I am so happy its Friday and I can sleep in until 6 am tomorrow! It was really hard getting out of bed this morning and I can’t wait to high tail it out of here. It’s been very quiet today, not one phone call and only 1 e-mail.
When I picked B up from day care yesterday he was sitting in a circle (in the movers room) playing with 2 other kids. He looked so grown up sitting there playing nicely (that was good to see) then he started doing his throat laugh. He didn’t seem like he was ready to leave when he finally saw me, I guess I’m not quite as much fun as the other babies. It’s good to see him socializing and doing well at it. He ate a ton of food for me and did about 5 oz from the bottle before bed. I’m going to try cutting him down to 3 bottles this weekend to see how that goes. I felt like a horrible mom last night. He has a bad diaper rash and when I was changing him before bed he started kicking his legs and throwing a fit. He then proceeded to get his foot in his dirty diaper and had poop all over. I lost it a bit and yelled a little (not terribly bad but I shouldn’t have yelled at all) when I should have realized his bum was hurting and that was his only way to express it. I’m planning to do some naked time tonight and this weekend to help his bum heal, he at least didn’t seem too bothered by it this morning even though it was still very red. I can see a little white dot on his gum and he’s been chewing on everything (a bit more than usual) so I think we’re finally getting a tooth in.
I was telling day care about the nightmare B had and S thinks he may have had one during a nap a couple days ago. She said she cuddled and rocked him until he calmed down and then he was fine. I told her to just make sure he wakes up and then he’ll settle down, poor baby.
I fell asleep on the couch around 8:30 last night then went to be at 9:00, I’m hoping to do the same tonight so I can get over this cold. I have a few musts to do this weekend (quick clean of house, cover letter & resume) and a few things I would like to do (organize closets & basement, work on B’s baby book, read). If I have the energy I may try to do all my cleaning tonight so that gives me tomorrow to do the application so DH can read over it. We need to do a bit of shopping too so we’ll do that Sunday.
I’m working through lunch and I should get back to it so my desk doesn’t look so disastrous on Monday.
I had an ok weekend, didn’t get enough sleep and I’ll rant about that in a bit. I did get my cover letter and resume completed, I just need to print them out on my “fancy” paper and fill in a bit more on the application. I’m going to finish that tonight and drop it off at the job service on my way home from my annual appt tomorrow.
Friday night I did a quick clean of the house and the bathroom already needs it again. I also did B’s laundry and got to bed a little after 10:00. Saturday I first work up at 5:00, curses!, and then dozed off and on until 6:00. I really couldn’t sleep much more so after I fed B I did some work around the house and started working on my resume and cover letter. My day consisted of playing with B, working on my application stuff, and reading. DH didn’t really help me out with B at all when he got home so I was a bit frustrated about that, it just brings on the feeling that we’re an inconvenience when he’s not in the “mood”. He was on the computer playing his golf game, of course not inviting me to play with him and his friends which means we spent absolutely no personal time together this weekend, all weekend long and I’m not exaggerating. I watched Sky High then went to bed around 10:00 at which point I was a bit cranky because I wanted to be in bed earlier, I’ve just been absolutely exhausted. I just really need to sleep past 6:00 without having to get up to feed B, one morning of sleeping in is all I ask.
Sunday morning B woke up around 4:00 and I listened to him talk then fuss then cry at 4:30. I woke DH up, of course he has been sleeping through all of it and has no idea what’s going on, and asked him to take care of B for me. Now to me this is a clear message that I need a break and some sleep, it apparently didn’t get through. DH got up and calmed him down then turned on the mobile and came back to bed. Well this quieted B for about 5 min then he was up fussing again. Finally a little after 5:00 I had had enough and got up to feed him, changed his diaper, and then put him back in his crib to sleep a bit more. He slept until 7:30, which means I got a little bit more sleep yet still not enough, and I was up at 7:15 trying to get ready for church. I fed B, changed 2 poopy diapers, and finished getting ready for church. As I’m heading out the door at 8:25 DH finally gets out of bed (oblivious to all that has been going on) and asks me what I’m doing. I said I’m going to church and he says but it’s the first Sunday of the month don’t they just have the late service. I informed him that they are having the early service and I tell him to go back to bed. Well he showed up 10 min after we did to church and it at least showed he’s somewhat coherent.
