I decided to start an online journal. I was going to just start one in Word, but figured- HEY, why not just do it online
I am a SAHM to a 4 y/o (Chris) and a 2 y/o (Hailey). I recently interviewed for a p/t medical records clerk job which would be every other weekend. I also started my own business with Market America, an unFranchise company, which has really been successful. I am just at a point in my life, where I feel like I need *more* than just staying at home with my kids (though I hate saying "just staying at home," because its a lot of work!!). I just need another dimension.
I graduated with my BA in May 2002 and have enjoyed my time off-- but am ready to get back out there, as long as I can do so without putting my kids in daycare.
My dh has recently told me he wants another baby-- and I am not sure I do. I am only 24, so I have plenty of time to think about it-- but he wants another soon. I would still like to lose a little more weight (about 10 lbs or so) before getting pregnant and get back to our "healthy lifestyle" a bit more.
This summer is going to be so busy with landscaping and such, as we just built out new house and moved in late last fall. We have no grass yet , so we are in for a LONG spring and summer ahead of us.
Another cold Day in Wisconsin. Wow- do we need spring. My kids are going crazy. We decorated Easter Eggs yesterday and are making cookies and cupcakes today. I guess that means I am cleaning the kitchen today, as well
I have a 2nd interview for my medical records job today. It's with HR this time, so hopefully I will find out if I "get" the position I am really excited.
I am going to start fake-baking again. I always feel so much better when I am tan-- wonder why????
Dh and I have been really working on our relationship lately, and things have been going pretty well. We had a really rough spot there for a while, but we are both putting a lot more effort into our relationship, so things have been going better.
I hate my ILs. I wish we lived in another state. They drive me absolutely crazy. I have never met such irresponsible people in my life. AND They are chronically late. AHHHHHHHHHH. Why did I have to marry into such a family Oh well, I love my husband!
So much has happened since my last entry. My baby weaned I was actually pushing her gently to wean, but I didn't expect it to happen so fast. She is 27 months old. Its bittersweet-- my baby is growing up
Dh and I have been discussing "spicing" up our life together. We have become so predictable and hardly ever get out without the kids (though we do get out *with* the kids quite often). It seems so difficult to get out of our rut-- but we are determined to do so
My new job is going really well. Everyone there is really nice and helpful-- and the day goes by really fast. It's a LOT of walking, though, so I need to get some better shoes! Why is it that women's shoes are so terribly uncomfortable, unless you pay hundreds of dollars??? UGH. Hmm....might be a bash
Dh really wants to start conceiving another baby. I don't know what I want. I know I want more kids, but I am not sure I do right now. I would like my body back for a little while before we get pregnant (being that dd just weaned) and we have been having some real behavioral problems that we are working on with our 4 year old (Our Disobedient, Spirited Child, LOL)
There is so much more to write, but I must go for now
Things have been so busy! Dh and I celebrated our 3rd anniversary on May 20. He got me a really pretty diamond necklace and a bird bath (from the kids). We also went to the restaurant at the place we got married
I went out with one of my friends on Saturday night. We had few and danced it up and went home. It was fun! It's nice to get out.
We are going to the Dixie Chicks concert on Thursday and I am SO excited!! WOO HOO. I couldn't care less what they said about our president. Get the HELL over it already. I LOVE their music and they put on a great show. I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!
We had a great weekend-- really busy. We are landscaping around our house (finished building it late Oct last year, so we didn't get to do a yard, yet). It is so much work, but the kids just have a blast. We planted our vegetable garden yesterday and they were such big helps.
Christopher has been having some serious discipline issues-- but I think its a result of pre-school being over for the summer. Once we start swimming lessons and music lessons I think he will be much easier to live with-- at least I HOPE so!!
I am so tired of hearing people ***** about money problems. What the hell is up with that? My IL's are constantly *****ing about their money problems, but they have 4 adults in the house, 3 work full time. They have no car payments. WHY do you have money problems?? Because you buy TOO much SH*T!!!!!! Control yourselves already. Sheesh. I hate stupid people.
I had a half day at the Spa on SAtuday. That was fabulous. I got a one hour massage, a mineral bath, a pedicure, a manicure, a facial, and make up application. AHHHHHH. It was wonderful (and it was my mother's day present). I got to that every month
I have been having impure thoughts about men other than my dh- and I feel guilty as hell about it. A few weeks ago I ran into a guy I totally had the hots for in high school-- and I told him. What the hell was I thinking??? WE really flirted and it was lots of fun-- but I feel it was totally inappropriate. I wish dh and I could get through our problems. I really think we may need to start counseling.
My brother's drinking is totally out of control again. I really believe he and his wife will be getting divorced soon. It's really sad. They have been together for 11 years (married 3) and are really doing terribly-- and no one is really putting any work into the relationship. I just thank God they had no children.
Well, hopefully I will update this more regularly.
Summer has just about arrived-- the weather has been FABULOUS here. The kids and I were out in the pool today and it was wonderful!
We started swimming lessons yesterday and music lessons today. It was so wonderful. Listening to my son play the piano is just heart wrenching-- he is growing up so fast
My dd is just a natural swimmer. I love it. I have never been great in the water-- so its nice to have a natural among us. Both kids got to go down the water slide and they just loved it! What a fun class!
I have to work this weekend-- and dh is going fishing out on Lake Michigan on Sunday. I hope he has a great time-- he really deserves it.
L and I have been planning for our health show. It should be great. We got together today to go over some final ideas and plans. I love talking about health and helping people to learn about health! It amazes me how little people actually know about nutrition in general. Kind of scary, when you really think about it!
