Now, I am 21 weeks - I can hardly believe it! I know anything still can happen - but to actually feel her move and kick and for her Daddy to feel her kick is amazing!!!! Yes, it is a girl!! I am so excited - although I know I would have been excited either way. Michael is super excited too.
I don't know what all I'll write about in here, but I think it's nice to have a place to come and just put down my thoughts. I haven't been the biggest poster since I got pg. At first bc I was so tired, sick all the time. I do check in on all my boards, but haven't been as active. Part of it has to be working....
Such horrible news today. My gf's dog got hit and killed by a car today. I can't believe it... They live way out in the country so we could have never expected this... I guess you never expect this...
We are definitely animal people - where our dogs are a part of our family. They are like our children. Foxy, the dog that was killed, is the mother of our little girl, Lola. Foxy was the whole reason we wanted the blue Pit Bull. She was an amazing dog - smart, friendly, good with kids, babies, everyone... I'm going to go visit our friends after work. I feel so bad for them. What can you say?
I was getting a little worried bc I hadn't felt Makena much in the past couple of days. But, then she started moving away again. All the books say that it's okay if you don't feel them consistently at this point - but I guess I am a worrier... I have been better about it - at least better than I expected myself to be.
Tomorrow is the Walk for the Cure for the American Cancer Society. I am meeting my Aunt & cousin at 6:30am to go down to the capitol for the walk. Hopefully I'll be able to stay awake... Definitely going to need a nap tomorrow. It's about 3 miles which will be a nice walk.
Michael and I worked on our accounting today and straightening up the office. So a productive day. We stayed up late last night just talking about everything going on in our lives. We haven't done that in a while. We talk every night of course, but it was fun to stay up late just talking and laughing like when we first met. We feel so lucky to have each other - and to have this precious little girl on the way.
I almost feel bad for everyone that doesn't have a relationship like ours - it seems almost too perfect sometimes. We just LOVE each other so much, both make pretty good money and like our jobs, we have most of the same goals and ideals in life, we share in the household responsiblities, etc. He does thoughtful things for me all the time and I do the same. Don't get me wrong we argue sometimes, but never for longer than a couple minutes and never without figuring it out and apologizing to each other.
It has to sound too good to be true, but it is such a good life. I feel so blessed.
I had a dr appt yesterday. Went well. B/P is great, got a flu shot - ouch! - but I somehow gained 10 freaking pounds.... I don't look like it except maybe in my huge boobs... This is the only place I am putting how much I gained. Just going to have to cut out the sweets and go to the gym more. I have battled an eating disorder so I have to watch worrying about this. I told Michael last night, maybe if I workout a little harder and watch what I eat better I wouldn't gain or could lose some for my next appt.
He's such a great partner. He said well, that's not healthy. You need to keep eating, it's okay to work out, but watch your heart rate - and sweetheart - YOU ARE PREGNANT. You are going to gain weight. It's the best for our little girl and it's okay. You look beautiful. And after she's born we'll work on a schedule to get you a healthy weight, tone etc. And I realized he's right.
I know I would never not eat because this little girl I'm carrying needs the food and I want her to be healthy. It's just scary sometimes. But then I think about how hard it was for us to get pg and how much I have wanted this little girl and I know it's all worth it.
Anyway, went to see my cousin's baby last night - and he is such a cutie!!! So little - 6lbs 4oz - and just the sweetest thing. I can't wait to be holding our child. It seems so far away right now.
We had a semi productive weekend... Saturday did pretty much nothing - which was nice to get to spend the entire day together just hanging out and watching movies. We went to the ILs for dinner which was fun. We always have a good time hanging out with them.
Sunday we got the grocery shopping done, picked up the house, and visited my cousins new baby, saw my other cousins new dog, and visitied our friends who's son just had surgery. Whew - I was worn out by the end of the day.
I have been feeling good. But last night just couldn't get comfy and had trouble sleeping... Michael is leaving for Las Vegas tomorrow morning and then getting back and coming back late on the night of the 2nd. He's going to a Seama (sp?) show there. Our company has some stuff in the show so he's taking a couple of guys from the shop there. They should have fun. But I'll miss him!!!
We just found out that my nephew Austin (3 months old) will be going in for heart surgery in three weeks. We knew it would be soon - but he lost a half of a pound at his last doctors visit so they moved it up. Poor, sweet little guy. We will be going to San Diego to help take care of his big brother, Tristian (2 1/2 yrs old). I just hope and pray it all goes well.