After church we went home to feed B then did some shopping and I totally flipped when we got home. The house just felt filthy to me and I had all this stuff laying around that needed to be put away and I lost it. I went on and on about the house being filthy and it driving me crazy and he at least was bright enough to take B downstairs to leave me be and get the house to where I could actually relax. I ended up getting a major headache that lasted the rest of the day so I was pretty worthless from here on out. B and I did take a little nap together and I ended up doing most everything for him because DH was busy playing golf.
B has discovered how to stick his tongue out, so that’s what he’s been doing a lot of. The poor kid can’t stick it out very far though because of the tendon thing that goes to the tip of his tongue. I keep wondering if we should have had it cut. He was such a great boy this weekend and gave me a ton of hugs and some kisses. He’s teething so everything has been in his mouth, at one point he had the ice cream cone on his activity center in his mouth while he was playing with the other toys, it was pretty cute. I also finally figured out what’s been going on with him only eating 4-5 oz from his bottle at a time. I first tried dropping him down to 3 bottles a day and that didn’t help increase his intake at all, still only 4 oz at a time. I then tried getting him his formula with a sippy cup and he just turned that into a chew toy. It finally dawned on me to try the level 3 nipples and sure enough he took 8 oz right away. I think the increase flow helps him stay focused and since he gets the food faster he can spend less time at the bottle. He’s also doing great with holding his own bottle even when it’s full. At times he needs a little bit of assistance but he’s been doing great. He’s also saying dada a lot more so now we need to get him to associate who dada is. DH said he’s wondering if B is trying to sign eat to us when we’re feeding him, I’ve been wondering the same thing the last week so I’m going to start paying better attention.
We got his potty in on Friday and since he loves his feet so much he keeps bending over to look at them and then topples out of the seat, we’ll have to work on that. I should have the potty books at some time this week so I may (if M & J don’t come up this weekend) start putting him on when he wakes up and after he eats/drinks. I also bought some pull-ups to make it a bit easier when we’re home. I just want to make sure that I’m ready for this and stay consistent, it’s going to be some extra work and the hardest part will be remembering. I think I’m going to get my timer out so I can set that as my reminder until it becomes a habit for me too.
I got a lot more done last night than I expected so that was great. My application is ready to be handed in, the house is somewhat picked up, my legs are shaved for my appt today, B and I got some play time in, and I had time to make dinner last night. I’m heading out of work around 1:30 so only a few hours left, I’ve gotten quite a bit done but feel like only doing mind numbing work so that’s probably what I’ll do for the rest of the day. I have gotten over DH not letting me sleep in, I’m not sure why but I have. Maybe I’m not as exhausted any more. B woke up around 4:00 am and talked/fussed off and on until about 5:15. I hope he gets over this soon because it keeps me up. At least he went back to sleep until 6:00 so I could get ready for work. Yesterday when I went in to wake him up he was sleeping on his side, that was a first.
I found out that M & J are going to come up the end of the month so I am going to start the potty conditioning this weekend, wish me luck. I’m pretty sure B signed “eat” yesterday when I was picking him up to feed him his solids. I need to pay attention and see if he starts trying any other signs plus get more consistent at signing myself. He lets me move his hands to sign “all done” so I think the next one may be that, though I’d love to see mommy and daddy. All in due time, this is good practice of patience.
B woke up at 4:40 this morning and talked until I got him around 5:50, maybe I won’t have to do any adjustments with the time change if he keeps waking up so early. Since I picked him up early and the weather was gorgeous we went for a little walk around the neighborhood and checked out the new houses north of us. We then played, well he played and I watched but he would put his hand out to my face to make sure I was still around and paying attention. We then ate but he didn’t eat a whole lot and I’m not sure if it was because he was tired or didn’t like the food. I gave him beef with vegetables (which I shouldn’t have done because I hadn’t given him beef or tomato paste before) mixed with sweet potatoes and corn to sweeten it up a bit. He then napped and now that I think about it I should probably weed out this evening nap and see if that makes him sleep a bit longer in the mornings.
