Ok, here goes, I have never kept an online journal before. Let's see, even though this is for me, anyone reading should know>>
Kelly - 26
Married to Steve 7/14/00
Mommy to :
Trenton Alexander 10/31/96
Reagan Mary-Lee 11/2/01
Laura Lynne 5/4/04
Work full time paralegal.
Craig little bro
Laurie craig's gf
Gary - Trenton's dad mostly referred to as the sperm donor
Jen - Gary's wife (mostly referred to as the stepmonster)
Josh and Olivia - Gary and Jen's kids (TRenton's brother and sister)
Bruce - Steve, Reagan and Laura's godfather.
Zammie my doggie
Kathy - day care provider
Gram - Steve's grandmother
Lately stressed due to family, money, work (just came back after 3 month maternity leave) and marriage is a little shaky.
The reaso the marriage is shaky is b/c I lied to DH. Small lie became bigger and bigger and I had to make more up to stop him from finding out truth (we bounced a mortage check and did not have enough $ to pay it and I did not tell him). we ended up getting so far behind that they statred to foreclose and I was afraid to tell dh (I know - stupid mistake). He found out from the mortgage co when they called to talk to me and I was not home. My marriage almost ended right there and then. After he calmed down, he said he does want to stay together. Things just are a little tense and now money is VERY tight.
Well, now that anyine reading knows what a scumbag I am (at least that is how it looks).....
I did not want to screw up so bad and I regret everything that happened.
I know I just made things worse and the pain of that is very hard sometimes. I love dh so very much and I miss the way things were. :bigsad: