OPK - ()
Haha, okay, I know that I shouldn't be so impatient. I know that I seem to typically O around CD15 or 16, so having a - OPK on CD 14 isn't exactly unexpected. I just hate the waiting around. I want to be in the 2ww already so that I can be obsessing over that instead of obsessing over when I'm going to O. I'm bored with obsessing over when I'm going to O. LOL
Ugh, what if I don't O until like CD 22 this month. My head. will explode.
Oh, but kind of a nice thought - if I DO get knocked up this cycle, my EDD will be Dec 21. Solstice! That makes me a little excited. I know it's a little bit lame, but that would be like having an EDD of Dec 25 for a Christian. It makes me a little warm and fuzzy to think about, so let's keep our fingers crossed for that.
In other news, DH had a job interview to work at another high school in the same district, so if anyone is reading this, please keep your fingers crossed for him. They did say something that sounded great though - apparently they have multiple openings this year in the LA department, so he has multiple chances of being hired (but he only has to interview once for everything, unless the principal decides he wants to do second interviews.) I think that DH has a LOT going for him - he is a candidate from inside the district, he is an elected member of the Colorado Language Arts Council, he has GREAT letters of rec and people within the district including the principal of his current school that have put in calls to recommend him. So hopefully he is a logical choice for one of the open positions. If he does get this job, he could bike to work (it's that close) on the days where he doesn't pick up T from daycare.
How is it possible that I have gained two pounds in two days? I have been eating like 1200 calories and running and ST and walking on my lunch hour. *narrows eyes*
How is it possible that I am still getting a - OPK? *narrows eyes*
If it were possible to turn an OPK positive with the sheer heat of a glare, I would have done it this afternoon.
I'm hungry (my 300 calorie lunch is NOT sticking with me today) and I think it is only making me grouchier.
If + OPKs and BDing get you all excited (they do me!) then be excited. I got a + and a BD all on the same day. The only thing that makes me worry is that I seem to have gotten a thermal shift this morning, suggesting that our efforts were possible a little too late. We shall see...
DPO - Somewhere between 1-3
I have this whole conspiracy theory about how the fact that our house was hot + a couple of glasses of wine contributed to wonkily high BBT temps which confused Fertility Friend. Per FF, I O'ed on CD 17. But per my OPKs and other symptoms, I think it was maybe more like CD 19. Probably proving that denial aint just a river in Egypt. But for now, FF and I are agreeing to disagree.
A couple of nights ago, DH and I were driving home and I heard a song that I love, but that has always made me cry since my m/c. Cosmic Love by Florence and the Machine. I know, a little weird, but these lines perfectly captured how I felt right after my m/c:
That's exactly right. I think I'm coming into the dawn, but it took a long time, and when I'm being honest, I admit that I'm not completely there yet. I wonder if I will ever really feel the way I did before the m/c?The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out.
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart
Last edited by Alissa_Sal; 04-04-2011 at 02:41 PM.
DPO - 2
Phantom Preg Symptoms - dull pressure and twinges in low abs, on again off again boob pain
Haha, so I went in and changed the crosshairs in FF for the CD *I* want. Very mature, right? Whatever, it just made me feel better.
I googled "Early Pregnancy Symptoms" yesterday, and I stumbled across a website that is devoted to people submitting their early pregnancy symptoms. One woman submitted that at like 7 dpo she knew that she was pregnant because she lost the feeling in one of her thumbs, and her vision went blurry. I was rolling! Personally I would have suspected stroke over pregnancy, but what do I know? She got her BFP that month. So now I am on the lookout for such phantom pregnancy symptoms as "being struck deaf, dumb, and blind."
I'm actually in a really good place today. Obsessing, yes, always obsessing. But feeling happy and hopeful, like even if it doesn't happen this month, I do believe that it will happen *some* month. Very positive thinking happening in my corner of the universe. Of course, talk to me in 9 days when AF is here. I may be a real downer by then.
Well, I'm off to go eat a slice of pizza with my coworkers. There is this DELICIOUS pizza place about 10 min from our office that sells za by the slice.
Commenting here so I'll know every time you update
That is too funny about the thumb and blurry vision! And I thought I had heard it all
DPO - 3 (or 5. Whatever.)
Phantom Preg Symptoms: None. Except I'm HUNGRY. I'm pretty sure that doesn't count though - I don't remember having an increased appetite until my second trimester with T. No blurred vision or slurred speech or funny walks or anything like that tho'.
I'm sitting here and drinking ice water and trying to talk myself out of slipping out of the office and going through a drive thru somewhere. Taco Bell! The grilled chicken burrito is calling my name. I know, I know. DH thinks that the fact that I actually like Taco Bell is le'scusting. But for health reasons, no Taco Bell. Do you hear that, delicious rice and ranch dressing and cheese and chicken wrapped in a tortilla?!? No Taco Bell.
I had lunch. Sesame chicken with veggies and whole grain noodles. Sounds great, right? Yes, it was tasty. It was also appropriately portioned, which is where my trouble lies, I believe. My stomach is bigger than my eyes. Or something.
I have an apple and some Laughing Cow Swiss cheese for my aft snack, but I want to save that until like 3 so that it can fuel me up for my run. *Sigh* It's funny, because on the GDB, we are talking about if you would trade a year of your life for the perfect body. I said yes (I know, I'm vain and shallow and selfish.) This is why. As far as I can tell, I seem to have to live my life walking around half starved and working out 6 days a week just to maintain a size 10. If you ask me, it seems bitterly unfair. To throw off those shackles and eat when I'm hungry and eat what I'm hungry for, that would be worth a year I think. Until I got to that last year. LOL Then I would probably be regretting my decision.
Anyway, of course no pregnancy news. No news is good news, I guess?
I think FF is right about your O date. You'll have a + OPK the day you ovulate, and a temp dip shows up just before your day of the big O. I'd call you 5 DPO. I'm having so much fun stalking you!
Ryan and Rachael
Parents to Chase, Abby, Hunter, Rachel, Caleb, Hannah & Nate
~Remembering sweet baby Oliver, born to Heaven October 20, 2009, & keeping Carole in our prayers~
Alissa!!!! I miss you over at the BLC! I just ran across your journal and read the whole thing! I will definitely be stalking you now You are rockin' it lady! Can't wait to read more!
Mama to Kostas with the Mostest, born 07/10/07
and Marek "Cricket" Joshua, born 12/07/12
Shauna!!!! OMG, how the heck are you??? I miss you ladies too - I actually just spied on you guys the other day to see who was on the BF'ing Mamas team these days. I see that Sophia is team leader now - very cool! I love your new siggy pic - you and Kostas both look gorgeous! Haha, thanks for stalking me. Send me lots of crossed fingers and baby dust, okay?
Rachael - Thanks! I'm fairly new to this whole charting thing, so it is nice to get other people's opinions on it. I guess only time will tell.