My doctor’s appt went good, of course my weight was mentioned but I knew it would be and agree with the doctor. She said I’ll have to start mammograms when I’m 30 because of my mom having breast cancer in her early 40’s. She also had me do some blood work to test my thyroid since 7 or 8 of my dad’s siblings are on thyroid medication. About 4 years ago my thyroid was slightly elevated so we’ll see where I’m at now. Oh the fun!
DH took today off so he and B have been hanging out, I’m sure he’ll be ready for me to take over when I get home. He’s hopefully getting us our tickets for Portland next month, this time we’re only doing 2 tickets and will hold B on our laps. We’re also going to rent another van when we’re there and rent a car seat too, I hope they can be trusted. Not sure if we’ll go to the coast again or what but I’m really looking forward to seeing S & W and their new place. It’s just always nice hanging out with them and having a few drinks, maybe this year we won’t even be side swiped either!
B was up again at 4:30 and I think I have finally figured it out. I did keep him up so he didn’t take his evening nap and that obviously didn’t help. I think he’s waking up to poo and then eventually falls back asleep and I’m the bad mom for leaving him in a poopy diaper. He doesn’t ever cry when he has a poopy diaper, never has, so it’s not like he’s given me a great reason to get up and check on him. So tomorrow morning when he wakes for his morning poo I’m going to see if I can get him changed and back in the crib to sleep some more. I’m of course worried he’ll expect to be fed and then stay up without his off and on dozing and I’m also worried he’ll make this a habit even when he doesn’t poo. Blast! Maybe the time change will work out to my favor on this one. I should try putting him over the potty but do I really want to have our first be at 4:30 in the morning? Probably not.
We did lots of playing and laughing last night, he’s so much fun. The potty books arrived yesterday so we sat and read some of them, I’m probably more excited than he is though he really liked the one that makes the flushing sound. When I first got home he was in the activity center and gave me a big smile, but when I was walking around the island toward him he couldn’t see me anymore and started crying. I apparently was wanted.
DH talked with S last night and we’re going to Portland one of the two last weekends in March just depends on when DH gets the tickets. I’m excited and hope this plane trip goes a lot smoother than our last, if we’re lucky our luggage will actually be labeled with OUR names. That ticked me off even more than the profiling though I’m holding bitterness about both.
Work was cut short yesterday because we had a power outage and after 45 min I just left. My office is in a basement and it was so dark before the generator kicked on I couldn’t see a thing. Of course my office isn’t on the generator so I figured why just sit in the dark to burn time.
Last night I wanted to snack on something sweet and I realized that I was thirsty not hungry. That just might be part of my problem. I know I eat when I’m bored but when I’m thirsty, now that’s a new one. So instead I had a glass of water and my sweet craving went away. So with this new revelation I’m going to start drinking water before I let myself have a snack and hopefully this will help me and the water can’t hurt me since I’ve been a slacker since I’ve had B.
Well I have some billing stuff to figure out for a project and I’m not looking forward to it but will be relieved when it’s done, so I must get back.
B actually slept until 5:30 this morning so I didn’t have to change a diaper at 4:00, it was nice. He ate really well for day care so we may be going through a growth spurt; he’s gotten so darned big and really stout. He also didn’t take an afternoon nap and was too busy to nap when we got home so by 6:40 I had him eating his last bottle and he passed out before 7:00. Day care said he copied the other LO’s and said uh-oh today. He was sitting on the floor when we were home playing with a teether and it ended up on the floor out of reach. That little bugger really started to use his body and I had to hold myself back from keeping him from getting hurt because he needs to discover. He first put his one foot on the floor and pushed himself toward the toy and when that didn’t get him there he then just dove for it (doesn’t quite have the skills yet to put his arms down to break the fall). His head was stuck between the rocking horse and boppy but he wasn’t crying at all and he did get his toy. He then dropped the toy again and dove for it while breaking his fall a little bit better. I don’t think I’m going to have a sedentary child much longer, looks like I’ll have to break out the pak-n-play soon.
