I am exhausted, have a headache and want to be anywhere but at work right now. B at least seems to be doing ok; he hasn’t puked since yesterday morning and hasn’t had a fever so hopefully we can avoid an illness. I cleaned the house last night and made the brownies and even exercised so that was good. I was a bit cranky with DH because I was so exhausted and felt a bit overwhelmed. He said he was going to clean the bathroom downstairs on Wed, of course he didn’t so I was asking him to do it last night. I’ve also been wanting him to get a new toilet seat for days now and I got fed up and was going to get it myself when he said I’m going to get it tonight. So he gets it but doesn’t install it because it’s much more fun to watch the basketball games downstairs, at 10:00 I’m tired and trying to get ready for bed as he finally puts the new one on. I was at my wits end with him. Tonight I need to get some salads made and finish the dessert and then hopefully I can spend the rest of the weekend relaxing. I’m just doing pizza for lunch and hamburgers for dinner on Saturday. Sunday we’ll have blueberry pancakes, bacon, and eggs. It works.
About half the department is out today and that really makes me not want to be here. I’m definitely leaving by 3:30 and may even go a bit earlier than that, we’ll see. B pooed in the potty last night and he pooped and peed in it this morning for DH. I’ve been signing potty and making a sssss noise while he’s on the potty, he at least pays attention to what I’m doing and I hope I can do it while he’s going so he can associate everything together, eventually. He always goes before I can get to him in the mornings and after his first bottle he seems to not go at the normal 10 min, so I have some more “studying” to do. I don’t think he goes in between those times either so maybe I’ll shoot for 20 min in the morning. He’s so darned cute sitting on that potty and he’s really starting to develop a little tummy. I think he’s filling out a bit more and I hope his body is catching up to his head and his peers.
I now have the pink wheels for the blue umbrella stroller. The good thing is I won’t be able to mistake my stroller with anyone else’s. I am really looking forward to our trip, I just need a break and to get out of here. I was saying earlier to my cubicle mates that what we all need is a B.S. break. DH decided he’d take the day after we fly back off also, that way we have some time to wind down and don’t feel like we’re rushed back into the stresses of life right after getting home, and I have time to do some laundry.
I need to pick up an early birthday card for my mom; I decided I’m going to give her some cash so she can go to the hotel spa when she’s in Vegas next month. I know she wouldn’t splurge on herself so I’ll pay for it because she deserves it, especially after the little hellions she has in her class this year. I hope with the $150 I give her she can find something, I’ve printed out the spa prices and they aren’t cheap but I didn’t expect them to be either.
I put a shirt on today that I haven’t worn in quite sometime because I just didn’t feel like I looked good in it, and it’s one of my fat shirts. Well I at least feel confident enough in it, at least the exercise is making me feel better whether I look better or not. I’ll take tonight and tomorrow off and start exercising again on Sunday, I may sneak in the buns and thighs workout before my parents get here tonight, we’ll see if I have the time.
My parents actually got here on time on Friday, it was a miracle they didn't take 5 hours to drive a 3.5 hour trip. My dad and his stopping all the time. I stayed up fairly late chatting with my dad and the Sat morning my mom wanted to take B but I had to get up to help him remember her and be ok with not having mommy. We did a bit of shopping then came home and put a new starter in the Pontiac. We BBQ'd burgers and then DH and I left for the Modest Mouse concert. It was a great show with lots of energy, the only complaints were the morons that kept body surfing and the arena is not cut out for acoustics, oh well. We did see 2 babies (under a year old) there. One had covers for her ears to protect them and the other had absolutely nothing. I was pretty ticked that the parents would be so selfish to put their childs hearing at stake so they could go to a concert.
This morning my mom took B and he decided to be up a little before 5:00am, she got him around 5:20 and I turned our monitor off and slept until about 8:30. We went out to eat breakfast then my parents left. I spent the day cleaning up my flower beds, the prickly pear was even de-grassed and I put some rocks around it's base to hopefully prevent so much grass from growing in it. My garden still needs some serious help but I at least started the clean up, there's always next weekend. We also went for a walk and I've done a bit of reading and of course laundry!
B has done great on the potty. We caught 2 poos and pees today, 1 poo and 2 pees yesterday. I think he's starting to understand what the potty is for and when I sign potty and make my ssssss sound. It will be exciting when he starts to let us know that he needs to go.
He has a low fever, 99.1, and I think it may be from teething. He's been a bit fussy today and is chewing on everything so maybe we'll get a pearly white soon. He's currently sleeping in his highchair, we'll see if he's hungry when he wakes up since he didn't get far.
Another Monday, why do the weekends go by so darned fast? DH and I relaxed together last night and watched Montana Meth on HBO, dear God the things people will do for that poison. All I could think about was that some day my LO will have to deal with the pressures in life and resist (hopefully) these temptations. How can we as parents make sure our LO’s make the right decisions in regards to drugs and alcohol?
