Holy beans we had a fantastic weekend, none of us wanted it to end but reality always comes back into the picture. Friday I was out early and stopped to pick up the cake and of course saw some GF cookie assortments for sale and stupidly bought them, they were delicious and helped to add 3 pounds to my weight this weekend. The cake was 4 layers and heavy! It was so pretty and I was a nervous wreck that it was going to be destroyed on the car ride. I had to stop and pick up some fake poinsettia flowers to decorate the cake and DH called to let me know that L was saying her ear hurt and didn?t nap well at DC so he was going to take her to Urgent Care. I ran home and did the final packing and made L?s bed then DH picked me up. L had an ear infection on her ear drum so we stopped at the grocery store to fill her prescription and finally hit the road an hour later than we had planned. The IL?s found us as soon as we got there and I had to try to hide some of the surprises when they were helping to unload the car, it was a bit annoying! We set the room up then headed down to watch the game and eat dinner but the kids weren?t allowed in the bar area (where the TV and IL?s were) after 6 so we had to sit I the caf? to eat. Once dinner was done we headed to the pool then stopped at the IL?s room to visit for a bit. At 10 I told the kids they had 5 min and once that time was up I started to get them out the door and MIL then asks if she can read a story to them. I had to say no, she should have done that at the 5 min warning. I didn?t sleep well because I was worried L was going to wet the bed so I finally just got up and had her potty and then I slept fine.The kids were up by 7 and we had breakfast then headed to the pools. After a nice soak we got ready for the day and then headed out to the playground and fed the animals. We had lunch in our room and then put the kids down for naps. L fought it though B was out quickly. Once I got her down I texted SIL to try to figure out what the plans were and once the kids were up it was time to get dressed up for the family pictures. We just suckered people into taking the pictures for us and they turned out really nice. We headed out for dinner and it was OK, not the best but we had fun. When the check came I knew FIL wasn?t supposed to have it and as the waiter started to hand it to FIL I snatched it out of his hand. FIL then tells me I?m to give it to him or this could get physical. I know he was joking but really? It?s annoying. I told him to take it up with his daughter and gave C the bill. We headed back to the hotel and people scattered. The nephews went to swimming and MIL & FIL went for a walk to just go sit in the lobby. We finally gathered everyone around 9:15 and had cake and champagne then watched a picture slide show in our room. It was really nice. My kids were dying to get in the pool since we had promised they could swim after everything so I sent them down with DH and the rest of the family that wanted to swim and once I realized the remaining people weren?t leaving I got dressed and joined everyone in the pool. We had a lot of fun swimming and L was my little buddy, I couldn?t go anywhere without her and she told me at one point that I?m her best friend. So sweet! We headed back to the room at 11:30 and the kids and I were out quick, DH got up to hang out with the family some more and I happily stayed in bed.Sunday we were up at 8, it was nice to sleep in, so we had breakfast and swam again before heading up to the room to shower and dress in a mad dash to be out before checkout. Everyone gathered to feed the animals and play/chat outside for a bit then we said our goodbyes and hit the road. The IL?s stopped by to pick up their Christmas presents and I about died when MIL just dropped the gift bags on the ground (in slush) and didn?t seem to care as she rummaged through their trunk. I explained to her that the stuff is breakable and she said well we?ll see when we get home. Awesome, so glad she gives a **** about what we got her. Our day was spent doing laundry, taking naps, watching a movie, and baking sugar cookies. This week has gone quick and I?ve been productive. I?ve spent my evenings decorating cookies, paying bills, cleaning, doing laundry, packing, and exercising. DH has been in a crabby mood, again, and so there hasn?t been much interaction between the two of us. I did ask if he was upset with me and he said he?s just feeling stressed about lots of things. I understand that but it really puts me in a bad mind frame and it just sucks to feel like I?m walking on egg shells. He did try last night and this morning and I appreciate that but I?m still feeling a bit distant. Hopefully our weekend away will help. I?ve been pushing myself to hit the exercise hard so on Tuesday I woke up early to get in a 30 min Hiit workout before work and I exercise that night. Since we?ll be on the road tonight I got in another Hiit workout this morning, I?m tired but that?s OK. We?re heading to my parents tonight and don?t have any big plans for the weekend and that?s how I want it. I will do some exercise on Friday and Saturday, not sure if it will be a fun, stationary bike, or weights but it will be something. I also need to focus on getting my water in AND watching what I eat. We?ll be home on Sunday and then I?ll have Monday to do laundry and take the Christmas decorations down. It will go fast but I hope it?s enjoyable and relaxing.
