OMG, OMG!!! I got fired! No kidding, I was working this morning and IMing Kym (sorry for not writing back) and my boss called me into his office and said "I left you two things to do last week and you did not do either, go to the post office and the bank" "I have to let you go, you can clean out your desk now or come back at 5, I will mail you your last check" See, he was on vacation last week and yes, I did forget to go to the bank but that was only b/c things were so crazy, I had clients calling me and yelling at me for things HE did not do and I did not remember to go until Thursday. And as for the post office, I went MOnday b/c why should I bother going and getting mail if I do not even open it, I leave it for him.
I am so angry and upset and hurt. I have been there almost four years and he has never acted like that. I always said I had such a great boss and how good he was to me and now he treats me like a piece of ****!
I have two mortgages a car payment, tons of bills and three kids. What am I going to do?
Day two of having NO job, this rots! I called and can get unemployment compensation, but I have to have a hearing first before I can get my checks. That is not until Sept. 7th! And my daycare said she will try to hold a place for the girls, but it a big income loss for her and she may take on new kids. I can't blame her, but I hada hard enough time finding her to begin with, how can I replace her?
I went back to the office last night and cleaned out my desk, that was no fun, but at least no one was there so I could just do it and go. Called a few places today, two real estate agencys and a temp agency. No news yet though. I need a job so bad, as it is we are struggling and money is a major issue. Things like this break up strong marriages, with mine the way it is I am praying we make it through. I am going to the Dept. of Labor either tomorrow or Monday (when ever I can geta sitter) and see what I can find, maybe a state job, that way I could have a pension also and better medical than we have with S's work.
I dropped my computer off with my BIL, he said he can fix it, so I will have a computer at home again. That will be easier than going to m & D' s house and using theirs. Plus they have dial up and we have DSL (at least until next month when the contract is up) Then we will cancel it to save money until I get a job. But, hopefully I will have one by then, I cannot imagine not working by the end of next month.
I would like to do daycare, but I cannot get licensed until we remove the asbestos from the basement and we can no way afford that!
Well, I better get job hunting before I run out of time, Dad wants me out soon.
Day Three, I called a friend who works at a temp agency and she may have something for me. A receptionist at a marketing firm. I have to get her my resume. No other prospects yet, I know I am asking alot, but I can not be without a job much longer.
Laura has her checkup today and probably shots, poor kid. I have to take MIL with me b/c I am taking her shopping to get a new comforter set and curtains. Maybe I can get her to buy me some new clothes to go on inetrviews with. I have nothing really good since I have not lost most of the baby weight yet. But I did just get on kthe scale and I lost 2.5 lbs, yea trim spa!!! Plus I have been so upset about the whole job thing, I have not been eating and my stomach is all screwed up.
Well, I better to that resume, I need to do a whole new one, yuck.
I finally got a new computer, wll, its actually a loaner, but as long as I have one I do not care!! I was goinh through major internet withdrawl. Still no job, but I went to the Dept of labor and did a job search and sent out a few resumes. I had two interviews last week with the same company. Looks pretty good, except b/c it is with a major mortgage lender, they pulled my credit and the foreclosure thing is still there. I have to geta copy of the court withdrawl of the case so I can prove it is not still going on. This job would be great, close to home, more money and a 401K plan. I am going to search again Monday.
S is going to do his annual naval reserve training the next two weeks. he is going to be a hour away, so he may just come hoem ecery night. Although, I kinda wish he would not so I can get the kids on a schedule and clean the house. It was so much better to clean last year when he was away, he went to Hawaii for the two weeks. My mom said she will stay with me a few days so that will be a big help.
Laura is rolling over like a fiend, she hates staying on her back and is trying to get up on her hands and knees to crawl. Reagan still wants nothing to do with the potty, oh well. Trenton cashed in bottles our families savwed for him and bought a new bike which he promptly locked in the garage!!!
well, I gotta stop now, my neighbors are having a picnic and I have to get the kids ready to go and get myself ready.
not too much going on today. S went to the navy base for his two week annual training, but he will be home tonight for parents night at Trenton's school. God, I cannot belive he is in third grade already. Stepmonster may not be able to come b/c she has to work boo hoo, I am so upset about that! NOT!! I am going to do another job search today, hopefully I will find something soon. Well, gotta go and bring the girls to my moms for the day. May I will write more later.
