Someone tried to break into DH’s store over the weekend. They tried to kick the metal frame around the glass door in, morons. At least it wasn’t as bad as the first time someone tried to break in, the first 6 weeks that we were here were bad. First someone tried to break into the store, then DH’s grandma passed away, I was then in a car accident that totaled my Camaro, my cousin lost her baby, and then someone shot a .22 at our bedroom window while we were sleeping. Every 2 weeks something bad happened, it was nice when that stint was over. The first time DH had gotten to work and noticed the building now had a new window in the back wall. It turned out there was an old window that had been blocked off and the wanna-be thief removed the wood covering the window, along with the insulation, pushed in the wall and then started removing bolts that held bars in the window. The only reason he didn’t get in was because of one bolt that he couldn’t see from the outside, the bolt of God as I like to call it. My parents came up that night to help DH fill the hole with concrete and fix the damage. Since my dad was working turn around they didn’t get here until after midnight so DH and I slept in the store that night to make sure no one else tried to break in. I remember SIL was a total ***** too, she liked to use pregnancy as an excuse to be mean and rude to people. I called her up on Sunday morning to have her tell my aunt and cousin (whom we were all supposed to meet at Olive Garden for lunch) that we would be about 30 min late. She informs me, in a not so nice way, that she isn’t going and she isn’t going to tell them we’ll be late. I was so furious with her attitude I had to hang up before I said something as *****y as her. You’d think we’d be use to her shenanigans by now.
B did really well at day care yesterday and ate great, I’m thinking that the new woman probably followed his schedule like I have it written out, it works for a reason. He gave me the biggest smile when he saw me; at least I know he knows his mama. I’m not sure if he had another nightmare last night or not. I was asleep and around 10:30 I heard him fussing/crying. He built it up fast into a full out cry/scream so I got up and held him until he calmed down and was breathing normal again. He was awake when I got to the crib so it wasn’t like the other times where I had to actually wake him out of it. DH must have heard him too because he came upstairs to “help” out. Once he was calm I turned his Twilight Turtle and mobile on and put him down, he went back to sleep without a fuss though it took me a bit more.
This afternoon is going to be busy, we have to drop the Cavalier off to get the slow leak in the tire fixed, go to the dentist, take B to get his second flu shot, and stop at Ace to buy paint, nails, and rollers. I hope everything goes good at the dentist so we aren’t there forever but I’m preparing myself for a cavity. If I’m done before DH I’ll go pick B up from day care so we can save a little bit of time.
The weather the last 2 days has really made me want spring to come. It’s been in the 40’s to 50’s but of course we’ll be back down to single digits by the end of the week. I’m going to work some more on my flower beds to try to fill in the empty spaces and I want to cover the bare ground with wood chips. That should help save me some time with pulling weeds this summer. I also want to expand my native garden this summer and I need to plan out my garden. I sure hope the raspberries and rhubarb do good this year, I should probably find some fertilizer to give them, hmm.
Today has been super busy and everything has turned out better than I expected. I had one meeting this morning I was dreading because I had to deal with a threat a contractor had made but I managed to deal with it in a happy tone so I think we’re ok. Other than that my file pile is still huge and I think I need to organize my desk so I can function tomorrow without being/feeling so scattered.
I really like the dentist we went to, he’s new in town (still living in a hotel with his wife and 3 kids) and fairly young but I was really comfortable and he didn’t inflict pain so that helped. DH said it sounded like we were having a party when they were doing my cleaning. I of course have a cavity, I could see the darn thing a few months ago but it at least doesn’t hurt. DH has a cracked filling so we’re both going back in 2 weeks to get fixed. B did well during this second flu shot, he fussed/whined a little bit then was ok. He’s such a trooper. I didn’t stop to get paint because I just wanted to get home so I’ll do that this weekend.
My parents will be up in two weeks so my plan this weekend is to clean the whole house, paint the doors, plan and shop for the meals, and maybe start on the ceiling in the bathroom. DH finally found the check register for the store so I will do his books this weekend, it will be nice to have that pile of papers off my island.
