Janel - Congratulations on this latest ray of hope! I am so thrilled for you. Any chance is a positive, however small!
I love the ultrasound photo - you sure have a beautiful son!
I am so glad you have some hope! How wonderful it will be for you to be able to hold your son!
I will be praying for a mircle that his is fine or at least the defects are very minamal!
Wow Janel, it must be glad to learn that it may not all be doom and gloom!!! I will still be thinking of you!!
Janel, he is gorgeous. Thank you so much for sharing.
:wavehello: Tea! Good to see you here! How is Joey doing? I am so sorry about your Dad. I just lost my Gramma at the end of Sept & it hurts.
Janel! Some hope for you. So happy to hear this news.
Jodie, your not being sensitive. I would have been crying my eyes out! I remember worrying I wouldn't get pregnant, and I only had to wait a year! I can't imagine what it is like for you!
Tea, it is great to see you post! Still thinking and praying for you!
Thanks for the welcome Lynn and Diane!
Joey is a turkey guy-- his name is Joey no-no-- he's like a nylon with a snag as he just runs all over the place and you can't stop him! I'd not have him any other way though-- he is a funny guy.
Welcome back Tea! You were missed.
Thank you, Jaime!
Tea I think you will do marvalous at med school!! Good luck with exams!!
I agree with Jodie.
No one has ever tripped over Mt. Everest.
Fantastic, Tea. I am socking that one away for later use.
Everything is crossed for you Jodie!!!!!!!!!!
Go Jodie! :kaos10: Go Jodie! :kaos10:
I wonder why some people get into the most hallowed of all professions. I want to got shake that women till ehr teeth fall out. Has she ever heard of the telephone? "Call the surgeon!"
Tea thanks for your support!!
Those tears are good for you. It is speculated that all other factors being equal or cancelling each other out that tears are why women live longer than men. Tears, like sweat, let hormones out of our system. They are a way to literally let the bad stuff out.
When my dad died I bought my mother a tear bottle-- actually, I was not going to pay $30+ for a little bottle, so I bought a perfume bottle for $12 from E-bay. I compared it to a friend's "genuine" tear bottle and they are the same, only my mother's has a little wand which is lind of cool!
I was told that you can put tears on wounds and they heal faster because of those same hormones. I don't know if it's true but it's a nice idea!
Your emotions were very strong after you gave birth to Kieran and they were too much for any mortal to handle. You were breaking. It has taken this long to have other experiences displace them a bit so you can handle them in smaller portions and work them out. As you are discovering-- it is good to welcome them. Tears can be the physical manifestation of unspoken prayers of the soul.
You are doing everything right. Try to relax and leave the rest to God (Like that is possible!)
Some things you can control, others you cannot. If Sir Joseph is meant to be here at his due date, you will deliver at that time in part because you are taking good care of yourself. If he is meant to be early, with as good care as you are taking of yourself and trying to prevent it, nothing on God's green earth can stop him.
Remember that you are a good mother and you are making wise choices. Jospeph is lucky to have you!
I think it is almost always better to just give in and let your heart hurt. I think about you guys all the time.
All I can say is how much I admire you! I think your heading in the right direction. You will be a wonderful Dr!
Everything is crossed for you Rachel!!!
What are the criteria for becoming a surrogate? Trey and I discussed it after I told him about you. We think that we would love to do it someday. Not being able to have a child of your own must involve some of the same emotions as losing a child. What a wonderful thing to give.
You are doing a beautiful thing. :bighug: I tear up every time I think about it.
Jamie, I think the exact criteria has factors that may vary. For instance, most IPs and docs would prefer a surrogate who has been pg before, so they know what to expect (but at the same time, each pregnancy is so different, it may not matter to some). But if a woman "freelances" herself out, she may find a set of IPs who will take a woman who has never given birth or been pg before.
Ultimately, I don't know what they are specifically looking for while they review my papers, and that's what makes me so nervous. I'm pretty sure that I qualify, given my general health, my lifestyle, and my previous pregnancy...but I keep thinking, what if there's something so small that will disqualify me? I will be crushed if I can't do this for them.
I think you and Trey would make such a perfect surrogate couple. Plus, you're such an adorable preggo!
When you get that feeling, pray that whatever it is that you will be ready to deal with it. If it means cleaning your house because something freakish will happen to you, be ready to go with it and that you be in a possition to keep the kids and yourself safe. Ask your Guardian Angle to tell you more-- I always think my GA is a bit gossipy!