Went to a job fair today, nothing too promising.Oh well, just keep plugging on. I was reading this journal and saw that I never wrote how Laura made out at her physical. She was 16 lbs 3 oz and 23 and 5/8 inches long. She is HUGE!! She had 3 shots, poor kid. She is rolling over like a madwoman all the time, she is even trying to get up on her hands and knees. I think she just wants to keep up with big brother and big sister. Reagan is sucha riot, she was running around the house today and yelling "Save a horse, ride a cowboy", then she was telling Trento to say it too. He would not and she got so mad at him! I was ROTHL! :rofl:
Steve is gone until Thursday and the house is so quiet! Well, not really, right now the girls are at daycare (so I could go to the jobfair) and Trenton is at school, so I have music blasting.
I have been so stresses about the whole job thing, my face looks like a pepperoni pizza. That's a great impression to make on a prespevtive employer! LOL!
I just found out that my old roomate, Melissa, is pregnant. She has always been obsessed with having a baby, but I thought she finally outgrew that. She is thrilled, but she has no medical insurnace, ansd her and her boyfrien can barely afford to pay rent each month. Plus, his wonderful response was, "My life is now over". she thinks he will change his mind, but I am not so sure. He is only 25, most guys that age are not ready and I just see him leaving her. I have no doubt that she will be a wonderful mother, but I just don't think she is seeing the whole picture. Not that I want her to get an abortion, I am against that, but I wish she had used protection. I know for a fact that she did not, she thought she could not get pregnant, but there was always a chance.
Well, enough about that.
Trenton's parents night went well last night. Sperm donor and stepmonster were there. Oh joy! His teacher said he is very bright, just a bit lazy and has trouble paying attention. Of course, it does not help that he is sitting right nrxt to one of his good friends, Jake. They play footsies all day. I got roped into being the secretary of the PTO this year, my friend Carrie (Jake's mom) is the president.
well, I have a few things to do on the net and then I have to go get the girls.
AHHHH, crazy day!
Laura did not sleep well at all last night, I am so tired!
(As a side note, wow, they have so crazy emocions - there is a BJ one and a going downtown one)
See how tired I am, I can't even stay focused.
I do not lnow whay she slept so bad last night we did not do anythign different. I hope she does not do that again tonigtht. needless to say, she is napping now.
Got up this morning and hopped right in the shower, I dragged Trenton out of bed at 7, kicking and screaming (he is so not a morning person, LOL). called my MIL at 7:10 to find out if FIL was picking up Trenton top bring him to school. She usually watches my niece and nephew in the am and they bring all three kids to school, but they did not yesterday and no one called to tell me so I had to scramble to get all the kids ready to go. Of course they don't have the kids this morning either so I had to get all three kids ready again, but at least I had more notice. MIL said she was going to call last night, but it was too late when they got home. So, what, if I had not called this mornign (woke her up) I would not have known? Thanks, I appreciate you thinking of me and not just yourself. Your son is not here, remember, I have more that just Trewnto to get out the door all by myself. I don't care if they do not take him, I just need to know so I can plan out my morning.
Then, as I was getting Laura dressed, Steve called and said that he may not be able to come home tomorrow and he amy have to stay this weekend too. Great, I have a Pampered Chef party tomorrow (which was why he was coming home) and I have a "toy" party on Saturday and there is no way I can bring the kids to that. At least my frined who is throwing the toy party has a sitter and she said I can ...
Oh, Steve just called, he is coming home tomorrow and this weekend! YEA!!!!!!
I have to start planning Trenton's b-day party (b-day is Halloween). He wants a costume party this year. This will be the first year we have a party at our house. And he is with me on his birthday weeknd, not at his sd's house! I am so excited!! Now we have ot figure out what she is going to be for Halloween. Reagan is going to be Sully from Monsters, Inc. and I am going to try to find a Mike costume for Laura, it will be so cute!
I need to go buy a new hamper for the downstairs bathroom, Reagan foot went throught the side this morning. Trenton put her in there and they were pretending it was a submarine. I had to videotape it, they were so funny. But then Reagan got too excited and broke it. Trenton said, "Don't worry mom, I can fix it, I just need some tape" and Reagan said "yea, sticky tape." I stopped them before duct tape ended up all over the house, LOL!
Well, I better go and get some cleanig done.
AHHH, peace and quiet. I just put on a Baby Mozart for the girls and they are in a trance!
