! The kid has so many toys it's insane. So here we go trekking off to his room and found some that we could donate to Goodwill, and I told him that since he was being so nice about giving away his toys, that I would take him to Target and let him get a new one. $10 limit. Smile So we went to Target today, and he really wanted one that was on clearance for $15, so I gave in. It's a Hot Wheels car wash thingy that uses bubbles, yay. I made him play with it in the bathtub since it has the potential for a huge mess. He seems to be enjoying it.

The other day Austin asked me if we could hear the baby crying in my belly. haha! I thought that was cute. He seems to be okay with the baby coming, I think because he thinks it's gonna be a LONG time before she gets here. He has made a comment or two about that. Of course 4.5 months is a long time to a 4-year-old, I guess.

I have been feeling the baby move a lot more lately. It's funny because all of a sudden a few days ago (around 18.5 weeks) there was just this movement explosion! The movements started feeling different and definitely more frequent. I now feel her several times a day kicking and punching or whatever she's doing in there. She seems to be a pretty active baby so far.

I told DH that I am starting to get a little excited about wearing maternity clothes and all that comes with being in the later stages of your pregnancy. Last time when I was pg with Jake I went around trying to hide my belly from people so they wouldn't ask me questions about when I was due, etc. This time it will be nice to proudly show it off and have people comment and not have to be so short with my answers. Sad And it's nice to feel a baby move in your belly and not feel a twinge of sadness. Although the last part of my pregnancy with Jake, I didn't feel him move a whole lot because of the extra fluid- maybe once a day I felt him move. Mostly I felt his hiccups, and that is what I remember most. This time around it's just nice to feel happiness in all these little things. Thank you God for your blessings.

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19w6d

Getting ready to leave for my (hopefully last) perinatal appt. He will do an u/s to check for abnormalities and to see if everything looks healthy. My OB commented that this will be the "money" appointment. For a split second I thought he was saying that the perinatologist would make a LOT of money off of this appointment. Lol Then I realized he was just saying that this would be the appt that would reveal the most (so far) about whether or not the baby was healthy. Hopefully everything will look good and I won't have to see the perinatologist again. I hope and pray that everything is healthy (as much as you can tell in utero, anyway) with the baby, and that I have a healthy, boring, uneventful pregnancy from here on out.

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20w2d

Thought I would update on my u/s Wednesday with the perinatologist. DH and I took the opportunity to eat lunch together (a rare treat) before the appt, so that was cool. At the appt, the sonographer looked at everything...the baby's brain, the kidneys, bladder, stomach, heart, femur, etc. Although, the child was apparently having a party in there- she was rolling and kicking and flailing about so the poor lady was having to move quick to get the shots she needed. The tech kept saying, "wow, this is crazy!" She couldn't believe how much the kid was moving around. She asked me if the baby is always this active, or had we just eaten lunch or something, and I told her that yeah, we had just eaten and I had some sweet tea. The tech said, "yeah, that'll do it." But I don't really know if it was that or just that the baby hated the u/s wand so much...'cause I didn't feel her moving until the u/s started. :shrug:

Anyway, she quieted down after it was over. Then the doc came in and said he liked my Mickey Mouse shirt that I was wearing. I swear, this guy is a trip. He proceeded to tell us a story about when he was 10 and they went to Disney World and he got an infection in his leg and ended up having to be in a wheelchair for most of the trip, and how his family rented a Gremlin and drove to the beach. Whew! He is pretty wild, I've never had a doctor like that before! Anyway, the dr. did an u/s too, and all the measurements looked great and he said everything looks very healthy. Soooo thankful! He checked between the legs and still nothing there! Smile So she's still a "she". The dr. wants me to come back at 24 weeks for another u/s just to check again, but he said everything looks good at this point. He said the upper lip is intact, meaning no cleft lip. I asked him if he saw any holes in the heart and he said he didn't, but he will check again at my next u/s.

My mom & I went shopping Thursday and I bought my first purchases for the baby. I will have to post a pic once I get it downloaded. Austin wanted to buy some things for the baby, although he's much more into accessories than clothes, ha ha. He picked out some hair bows and some sandals and some socks. Smile

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21w4d

Oh my gosh, it's hot. I know I complain about it all the time (in my head, anyway) but wow. I seriously think I have that seasonal disorder where you get depressed due to the weather, only mine is in the summertime instead of the winter. ha! I dread this season every year. I think if we were getting rain, it might make things a bit more bearable, but rain is scant and well, pretty much non-existent at this point. Ahh, nothing to do, I guess, except just keep trucking along. It's got to get cooler sometime. :violin:

Baby kicked me HARD one night last week. She is normally pretty active, but this is the first time she got violent, lol. I was sitting watching TV after supper and all of a sudden felt a karate kick to the middle of my stomach. I involuntarily said "Ouch" out loud because it hurt so bad.

