Well it was a good weekend. I just went ahead and deleted my last journal on the old bb. I figure it was just daily things nothing major. I had been doing well and written in it since Jan 1. I will continue to try to write in here daily with daily life things. Its a nice place to come and vent and a place to put joys and triumphs also.
Tyler had a ball game today. He didnt play as well as he could have but did pretty well. He is enjoying it and its nice to see him around other kids. Tommorrow will be difficult he has a game after school and I will have to take Justin and Noah. Keeping track of Noah will be interesting. He is such a busy little butt.
Dave is not happy with the coach. Not playing Tyler as a catcher. He is so weird sometimes. I dont think Tyler could play in that postion but he thinks that is the only place he should be. The problem is that they have this kid that is awesome. That and then 3 more that have played in the past. Tyler doesnt even have a catchers mitt. I told Dave we need to get him one but he just pouts. I think he feels that Tyler came from being one of the best players to one that has to heaven forbid play some in the outfeild. I think the coach is doing a great job. The kids all sit one inning a game and they all get a chance to bat. Half way through the game he switches them around and they change positions. Dave is so hung up on things sometimes. I dont understand him sometimes.
I say let Tyler play get some exercise and learn more about the game.
Tyler had a game last night and I had to take Noah and Justin that is such a hassle they are not the sit on the chair and watch a whole game type kid. It was freezing too. BRRR. He is still having some trouble with hitting but did pretty good. He has a really good team.
I had a headache this morning and spent most of the morning laying on the couch while Noah trampled over me. I did manage to take some tylenol and feel better. We have eaten lunch and I did a load of laundry. I would like to finish it all and get it PUT AWAY. I know same old same old complaint of mine. I really am a pig. I try not to be but it is so much easier to just leave it than to take the effort to put it away.
We were all in bed by 10 and Noah slept all night. He has done pretty good at that again. I hope I did not jinx that. UGh nothing worse than not getting a good night sleep.
I am so ready for warm weather. I cant wait to take the boys to the ocean and to the parks. Or just walks with them to feed the ducks. They are going to love the boardwalk.
I am still in my jammies I suppose I should get motivated to get out of them and into some real clothes to finish the laundry vacumn the floor and make the beds.
Busy day yesterday. Spent the whole day running errands. It was beautiful outside. Noah had on shorts. I tood two walks with two different neighbors. Guess I will be getting a work out. LOL I bought a new patio table and chairs. Will be nice this summer. We used it last night and grilled out it was so nice. The two big ones are home from school today. Spring break starts tomorrow and they have been saying they had sore throats any ways. I finished up the Easter bucket shopping. Just need to put them together. I figure buckets they can use again.
Nothing going on much next couple days. May try to find a egg hunt for Noah on Saturday.
Well spring break has started. The fighting and whining and the screaming also. Why do my children have to fight with each other. Please someone tell me I am not alone in this......... Justin is a screamer I think he is the most annoying. Tyler is the tormentor and Noah is the little one into everything.
No plans for Easter here just going to grill out something if it decides to warm up. I may make a lasgna if its too cool to grill out. I would like to take the boys somewhere if just for a day next week. Some where in Jersey that we have not been to yet. That would be easy there isnt many places that we have been.
Probably wont be posting much this week. I will be busy with the boys and not online much.
This is pathetic. I started this journal on Jan 1/ 03 and wrote in it every day faithfully. Sometimes two or three times a day. Now that I deleted my old one and started this new one I just dont feel like coming in here. Change maybe just the new layout. I like it and all but when your used to something else and it gets changed you dont keep doing it.
I still struggle with keeping up with the laundry and feeling that as a parent I suck.
I was about to just type I wish my kids didnt have to behave so that I yelled at them then thought about that its me isnt it?! Dealing with them by yelling instead of just dealing. I know that I never ever dreamed that being a parent would be so much work or so hard. I love my children and my husband but sometimes I think where would I be if I wasnt here......
Oh did I mention its pms time again. I almost always flip out this time of the month. Little things stress me out. I scream and cry and nothing seems right.
Did I also mention its spring break and my boys are home all week since last Thursday.
Yesterday day was nice Tyler went to his friends house and was gone all day. That is terrible to say but when he isnt tormenting Justin all the time it goes so much easier. We went to church and then came home for BLT. I had bought some steaks and things from the butcher shop then Dave went and invited the neighbors over for dinner on Sat. night. They are remodling this 1/2 million dollar home and probably put that much more into it. She took me for a tour. I can only say OMG. It was beautiful the entry way is marble and the kitchen is gorgeous. Custom marble and granite and stainless steel appliances. I said well we are just simple people I hope your not too disappointed. The husband is a lawyer and she is mmmmmm something with a towing service. They have one child (well she does) who is 10. Tyler loves her they play alot. They were friendly and seemed to enjoy the meal. I hope they did becouse we spent about 50 dollars on the meat. It was going to be our easter grill out.
They did say that growing up they were both poor. She was a single mom for 5 years. I said well my house isnt perfect but the boys have been home since Thursday. The clothes were off the dining room table. Thats about it.
I have to get those clothes today. I did some laundry all ready and my goal is to get their rooms this week and to get all the clothes put away.
On scale of 1-10 I feel like a 5 today. I had a really bad case of the flu yesterday morning and still not feeling that well. I have not puked or pooped since then but still not feeling 100%.