I do not know what to do about Trenton. He gives me such a hard time about doing his homework. He pouts and whines and everything. last night he had to read a story about a kid and a scientist that go back in time to see dinosaurs. The story was two paragraphs long. He then had to answer questions about the story and then wite what he thought the story was about. That was the no brainer part and he did that fine, Then he had to write at least three sentences about how he connected to the story. Well... that was so tought for him (NOT). But you would have thought the teacher was having him do physics! At one point I had to send him to his room to calm down. When he finally finished he said "Wow Mom, that was actually easy." BTW, his fave new word is actually, drives me nuts "Auctually, (insert snotty remark here)" I had a massive headache over the whole thing!
I made pizza for dinner, was pretty good. Trenton said it was excellent and then Reagan repeated him,. She worships the groud he walks on and is always copying him. But of course, the recipe said to put veggie oil on the dough and I did, but OMG, i was so sick at 1 am! I woke up and my stomach had such bad cramps! And for some unknown reason, Reagan was awake and playing in the dark in her room. I put her back to sleep and noticed that she was stuffy, but thought it was from her crying, which she stared as soon as she heard me get up. she got up this .morning and is still stuffy, I have her some medicine, but her nose is running still and she keeps wiping her nose and then her eyes. I have a strong feeling Mr. Pinkeye is going to be paying us a visit very soon!
I should know by now that quiet kids means trouble. Reagan just came over to me and said:
"I am sharing with Laura."
Me: " That's so nice of you, what are you sharing?"
R: "My grapes"
****!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank God it wasn't in her mouth, Regan put it on her arm! Well, there is my mini heartattack for the day!
Steve will be home later so I want to get the house looking better than it did when he left, so I must go.
Kym ~~~~ If you read this... I PMed you my phone number so we can keep in contact while you are home. Good luck on Monday, I hope all goes well and you new baby boy is healthy and perfect. But, of course he will be!! I will miss you!
I had such a good time atthe Pampered Chefparty last night, but now I feel bad. See, my friend Marcy who threw the party, I met online in an MSN group for moms in CT, posted a message on the board today that she is depressed b/c she is TTC#2 and is having trouble. Not that I can do anything for that, but I brought Laura and I think that made her sad. But it's not like she doesn't have other babies around, she does home daycare and had 4 month old twins. One of the women there lastnight is on the board too and she lives right aroyund the corner from me. Her daughter will be 2 in January, so Rea is a little older, but they played so nice together and had a great time.
I think s is getting jealous that I am making friens and trying to hang out with my other friends more. Not that he does not want mwe to have friends, but he really has no one to hang out with and feels left out I think. I wish he would try to go out more with his friends, then I would not feel so giulty going out.
Today I did pretty myuch nothing, I balanced the checkbook. I wish S wound not hacve me do it. Knowing mytrack record, it's almostas if he is trying to test me to make sure I son't screw up again. I am glad he trusts me do to the checkbook, but I wish he would not depend on me so much to handle it. whatif I forget something by accident? I do not want to screw up and ruin everything we have worked out in the pastfew months. Things are not perfect by far, but they are getting better and he even tells me "ditto" which he barely did before the whole thing happened. BTW, he says ditto instead of I love you, always has since we first started saying it. He has trouble saying ILY, b/c of the wayhis ex girlfriend was. (Way too long a story for right now) and he has a major issue with trusting women. Some day soon I will give the details of thatwhole mess, I justdo not feel like it right now.
AfterI picked Tup from school, we went to the Navy base to see S. T and Rare sleeping in the Navy Lodge with S tonmight, I brought L home, she is not a good sleeper at home, nevermind in a hotel.
I hope S works on L's room this weekend. Khe ceiling caved in and he had to remove the whole thing and now has to replace it. So L is still sleeing in the bassinett in my room. She is way too big for it and I think part of the reason she wakes uo so much is that every time she moves, she hits the sides. Shereally needs to be in her crib.
I hate driving home for the Navy base in new London by myself at night, but it is even worse w/o a cell phone. When I left the hotal, I took what I thought was a shortcut (greatidea with my nonexistent sense of direction) and guess what... I got lost. Big surprise! When I turned around I bumped the vurb with my tire and the whole "I'm going to geta flat tire and be stuck alone atnight with a baby" kthing reared its ugly head. When I finally got back on track, I stopped and checked my tire, but it looked fine. Not thatI still was not worried and had to keep reminding myself that if I really had a flat tire, I would know it and I would not have gotten as faras I was. Oh I hate being alone and farfrom home at night!
Well, I have to get to bed, its late and I am sure Laura will be up soon.