B didn’t sleep too well last night, he initially woke up fussing and I had some weird dream that I had to get up and do something so I was doing a bit of sleep walking when I came to in the hallway. I was going to check on B but he was quiet so I went back to bed. About an hour later he woke up again and DH got up to check on him, I thought it was maybe teething pain and asked DH to check his temp to make sure he didn’t have a fever. Turns out he had a really wet and poopy diaper so DH changed him and put him back down, he was out until a little before 6:00 so that was nice. He was very demanding to get his bottle first thing this morning so I skipped putting him on the potty as soon as he woke up. Once he was done with the bottle I got him dressed and put him on the potty for a bit. I of course signed potty and did my sssssss sound (he gets such a kick out of this) and I thought he had peed but was pleasantly surprised to see he had pooped too. After I cleaned him up we looked into the potty and I praised him for a good job and his smile was great. I’m so darned impress with that kid right now and I’m really happy I’ve incorporated this into our routine.
We got his 6 month pictures in and they are adorable, I now need to get another picture frame so I can put the big picture in the hallway. His toothless smile is precious and it’s amazing how his face has “matured” from just 3 months ago. I need to motivate myself to get started on his baby book and scrap book pages, I should get everything out tonight so it’s in sight and I can’t forget about it anymore.
I’m really fed up with this job and the BS, I know there is no such thing as a perfect job and each place has its own crap but I will probably try to get out of here sometime after June. I don’t want to leave (that is unless I get the weed job I applied for) the accountants alone during year end. If I don’t get the weed job I’ll start looking for a ½ or ¾ time position so I can keep my benefits, unless of course things get a heck of a lot better around here and the people making twice as much as me start doing their own work. Time will tell.
I’m feeling chatty today and somewhat unable to focus. B is very interested in the necklaces that I wear and I’ve been keeping him away and saying no when he tries to touch them. He gets his concentrating look on and will try to move my hand and/or reach the necklace so he can check it out. Yesterday I didn’t wear a necklace and he put his concentrating look on and tried to find it. I want us to get a picture of him like that because it’s a sweet face.
I talked with DH last week about feeling so exhausted and never getting a chance to sleep in. He was very receptive and I just need to be open with him when I need a break. I’m so lucky to have a husband that will listen and help me out. For some reason I hate having serious talks with him, I’m always worried I may say something that would be hurtful and I don’t want to get too emotional either, I’m just silly really.
I guess B fell asleep on the bed waiting for DH to get out of the shower this morning. DH let him sleep for an hour, fed him his solids, and then they had a poo in the potty before leaving for day care. I sure didn’t expect to catch this much so quickly, though it may change too so I won’t hold my breath. I will need to have him use the travel potty seat a little bit before we head to Portland so it’s not entirely new and scary for him. I’m not sure how well we’ll do maintaining the potty training while we’re gone but I can at least give it a try.
My new Pilates video is in so I’m going to give that a try tonight, I need to get back to exercising since I took the last 3 days off, except for the gardening I did yesterday. I also ate poorly this weekend (lots of snacking) so I need to get back on track and get these pounds off my arse.
Last night was a good night, nothing too exciting but that’s ok. B and I put laundry away and played when we first got home. I tried to feed him the Mac & Cheese dinner and he was not a big fan. The texture is kind of weird. We were taking a bath when DH got home and then he took over the feeding and B fell asleep on DH’s lap right after finishing his bottle. He slept great last night, had a quick wake up around 2:00 but after talking for a couple minutes went back down. He even pooped and peed on the potty this morning, hopefully this is a new trend. He almost fell off the potty and was a bit upset about it, thank God I caught him because he had already gone. Last night when we sat on the potty after dinner he was looking into it to see the poo and pee but there wasn’t anything in there because he didn’t have to go. It was cute seeing him search, and I told him sometimes we just don’t have to go though it doesn’t hurt to try.
DH has been putting pictures of B on the computer so I’m going to update his webpage this week (hopefully tonight), I’ve been putting it off long enough. I do want a picture of him sitting on the potty because he’s so cute, even though it may bring up questions from the family that I don’t want to deal with. I really don’t know what to expect from the IL’s in regards to having him sit on the potty at this age. I’m strong I can handle the criticism and who knows they may fully support it, either way it won’t stop me. I’m also not sure what S & W will say, I can’t really hide it from them when we visit them next month. They’re hippies I’m sure they’ll be open to it. My dad got some pictures of him on the potty reading his books and he joked that B will be potty trained before Liz. Speaking of Liz she has added a few words but still really isn’t talking (not like she should at 2.5 years), they’re still waiting to hear from Scottish Rights to get her with a speech therapist. She won’t sign with W but she is at least not whining like she used to, I think she feels more understood and heard. Logan told me she ate dog poop last week, I asked him why he didn’t stop her and he said he thought she was just playing with it. I had to laugh, then Liz got on the phone and said yuck when I asked her about eating the dog poop. At least she didn’t like it.