My plans for the weekend aren’t too exciting, clean the house and organize my closets and the basement. That’s only been on my list for about 3 weeks now. It’s supposed to be nice out so I may even clean up the yard and my flower beds a bit. I’m getting antsy to grow things. I do need to plan our meals for next weekend with my parents, something easy and probably a lot of BBQ. We got a really good offer for an Omaha Steaks package and we should get those next week so we’ll probably try the burgers one meal and some steaks for another meal, then DH gets to do the cooking.
DH made the reservations for Portland and we’re going in just a bit over a month. I’m really excited. We leaving pretty early both days (7:30ish) but hopefully this way it will help B transition and not start off exhausted like our last trip. We still have to get the rental van and a car seat for B but hopefully DH can get that done today.
I saw a car that reminded me of DH’s grandmother’s car (not sure why) and it made me think of the summer my car had been totaled and we were down to 1 vehicle. DH’s grandma had recently passed and her car wasn’t being used but MIL never even offered to lend it to us until we got another car. I’m not sure why but then again I’m not sure of a lot of things they do. But I am sure that probably goes both ways. Maybe I’m just too used to getting support from my parents, they really don’t ever question us but I don’t think we give them any reasons to question us. I just don’t understand why the IL’s will continue to make comments (i.e. day care, DH not working in his degree, our political views) even when our decisions have proven to work for us and to be fine. I guess the bottom line is I don’t feel like they support us or our decisions and there’s nothing I can do about it.
It’s the big weekend to start potty conditioning. So far I’ve read some potty books to him, sign when we’re using the potty or I know he’s going potty, and I’ve sat him on the potty a couple times. Starting tomorrow I will sit him on the potty 15 min (adjusting if needed) after eating/drinking and right when he wakes up. After 3-4 min on the potty if nothing has happened then we’ll go play. I plan to sing and read while he’s on the potty to keep it fun and non-stressful. This shall be interesting. I’ve mentioned early potty training (not in the sense that I’m doing it but that I’ve read about it) and I’ve been surprised by how many people agree with its philosophies and aren’t judgmental of it.
I got annoyed by our neighbor’s dog last night. It’s the second night this week I’ve listened to it bark nonstop while I’m trying to fall asleep. Even the white noise from my fan along with ear plugs didn’t drown the noise out. The dog is pretty good, it just barks when it’s bored in the back yard and no one is around to let it in the house. So I got up and wrote a note (DH thought I was calling the cops but I don’t want bad blood with them and since it doesn’t happen all that much I won’t go to the authorities yet) explaining it’s the second night it’s happened and I have to get up early. DH was sweet enough to put it on their door for me so I could try to go back to bed. It’s frustrating but it could be worse.
Yesterday I did a search for registered sex offenders in our town and found out there's a convicted child molester (rated as low for repeating the offense) right next to day care. I'm going to have to make sure day care is aware, I know an adult is always around whenever the kids are outside but it's just creepy with him that close. Moving wouldn't make much since because the only other place we would consider has a convicted rapist a few doors down. What is wrong with this world? I know we have to worry just as much about the ones that haven't been caught and hence aren't registered, but it's really hard not to be paranoid. I also found out that our state law doesn't restrict where sex offender can live (this is really warm fuzzy news) unless they are a level 3 and the judge has it part of their sentence. I think I may have to write the Governor on this one, how many of them are living next to the schools? Our town won't allow porn stores in city limits and there are restrictions in the state of where porn stores can't be (near churches, schools, etc.), but when it comes to sex offenders God forbid we place limits. Ugh!
Last night I cleaned the kitchen and dusted so that got me started on my chores. This morning B woke up at 5:30 and since we're dealing with day light savings I figured I better pretend it's already moved ahead so I started my day bright and early. We played a bit until he went down for his nap then I finished cleaning the house, figured out my meals for next weekend along with my grocery list, and I exercised. Yes, pick your chin up from the ground I made my arse do some work. I felt great after 25 min of Pilates so I then did the butt and thigh workout. Right now I'm feeling it from both but it's a good feeling. I've also done really well today listening to my body and what it really needs/wants so it was a great day and I'm finishing it off with some wine.
