Yea- spring is here. I just love spring. I have been cleaning out cupboards and closets and loving every minute of it.
Both my kids have colds... poor little buggers. They're so sweet when they're sick...just wanting to snuggle and all. Gotta love little snuggle bugs.
Dh went through a major jealous stage again. UGH. I hate that. I am with him. Only want to be with him. I'm not going anywhere. What's the problem? I think men just have to create problems sometimes, LOL.
We have our dog on a diet- she lost a little over a pound, so that's good.
Next week is DISNEY WORLD. I am SO excited. I just can't wait to go. The trip will be WAY too nice. Its in teh 80s there right now. Warm Weather Here I come! Hopefully it won't be rainy, won't be too humid, and we just get to relax and have FUN!
I haven't written in so long. Disney World was a BLAST ! Though, we did try to pack way too much stuff into our trip. Next year it will be more laid back, I promise! The weather was great, the kids were great, it was all just wonderful.
Hailey had preschool screening last week. They are referring us to an "articulation" specialist, as she has a lot of problems with her "s," "th," "j," and "ch" sounds. She is very understandable when she speaks, but better to get it all worked out now, at age 3, than to wait.
Went to the planetarium with Chris today-- it was a blast. I hadn't been to the planetarium in years!
Dh and i are having some problems- not sure how they will pan out. He's still jealous and possessive. I'm still withdrawn. I don't know that i have the effort to put into it anymore- I really don't.
I am starting school again in the Summer--- can't wait! I really feel good about getting back into it.
Well, dh and I had our first counseling session one week ago. It went, well, ok. Dh spent about 1 1/2 hours *****ing about me and how our problems are pretty much my fault Sure, whatever. How screwed up though- he had no problem talking for 1 1/2 hours straight to a *stranger* but when we get home, he can't talk to me. Makes no sense whatsoever.
Our next session is on Saturday. Can't wait to see what that session will bring. UGH.
I had a terrible cold that I just got over. The kids got it too, but it was much milder for them. Thank goodness.
I got a call from Rogers Hospital wanting to interview me for a weekend position. Come fall, I am not going to be able to work the hours I am now at the lab, so I am going to need a new position. Rogers is closer than the hospital I work at now, but I would still like to stay pool here.
I am really in the mood to go out and act crazy. Totally crazy. Too bad dh isn't more into going out-- always looking for a problem, thinking anyone who talks to me is a horrible person, whatnot. Its SO irritating. Oh well...Please, work counseling!!
Dh and I had our second counseling session on Saturday. It went really, really well. We have also been having sex more often, so he is in a much better mood, LOL.
I am going to try to convince dh that he should take his mom gambling this weekend. That would be fun for her.
I interviewed for the Rogers position, but its 12 hour shifts, and I really don't think I want 12 hour shifts. Icky. I'll keep looking for a better alternative, I guess.
Chris had "Dad's Night" at school last night. They sang some songs, did some art projects and had a snack (root beer float!). They had a really good time- and I am glad!
I am so tired- things have been just crazy around here. I really need to clean my house, but I simply haven't gotten around to it. The kids have been going to bed so late, so I am super tired. Oh well. gotta love the little turds.
I am hoping to go out on Saturday night--- really hoping!
I am at work- bored- slacking off. Guess I better get back to it!
Well, its 9 pm and I am sitting at work- with nothing to do. Nothing. just Sitting here- but I have to sit here *in case* the phone rings. Whatever.
Today was a crazy day. I think I am going to have to wean the kids from their naps- they have just been staying up way too late and getting up WAY too early. Ick. Chris got up at 5 am this morning!
Dh and I have another counseling session on Saturday. Things seem to be going pretty well. I hope he will be going out with myself and my friends from work on Saturday. That would be lots of fun!!!
My friend, Lisa, asked me to go out Saturday for "girl's night," but I think I would rather spend some time with my dh, if my parents are going to watch the kids.
It sounds like my brother and his wife are still going to get divorced. Can't say I am unhappy about that. I really dislike her- a lot. she doesn't care about him at all, so I think he will be much better off. He's doing great with his AA program and I am really proud of him. It has made such a huge difference in his life. YEA!!!
Well, guess I should go surf the net some more, LOL!
UGH. My hip has been killing me lately. I think I am finally going to go in and get it checked. I am starting to think there is actually something wrong with it!
Dh and I are not getting along very well. In our last counesling session, he basically spent an entire hour *****ing about me Great. Glad you think so highly of me and my motivations in this marriage.
He also had the nerve to say that he gets nothing out of this marriage. I don't know what to do. We are both so crabby when we are around each other, but I cannot imagine my life without him. *sigh* Who knew marriage could be so much work???
I have changed my career goals once again. I am going back to school for accounting. Everyone is laughing at me and thinks its totally hilarious. Oh well. I am good at it and have been doing accounting for the construction company for over 5 years. Now I just get the credentials.
Well off to the dr- to probably find out nothing is actually wrong with my hip- guess it just hurts
Things are not going well for dh and me. He is just so damn jealous and insecure all the time. I just can't stand it. It drives me ****ing crazy. I am just sick sick sick of it. Then today he called me wanting to know why my mom had the kids for a while today. Is that a problem?
UGH. I just don't know where to go from here. WE keep having the same problems over and over again and I just don't think things will ever change.
I need a divorce. I see no other way. WHy or why must life take these turns? I feel like I have no one to turn to. I feel like no one is there for me. No one understands how totally unhappy I am in this relationship. How do you even begin the end?
Besides getting divorced, I fell like I am losing one of my closest friends. I am going to have a break down through all of this. I just don't think I can handle all these losses at once. WHy me? Why now?