Last edited by lifeisgood; 12-28-2011 at 04:33 PM.
Christmas was pretty fantastic, even though I had a couple crabby moments. DH and I met at home and finished packing the car then picked the kids up from DC so we could hit the road. We had a nice drive and some lucky “I have to go potty” moments where we were coming up on an OPEN rest area. We got to my parents around 8 and I got annoyed right away when the first thing my niece says to me, as I’m bringing in the first load of stuff, we had new i-pods and B and L can’t touch them. Really? Can we not at least give us time to settle in? My annoyance was uncalled for and I got over it quickly. The kids played and we set things up then go them to bed at 9:30 though L didn’t fall asleep until 10:30.
The kids were up before 7 and my mom took them so DH and I slept in a bit, I a bit longer getting up at 8:30. We had a very lazy day and I don’t think I did much at all. I did get a 30 min spinning workout in and the kids went to the park. I did have some feeling to battle when my dad said ex-SIL was going to spend the night with them on Monday. Granted I would be long gone but I feel like letting her stay the night is enabling her to believe she can do whatever she wants to any of us and she will still be part of our family. I’m still hurt that no one ever stood up for me when she was putting me through hell. I also see my mom calling this illegitimate child her grandbaby and this really bothers me for some reason. Nothing against the innocent baby but where is the logic in turning a blind eye to ex-SIL cheating on my brother and in return saying to her what you’ve done is OK? I’m so conflicted by this and I know I need to forgive her and stop caring. I did at least let my parents know how I felt. We had a quiet night that was later than it should have been. The kids were having so much fun playing that it was hard to call it quit on the night. L was still up when I went to bed at 11, little turkey!
Christmas Eve I was quite as lazy and after we had breakfast and let it settle DH and I went for a run on the dike. I hadn’t ran in a few months and it wasn’t as painful as I had expected but I sure am slow compared to DH. He did come back for me after he finished and we ran the last two blocks together. We had an interesting talk after dinner, my niece told my mom that she had 5 grandkids and when my mom said no she has 4 B said 5 because of the baby in my mom’s tummy. It was killing me to hear this but I kept my mouth shut until B said he was going to have a new cousin. I will not let my son believe a lie to cover up W’s indiscretions and I told him that the baby in W’s tummy is not going to be his cousin. Poor Beth looked so confused and I think its due time her mother sit her down and explain to her what’s going on for her level. I did tell my mom if she calls this baby her grandchild I will be very upset, I have a feeling my thoughts and feeling regarding this won’t matter. We all took the kids to the school’s playground and spent a good chunk of time there. By the time we put L down for a nap it didn’t give much time before church and getting her up was a bit rough. Since Christmas Eve was on Saturday my parent’s church decided to not have a service but both DH and I wanted to attend a candlelight service so mom had to call around to find a church that was having one. We enjoyed the service we attended and the kids were very good. It was then home to open presents and we all were spoiled. L was in heaven with her Kaboodle filled with makeup and B was ecstatic over his watch. I scored some great gifts like an apron, Cathe DVD’s, money, gift cards, AND a surprise gift from the store for doing DH’s books. A Kindle Fire! I was so pumped. We then had the kids put the reindeer food outside and put them to bed. L and B were busy talking and L came out to use the potty and said she heard a ho, ho outside. I love their excitement. Once they were in bed Santa arrived and I went to bed feeling happy as can be. DH said he’s never seen me so excited about Christmas.
Christmas morning the kids opened their Santa gifts and L immediately put on her Rapunzel dress and B strutted around with his real tools. They were so cute. We all got ready for church and it was a laid back service where we got to call out Christmas hymns to sing. I chose Away in a Manger for B and he and every other kid loudly sang the parts they knew. It was great. After church we had dinner and grandma came over so we visited for awhile. We left an hour later than planned because my aunt L came over and she’s always running late. We got home around 7 and had a quick dinner then opened the presents from DH’s side. My patience was really low at this point and I was a crab toward the kids, it wasn’t very nice of me. Once they were in bed I worked on getting laundry sorted, cleaned things up, and went to bed.