My new Pilates video arrived yesterday and the ball really adds to the workout. I tried one workout last night and found a flaw, boo! The first side to work the inner thighs was just 1 stretch and I found that odd but kept going with the DVD. When I got to the other side to do the inner thighs it had a full workout. The DVD doesn’t skip any time during the first side so it seems to be a problem with the actual video. DH contacted the seller so we can hopefully find out of it’s just my video or all of them. If it’s all of them I’ll just have to rewind when I get to the one spot that has the work out to get the other side. Oh well!
B did great yesterday on the potty, 3 poos and 3 pees. He gave me a huge smile we when celebrated. This morning he pooed before I got him up and I didn’t catch anything before I left for work, thus is life. BIL Jase stopped by yesterday to visit with DH and B, DH told him we were starting to PT B and he seemed a bit surprised, probably cos their last one didn’t start PTing until he was 3. DH also told SIL C (he’s got a bigger mouth than me on this) and she thought it was interesting. So everyone will know now and that’s fine as long as all negative comments are kept to themselves.
B puked on Tuesday night and I think it was from eating too fast or being too full. Either way it was all over me. He also puked a little last night in his crib but somehow he didn’t get any on himself. It’s a good motivator for me to finally do his laundry. I have quite the list of things to do this weekend. I’m sure I won’t get it all done but at least most of it is a priority, at least the yard work and cleaning the garage can wait for a couple weekends.
Yesterday was a bear of a day at work, no one can keep us informed on what’s going on but they expect us to be there at a drop of a hat when they finally decide to fill us in. It’s just a bit frustrating. I’ve noticed my appetite increases during AF so I need to plan better to keep healthier snacks around, especially at work because right now I’m eating Cheetos from the vending machine.
DH and I watched a movie last night and it was nice hanging out with him. He’s been so helpful lately and has been paying more attention to me. I need to try to get back to my old self, being more playful with him and more loving. It’s hard when you get so tired and feel like there’s so much to do; being happy and playful is the last thing on my mind but I need to bring it to the front.
DH ordered some new keyboards for me to try out on my kitchen PC. I was really excited about the keyboard that you can roll up but it’s really hard to type on, slows me down too much, and it doesn’t look very good rolled up and sitting on the PC. The keyboard I’m keeping is a wireless mini keyboard, it fits great on the PC and keeps the area looking nice and clean, just like my anal retentive self likes.
It's been a good day and I got a ton done. Laundry is done (except the bed sheets in the guest bedroom), the house is spotless, bills are paid, DH's books are updated, and I'm going to make some cookies pretty soon. Tomorrow we'll hit Costco and the grocery store after church then I'm going to organize the basement, other than that it's whatever I feel like doing. Yeah!
B has done great with his potty training, 4 pees yesterday, 3 pees and 1 poo today. It seems his bowel movements are changing again, hopefully it will be fewer times a day. He has to be teething because the drool is everywhere, his cheeks are red, and he's pretty darned cranky. I got yelled at a lot today!
Yesterday was pretty good, though I did get a little ticked at DH when we were shopping. He made me feel like we were in a hurry so I got cold and in a hurry for him, he apologized and I got over it. I was really just being a big baby. When we got home I just tooled around the house, worked a tiny bit on B’s baby book, organized the basement, cleaned the guest bedroom and bath, organized our upstairs closet, and gathered my donations piles so I can drop those off sometime soon. We all took a nap, though B doesn’t like napping with us so he went to the crib and I got maybe 30 min of sleep before he woke up, oh well. DH and I watched The Island on Saturday night, it was too long and drug out at the end but otherwise it wasn’t bad (nothing I’d pay money to see). DH also got all of B’s professional pictures on the computer so I can update his web page this week. I need to stay on top of keeping the house clean while getting a few to-do’s done before M & J get here on Friday.
B is still working on a tooth, I swear it will never get here, and has been a bit crabby because of it, poor fella. He’s doing great with PTing, 2 pees this morning and 5 pees yesterday. He definitely tries to go when he’s on the potty and I’m happy he understands the process, yesterday we had the smallest little tinkle in the potty but we still celebrated. I need to get the folding potty seat out so we can practice on there and be comfortable with it before we head to Portland. He’s been doing good standing while holding onto things, he won’t move his legs at all but he is starting to think about trying to pull himself up so that’s a step to mobility.