B and I took a walk this afternoon and just hung out today. We've also been testing the potty conditioning waters and it's taken some work. He's fine sitting on the potty but he lives to poo when he's eating so I'm not sure what to do about that. I did figure out that we need to put him on the potty 112 min after he's finished eating. 20 min missed it all big time and 15 min missed it by about a minute. DH did get a pee in the potty at our last sitting so we were very excited, I don't think he quite understood what was going on though, he will eventually. I also finally got some more pictures of B so I need to get them on his web page since it's been a couple months.
I was looking at my flower beds and my tulips are starting to peek through, it just seems so early. The crocus will be close behind and I need to get my garden and flower beds cleaned up a bit. My native garden looks great, my bitterroot are nice and green and I have a ton of pussy toes that have spread. I want to expand my native garden this summer and that's going to be a big undertaking, but well worth it!
I talked with MIL today and they're doing well, I do need to be much more forgiving, we only live once and she really is a good person. They want to see us soon and Easter or the weekend after are our only options. DH seems to think the weekend after (there's a scrimmage in Blgs he'd like to see that the IL's will be at) will be best, I don' t really care. It's kind of frustrating talking with MIL when she's on her cell phone, DH brought this up first so it's not just me complaining. She starts doing things while she's talking and it causes the phone to move away from her mouth so you can barely hear what she's saying, I sure hope I don't do that.
DH is finishing up my kitchen computer and the monitor is supposed to get her on Monday so that's exciting. He's also been looking at recipe programs so this should help me to stop losing my recipes. I'm going to spend the rest of the evening watching tv and maybe reading, then it's to bed fairly early. Tomorrow we'll go to church and I want to do a little bit of shopping so we should be home by noon to just do nothing the rest of the day. That's a great thing!
Well Sunday started off schedule. The alarm that is supposed to automatically change time during daylight savings didn’t, so when B was up at 6:30 (I thought it was 5:30) and didn’t get up to feed him until 7:00. I couldn’t figure out why he was so hungry until I looked at the clocks we set on our own. After feeding him I hurried up to get ready for church and to fee him solids, DH decided to stay in bed and skip church, so it was just B and me. He fell asleep about 15 min after getting there so I didn’t have to sit in the cry room and after church I went back home to get my shopping list and DH was still in bed. We then went to Target (I couldn’t find an umbrella stroller or new toys for the plane trip so that was a bummer) then we bought some groceries. DH had just gotten up at 10:30 when we got home, that must have been nice.
He played his golf game almost all day but he did take a 30 min walk with B and me and that was about it. I had to take care of most everything for B since DH was in the middle of a game and after B was in bed I just read and watched tv. At one point DH massaged my legs but I really didn’t care, I was an hour away from bed and would have liked the attention earlier. I just feel so ignored most of the time and so tired. I mentioned to DH that he was spoiled because he gets to sleep in and I never do. He changed the subject and I wasn’t happy about that. I’m going to talk to him tonight about spending more time with B and me and maybe considering me once in awhile to let me sleep in and not pout when I ask him to get up instead of me.
My butt was so sore yesterday but it’s much better today so I’m going to exercise tonight. I some how have ended up on a March Madness pool with the guys I work with. I don’t know a thing about college basketball so DH is going to help me tonight. My monitor came in for my kitchen computer so DH will get me hooked up tonight. I’ll have to do some rearranging on my counter but that’s a small price to pay.
B was a sweetie this weekend, very busy exploring and playing. He did great on his potty on Sunday, 2 pees. Still no poos but he goes at such odd times that it’s going to take some work to catch one. And once I’m aware of what he’s doing he’s already in the act. He does great when we put him on 10 min after he’s done eating and I think for the poos I’ll just have to start timing when they happen after eating to see if that will help. He likes his book that flushes and Where’s the Poop but he also just likes playing with his links. When DH is on the big potty and B’s on the little potty he chews on DH’s belt, he was drooling all over it yesterday. When he pees in the potty I show it to him and then show him that I put it in the big potty and flush, of course we sing a "pee pee in the potty" song. I didn't get too crazy because I'm not sure if he would have understood and I didn't want to scare/startle him. So like it or not ladies this journal is going to incorporate my walk through potty "conditioning".