Monday DH had to work so I got up with him at 7:30 and got ready for the day. I had a lot to do and knew if I was lazy it wouldn’t get done. B was up shortly after we were and he busied himself with toys and watching A Christmas Story while I packed away the Christmas decorations and worked on laundry. L slept until 9, it was needed, and she immediately put her Rapunzel dress on and joined B with the playing/watching movies. By noon the kids were fed, we won’t mention they didn’t have a proper breakfast only candy, decorations were all packed away, the house was partly clean, and I had updated pictures on FB. While the kids napped I organized the cardboard recycling, cleaned up the basement, and started organizing toys. We now have a nice play area set up downstairs for the kids and it has opened up a big area in their room. I was going to exercise but DH wanted to watch a movie so I had a lazy end to my day at least. Tuesday was a pretty lazy day also, I did get bills paid but instead of exercising I had a glass of wine and started reading a book on my Kindle. Oops! Tonight I’ll get back on track especially since I just ate a bunch of chocolate wafers and feel like barfing now.
L has stayed dry for over a week so we have her back in regular panties, I hope we never go back! She’s getting praise daily for it and she’s getting up to go potty on her own in the middle of the night, I get to stay in bed! She was cute on Monday playing with B, she started hollering “Daddy! Daddy, sweetie!” to B. They love playing mom/dad and always call each other that, there are times I’m not sure if they’re talking to me or each other.
The having another baby issue has taken another turn. The last few times we’ve DTD DH has not pulled out, that’s been our methods of BC for the past year and so far it’s worked. He hadn’t said anything to me so after the first time I thought it was just bad timing but after this weekend I asked DH what was going on. He said he figures if we get pregnant we get pregnant, if we don’t we don’t and I’m 100% on board. Because we both are on the fence I think this is the best approach and we’re putting it in God’s hands where it’s really been the whole time.
Our New Year’s weekend was overall nice though I over did it a bit too much. Friday I was off work early so I ran home and finished cleaning the house then picked the kids up. We had a quiet night at home and I worked on prepping for our party. Basically I busied myself around the house like a hen that can’t sit still, its how I am so why fight it? I did chat with my mom and my brother told his kids that the baby isn’t his and they were both very upset. XSIL never told them who the father was and she was angry that my brother did. This explains why my poor niece said my mom would have 5 grankids!
Saturday DH had off from work and I was busy doing the final touches with food, decorations, etc. It was a great day of sneaking in some reading while baking the turkey. N, S and their families showed up and we had a great time visiting, drinking, and watching the kids play. I did a lot of catering to the kids but they had a great time and couldn’t wait for the fireworks. By the time the ball dropped, and everyone was still up, we were all doing well except maybe M. He made it to our driveway before he barfed. Once everyone left the alcohol hit me like a wall, I went from fine to bleh! I spent a good portion of time ralphing in the bathroom and things were not good. I blame it on not drinking enough water that day and mixing vodka with wine. Not recommended.
Sunday morning was rough for me and DH took care of everything. I felt horrible physically and psychologically, what a stupid way to start the New Year. By 1:30 I was feeling fine and we had a lazy day catching up on sleep and reading. I finished Heaven is For Real and it was a great book, touches base on the afterlife for miscarriages and more and it was just a good read for my soul. I highly recommend it to everyone.
Monday I had the day off and B didn’t have Kindergarten yet so I was up with DH, poor guy had to work, and we had a great day. Our morning was lazy and then we hit the dino park and picked DH up for a nice lunch. The afternoon I got in a Yoga workout, made cookies for B’s ? birthday party at Kindergarten, and spent some quality time with the kids. It made it really hard to go to work on Tuesday and get back into the swing of everything. I really enjoyed a week off from swim lesson, homework, and all of it! This week has been pretty normal. I’ve been on track with exercise but have been eating too much sugar. Today I’m focusing on no sugar tonight! I paid bills, watered plants, and cleaned the house last night so the rest of my weekend I’m going to do some baking and playing with the kids. Sounds perfect to me.
Last weekend B stated a couple times that he wished we had a baby and then said “God, please, please, please give us another baby”. It was really cute. I should be starting AF this weekend, if I don’t see her tomorrow I’ll POAS but I don’t feel preggers and I saw some spotting this morning. Not quite sure I’m ready to see a positive test at this point.