My organic veggie garden is turning out wonderful this year. I am SO excited. WE should tons of veggies for the summer and to can/jar for this winter. How exciting-- and the kids are learning tons. I love it.
DH and I have started watching our carbs in our diet. Its HARD! I never realized how many things have lots of carbs. YIKES.
UGH! This low carb thing is *KILLING* me. I never realized how how incredibly addicted to sugar I am. I have the withdrawl headaches SO bad! I am just a whiner :P
I don't have really much weight to lose (maybe 10 lbs), but I just feel that lowering my carb intake will be better over the long run for both my cholesterol levels and my insulin levels, since I am at a risk for both heart disease and diabetes.
I really and truly hate my IL's. I have never seen people who honestly care about their children/grandchildren so little. I still can't get over the fact that My BIL and his wife let their almost 5 y/o, 4 y/o and 2 y/o outside to play by themselves-- with no supervision. WTF??? THey ride their bikes by the road, go out of sight (couldn't even see them out a window), and no one seems to think this is odd. Gee, wonder why I won't let you watch my kids??
My MIL even thought it was funny that she came out of the shower one day and the 2 y/o had children's tylenol all over her. Funny?? Pretty Fing scary, if you ask me.
Well, I have to work this weekend. 3rd shift is really a strange shift to get used to-- but its fun. I love working at the hospital and the people I work with are lots of fun. I *hate* sleeping my days away, though. Oh well-- the extra $$ and time out of the house is really nice-- and daddy gets to bond with the kids without mommy around. It's really a good thing.
Dh really wants another baby. I told hm once I get a really good "diet," as in eating habits, down and improve my fitness routine (I still sort of lack a bit there), then we can start talking about babies-- but that won't be until at least fall. We have so much to do around the house-- with landscaping and painting (new construction is so much fun ) and all-- and I want all that done before I am even pregnant. I just want to enjoy my kids and my pregnancy and not have a huge project going on (like I had with both my other pregnancies).
I am seriously considering either a homebirth or birthing at a birthing center. There is one about 1/2 hour away, but I am afraid my labor will be too quick for that (history of very short labors!). A homebirth might be the best way to go for me. UGH. I don't know-- I have plenty of time to plan, anyway.
Off to try to nap with the kids so I can make it through work tonight!!
Wow- its been a long time since I posted. So much has been going on.
I have decided to go back to school to become a certified nurse midwife. I am already working as a doula (very part time) and I just feel I have found my calling. I start school in January. It should take me about 3 years or so.
I have been having so much ovulation pain that I finally went in to see my dr and found out I have ovarian cysts. I am waiting on my follow up u/s report to find out if they grew, shrunk, turned into aliens, whatever.
Dh and I are getting along so much better. We had such a rough spot there that I didn't think we were going to make it-- but now I think we are! Wehave decided we want another baby, but are going to wait a while.
Christopher is officially really reading. He is reading full books to us now. I can't believe it-- not even 5 years old! He can also add, subtract, spell and all sorts of things. He's so brilliant!
Hailey is doing really well with her alphabet and "same and different." I am so proud of her. She's growing up too fast, too. Next year she'll be in preschool and Chris will be in Kindergarten (gifted and talented program).
Work on 3rd shift has been going pretty well. Its actually kind of fun, but strange!
We are having Christmas at our house this year, so we are trying to get it all ready by then! We are also having Chris' 5th bday party (nemo themed) here in December-- so we are rushing!! We are going to hang blue and green streamers down from the ceiling and put colored celophane over the windows to create an "udnerwater" atmosphere. We are also making all sorts of fish decorations to hang on the wall and fishing line to hang from the ceiling. We are having "star fish" sandwiches and Fish cake, LOL. I am TOO excited! Oh, and did I mention 20 preschoolers? ROFL@@@@
Well, that's it for now...until later (hopefully not 4 1/2 months!)
My life has turned upside doewn. My brother and his wife have been having marital problems and have decided on divorce (big deal, right?). well, my brohther is severely depressed. HE has been threatening suicide for a month now. This past week, his wife found him in the garage, door closed, car on and him "sleeping," and all she did was open the garage door and tell him she was going to call his mom. WTF??? If my dh was attempting suicde you'd damn well better believe I'd be calling 911 and getting him some serious mental help!!!
My parents had to go pick him up last night from the police because he was drunk and harrassing some woman. I am so upset I could just cry. He *needs* help so badly-- and yet he (that he knows, btw)doesn't want to get any. I am afraid he is just giong to kill himself and we'll never be able to help!!I am afraid and sad and mad and UGH!
Thoughts/prayers/whatever appreciated in this really difficutl time!!
I got offered a new job in the hospital I work at- and I took it. I am now working in the Lb as a "Client Service Representative." Basically I register and order all the tests for specimens that come in. Its a really fun job!
My brother got picked up for DUI and will now be spending time in jail (2nd offense). He is getting into a program (simply for the look in court, but ..) and I really hope it helps. I don't know why he is throwing his life away. UGH. Some people. I am so tired of how important alcohol is in SO many people's lives.
Dh and I are thinking about tc in June- actually we've pretty much decided we are going to. I am trying to get into my really healthy lifestyle again (stopped taking my antioxidants and multivitamins and omega 3's recently)- before we get even near ttc. Our kids will be so excited!
We are going to DisneyWorld at the end of March and I am SOOO excited. We had a great time at DIsneyLand last year, so its going to be even more fun this year. I can't believe my kids are 5 and 3 already. Where did the time go? Chris will be starting Kindergarten in the fall and Hailey will be in preschool. WOW! Time goes so fast!!!