Well, I am gonna start a new journal over here. Maybe I can keep this one going.
Promise is watching cartoons and Zackary is sleeping. Lord knows I need a break. I have to go tomorrow job hunting, I do not want to go back to work, but Larry is making me. I so much want to be home with my kids. I just need a break sometimes. With no one here to help ever and him working all those hours, it just never ends. I know we have no money, but we just need to budget better. I don't know how, we don't spend any money except on bills. And daycare for the kids is gonna be 286.00 a week! That is insane. I don't know what to do. Larry is not listening to reasoning. He thinks it is all my fault because I always want him to borrow money. That I never do. Well-it's not like I freaking have anyone to ask. I just wish he would realize that. I love him so much, we have been through too much to let this stupid stuff bring us down. My friends all have jobs and are too busy to come around, and it seems like the only adult interaction I get is on the computer. He fusses that we don't spend enough time together and that we should, but when he is here he is too busy and all he wants to talk about is work. Well, Zack is crying now, I'll write more later.