I had some pretty bad menstrual-type cramping last Wed. night. I lay down and drank a bunch of water, but they still wouldn't go away. I took a Tylenol and slept (not very well) but finally when I woke up Thurs. morning, they were gone. I was concerned and mentioned it to the NP at my appt on Friday, and asked if they would do a test for UTI because the cramping felt similar to when I had the last UTI. She tested my urine and said there was a just a little speck of blood but it would be best to start me on antibiotics since I am pregnant. So I am on antibiotics AGAIN. I am a little worried since I just came off some a couple of weeks ago for a sinus infection. This makes 3 times in the past 10 weeks I've been on them. I hope it doesn't affect the baby adversely. I had a little more cramping this afternoon but it seems to have subsided now. My stomach has been feeling very tight lately too...I'm not sure if this is due to growing, if it's normal, or what. I hate feeling this way. It makes me nutty. Crazy

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22w

22 weeks today! :boogie: I am so excited to have hit this point in my pregnancy!

Still on the antibiotics for the "UTI". I feel better - no more cramping. I am just so sleepy lately, not sure why. It's not like I do anything strenuous...Austin and I have been pretty much staying in the house since it's like 108 degrees outside. And I have been getting plenty of sleep at night- but it's like, every day I need a nap by 2:00pm. Thank goodness Austin will still nap so I can. Smile Although he doesn't really NEED one anymore...he does just fine without one, and in fact, it's kinda nice when he doesn't take one, because we can put him to bed earlier at bedtime. But right now I am sacrificing that bedtime "me" time for a daytime nap. LOL And it's kind of nice to snuggle up with my snuggle bug- Austin and I both pile up in my big king-size bed and snooze for an hour or two in the afternoon. I know these days are limited. One of these days soon, hopefully, we will bring home a little lady and then our world (and naps) will change completely. And then next year he will go off to kindergarten. :cry:

He is growing up so fast. In a couple of weeks he will start his last year of preschool (Pre-K). It is so hard for me to believe that a little over 4 years ago we were bringing him home from the hospital. These 4 years have flown by. He is growing and changing and getting so sassy, and I swear the kid is smarter than me sometimes. Smile

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Hey Kim I am sorry to hijack your journal. I read that you have had heart palpatations with this pregnancy. I am TOTALLY experiencing them right now and I never did with my previous two term pregnancies. They are driving me BONKERS! I would really be nervous had I not had a stress echo in February where my heart was perfectly normal and fine. Anyway...have your palps stopped? Mine just started up this week. I get a lot of them in the first part of the day, not so much the evening. Once I am settled in bed I don't get them but it seems any activity I do I get them. UGH! Just glad to see I am not alone in this! Smile

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Hi Jen! I'm so sorry you are having the palpitations...they are horrible! Yes, mine finally went away around the 14th week or so - about the same time my m/s went away, so I'm not sure if mine were hormone related or what. Crossing fingers they don't come back! I still get 2-3 palps per day but that is NOTHING like what they were before. I seriously hate them and wouldn't wish them on anyone. Although I felt better about them once I knew that my heart was healthy after I had the echo. Hopefully yours go away for good soon! I would def. tell your dr. that you are having them but if they are benign, there is really no cause for worry, they are more of a nuisance than anything.

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Thanks Kim! I'm SO happy for you, can't wait to see pics of you with that precious baby girl in your arms. Smile

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24w4d

Thanks Jen, that means a lot to me! I am so happy for you as well.

Well, here we are...counting down the days until Fall. Ha! I guess we are on the downward slope now, which is good. Austin starts pre-K next Monday, sniff sniff. His last year before Kindergarten. I have lots of emotions and thoughts swirling around about that right about now.

It is still hard for me to grasp the concept that I will (hopefully) bring home a newborn in a few months. Less than 3 1/2, to be exact. I still find myself thinking that it's a faraway dream, one that might not happen. It just seems so foreign to me. It seems somewhat presumptuous of me to assume that we will bring home a healthy baby. I still wrestle daily with thoughts of anxiety about my water breaking early, or going into pre-term labor, although I haven't had any indications that those might happen, thank goodness. I was happy to get to 24 weeks because that means she might have a fighting chance of survival, if she were to be born right now. It is strange because while I certainly don't want her to be born right now, I am wishing for the next few months to go quickly because I am anxious for her to be on the outside where I won't have to worry so much. I'm not sure if that makes sense. This is the hardest part for me, being pregnant and putting all of the anxiety and concern into making sure my body doesn't fail. I can't help it. Thank goodness I feel pretty good physically right now. And when I start to worry, I just have to remember to put all of my worries and anxiety on God.

Will write more later.

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25w

Oh boy. Our A/C went out last night - not a good thing when it's supposed to get to 105 today. yipes! It has turned out okay, though. Last night was fine, we made it fine with just the fans we normally have on anyway. Then this morning it hasn't been too hot so far. And the A/C guy has already been here and fixed it...well, temporarily patched it. He is supposed to order a new coil and he will be back on Monday or Tuesday to put it in. But he put some new freon in the unit to get us through and we are cool as a cucumber right now!