I think DH is going to have his store Christmas party the weekend my parents are up so they can watch B while we’re out. It will be nice to have a dinner out and a movie. I’m getting antsy for our taxes, I know it’s been less than a week but I just don’t know what to expect this year. I hope we don’t owe but if we do I hope it’s not a whole lot, I’d rather spend my money one something fun.
We’ve been dealing with a nightmare from the company we ordered the tv from. They claimed it was shipped so DH was trying to get a tracking number from them, well when you call they say everyone is busy, put you on hold, then state you need to contact them by e-mail and hang up on you. So if you e-mail them they take forever to get back to you and it’s been really frustrating. DH finally got a hold of someone in sales and said he needed a tracking number and he had another guy call DH, of course when he wasn’t around, and that guy said the part hasn’t and will not ship because they no longer have it. Ok, fine, but the problem is they’ve charged our credit card and haven’t reversed the charge even though we’ll never get the tv. I’m pretty peeved and I made DH call the credit card company last night to have the charge denied, well he had to fill out a form stating what was going on and then they’ll handle it. At least they don’t charge interest when this happens or I would be on the rampage. So we’re going to get the tv local and we’ll pay more for it but at least we’ll have something. I guess with all the orders we do online we’re bound to get one now and then that doesn’t go smoothly.
I better get to filing, only 1.5 hours left, woohoo!
B has started using some new consonants and I’m so proud. He’s also moving his mouth a little different than usual so I started working with him saying Dada. The sounds he’s making have more of a d sound so I figure Dada may be the best, I’m ok with him not saying Mama first because I know he loves me, I can see it in how he looks at me. Last night I kept saying Dada and he would move his bottom jaw up and down while watching my mouth and he did get Dada out a couple times, not that he knew what he was saying. I’m excited and I know we’re going to have a talker on our hands. His 6 month pictures are tomorrow afternoon; I’m picking him up so hopefully I’ll have some time to clean him up so he’s presentable for the pictures. I know we’ll do some nude pictures, bath pictures, and I’m hoping to do pictures in his overalls again. We’ll see how it goes. I have to get everything organized tonight so we’re prepared and not rushed tomorrow.
I guess SIL wants a part time job now, I think it will be good for her to see how well she has it not having to work out of the home but I also don’t think she’ll do it. She won’t want to work weekends or nights and most pt jobs require that especially since her only experience is waitressing. I hope she finds what she needs to make herself happy but I don’t want to think of what a disaster zone the house will be if she gets a job. We may have to start staying at a hotel when we visit. She had a huge fight with her dad on Sunday to the point where they were screaming at each other. I’m sure she started it because John is laid back and not one to instigate. Logan was huddled in the corner crying and when my SIL left she told her parents they would never see the kids again (this is why my mom does everything to make W happy because she would be devastated to lose her grandkids). Brenda called my mom to tell her what happened and have her check that the kids are ok and when my mom called W she acted like nothing happened at all and that the day was just perfect and fine. I’m worried she’s going to really lose it one of these days and hurt the kids, my mom doesn’t thin she’d hurt the kids when in a rage but we also didn’t think she’s ever throw a glass at my brothers head. This is the reason we will not have my brother and SIL be the guardians to our kids if something were to happen to us. I refuse to willingly put my child in a destructive situation like that.
I don’t have any motivation today, I would like to just relax and do a lot of nothing. I guess it’s snowing outside but being stuck in the basement with no windows I’m not sure how much we have. They were saying 2-4 inches across the state but out highs are around freezing so we’ll see how long it sticks. I better do something productive.
Well we’re white again and it’s wonderful! We’re supposed to get more snow today and through the weekend, though I’m hoping it holds out until after our pictures because I have quite a bit of driving to do this afternoon. My only concern is being late because I hate to be late.
B didn’t have the best day at day care yesterday. He didn’t eat a whole lot for them and I guess he cried for about an hour. They think maybe teething pain but I’m not sure since he’s great for us. He did eat oatmeal and 2 bowls of food when I got him home so maybe he just wasn’t hungry. I put him down for a 30 min nap after he ate and then shoveled snow. It was really nice out, it wasn’t cold or windy and it felt good being outside and doing something. I enjoy shoveling in those conditions. I then figured out what to make for dinner, got that started and the dishes put away then got B up for his bath. DH gave him the bath and fed him and I did the story and prayers. He is really interested in the night light because it’s next to the rocking chair in his room, so that’s the big thing during bed time. He’s also been very interested in my necklaces lately and I’m trying to teach him gentle touch only but it’s hard with a 7 month old. He’s pretty cute when he gets his concentrating look (lips puckered out/eyebrows bunched together) and does his best to reach my necklaces.