Today was so darned busy. I had a 2 hour meeting that went 2.5 hours and into lunch, so I shoved my face, hit the bathroom and ran to my 1:00 meeting. At least it meant I left an hour early. My morning started out great when I went to get B out of his crib (he wasn't crying it was just time to get up) and he was laying in a puddle of puke. I dont' know when it happened but it was crusted in spots so I figure it had been a little while. His hair was caked and it was all over one side of his face and his back had been soaked. So we had a bath first thing and when he wouldn't sit still to eat his bottle I put him on his potty because he was tooting. Well I'm not a good mom sometimes and I left him on his potty, needless to say he fell over and was crying as I ran to him. Well my little darling pooped in the potty (I rejoiced this when he calmed down) which meant it fell out of the potty as he fell. Luckily it cleaned up easily and he calmed down fast but man it was a rough start to the day. The poo is all we've caught since Sunday but it's something. I have to keep reminding myself that this is just making it part of our routine and that's what I need to focus on.
Since I got out of work early today I ran to the Co-op to get some brownie mix my dad can have then I hit KM. Well they didn't have the right colored toilet seat (ours is broken and I refuse to have it like that when my parents are here) but they did have an umbrella stroller and some fairly non-noisy toys for B on our plane trip. I get home and find out the front tires for the stroller are missing (perfect) so I called KM and they are holding a pink stroller so we can take those wheels, I figure pink wheels on the front of a blue stroller won't be too bad.
I've been doing great on exercising and eating well and I feel wonderful. I plan to exercise again tonight and will hopefully make this a daily thing. I just really need to get rid of this weight.
I talked to W yesterday to give her our plans to Portland, she's doing great and is in the same boat as me on shedding some pounds. We're going to go swimming while we're there so I want to get a new suit and I need to find some plastic pants for B.
Work has been something else these last 2 days. I'm just so tired of my boss *****ing to me about my co-worker when my co-worker has totally valid complaints and questions. I'm also about ready to strangle my manager, he's been such a dink lately and won't listen to a thing. We had this long meeting today to try to air out our concerns and get things answered and honestly after 2.5 hours NOTHING was really decided. He did tell me that I will be doing the budget for our group and I'm going to check my role description tomorrow to see if "doing the budget" is in there. If not they can either pay me more or do it their damned selves. My manager said that my previous bosses position was split between the four of us. So my co-worker said, that's interesting since Cindy and I didn't get any additional compensation and you and T did. He didn't have much to say to that other than he doesn't know what our role descriptions are. I'm so tired of all of this bs. T & D received raises when Pat left yet they don't really want to take on anything she did so they're hoping my co-worker and I just willing take care of everything.
I talked with day care about the child molester next door and she said she checks the list every month and is aware of him and the others near by. I've decided I'm going to write my Governor and the state Senate and House reps in my area to see if I can spur something along. It's ludicrous that there isnt' a law against this, don't we care about our children?
I looked my role description over and it says absolutely nothing about me doing the budget, I also saw that I'm doing a few other things that aren't on my description. So I'm going to keep doing what I've been doing and if they don't like it they can pay me more than 22K a year or do it themselves.
Day care called and said B has puked twice today and has a fever of 100. He's in a good mood and was sleeping when I called them back so I said to just give him Tylenol and call me if he gets worse. DH has some on site and errands this afternoon so he said he might just pick him up when he's done. He thinks B has the flu since it's going around, so much for the flu shot he got. I have to go back to KM to get the wheels for our stroller and then I have a nice list of things to do tonight to prep for my parents. I also want to get some exercise in so I'll have to stay on task to get everything done and be in bed a bit early. If B doesn't do well tonight or tomorrow I'll just stay home.
I exercised last night, just the buns and thighs video, and I ate really well too. I think the nice weather is helping me out and I need all the help I can get! I did have DH order me the pilates video with the ball, I hope I enjoy it and that it helps to kick my butt in shape.
B's pictures are in so they're going to deliver them today. I'm so excited to see them, I'll have to organize who I'm sending them to and then sort through my options, that's always a hard decision for some reason.