It looks like we will be missing Thanksgiving this year. Austin's surgery is scheduled for 11/22 down in San Diego, which is the polar end of CA from us. We are going to drive down there and don't want to be fighting traffic on the way up. Still trying to figure it all out. I haven't gotten to see him in real life yet bc he was born on Oahu and has been in and out of the hospital since his birth in July.
We are so excited to see him. And of course Tristian and my Brother & SIL.
Michael is in Las Vegas tonight, but will be back tomorrow. I miss him so much. I know I am a sap, but I can't help it. Bear & Lola will be sleeping with me tonight. It's funny they don't sleep in the bed when Michael is home, but they always do (with no invitation) when he's gone. Must be able to tell Mama needs company...
Makena has been so active. It's neat. She moves all over. I am really craving some applesauce, but afraid I might get indigestion if I eat it this late.... But I will probably give in.
She has been moving a lot lately. It is weird to feel her move across my stomach.
I went up to have dinner with my BF and her sister and another friend on Weds night. Lisa (BF) made homemade enchiladas (sauce & everything) it was soooo good. I took some home and had it for lunch yesterday too. Laura, (Lisa's sister), is about 3 weeks behind me pg wise and we are really showing differently. I have a popped out belly and she doesn't yet. She has more of the B shape. She's much taller than me too though.
I had a dream last night that I had the baby, she was a boy and that I kept leaving her everywhere and forgetting to take her with me. Then, I kept thinking - when was the last time I fed her? It was awful.
Michael & I babysat our neices last night for a couple hours. They were pretty good. He is so great with them! It is fun to see him playing tea party, teasing them, and just interacting with them. He is going to be an amazing father...
Jamie from my birth board will be 28 weeks tomorrow. Her baby has T13. It is so amazing that she has made it to 28 weeks. And I am so happy for her. She and her DH are strong people. I can't help but keep thinking maybe this is a miracle baby and everything will be okay. She keeps defying what the doctors are telling her with her strong little spirit. But I know if she doesn't it is going to be so hard for them and I can't even imagine. I just keep praying for her.
I sell real estate, coordinate transactions in my office, and manage the Agents in my office - all as an independent contractor. I do get paid to manage & coordinate on top of the commission I get for selling real estate. But it has been almost two years since I asked for a raise. So I asked yesterday, and am waiting a response.
I'm pretty sure I'll get one because they are afraid that I am not coming back after I have the baby - well not because of that but because I deseve it too. But of course I am coming back. I love my job, it's flexiblity and the oppurtunity to make as much or as little money as I want. I think now, if they want me to keep the website updated too - then I will ask for more money. I really do not want to do the website. It gives me zero interest...
Wow, I'm already six months pregnant... We haven't done anything to her room, or even registered yet either... I need to get on that stuff. It just seems like we have more time than we do. We go in for the 3D/4D u/s on Dec 1 - I can't wait to see what she looks like!
I'm kind of worried about Bear. He was throwing up the other morning - and then he was throwing up this morning too. One of my agents, Paul, passed away yesterday from cancer. He went so fast. They found it less than two months ago and now he's gone. I'm glad for him and his family though that he didn't have to suffer for very long. Cancer is such a terrible disease... My prayers & thoughts go out to that family.
Well, I guess that's it for today. My BF is coming over for dinner tonight with her son, Rhett. He is such a cutie - 10 months old.
Ugh... Woke up at like 3am with a sore throat from heck... And a stuffy nose - WTH? I got the stinkin flu shot... But I heard that it doesn't protect you from the regular colds. So I got up to get a vitamin C drop and tried to go back to sleep. I didn't for quite awhile so decided while I was up to take advantage of Michael...
He makes me laugh - he's like whoa what just happened?... ha, ha. Feeling a little better now - just stuffy nose and a little sore throat. Makena has been moving quite a bit. Can't wait to see her on Dec. 1.
Just found out yesterday that our sales rep and his girlfriend are pregnant.... Very crazy... I'll have to tell you the story later...
I need to be getting to bed, but lately I have been having these fears that something could happen, might happen and I won't get to have this beautiful little girl that I am carrying. The child I lost was very early in pg - about 6 weeks, and now I am almost 26 weeks with Makena - but you never know what can happen until you are holding them in your arms, right?....
I need to get over it. We need to start her nursery, etc. I just feel like we might be jinxing ourselves. I go into her room and look at the stuff that needs to get cleaned out and I just can't get motivated...