B was very chipper and giggly this morning, it was fun. He also had a lot of talking to do so I heard some good stories. Hopefully he’ll be like this around 3:00 for his pictures. I’m not sure what package we’re getting today, it’s up to DH. I was just going to do the cheapest but DH mentioned he’d like the DVD, so if we get that one it’s a bit more but either way I’ll put the pictures to use. Grandparents can never get too much, unless MIL thinks the picture makes his head look too big (I think she really didn’t like the one photo because he looks like a balding old man, I think he’s adorable in the picture and have it at work with me). I see no reason to try to hide the changes a baby goes through, I prefer to have pictures of them so I can remember and smile. I really wish I would have taken a picture of his foot when he was first born. Since he was squashed inside of me his left foot would go flat against his shin unless he was stretching it out. It’s normal now and didn’t last for more than a week but its one thing that makes him unique. At least we have it on video.
I have most of the little jobs done for the day and have to review some construction plans and go to a meeting to discuss a new project before I leave for the day. There’s a little bit of preparing to do but most of that was taken care of yesterday. My estimate is way off and needs to be revised but that’s life and price increases for you. After B’s pictures and viewing I want to get my paint so I can start the doors either tonight or tomorrow. I also need to plan my meals for next weekend and do some grocery shopping. We’re low on all food products for B so I have to get that shopping done by Sunday. I’m not sure if DH works Saturday or not, probably since he’s taking next weekend off.
B's picutres went great, they were so cute it was really hard picking which ones to get. I was ticked at DH because right as I was pulling into the parking lot to pick him up he called me to say not to pick him up. I wasn't too happy and should have reacted better but he didn't make me happy when he yelled and said this is business. I just felt like he again chose someone/something over me and that's what bothered me, not that he had to do something for work.
After the pictures I got my paint and came home and did a lot of nothing. I did go to bed early and got about 9 hours last night since B didn't wake up until 7:00 so that was nice. After I fed B I started cleaning the kitchen and dusting his room and the livingroom. When he went down for his nap I shoveled the sidewalks, got about 1.5 inches, then took a shower. DH didn't wake up until almos 10:00, he apparently was beat. Once DH was showered and B had another bottle we went to town and did quite a bit. I hit the health food store to get some wheat free goodies for my dad and DH found a bunch of beer to buy. Then we went to Staples for DH's store, looked at tvs, went to Costco, and then hit Target. We're now stocked up again and it feels nice. B was really tired so we didn't go to the grocery store, we'll do that tomorrow after church. I cleaned the bathroom and finished dusting so all that's left is the floors and downstairs which I'll do tomorrow. I want to do DH's books tonight and get a coat of paint on the doors too.
DH decided to go back to town to get a tv and he's hooking it up right now, it's very nice and very expensive. As long as he's happy I don't really care.
We did buy some different sippy cups for B at Target. One has a straw and he did great with it though he kept tipping it and I didn't put enough formula in there for him to get it easily. The other has a really soft tip and we'll try that one tomorrow. He hasn't been eating as much from his bottles and I think it's because he just wants to move constantly and doesn't have "time" to eat, I know he'll get what he needs so I won't stress.
He's started doing an odd thing with his voice. He'll inhale and make a high pitched sound while he does it, he isn't struggling to breath and he does it on purpose so I think it's just something new he's figured out. He's our little spaz.
Well I did absolutely nothing I needed to last night except I did call Wendy and it was great talking to her. DH and I are trying to figure out when to go see them, sometime in April or May we think. I didn't get to bed until almost 1:00 so it was a bit rough this morning with B. After I fed him (and he's still not interested what so ever in eating) I put him on the floor to play while I snoozed on the couch. At 7:30 I tried to feed him some solids then I gave up and got ready for church. After church we went to the grocery store and I stocked up big time. I also found some wheat free/gluten free pre-made pizza crusts so we're going to have pizza for lunch while my parents are up. Hopefully the crusts don't totally suck, there's only one way to find out.