I had a bad feeling a few years ago (and since then, but this is a case in particular.) I started telling my kids what road we were on, what the cross streets were, etc. I sensed it would be in my car. I got into an accident and low and behold, my dds knew where we were to tell the 911 dispatch! We were at an intersection around 10pm. . .
Those feelings are useless if you don't have a direction to go on! Pray before you do anything, especially driving!
Tea your latest entry had me laughing my butt off at the thought of you being wheeled to theater with your butt in the air and laughing it off. I would call thanksgiving dinner a mere bite to eat as well
Tea (I mean DOCTOR Tea), I've been following your journal and as always love your writing style. Keeping you in my thoughts!! Hope your little DD is doing well.
I'm becoming more optimistic about this pregnancy -- I've been lurking more on the preemie board, and less on the pregnancy and infant loss board.
So wonderful to read these words from you.
I mentioned a few weeks back about my cousin continuing her pregnancy despite all odds, and getting to spend time with her little boy for a few hours... well it didn't cross my mind at that time to mention that his name was JOSEPH. What an interesting coincidence!
Thanks for updating your journal so often and consistently. I'm sure there are a lot of us who follow it on a regular basis.
Take care -
Wow Tea! You are so intuitive! I love talking to you!! I agree with you 100% on GA's, if it weren't for mine, I wouldn't have been alive after Liam's birth...
I think too, that sometimes mine plays little innocent games on me!! Keeps me on my toes!
Could your feeling of something about to happen have been Lacey's impending birth?
Go-go-Joseph! :babydustblue: I remember a cheer we had when my brother played competitive hockey, "Here we go Joseph, here we go! [clap-clap] Here we go Joseph, here we go! [clap clap]" I don't do conventional, long winded prayers. I'll have this in my head off and on til he gets here and then with each journal entry. God knows what I mean!
Tea, that's what I thought of!! I hope it isn't anything "bad" though, but she isn't progressing, but baby isn't showing any bad signs yet. That's good news!!
My gut doesn't knwo the difference between "bad" and "stressful."
You make a very good point Tea, I think that may be the same in my case too...
I hope for your sake that it is. . .
Tea, I really think you were right...Things aren't going very smoothly for Lacey...
I just lit the candle in front of my icons. . . I am praying for her and for wisdom and courage to act for those serving her.
Grea site Tea, and Yeah for a Canadian company! You have great taste!!
Thinking of you like always Janel.
Janel! I am so happy! See if your docs can get you a referral to Shriner's now. I know PG women that have gone. I love them. We go to the one in Spokane!
They are such a fantastic group! All they really care about is the kids, which is what matters!
I am sure you will love them too!
She's a Canadian designer! Heck, Canadians have great taste!
I wore her to my mammogram and then promised myself that if I didn't get mean (I get biting when upset or scared) that I would buy myself more April afetrwards. I wasn't mean or biting. I went to the only April store in the US and bought a new dress.
I have so much April in my closet now that I think I only have jeans and a few t-shirts and underwear that aren't designed by her.
Congrats on the baptism, Janel! Joseph is an awesom name-- I am a bit partial to it!
Colin is in our prayers and thoughts as well! Give him a kiss from Alaska!
Peggy-- Kyle is a sweetie pie guy! What a loving boy! I will tell you, if poeple waited til they could afford children there wouldn't be any. Think about it. . .
KUP posted on your dad Jodie! I'll be thinking of you!
"Keiran's Mama" wrote:
Thanks Jamie, we still do not know very much, other than he is still having tests, my sister and I are still trying to work out what is happening.
Jill - Baby curls are about the cutest thing there is! And imagine how sentimental you'll feel when you watch the video of L putting up her first ornament ever!
Good luck with the teething!
Rachel- I watched it already this morning and wanted to cry. How sad is that!
Glad to hear you got rid of the "guest", btw. I would have flipped or even tossed my cookies if I heard the thing scratching. EEEW, I hate rodents...but you're right about the bugs, I despise them all equally.
Katie I can't view the videos!
Neither can I Jamie!!
Kassandra video's are now working! I didn't copy the links right.
Katy they are awesome pics!! :bigarmhug: Your little girl is such a beautiful angel!
Aww, nothing like sobbing first thing in the morning. Beautiful Katie, absolutely beautiful.
Aww, nothing like sobbing first thing in the morning. Beautiful Katie, absolutely beautiful.