Thread: Need an outlet

So today totally sucked. I hate my clients! Actualy only a few, but they ruin it for all of the good ones! two weeks ago I made a mistake on a payroll and gave a clienta's employees charge tips instead of cash tips. (For anyone that this sounds greek to... Charge tips go into the net pay of a check and cash do not, cash tips areonly used for taxing, as the employee has already got them). So anyway, I had to void out the checks and rerun them correctly so the client had a hardtime figuring out what taxes had been taken by my company to be paid. Apparently addition and subtraction arenot her strong suit and I had to do all the math and hand write a new CAshRequirements sheet. What a pain in the *** that was, because I had so many calls to make today that I was going crazy!
Reagan is a traitor, when the stepmonster dropped of Trenton, Reagan gave her a hug and several kisses. How dare she be nice to her, I hate her and R should too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay maybe not hateher, but at least not hug and kiss her. I mean this is a woman (demon in a woman's body) that wanted to take my daughteraway from me!
I started smoking again soon afterI got the job, and I cannot not seem to quit. Not that I have tried very hard, but I really shoudl.
I think I am due to get AF nextweek. One of the girls at work got hers this week and said she was early, and we had it at the same time last month so I think I am ok. But I really do not want to stress about it for another whole week.
My show is on tonight and so I have to stay up late. It starts at 10. S and I always watch it together, so I have to call him when it startsso we can atleast be on the phone for it. I love THe Sheild!!!I am addicted to it!
God, this space bar is driving me crazy, sorry about all the blended words! I just do not have the motivation to fix them all.
Well, I better go have my last smoke and then get ready for bed, so I can be all set when my show statrs!
Goodnight!

Today was a pretty good day! I got my six month raise today. Its only about 20 cents and hours but I gat one last week b/c the company raised the start rate and they wanted my pay to be on the same level as the new hires will be when the get to my level (4). So if I combine the two its like 60 cents an hour and Friday when I take my Level 4 exam, I get another 1.25% raise. See we have things called levels and the highestin my position is 7. Level 1 is the first4 weeks ot the office, Level 2 is two weeks of school and then you setyour own pace for the rest. For each level we get a huge 3 ring binder filled with modules about the joband payroll. I just completed the Level 4 book and so I am testing Friday. After Level 5 I go to Senior School for a week, which vcould be at myoffice (if there are enough people ready) or at another branch, which most likely will be Boston. One I pass senior school I geta 10%raise!!!!!! I am trying to get there soon, the average is a year to 18 months to reachSenior Status, but I want it sooner. I also got my stock options this week 200 shares of stock at 32.01 a share. I will be 25% vested in the Stocks each yearfor 4 years and then I can cash them whenever I want, but I only have 10 years to cash the. When I cash them I get to kkep the difference in the price I was given them and the current price, so if they go up, I could make a ton of money! God I love the benefits here!!!!
We had scouts tonight, nothing too exciting, R gave me a hard time when we left the house to go, she ran all around the yard and I had to chase her to get her in the car. Then at scouts she was playing in the gym and came back to me in the cafe to tell me she pooped her pants. When we got to thje bathroom, I looked and saw that she had not, so she saton the potty and went. She has not had one accident since she stared wearing undies 2 weeks ago. I am so proud!!!

Trenton has a test on Native Americans tomorrow so I had to help him study. He will do fine if he pays attention and does not daydream!

We are having omlettes at work tomorrow to celebrate the Client Retention Program that just ended. We Did so well, we only lost 1.2% of the clients we were budgested to loose during Nov, dec and Jan. Which means I get a $200 bonus check on Friday! Woo Hoo!
I also found out that we are having a Cinco De Mayo party nextmonth with virgin Margaitas and everything.
It seems like wew celecrate everything with food at this place! We had a pot luck for Halloween, Thanksgiving, X-mas and Superbowl, oh yeah Valentines day too!
n V-day we all decorated Valentine bags and handed out valentines. Okay so maybe that was a bit grade school, but It was fun!
We are so corny!!!! LOL.

I loved The Shield last night. It was one of the best episodes! That show ids so great! But I missed watching it w/ S. He called me to make sure I was up and ready to watch just as I was calling him. we ended up not staying on the phone for the show but I called him right after b/c it was so good! The end made me cry, somethjing sad happended, but I will not say just in case someone reads this and has not seen it. The show replays all week on F/X, everyone should watch it! Don;t worry if you do not know what happended before, I will explain it all if need be. I just love it so much, I want everyone else to also!
Well, I better go to bed, I am beat!