When we got home I started working on DH's books and toward the end I was a cranky girl. I still need to check some bank statements that of course are at the store but that will go fast. I did get my first coat of paint on the doors and will put the second coat on around 5:00, it'll be nice to be done with that project. DH cleaned the downstairs for me and I'm doing laundry so there isn't much more to do. I need to put some things on the walls in the bathroom but I have to touch up some paint first, yippee.
B has been great today, he's such a doll. My patience was really low while I was doing the books and DH was downstairs doing who knows what. B kept fussing and I couldn't tolerate it anymore and yelled for DH to get his butt up here to take care of our son. You'd think he's just do it and know when I'm doing work I can't really think while a baby's yelling at me. Other than that he's been giggling and making lots of sounds, I need to get off this computer to play with him and maybe cuddle, I have to get some of that in.
We got about 5 inches of snow last night though the closer I got to town the less there was. It’s going to be one heck of a job shoveling tonight since it was still snowing when I got to work. I hope the roads are good for when my parents come up, I become such a worry wart when they travel but at least they now have a cell phone so I can see where they’re at. My dad always drinks a 44-ozer of soda when he leaves town so they stop a lot to pee, thus they’re always about an hour behind schedule. I’m really looking forward to seeing my parents.
I painted the doors last night and DH put the door to the basement back up so the job is completed! We’re such goobers, the basement door has an automatic closing hinge and we put the door up but put the hinge on wrong so it would automatically open. DH was thinking we’d have to take the whole door down but I just removed the auto hinge and put it on properly, it’s funny how we make things more difficult than they need to be. The house is also clean so I’ll only have to do a quick cleaning on Thurs/Fri to prepare for my parents.
DH decided to get HD cable added since we now have a HD tv, he also upgraded our cable from basic to the next step so we’ll have ESPN starting Thursday. I have stated my concerns about ESPN with him and laid down some rules. I told him ESPN will not be on continually just for the sake of ESPN being on. At his parents and brothers house they keep ESPN on all the time so after 30 min they just start repeating everything and I can’t stand it! He is aware that I refuse to have this added to the list of things I compete with for his attention. We’ll see how well my rules are followed. I don’t mind sports but it sickens me when people put athletes on pedestals and act like they’re gods. And all the crap they get away with that is so inappropriate. It’s just sad that these people are role models to so many kids.
I have been informed of a job that is in my degree and is up the alley from work I did before we moved here. There are a couple things that would be entirely new but it could get me back into working with weeds. DH said I should apply and I think I will, it’s worth a try. I kind of feel like I don’t have a drive or desire for my position right now and this may be an answer I didn’t really expect. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about finding something that’s only part time but what I probably really need is just something that will bring excitement and enjoyment to my job. So I’m going to think about it and do some praying and if it’s meant to be it will be. Part of me always feels guilty when I consider leaving a position I’m in, I know I’m replaceable but I hate to put the people I work with in the position of having to cover more themselves. And hey I may not even get the job or want it after an interview so there’s always that. I keep thinking there’s a reason this was brought to my attention and especially when so many questions regarding my position (and its stability) now have cropped up.
B is still making his high pitched inhaling sound and it seems to have replaced the growl he had been doing. He gives me a funny look when I copy his inhaling sound then of course I get a huge grin. It’s so easy to lose your heart with these little ones and it’s wonderful to be able to think of them and smile at any time.
B had a great day at day care yesterday, which was surprising with how little he slept. He did ok eating though they had to keep trying with him. He ate quite a bit for me, 2 bowls of fruit with oatmeal and half a jar of turkey & sweet potatoes with oatmeal. We did lots of giggling while waiting for DH to get home. He also gets a kick out of me ducking behind the bed and popping up to say Peek-a-boo. I’m apparently a very funny person.