We had another great weekend though Friday night was our standard “rough” night. The kids were exhausted and B had had an emotional day at school but all was well when I picked him up from DC. He said he wants to stay at LLO all the time like L, at least he’ll get his wish come summer. I did inform both kids that it was their day to sleep in so if you wake up go back to bed! It worked a little bit, at least for B anyways. L came into our room and asked to lay with me and she wound up all over the bed so I finally just took her to the living room for cuddles and a movie. DH came out and asked me to rejoin him in bed so I made sure B had some chocolate milk so he could join L on the couch and give us some privacy. We were all up and moving early on so after I made French toast and had some coffee and laze time I jumped in the shower and we were ready for our day before DH left for work. The kids had me read them some books on the Kindle and then we went to the play group at McD’s. It had been almost a year since we’ve been to McD’s so they were pumped. We had a really good turnout and other than some minor name calling all was well. Someone in the group was not rubbing B the right way but I couldn’t tell what all was going down since they were in the play structure and the other mom didn’t bother trying to get to the bottom of her LO’s behavior. After the PG we picked up some groceries then went for a walk because it was spring like weather. I’m not kidding when I say that, 40 degrees and it’s been like this for weeks! In Msla some people are claiming their trees are starting to bud, this isn’t good! While on the walk the girls and I were texting about meeting at S’s for some wine to celebrate her b-day so I hurried the kids home and got them down for rests. I must have wore L out because she fell asleep within 5 min. I gathered some champagne and made some chocolate frosted brownies before it was time for us to head to S’s house. B then informs me that his ear was hurting and I cursed the stupid flu mist again. After they got it L started with a cough and then they both started with running/stuffed noses on Friday evening. We stopped at UC on our way to S’s but the wait was 45 minutes and I decided to wait it out til Sunday. Of course as we started loading into the car L informs me she has to pee and can’t hold it so back in we went to use the bathroom. Life with kids. We joined everyone at S’s house and had a great time chatting, snacking, and trying some wines. Once home we had a the roast I had prepared and we had a quiet night. I opted for reading and watching a little bit of TV with DH then went to bed later than I had planned.
Sunday B was up at 6 and I sent him back to bed where he actually fell asleep until 8. L was up earlier than I had hoped but I got her settled in front of a movie and DH and I started our morning with a nice chit-chat while lounging in bed. I made waffles for breakfast and it was 10 before I got my rear in gear. We stayed home all day and I was in a baking mood so I tried DF butterscotch and then made scotcheroos and made bread. Top it off with laundry and it was a great day getting lots done. I was hoping DH would lounge with me that evening but he wanted to exercise and so I ended my night reading.
My body likes to tease me. I had random spotting here and there through the weekend but my temp didn’t drop until Sunday and then AF arrived. This was about 5 days later than what my prior 3 months had done, it’s just a head game.
I got my haircut yesterday and E looked amazing, she had lost a lot of weight. Bottom line lots of exercise and cutting calories helped her cut 20 pounds and it’s helped to spur me in the rear. So for the next 30 days I have laid out my plan. I have what exercises I will do each day, my calorie intake with be 1200-1250 with 1 day a week at 1450. I’m going to focus on chewing my food 20-30 chews while putting my fork down between bites and no eating past 7pm. It won’t be easy but it’s only 30 days and I will see results. It’s go time.
This week has been normal; the kids are more tired than usual even though they’ve been sleeping the same amount if not more. I hope it’s just getting back to a full week at school that has thrown them off. B has been begging to go to the movie night at his school tonight so if everyone is in good spirits we’ll do that. I’m not sure what to expect but it should be fun. DH has the weekend off so we are going to try to go snow shoeing, as long as we can find snow. The weather is still warmer than usual but it at least has been getting colder at night like it should. No other plans for the weekend and I’m happy about that. I have Monday off but B has school so I’ll send L to DC and I’ve planned a busy day for myself. I plan to exercise first thing, watch L at gymnastics, get a massage, and wrap up my day with volunteering in B’s class. It will be a good day but it will go fast. Maybe I should have planned nothing since it is my last day of vacation for 4 ? months.
