Somebody sent me this this morning:
I am well and truly upset that somebody thought I could be so pathetic. I came to this site to try and gather and give support to other women who have lost their children.Hello again. Must be lovely having all of these different usernames at once! Please see your wannabigfam/kimiuk accounts because you have PM's that require you to read them.
What gave you away? it was the obsession with animals and baby names again
That is all. have a nice day
I'm limited by what boards I can post on as I've never had a pregnancy longer than 10 weeks, so what use would I be on a pregnancy or baby board? I love animals, always have done so I post on that forum and I like learning new names so I posted in those forums.
I won't be bothering anymore. I'm going to stop updating this journal and just use my private one. It isn't worth being called a liar for.
Anyway, if you want to read my private journal, PM me. I update that frequently.
I will also stop posting in any message forums.
Woah, I haven't posted in here for a while.
Not much to update though, really.
Get my GCSE results on Thursday... wish me luck!
It's my birthday in just over 2 weeks - woohoo.
We've decided to get married next year, probably 12/8/2005.
That's about all really.
My private journal is my main one, that gets updated a few times a day. I promise to keep this one going too though.
Got up, got ready and went to School.
We had to go to the Canteen. When I got in there I saw Mr Duffy (Head of Year) and Mrs Rhodes (My Biology Teacher). Both stood around me and told me that I'd done well, Mrs Rhodes said she was really pleased with me and stuff. Then they asked me to open the envelope, which I wasn't going to do in School, but I felt obliged to.
I opened the envelope and felt a sudden rush of disapointment:
Spanish - B
Maths - C
Science - BB
Geography - C
Art - A
Religious Studies - A
ICT - C
Graphics - A
English Language - B
English Literature - C
+ Stats from last year (C)
So, all in all 3 A, 4 B and 5 C.
I got outside and burst into tears. Guess who walked past? Yup, the ***** Patrol. The ones who forced me out of School now know that I feel crap for what I got. That hurts more than the results.
I walked home in tears, then took another look at what I'd gotten. I saw that I've climbed from a D to a B in Spanish. I've passed ICT with a C when I was expecting a D/E because School didn't print out my coursework, so I've got practically 100% on the actual exam. I passed Maths, I truly wasn't expecting to have passed it as I missed a lot of School.
I'm over the moon with Art, Graphics and RS. To get an A in Art is really good as there's so much to do for it, go me! Graphics, well an A is good. RS was the subject that I wanted to do well with because it was arguing for/against abortion, which obviously, is a topic close to my heart.
English Lit was a bit disapointing, a C, but then I remember not being able to focus on the exam much because of bad period pains. Dumb excuse, but I do think it had an effect on my result. I'm also a bit disapointed with Science, I deserve BB because I didn't try hard with my exams, revision or coursework, but AA would've been nice. But Hell a BB is still good, isn't it?
So, after 11 years of Education I've got 3 A's, 4 B's and 5 C's to show for it. After many hugs and 'well dones' off Mark, Gemma, Mark's Mum, my Mum and one of my Aunties, I feel pretty good about what I've got.
Went the hairdressers around 2pm and didn't leave till around 5pm. Laura made a big fuss about my results to the point of telling other random customers that I'd done well, which was nice. I got my eyebrows done by the new girl, don't know her name. I feel all gorgeous and pampered, which has got to be a good thing!
When I got home, Gemma and Mark had put 'congratulations' banners up around the house. Mark had gotten me a card to say well done and bought me some cooked chicken from Tesco (seriously, I get excited at the thought of their chicken, it's so damn nice and yummy, plus it's one of the few things I'll eat). Then I was whisked off for a meal with Mark, the parentals and Gemma. Got home and they sang 'happy exam result day to you' acompanied by a cake with candles! Gemma got me a little bear with 'well done' on it and my Mum got me a bottle of Bucks Fizz. Oh, and a big helium balloon saying 'congratulations'. I also got a cheque for £150 off my Mum and Dad... woo, I'm rich!
They've totally changed my attitude towards my results. I feel so pleased with myself. I sat in the hairdressers considering if I should home-study Maths and English Lit GCSE to better my grade (got C's for them, predicted A's) but got home and talked it through with Mark and he reckons that I should be proud of them, which I am. I don't know yet. I might give myself a break from Maths and then attempt a homestudy Maths Alevel from next year. I must say though, the grade I'm most proud of is my Stats, how ironic is it that the one subject which I hated with a passion I now value most out of my grades.
Gah, ah well. Had a good day, outcome wasn't as good as I'd have liked but I'm still really chuffed. I went on a UK Learing forum before to read what everyone else got for their GCSEs, most of them are like A*'s and A's, I have no doubt that some people have lied, but it's still a bit disheartening to read. But, I'm proud with my 3 A's, 4 B's and 5 C's (ooh, a pattern 3-4-5... hehe). .
Oooo! I love those new Smart Cars (4x4 type ones). I'd love one as my first car but they start at 8k. Not exactly cheap. .
I'm starting to feel like I can't be arsed with driving now. I might leave it till next year sometime, get a good start on my AS Levels. I swear, I shall get atleast 4 B's next August! I'm going to make a huge effort with my Alevels, I've had a kick up the butt with my GCSE grades, they don't show off my potential (without making myself sound like a complete arrogant twurp, I know I could've done so much better).
I got the courses I wanted to do in College. . AS Levels in Biology, Chemistry, Geography & Art. Yay! I don't think I'll drop any after the first year either, like most people do. If I were to drop one it'd have to be Art as it's not really ideal as a full Alevel for my degree course, but, as it's Art and I don't have any 'real' coursework for it, I may aswel keep it up for a fun course.
My Student Identification card looks awful. I wasn't ready for my picture to be taken so I look terrible on it, thankfully, the picture is really bad quality and it's been printed on a yellow card so you can't see the picture all that well, phew!
Term starts on the 13th of September (my Dad's birthday) but I have to go in next Friday (10th) for an induction-day-thingy, apparently it's really, really, mundane and completely irrelevant to my AS courses, what a way to spend my 17th birthday! Gah, I'm ALWAYS in something compulsary and educational on my birthday, it truly sucks. I was looking forward to a lie in, but no. Oh well, life goes on.