The roads were slick around work when I was leaving yesterday. One stop sign I almost slid right through it then I about hit a construction sign trying to stop at the other stop sign, I was going slow too. The interstate was good and that’s what I care about. They plowed our street so there was a big pile of snow at our driveway; I had to gun it to make sure I’d make it through. The one neighbor down the street plowed the sidewalks for everyone and I shoveled DH’s side of the driveway so he wouldn’t have to worry about making it through, his car’s a bit lower than mine. DH was going to shovel after eating dinner and I heard shoveling while I was putting B to bed, I came out of the bedroom and DH is standing by the door wondering who’s shoveling outside. Our other neighbor was shoveling their place and felt good so he kept going and took care of the rest of our driveway and the sidewalk leading to the front door. It was very nice of him. I bought some cookie dough from a girl raising money to go over seas with People to People, so I’m going to make some cookies tonight and give them to both neighbors that have been sweet enough to shovel for us. I must say the part I did last night was a pretty good work out and my weight this morning showed it so that’s a good thing! I have not been doing well on watching what I eat but I’m going to start tracking my calories again and probably will shoot for 1200 but do no more than 1400 because 1200 is hard to do. My main goal should be to start exercising daily so I’m going to work on that as my top priority. I just really need to stop beating myself up over not being perfect on this.
I’m still debating what to think about this job opening. I’m just not sure if I want to delve into something more demanding of my time or if I want to try to find something that is only part time so I have more time with B. I just can’t decide but what I’ll probably do is apply for this position and let what happens happen. If it’s for me I’ll get it if not then I won’t and that’s my answer. I need to stop over thinking this.
I talked with my mom last night for about 10 min, she told me I only had 10 min because Hero’s was going to be on. I made sure they were ok with watching B on Saturday night while DH and I go out to eat and to a movie with his employees for the store’s Christmas party. I knew they’d be more than happy but thought I better check and not just assume. I’m really looking forward to crab legs, and I’m making a sirloin steak stew for my parents to have on Saturday night. Not quite as good as crab legs but they’ll be happy. My brother and SIL got another dog. They got a female chocolate lab and their 2 year old male lab peed on my brother’s leg when they picked her up. It must be his way of showing he’s threatened because he peed in our basement and then on B’s car seat (while B was in it) the first time they visited after B was born. I’m not so sure this puppy will cure Pepper of getting out of the yard and running off but it’s not my problem. Hopefully now that they have 2 dogs they’ll leave them at home when they visit but I’m sure they’ll bring them both along. I like dogs but I do not like having to clean up all that hair after they leave. Maybe it will be better when our back yard is fenced in and I can make them spend most of their time outside.
It snowed about 3” last night and I can’t remember the last time we received so much snow day after day. That’s so sad too because we should be getting snow like this from October to April every year, or at least keeping the temps down low enough to hold onto the snow we do receive. The roads were decent but the visibility was pitiful, I could only see about 25 feet in front of the car. The wind was blowing just right to make it impossible to see, bah!
DH ticked me off this morning, happy Valentine’s Day right? We don’t ever celebrate Valentine’s Day because I think it’s stupid, I’d rather save the money to enjoy our Anniversary since that day actually means something to us. Anyways, B woke up about 10 min early this morning so I didn’t have time to put my makeup on before I got him ready. After he ate I took him into the bathroom with me so I could put my makeup on and use the toilet. Well B is a talker and doesn’t care that DH is sleeping in the room next to us and I’m not going to stifle him when he’s doing nothing wrong. He of course woke DH up so he got up, gasp, 10 min early and I said, “oops you woke daddy up” when DH came into the bathroom. His response was, “Always does.” He then proceeds to ask me to “hang out” somewhere other than the bathroom in the morning, I didn’t realize I was hanging out in the bathroom because it’s so much fun in there, where else am I supposed to pee? Oh I suppose I need to go downstairs to use the bathroom when the a-hole is sleeping. I explained that B woke up early and I was putting my make up on, he said I know but… So I grabbed B and we left the bathroom without a word and DH kept saying things like, I’m not trying to make you mad, blah, blah, blah. I’m especially annoyed because he never gets up early on the weekdays or weekends to take care of B, instead I’m the one getting up to do it all. Where does he get off getting annoyed about waking up 10 min early if that’s the only sacrifice he makes to get up early for OUR child? I’m just fed up like usual and B and I had been having a great morning up until that point. I guess I’m just supposed to take care of everything and make sure his life doesn’t change at all to accommodate his wife and son. That’s my rant for the day so I’ll stop now.