I’ve had a great week with my diet and exercise, I’ve been on track and I’m going to keep on trucking. I have planned out my calorie intake (1250) and am allotting myself 200 extra calories a day on the weekend so I can feel like I’m getting a treat whether it is a high calorie meal or a glass of wine. It will still be in my loss zone and it will keep me from thinking weekends are free for all because that’s just undoing all the hard work from the week prior. I’ve also planned out and entered my workouts online so I can track my calorie burn daily and not let myself have any excuses to be lazy. Finally I have pulled in a lot of the ladies I work with to join me on Shape Up Montana. We’ll do the activity and weight loss challenge and it lasts for 3 months starting in February. I need all the motivation, accountability, and focus I can get right now. As long as I stick to my plan I will see my goal weight, 130, by mid April. I want so badly to look and feel fantastic for our 10 year Anniversary and I will do it.
`Friday night the kids were good enough that we took them to the movie night at the Elementary school. They put on their pj’s, we gathered blankets, and we had fun watching Night at the Museum and sharing snacks. Of course B saw kids he knew, L did too of course, and there were a few times they got a little loud and had to be pulled back to sit with us. Once the kids were in bed I got my exercise in then went to bed.
Saturday we headed up to Hyalite to break in our snow shoes. We couldn’t believe they plowed all the way to Grotto Falls and so that was the hike we chose. The trail was so packed down we didn’t need our snow shoes so part way up we took them off and hiked. There was some whining from L but B did great and it was really a perfect day for a hike and very pretty. The rest of the weekend we just hung out as a family and had a great weekend. I baked muffins and cookies for DH’s guys’ weekend and the best part is I didn’t sample either one. That’s progress! I was exhausted this weekend so Sunday I skipped exercise and Monday it was cold and snowy so I skipped the run I had planned. I wound up not having as much time as I had wanted so it worked out. I ran to the grocery store then got to watch L at gymnastics. She moves faster than the other girls and was a bit impatient at times. I loved watching her pose with her arms up, do her somersault, then stand up and pose with her arms up again. It was the cutest thing. She wanted to go home with me and cried when I told her she couldn’t, I felt bad but I knew she was OK. I then had a long needed massage and she told me my shoulders were jacked. Not a surprise and man was I sore afterwards. I then had to rush to B’s class and I had a great time with the kids. I helped put snack out, read a story to them, and walked around to help with the centers. At one point the kids were sitting on their spots on the rug and I have never seen so much movement in such a small space. Two boys and one girl were just sitting there shaking their heads back and forth, it made B’s nonstop fidgeting seem little. After school we picked L up and joined DH at home. It had snowed about 2 inches the day before so we went for a walk pulling the kids in their sleds. They did sled down the dirt mound but after two times down it was all dirt. At least they had fun.
I had to take L to the doctor yesterday because she was complaining about her ear hurting from pressure. She’d been plugged and I figured it was a sinus infection but instead it was just fluid in both ears. We’re hoping she doesn’t get an infection but if she does they will call in a prescription. DH wasn’t feeling well last night and came to bed freezing so I tried to help warm him up. It was a terrible night for sleep because L was up twice and the wind didn’t stop blowing. I did at least get out of bed like I had planned to get some yoga in first thing.
On Tuesday I had a loss of 2 pounds though I was a bit disappointed only because I was 2 pounds lower than that on Sunday. Today I stepped on the scale and I was down 4 pounds from yesterday so at least I know the hard work I’ve been putting in is paying off even with my random ups and downs. I got in 6 days of exercise last week and did great with eating over the weekend, things have just seemed to have clicked into place. I’m officially 20 pounds away from my goal weight.
It’s been quite some time since I’ve updated. We’ve been doing the same ole same ole for the most part with fun thrown in here and there. We did have a busy week in January and somehow I managed to pull everything off and stay on top of the game. It started with me having to prep things to be gone for two days from work and then pick B up and get him to the dermatologist. The appointment went really well and B put on his big boy pants (first time!) and did not cry a bit. First he pricked the “wart” and tried to squeeze the juice out. That didn’t work as well as he had hoped so he froze it, and two others, and B had tears in his eyes but he didn’t cry and I was so proud. He then put beetle juice on it and it has healed really nicely. I guess his body needs to build up immunity to them and hopefully it will soon. I left for a conference in Helena the next morning and L had a really hard time with me leaving. She wouldn’t let go of my neck and as I tried to pry myself away from her she fell out of her chair, it was horrible. My conference was nice but I was bored out of my mind that evening and I was happy to pick up my kids the next day. DH then left for his guy’s weekend on Friday and he had a great time though he did bump into a tree and bruised his leg. The kids and I had a relaxed Friday night and then we had friends over for pizza, popcorn, and movies. The ladies and I enjoyed chatting and I let both kids sleep with me in the big bed. I slept terrible since L kept shoving her leg into my back. DH was home mid afternoon and we were all happy to have him back.