I have been feeling BG (Baby Girl) hiccup the last couple of days! I first felt it a couple of nights ago, and then again last night. So cool! I love that little part of pregnancy.

I forgot to update on my appt (ultrasound) with the perinatologist last week. BG was a bit stubborn for the tech- she was face down and would NOT show her face no matter what. hee hee! So the tech didn't get any facial shots, but apparently BG liked the dr. because when he came in and started his u/s, she showed a full facial shot. The doc concluded that everything looks great. Everything was measuring just fine (inc. my cervix), and he said all of the organs look great, so he said I didn't need to see him again! :woohoo: I was so happy to hear that. Now unless I go into pre-term labor or something, I just have my regular OB appts from here on out.

I have my 25 week appt tomorrow and I have to do the GD test. Seems early to me- normally I'm used to doing it at 28 weeks, but oh well. At least I get it over with. I sure hope I pass, 'cause I don't know how I would survive without my sweets for the next 3 months. I guess I would do whatever I had to, though. I do have some questions for the dr...hope I remember them. I need to ask about when he will do the c-section, and if he can do a tubal at the same time. I still haven't decided for sure that is what I want to do, but I still want to ask him about it. I also want to ask about my Colace consumption...TMI, I have had some issues with constipation/hemorrhoids lately so I have upped my Colace to 2 per day, I hope that's okay, because that is what is helping. ha!

Not a whole lot else going on. Still deciding what we want to do with BG and nursery/room arrangements, etc. I think we are going to order some new carpet for the LR and Master BR today, so YAY! Our carpet is horrible! It is still the original carpet from when the house was built in 1992, so to say it is a little worse for wear is an understatement.

Better go!

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27w2d

Wow, lots going on. Within the last 2 weeks:
1. Austin started preschool
2. A/C guys came and fixed our a/c (hopefully for a good long while, this time)
3. Ordered new carpet for living room and master bedroom, and a new tile backsplash for my kitchen (should be installed this coming Tuesday! :boogie:)
4. DH has been on vacation this week and is re-doing our hall bath - so far, he has repainted the walls, installed a new faucet, took up the toilet and reworked the area around it, fixed the shower rod that was crooked and bothering me, removed the old vinyl tiles and stripped the floors, and now he is installing ceramic tile. It is going to look great!
5. I had my 25 week appt with my OB. Passed the 1-hour GD test, thank goodness, and my iron levels were normal, so no anemia.
6. BG has the hiccups a LOT. And moves a LOT. I told DH she is the most active one yet. His response: "Great." (sarcasm) Lol I told him she may be a wild child. haha! Most of the time they are not small movements, they are "Mama, I'm HEEEERREE!" kicks and rolls, and some of the time, they hurt! DH says that she and I are starting our mother/daughter conflict early...hmmm. Maybe she is just a drama queen, or maybe she really wants out of there. I love her anyway.
7. I think we have figured out the room situation for Austin and BG. I think we are going to move Austin to the back bedroom (currently our guest room) and put BG in Austin's old room. It will require some cleaning out of closets and some furniture and such, but I am not going to go there until the chaos/mess from the bathroom renovation and the carpet/backsplash installation is done.

Oh, yeah, a pretty scary moment last Friday. Austin and I were in the checkout line at Walmart getting groceries, and I felt a big gush down below. I frrrrreaked out, thinking my water had broken. I started shaking so badly and getting light-headed because I was so scared. I started throwing things in the cart and as soon as we paid, I rushed to the bathroom. It looked like the normal type of discharge I get on the pantiliner, but there was just a lot of it (TMI, sorry!). When we got home, I tried to call the dr's office but they were at lunch. When I finally got ahold of them, the receptionist told me that my dr. was already gone for the day, and just to head over to L&D so they could check me. So I met DH at the hospital so he could pick up Austin (poor DH was really scared...I felt so bad- by this time I was pretty sure it was just normal stuff b/c I hadn't had any more gushes, but DH said it's better to be safe than sorry). So anyway, went up to L&D and they checked me for amniotic fluid (negative) and put me on the fetal monitor for about an hour to check for contractions and BG's movements. BG was fine (I think she knew she was being monitored b/c she was having a party the whole time, even had the hiccups- I could feel them AND hear them on the monitor- that made me smile). I didn't have any contractions, just a couple of instances of what they call "irritability" so they said everything was fine and sent me home. It was kind of traumatic, being back in the hospital like that... it brought up old memories of the last time I was in the hospital, with Jake. And it was a scary feeling, not knowing if everything was ok, but I'm so glad everything was fine.

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28w5d

BG has the hiccups right now. I have been feeling little feet and hands, and maybe a bum poking out in random places on my stomach. I love her so much already - how can that be? I tried not to this early, but I do.

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