I’m pretty excited because I found a forum that has a bunch of women that have/are doing the early potty training with their babies according to the Baby Whisperer. I’m hoping to get some input on what’s worked and what hasn’t so that will be helpful. I also want to see if any moms that work full time out of the house have had success. Since I’m planning to keep this pretty much to DH and I (IRL anyways) to avoid criticism day care won’t be aware of it until B starts “telling” us that he has to go potty. Not sure what they’ll think about it but I also don’t really care. I found a potty seat at Target last weekend that has handles on it so I’m going to keep that one upstairs and put the other seat downstairs. I’m also going to order a portable/folding potty seat so we will have that when we’re out and about; it’s just finding a good one that won’t pinch his little bum. At this point it’s all about making it part of the routine to sit on the potty and if he’s successful great, if not no big deal.
I made cookies last night and will have to get some to our neighbors tonight, I also got the valentine’s for B’s room written up and hopefully they’ll find them because I’m sure DH didn’t tell them where they were. I need to clean the shower head tonight, it’s got a nice build up of hard water on it and it’s been a couple months since I’ve scrubbed it down. Tomorrow night I need to do some laundry, thaw food for the weekend, and start making some of the salads/desserts. I better make a list or I’ll forget something.
Daycare had B make a cute valentine for DH and me. It says “Thum body loves you and it’s me.” It has his little thumb print in the middle and is really sweet. He was sleeping when we got home so I shoveled the sidewalks and driveway and cleaned up a little bit around the house. DH did most everything for B when he got home and I put him to bed. We then watched some tv and at 9:30 I said I had to go to bed, that was the end of enjoyment last night. I went into the kitchen to get water and realized B didn’t have any bottles so I started making some formula and DH comes in saying he’ll make the bottles. Well at this point I’m already doing it and said I’ll do it. He does his, I know you can do it just let me do it, and gets all huffy and storms off. Now I’m ticked off and I slammed the door a bit harder than I wanted when I went into the bedroom. I put laundry away, it had been sitting in the basket for 3 days, and go into the bathroom and DH comes in and says do you want to tell me what’s on your mind? You went from happy to angry in the blink of an eye. So I explain to him (and not for the first time) that when it gets to the point that I’m doing something that needs to be done, him offering to do it then is a bit too late. He then says to me, I can’t read your mind and know what needs to be done. I explain that he doesn’t need to be a mind reader to see that formula needs to be made. He then brings up dusting 2 weekends ago to “help” me out and I had already dusted, how is he supposed to know? I then told him that on that weekend I had to finish painting, take care of B, and clean the house before his parents arrived the next day and he just leaves me to go do work on his aunts computer. I wasn’t even thought of when he said he’d work on their computer and I was left alone to do everything, so that’s what I did. I then get, well I’m sorry for helping other people and trying to fix things. I told him that his reply makes me feel like a selfish ***** and he says that’s not how he means it, well how the hell else am I supposed to take it? Why couldn’t he have said I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you needed me, or I’m sorry I didn’t help you when you needed it? Instead I get this reply that makes me feel worse. I also brought up that last time I asked him to do something for me and he said he had to clean downstairs but then spent most of the next 2 hours on the computer. I told him that nothing ever changes after we have these talks and there’s no resolution, he agreed but it sure didn’t change anything or give us any resolution last night. I’m so damn frustrated and angry at him. He went downstairs and I cried myself to sleep so I have the lovely puffy eyes today. He also tried to throw me shoveling the snow in my face, he said that when I shovel it gives him even less to do around the house and makes him look like a jerk. I don’t understand his a-hole replies and I feel like my feelings don’t matter, along with my time. I don’t know what else to do or say to him. Is it too much for me to expect my husband to pay attention to me and the house?
This morning B was a happy boy so we ate and got dressed and played. We stayed away from the bathroom because we don’t want to wake crabby patty. At 5 to 7:00am I put B in his crib with some toys to play with and I told DH I was leaving and he needed to get up. He came out to the kitchen to give me a hug and kiss good bye but I really could have done without that. I’m sure by this evening he won’t even remember that I’m upset and think that everything’s perfect and back to normal. Well I’m done pretending, I need changes to be made because I’m tired of having crappy weekends and crying myself to sleep. Maybe I am just a cold heartless *****.