This past week I worked hard on my diet and exercise with no budge at all on the scale, it was frustrating. Friday I had my wine club group over and we had a fun time. Saturday we were on the go. We started with a play group at the MOR then met up with N and the girls at McD’s for lunch. I was able to get the kids to nap and DH took B to the Cat/Griz b-ball game while L and I painted nails, baked cookies (not good for the scale because I was able to get it to go up), then watched a movie. I was exhausted and in bed by 10 giving myself 10 hours of sleep since the kids weren’t up until 8. We had a nice day and enjoyed the great weather. First we headed up to Hyalite to sled then we ran a couple errands in town. The IL’s called to give us an hour notice that they would stop by the house so I told them we were in town but we’d meet them at the house. Just as we were heading home they called and I said we were 5 min away from the house and the IL’s decided they didn’t want to wait and said they’ll try to catch us in a few weekends. We both were annoyed that 5 min was too long to wait and the kids were upset. Once home K and R were playing outside so the kids got to play with them for a bit then they had a quick lunch and took a rest. I got out for a run that felt pretty good overall and I even got in a DVD after the kids went to bed. Hopefully the scale will be nice to me tomorrow.
We did get a bit of unexpected news yesterday. AF hadn’t shown up and my temp didn’t drop so DH and I hung out in the bathroom to take a test. It was a faint line but it was there and I think we both were in shock. I’m still in shock. I’m a bit nervous about losing this pregnancy and I’m sure it will be like that through the first trimester. First off the line was not as blaringly apparent as it has been with my other pregnancies at this point so that has me a bit concerned. Also I’m not feeling pregnant, I know it’s early but if the morning sickness doesn’t show up soon I won’t stop worrying. And lastly I’ve been feeling some cramping off and on today, nothing serious but I’m going to worry and that’s that. I pray this baby sticks and I know I’ll get more excited once it becomes more real but I feel a bit guilty that the past excitement I’ve had hasn’t hit yet. I’m fearful of letting myself dream too much right now. This is our last chance, DH is looking into vasectomies and I’m in agreeance that if we’re meant to have a third this will all work out. So here’s to a healthy and active pregnancy. I guess now my focus will be eating healthy foods and staying active.
Still no signs of being pregnant, it has me worried and I thought I was suppressing it well until I was a bear last night with the kids and have found myself shedding some tears each night before bed. I hate to stress and worry because I have no control over this and my feeling of no control has led me to just eat this week. It’s been a mess! I’ve been staying active and feeling well so I’ll just keep on keeping on. My parents are up this weekend and I think DH and my dad are going to work on replacing the damaged drywall. No big plans and I hope it’s a nice relaxing weekend. I am going to do the virtual run for Sherry Arnold tomorrow morning so that will be something to burn some calories. I’m doing better with food today and will have to keep myself on track through the weekend.
We had a nice weekend with my parents though I ate way too much and did very little exercise. We also finally got some snow, about 6 inches fell and it’s damn well time! Maybe the playgroup I planned for sledding next weekend really will happen. DH and my dad replaced the drywall piece that was bowed from the flood last fall. No mold behind it and everything else looked good so that’s all we’re replacing. The kids enjoyed playing with my mom and they act like if she’s around they can ignore me, it doesn’t go over very well. I did a lot of reading and kicking back and we had a really nice time. My dad shared a story with me that he had only told me part of before. Shortly before my grandpa Paul passed away my dad had a dream where he was standing in a suit and looked to be about 55. He just smiled at my dad and when he woke from the dream he knew his dad would be passing soon. Typically when my dad has a dream it means someone’s going to die, not very pleasant for him by any means. He said once he woke from the dream he got on his knees and prayed asking Jesus to please stand by his father at his time of judgment and he then heard a voice, not in his head but physically in the room, say “Of course I will.” It made me tear up when he told me this and he teared up also, I don’t ever see my dad cry. My grandpa was not a perfect man and did a lot in his life that wasn’t right by his family but it’s good to know my dad has forgiven him and no matter what Jesus will stand by our side.