He’s started to whine when we feed him and I need to work on getting this changed. He whines when he sees the bottle coming to his mouth but then he stops whining while he eats. Solids are a different story. He will whine while we’re feeding him even when he has a mouth full. I’m sure we’ve promoted this behavior somehow and I’m going to have to try a few things to see how we can change it, ugh!
Work is the same and I have a meeting with our HR person to discuss some things my co-worker brought up to her about our transition since my boss’s retirement. I’m going to explain why we’re confused and how no one has come out and said how things are. I’m also going to bring up my current boss discussing his feelings about my co-worker with me. He’s said things like he’s high maintenance that he doesn’t believe what he says, etc. I feel like he’s trying to bait me and I’m not sure for what or why but I just keep my mouth shut, he doesn’t listen anyways so why talk? For some reason this weekend I realized I don’t expect to hear on the job I applied for. I don’t know why I feel like that but I do. Maybe it’s a sign that I should look for a .5 or .75 time position. How nice would it be to be able to make dinner at 5:00 instead of 7:00? Or to run errands during the week without having to save everything for the weekends? A girl can dream.
I ordered a couple more things for B, I’m an internet junkie and so weak sometimes. I ordered a Bumbo play tray (since the last one I ordered has been lost and I don’t want to wait another month for the replacement to arrive) and a cloth cover for shopping carts and restaurant high chairs. My previous order (tummy soother wrap, Baby B’air, and knee pads) are supposed to be here this week and I’m excited! I sure hope the Baby B’air is as nice as I’ve read and that B doesn’t hate it. The great thing about flying into Salt Lake is that our flights are only 1 hour each so it shouldn’t be too hard to entertain B during that time, I’m counting down the days.
This week has been busy with work and I find I just don’t want to do the stuff, but I can’t afford to procrastinate so I best just buckle down and do it. DH built another media PC, this one he did as cheap as possible and it is going to be used primarily to record shows for us since the one in the living room requires that you be on the channel its recording or it won’t record. It snowed a little yesterday but there’s nothing left today. It is cold and I’m now worried about my perennials that have decided to already start showing green. At least I don’t have to worry about my natives.
M & J are going to be here late on Friday. I’m not sure what we’ll do on Saturday, it will probably depend on the weather. I wouldn’t mind doing a little window shopping down town but we’ll see. Tonight I want to put some decorations up (after 2 years of procrastinating) in the bathroom and our bed room, I also need to do B’s laundry and clean up some of the house. Tomorrow night I’ll make the jello salad and cookies, finish cleaning the house, and clean up the garbage that has blown into our yard.
We’re having a meeting with the HR rep tomorrow afternoon to discuss our transition. I’m not totally sure how it’s going to go but it will be nice to finally get clarification. Though I just realized that I have to get some stuff together before tomorrow and I’m not so sure I have time.
B hasn’t pooed in the potty for a couple days but we’ve caught a few pees. I think he gets too busy playing and doesn’t pay attention to what he should be doing. It seems the teething has gone away for the moment so he’s been in a fairly good mood lately. He has been waking around midnight the past few nights and crying, so tonight I’m going to have DH do a crib bump around 11:45 to see if we can get him out of this habit. I’m also working on getting him to not whine when we try to eat our solids. 2 days ago I wouldn’t look at him or feed him while he whined and then he started crying but after about 2 min he stopped everything and I fed him. Last night he cried quicker and harder and threw some coughs in there, it also took him a bit longer to finally stop, hopefully tonight will be better but I’m not expecting it. We’re also starting to see little tantrums here and there, I’m doing my best to ignore it and not give him what it is he wants. I’m not so sure I’m ready for this yet.
Well I better get to the day and try to get all of these projects off my desk, blah!
Today went pretty good and I got everything I needed/wanted to done so that's a great feeling. I have 3 meetings tomorrow and a ton of things to go over with Dale so tomorrow should go fast.
B had a good day and I decided to try to avoid his pre-eating whining that I would feed him as soon as we got home, so we did avoid the whining but he started gagging and I picked him up to try to make it to the kitchen linoleum and instead he puked all over the carpet on my way there. I stripped us both down and spent the next 40 min cleaning the carpet. He feel asleep fast at the bottle but got all 8 oz down so we gave him another bottle and he took 1.5 oz more. About 40 min after falling asleep he woke up with his nightmare symptoms and the only way I could get him to stop crying was by feeding him some more, he took another 2 oz so hopefully he won't wake up early due to hunger.
M & J called and they won't be making it up this weekend, I'm totally bummed too. They've been snowed in at Sheridan since yesterday and it's still coming down. Hopefully they can get home tomorrow. So I haven't done anything around the house this evening and I'll do a quick clean tomorrow night so DH and I can have all weekend to do whatever.
Well I'm tired so I'm going to head to bed, so happy tomorrow is Friday.