I decided to start a journal because I have so much going on inside my head these days. I don't know who to turn to. I want to talk to my family, but everytime I try they want to tell me what to do and how I should live my life. So, I am going to write down my thoughts. Maybe after a few weeks and reading my own thoughts I can figure out what I need to do.
It seems to be that all dh and I do is fight. When we aren't fighting it's like we are sitting on the ledge waiting for the next fight. Each fight keeps getting louder and bigger. I have no idea what to do or where to go. I thought that when you married for love, marriage was supposed to be easier than if you were shoved into marriage. I know that all marriages have problems, but seriously do they keep getting worse? Do they ever get better?
Grr...dh is sick. I am so frustrated with him when he is sick. He has the same thing I had 2 weeks ago. He told me then I needed to "grow up and get over it, you have kids and a house to take care of". Now, what has he done for 2 days? Mope around and cry because he doens't feel good. I just want to smack him and tell him to grow up and get over it. No wonder women give birth, men couldn't handle it!