Tough day atwork, but the omlette was delicious! I made a mistake on a directdeposit, i sent it to the wrong bank. Damn! Client was pissed and wanted to talk to Roxanne my supervisor. Thank God she is so cool, b/c she did not even yell at me, just told me to be more careful. I am so nervous about my test tomorrow, i hope i do b/c if i do not get an 80, i have to wait a month to take it again.
T's dad dropped him off tonight and said "You really need to get out of this neighbor hood, the kids down the road are scummy". Excuse me, nut when did he become the master of where i live? Yes, if you go down te road, it is a slum, but whwre I am is nice and we have not had any problems except for the stolen bike thing. He is such an ***, thinks he is so much better than me b/c he makes more money and lives in an expensive house and gets a new truck every other year. BTW, he way overpaid for that house, he paid 60 thou more than me and has less room. His yard is a bit bigger, but so what? Arrrrrr, I hate them so much.
But anyway, my mom is sleeping over tonight so she can help me in the am and S will be home tomorrow so that will be good, me and the kiddos miss him.
Well, I gotta go balance the check book and go to bed.

I aced my test!!!!!!! I am so siked, another raise and I got a better score than princess perfect who thinks she is better that everyone b/c she has a college degree in business. She is so bad at her job. Anyway, need to be less catty. I am just happy that I passed.

S came home yesterday and even though I told Trenton that S would be home early enough to pick him up from school, he took the bus and no one knew where he was. S got scared b/c T never came out of the walker door at school and when he went to the office, they did not remember seeing him in the bus line. S finally went to daycare and T had just gotten there. Then S took them to the park to play until I got home from work. We wemt out for dinner and then went to find baseball socks for T, he needed them in green and I had bought white. We had a bit of trouble as it seems that no one has green socks. I knew that a local store had sthem, and I called, but the were closed so we had to go get them this morning before the opening day ceremony. We have to back soon for T's game.
L is all stuffy and teething again, so she keeos coughing. S gets panicked when the girls get sick, he drives me nuts.
Oh, good news, i got AF yesterday!!!!!!!!! Thank God, I was getting so nervous, I do not need another kid running around, I have no energy as it is!!!! Plus it's not like we can afford it.
Sometimes I wonder about me and S. This week was weird, I did not really miss him I mean, I am glad to have him home and last night was GREAT!!!!!! BUt it the day to day that is taking its toll. He does not listen to me and teases me alot. I know that he is just teasing but I after you hear the same thing over and over and see him checking out girls that are much prettier and skinnier than me, its starts to hurt. I knoew I am not the perfect wife and we do not like all the same things and we like to spend free time doing different things (some times we want to do the same thing). I just wonder if there is someone else thatwould make me happier. I do love him and have no plans pn leaving, but soetimes I feel alone and deserted. There are days it feels like we are just two people that live together. I mean, just know he is lying on the couch and half asleep and he said that he is getting angry at me for typing so fast. What the Hell is that?
Sometimes I just want him to come over and hug me or give a a quick kiss, out of affection, but the only time we are physical w/ each other is when we arehaving sex. God, I am almost crying now. Its hurts that he seems so indifferent to me, but always is hugging and kissing the girls and telling them he loves them. He almost never says he loves me, all I get is "ditto" when I tell him I love him and veen then he says it like I am forcing him to. I know I have made a huge mistake and thingsaretough right now, but in order to get things betterwe both need to work on it and notlet it ruin everything we have.
Well I better go, S is gettign annoyed about the typing and I do not want him coming over here and seeing what I am writing.

Today was so insane. It all started when I took the kids to my mother in laws and when I got thereshe was still sleeping, she forgot the kids were coming! Then I got to work and we had no access to our system and had to do all our payrolls on paper with the clients giving us all the info. we finally were able to get in at 11:45. I had so many payrolls to input. Plus we had 7 people out. It was so insane, I just wanted to go home and go back to bed.
After work, I met S and the kids at baseball practice. S came home to pick up T so he could sleep over at the Navy base and then he will spoend the day at S's Gram's house tomorrow,. I will go pick him up after I get out of work. Thank God I have Wed off, I need a day to relax. Not like I will get much of that as Laura has a Dr appt for he horrible rash and T has a baseball game at5:30.
Hopefully this game will be better that Saturday's. T's team was losing 30-3 and they finally called the game. The poor kids were not having fun anymore and what's the point in playing if they do not want to. 27 of the runs were wawlked in by the pitcher on T's team. Just watching was torture. T's coach is not a very good one, he is nice and all, but the kids just do not do well with him. After the game, one of the parents called and complained that the coach ahd yelled at some kids and one of the other coaches was also called in for the way she yelled ather kid. I did not see anything wrong with the way they handeled things, if the kids are not paying attention, they should get talked to. I did not see anyone yelling at them, just giving them a strict talking to about paying attention.
We play the same team on Wed, so everyone send winning vibes to my boy!!!!
well, I better go, I need some sleep and R is not feeling well so I am going to lie down with her.

