Yesterday was a realy nice productive day. I did the Wii for 35 min then I did my step workout later on in the day. DH came home early to work on installing the screen door, we decided to finally get rid of the cruddy one that was there and that would always bang shut really loud. Of course there was a damaged part in the box and we had to contact the manufacturer to get a replacement but that's just typical for our luck. I also weeded my native garden and I only have around the prickly pear left, and then B and I played outside for a bit with the neighbors. The neighbor kids sure have been stinkers lately, we now have to keep our garage door closed when we're not outside. Twice they have taken Otter Pops from the box and opened them splattering juice everywhere, plus they knocked over the bubble machine spilling bubbles all over. They need to learn to stay out of people's garages.
L slept a lot yesterday and she only went 3 hours max last night so I was up at 2 and then again at 5, I'm thinking a growth spurt may be here. After the 5 am feed I decided to just stay up and I'm going to head to Target soon to get some shopping done. I plan to work on thank-you's and the birth announcements today, plus finish weeding my native garden. Hopefully I'll have some time to visit my veggie garden to do some weeding there also.
We're heading out for the weekend so I've been spending my morning preparing for our first trip away with both kids. We're heading to the cabin tonight and it will just be us, yea! Tomorrow is DH's 31st birthday so he'll do some fishing and relaxing then we'll head to Blgs when B's nap is due. We are going to visit B & A to see their new little bundle, Calla. She and L are bound to be good friends. She was born yesterday, 6 lbs 7 oz, 20 inches long. After that visit we'll have dinner and swim at the hotel then Beth's birthday is on Saturday then we're driving to Fsyth to visit my grandma. I think DH and I will go out on Saturday so my mom can watch the kids, they don't have a good movie at the theatre so dinner will probably be it.
I'm a little annoyed with DH right now, I just never feel like when I talk about things that bother me he just sits there silent waiting for me to shut up or he defends the other side. I told him it bothers me that he never validates what I'm saying and of course he says he does, but I don't feel like he does. I need to just get over it or our weekend will suck but I'm frustrated because when I do try to talk to him about something that repeatedly bothers me he comes up with excuses and doesn't try to understand.
My to-do list is getting shorter and that's a great feeling. I have the birth certificate, organized the basement, finished my thank-you's & birth announcements, ordered L's baby book, spent our gift cards, decorated the kids' room, and the SS card was automatically sent to us so that saved me some work. I'm really close to being finished with Calla's flower hat and I plan to use this week to clean the house, weed my veggie garden, and crochet more.
Our first road trip went really well, L did great and B was more of a turkey during the drive than she was. Our night at the cabin was really nice and DH got some fishing in on his b-day and he even caught 3 fish. Once we arrived at the hotel in Blgs we met up with B & A and got to see little Calla. She's so long and so adorable. We all went out to Fuddrucker's and it didn't fail they screwed up my order big time, didn't give us B's meal and then didn't put bacon on DH's burger. After dinner we went swimming and then to bed. We got another swim in before doing a little bit of shopping around town and then we went to E's b-day party. The party was nice and SIL actually made cake and lunch that my dad could eat, this was a first and really nice to see. Her step sister (which I never even knew she had one but she just recently moved to the area) was there and I'm not being a ***** but when her family is around I feel like I'm on a different level. The things they say & do just really baffle me and white trash is all I can think. Their values are so different from ours, I don't blame my brother for not wanting to spend a lot of time with her family. OK, I'll just stop there. After the party we headed to Fsyth and DH and I went out to eat at a new restaurant they have. It was really nice and is in the old restaurant that my grandpa cooked at. Sunday we slept in because my mom is a saint and took the kids then we had lunch with my grandma & aunt Linda. We hit the road later than DH wanted but all in all it was a really nice weekend.
Last week we all got haircuts, mine looks pretty good and B's is horrible. We thought it would help to have DH get his first so B could watch but that didn't really help, neither did the DVD player as a way to distract him. He fought a lot and the haircut looks awful, I had to do some fixing since she left a damned widows peak in his hair. I have my 6 week check up tomorrow and I have to take both B and L and it will be right during B's nap time, that should be fun. We then have pictures on Wednesday so I've made sure to have the clothing I want ready to go, I'm excited and hope it goes well.
Last edited by lifeisgood; 08-25-2008 at 12:45 AM.