After my parents left B had his friend S over for a play date and it was interesting watching them. S is a single child and I could tell, he definitely wanted to do things his way and is the best at everything according to him. I had to remind the boys that there is no need to one up each other and it’s OK to be equally as good. It was a little rough for me here and there but overall they had fun and he’s a good kid. I did the books, made bread, and paid bills while they played and during naps I sat in the sun and read a book. Lazy must have been my mantra.
On the pregnancy front still no morning sickness and I do get crampy feelings here and there. No blood and really I’m still not convinced that I’m pregnant. Stupid I know but I just don’t feel it. I was even contemplating taking another preg test but if I wasn’t I’d have had my period by now. Sigh. I never thought I’d want to puke so much but at least I'm not crying before bed now.
It’s been awhile and I can’t really remember all that’s gone on, nothing terrible so that’s good. I did have my girl’s night at Chico last week and it was a lot of fun. I also had to let the girls know I was pregnant, with an air of caution about it all, since I wasn’t going to be drinking any wine. The soaking was nice though I could have gone for more of it and the food was spectacular, it’s what I was really looking forward to. DH actually entertained the E’s at the house when I was gone, I was proud of him putting himself out there. The IL’s stopped by on Sunday to visit on their way home from B-ball Divisionals. Three weeks prior they were driving through and DH and I had taken the kids to Hyalite to sled (only place with snow). They called saying they were an hour away just as we got to town and we had a couple errands to run and I told MIL we’d meet them at the house. As we’re leaving Costco they call and I said we were 5 min away so MIL says well we’ll just keep going then. Really!?! I said we’ll be right there but they wouldn’t have anything to do with it and it really bothered all of us. DH was pretty ticked especially when we passed them right at the off ramp to Blgd. Thanks for letting us know we’re not a priority or even worth 5 extra minutes of your time but please be sure to continue to guilt trip us about coming to see you. MIL also tried to drill me on what errands we were running, what the hell does it matter? Well the visit on Sunday was short and I was exhausted so I wasn’t much for visiting. It didn’t help that L was ready for them to go so she could finish watching Cars 2.
B has been having some discipline issues at school, I think a lot of it has to do with the kids he’s playing with but I keep telling him he’s responsible for his own actions and has to decide what he does. We first got a note that he had thrown rocks at recess so he was put up against the wall. He did say the girl threw the rocks first so I can understand his reaction but it’s not OK. A week later I get a note saying he was tackling friends at recess and put against the wall (a big group of them were on the wall) but then he started throwing rocks. I was pretty ticked off about this and his punishment was writing 10 lines of “I will not throw rocks.” There were tears and he hated it but I told him remember this the next time you want to throw rocks and know it will be 20 lines plus grounding. So far he’s been doing OK. I also had a problem with him at swim lessons in the dressing room. I HAD been letting him get dressed in the boys locker room but he got in trouble for chasing A (both naked of course) around one of the benches and hitting him with his wet swim trunks. Of course A comes out and tells on B making it sound like he did nothing but after the instructor talked to me he then talked to S. I’ve been a lot harder on B than S has been on A because B is now dressing in the girls locker room with me. I also know my child isn’t perfect and can admit it.
L is still wetting her pants at night, some nights more than others, but at least she seems to over the day time accidents. It’s frustrating but there isn’t much I can do since it’s all up to her. She’s been doing a lot of dance moves and head stands lately, I love watching her moves. She’s still a mommy’s girl and I love my little princess.
On the pregnancy front I also told N because we’ll be over to her place this weekend for a movie night and she’ll figure it out when I’m not drinking wine with her. I had a small amount of nausea on Monday but I think it was mostly due to be exhausted because once I got a good night of sleep I was fine. A little bit of cramping today, much like it was at first, and my breasts are sore off and on. Still a big waiting game and I’m only 4 weeks in so I have at least 8 to go until I will actually believe all of this. I do need to get control on my eating, there is no reason for me to up 6 pounds at this point. I did take my last preg test and it was positive but not as dark as it should be and wasn't as quick as it should be, for a bit I thought it actually may be negative.