I made Tyler clean his room to a point. It still isnt perfect but its a lot better. The neighbor girl was out side so I figured he could do it later. For him to go outside and get some exercise is more important to me than for him to finish cleaning his room.
Noah has been runny nose and sneezing lately. I sure hope we can get over it with out a trip to the doctor office. I dont know how we get so tight on money but it happens every single time. Make more money spend more money. UGh its the same old thing. I know we could live in a smaller place and not so nice. I like the house we live in and we are blessed to afford it but at what cost........ Our lease is up in October so we will see then about moving. I know Daves answer he will stay here instead of moving. He really hates moving. Funny he sure has moved alot.
I should get to the laundry that I left on my table yesterday. It is 11:40 maybe I should put on some clothes and get out of these jammies??????
Had a much better day yesterday. I was feeling pretty good so told the boys to get ready and I would take them to mini golf. They had each been to a birthday party and had a free coupon to golf. The neighbor girl was over so I said she could come too. Her mother and father were unpacking so I figured they would enjoy the break. It was my plan to not spend much money under 20 if possible. I called Dave at work to see if I could take out 20 to take them so they could get something to eat if they needed. I got there and the place is a huge amusement type place. Not six flags or disney by any means but a small park with batting cages, archery, mini golf, some kiddie rides, climbing wall things like that. Well since it was spring break and they were just opening those other activities this week they were running a special and had wrist band days for 12 dollar they could do all the activities. Including go carts those alone are 4.50 each time. I called back and said could I take out a extra 20 so that Justin and Noah could have a wrist band too. It started at 12 and we were there pretty soon after that. We stayed till 6pm they were so exhausted and had such a good time. Noah loved all the rides. He was barely 36 to ride the kiddie ones but he rode them all even this little roller coaster thing. He had to sit with one of his brothers but he never cried once. He only cried when they told him to get off becouse they wanted to ride with a friend. LOl someone asked me how old he was when I said 2 they couldnt belive he was riding that. We did the mini golf and it is actually a pretty nice coarse. Justin fell in this huge water hole. He was sitting on the side or something. I felt bad for him he was soaked from the waist down then he started trembling and I said its ok your not in trouble I think he was embarrassed and afraid he was in trouble. He can be so sweet. I didnt have any clothes that were dry but it was getting late and we were almost done. He said he wanted to stay so we stayed until 6. He actually made a little friend and was riding several rides with him before we left. It was too cute.
I have to remember to get us some sunscreen Noahs little cheeks are pretty rosy today and so is my face. The joys of having fair skinned children.......I am envious of dark skin people.
With me being sick on Monday and gone all day yesterday the house is looking pretty gross. I am working on catching up the laundry. My goals today are the laundry and the bathrooms. Tomorrow the kitchen and living room.
I have been sleeping pretty well a little tired Noah was up early today but not too bad. I am stiff from all that walking yesterday its so sad to be so darn fat and out of shape.
Some days I really dont like myself much. I look in the mirror and say oh my gosh how did that happen?????
Well the laundry is about to finish and time to switch to dryer and start on the last load.
I have gotten back in the swing of writing in here each day. I dont know why it was so hard it was only a minor thing that changed but I am telling you change can do it. LOL
WEll to most of you this will not be very exciting...... Life with a 2 year old. Noah pooped in his potty today. Whoo hoo maybe we are on the way to being ready than I give him credit. I have not really started but since the potty is out in the kitchen again next to the computer he finds himself sitting on it more and more. Today I noticed him sitting there so I ignored him and sure enough he started grunting and got up and said mamma look YUCK!!!! It was too cute. Then he kept screaming poop at the top of his lungs. Oh joy joy the joys of potty training.
On a another little note I did manage to get most of my house clean today. The living room and the kitchen floor and the table and all the clothes off the table. The dishes done I think I did a good job. I even vacumed. Now maybe I can just up keep and get to the bedrooms and bathrooms tomorrow.
Ugh I missed a day again. I just cant seem to get back into this journal. I had a pretty good day yesterday nothing exciting. I cant even remember.....how sad is that.
I remember cleaning maybe that is what i spent the day doing. No wonder I dont remember it.
Took the boys to the park today. Dave has a ballgame tonight so wont be home until after 10pm. Oh darn... he called and said it didnt start till 730 I said and your telling me why. He said just wanted to make sure it was all right. I was like well yea its fine. I guess I should be glad he called to tell me in the first place and just not sat around worrying why it took him so long.
Need to finish up the dishes
and get dinner started I am sure the boys will be hungry soon
I must say this is the first month in like 2 years that I have af here and there was no major blow up the week before. It usually means that I have a major episode with screaming and crying and no control. Major fight with the husband and or children and threats of the divorce. LOL I am not quite sure what was different about this month. I have been walking some maybe just the little bit of exercise was what helped.
I had the two extra kids here again this morning. I must say kids in 3 never really play well at my house. My son just can not handle more than one friend over at a time. He is great one on one but when we throw two there is usually a fight or dispute.
Dave brought me home 4 lbs of strawberrys yummy yummy. I sliced them and put a little bit of sugar on them. I think I will go to the store and get some whipped cream and shortcake. MMMMMMM what a nice way to celebrate spring.
Justin went to work with Dave this morning. He seems like he enjoyed it. He never gets to do things with him alone. I try to encourage him to spend individual time with them but that doesnt all ways happen.
I am feeling pretty good considering af showed up this morning. I knew she would be here soon.