I forgot my great news! Rgot into the preschool program we wanted her to. Its run by the Town and is 5 days a week, half days. They will pick her up and drop her off atdaycare and here's the best part...........
IT"S FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today wasa quietday. S decided to keep T with him, so I will go pick him up tomorrow after I take the girls to the dr.
NOthing to excitinfg to report, I am so tired. I am so excited about sleeping late tomorrow, I get to saty in bed until 7am!!!! Woohoo!
I so have to go on a diet, I am tired of looking at myself in the ,irror and not liking what I see. I weigh over 200 lbs and hate it! I need to eat better and excersise. I have a freetwo week pass to Curves and as soon as S comes home I am going to join. Once I get started with working out, I will be able to keep it up at home. we have a bike, a treadmill and a weight set. I hate feeling tired all the time and having no energy. I know it is the weight and I have to make an effort to getback to my normal self. It hurst to see S look at thin girls, I fell like he wishes thatI looked that way. I do not blame him, I mean how can he be really happy with the wy I llook, if I am not? I know he loves me and finds me attractive, but he also imagines me looking like i did when we met. I was 130 lbs and looked great. I did not have a perfectbody and I know I won't ever, I do not want to be a skinny reed, I just want to look better.
I have a big problem though, I find that I am always eating. At home I eatwhen noone is around, like of they areall upstairs, I will stuff my face, but do not want anyone to catch me. That cannot be a good thing and I need to stop. Maybe if I write doewn what I eat eachday, I can really see what I am doing and stop. So, sorry, but I am going to have to bore you all with the details of my food intake.
Well, better go and finish the dishes and put Rto bed, she is sleeping on the couch right now.

Kelly, I'm the SAME way! I need to loose about 50 pounds before we go to Daytona and I DON'T see it happening. I have NO self-control when it comes to food. IT SUCKS! We have a Curves near my house that I would LOVE to join but I just don't have the time. *sigh* No bikini again this year. I am pushing 200 pounds myself and wearing a size 16 jeans. When I met M, I was 120 pounds and wore a size 2. You should see the tubs of clothes that I have in the attic that I can't wear anymore. It's embarassing. Vent away girl, that what this is for and what we are for!

Took L and R to the Dr today L has a yeast infection and Rjust has a cold that is aggrivating her asthma. After I left there I went to get T at Gram's house. Picked him up and went to see S at his hotel. We had lunch there and then when I was leaving, S came up with the brilliant idea of going to the base hospital and having L's prescription filled there cuz it would be free. what a total waste of time!!!! After 30 mins, S went to ceck on it and they said that they had labeled it worng and had to fix it, then 5 mins later they said thet L was not registered under S's name and he had to so that first. Well, by that time it was 3:30 and I still had to go get my car and get T home to change into his baseball stuff and get him to the field by 5. The risde takes an hour by itself!!! We were so late for practice, but make it to the game on time. T sat out the first two innings and then got walked and then played outfield. This sucks, I sat there for two hours to see him play for 10 mins!
I am a bit mad at S, as I could have left at 2 and been able to get the prescription and get to baseball on time, if the did not have his idea.
Rplayed in the dirt and rocks the whole time and she was such a dirt ball, I had to throw her right in the bath when I got home. But at leastshe had fun and I did not have to chase her everywhere.
As for food....
Bowl of cereal, mug of tea, hotdog and roll, ham sandwich, doritos (only abot 15), 3 Mcd's chicken selects and fries and a soda. GUess Idid not eatalot, but it was mostly junk food.
I think I am going to try to find some ephdra on the net,. that worked before and if it's cheap enough I will order it.
Toem for bed, I have to back to work tomorrow.

JUst trying something out