My 6 week check up went fine, DH actually came home since the store was slow and watched the kids for me, yeah! My BP was 110/62 (wow!) and everything looked good. She gave me a prescription for BC but since DH and I DTD this last weekend I have to wait for my period to show before I can start taking them, so hopefully it will show soon. Since I didn't have the kids with me I ran to work and dropped off thank-you's and picked up my parking pass. I avoided my office and don't plan on stopping in again until I have to be there. I then recycled some card board and stopped by the grocery store before heading home.
Tuesday I cleaned the house which took me all day with two kids and I mailed off the flower hat to Calla. Wednesday we had our pictures and we haven't had the sitting yet but I think we should have some good ones in there. B fought being in the pictures so I didn't get the combinations I wanted with him but we did at least get a good family picture so that's the important part. We then met up with Ed since he was driving through on his way to a wedding and had lunch with him and his roommate. I spent my evening working on organizing my to-file pile and today I organized our island and put up the shelves DH bought to help keep me organized, it's scary how in order things look. I also got the baby books out so I plan to start working on them tomorrow. I want to finish weeding my veggie garden tomorrow and since our weather has been in the 60's to 70's it's easy to find myself outside more. I feel like what I have left on my list is fun things that require my creative side so I'm looking forward to working on them. I still need to clean the carpet but that is going to be put on hold for a little bit longer.
Lily has slept for 8 hour stretches at night for the last 4 nights. DH started trying a dream feed with her the last 2 nights but it hasn't gone too well, she's ony taken 1 oz at each feed and still wakes at 4 am for me to feed her. It's really not too bad but I'm looking forward to getting her to sleep until 6 am. My goal is to have her up at 6 for a feed then B up at 6:30. That way I can get up around 5 am when I have to go back to work and I'll have time to devote to both of them in the morning.
L has also been sleeping a lot latley and she's got some cute rolls all over, especially on her legs. She's growing much faster than B did but that's expected. She's quite the squeaker too and does the same struggled breathing thing I did when I was a baby. The only difference is I don't worry about it and my mom was so worried by it at first that she kept calling the nurses in to check on me.
B is doing well, he's screaming and threatening with hitting when he gets angry but I'm trying to stay calm when I talk to him at that time while acknowledging his feelings and reminding him of consequences. It's working a bit but I also have to make sure that I devote some time to him so he doesn't feel ignored. We received the kitchen set we bought with the gift certificate to Walmart and B loves it. I'm surprised with how much he enjoys playing with it as he's "cookin". He really impressed me 3 weeks ago when we were playing with an alphabet puzzle. He picked up the Z and said zebra then he picked up the B and said Brodie. He's also signing ABCD so we're on our way.
I have been really good about exercising and I feel more energized because of it. I'm also doing better with my eating habits and I figure if I stick with this healthy eating long enough I'll crave it. I'm glad I read the Diet Cure, it really is working for me and I never thought that taking some amino acid supplements would mostly eliminate my chocolate and carb cravings. I've been doing well the last 2 days at taking my supplements and I hope that as I stay consistent with that my cravings will completely go away. It almost seems too good to be true.
Tomorrow I plan to finish my filing, finish weeding, and start the baby books. I think it will be another nice day out so we'll have to take advantage of that. Today we were outside for quite awhile. B played with the neighbor kids and I chatted with Becky and Nicole. I had to take one thing away from T because he kept digging it into the dirt after I told him not to, he at least will now know that I'm true to my word. He was also picking my elderberries and just throwing them on the ground, not too pleased about that since he was just being destructive, he's a little **** as DH likes to say.
Labor Day weekend was nice, DH closed the store for the 3 days so we had our first 3 day weekend at home without company in a long time. We had a nice time and the first day tried to potty train B, he did great that morning but after his nap it just went to piss, literally. He would soak his trainers (all cloth by the way too) and sit in it without any concerns, it was like it was normal and just comfy. He also started to really fight us so we decided to just throw in the towel for now. I think it was also hurting us that he was in top 2 year old rebellion so maybe in a few months we'll try again. The only other thing that happened was I came to a late realization of something that happened to me my Freshman year of college. I think I always knew what really happened that night but when I was watching a show with a very similar situation and the psychologist flat out said what happened, it hit me really hard. I cried for awhile and then had to tell DH since I needed to get it off my shoulders, he was very supportive and sweet and it felt good to get it all out there. I've also done a lot of talking with God to try to remove the guilt, and I know this guilt is something I shouldn't feel but I do. Anyways I'm feeling a lot of healing over it and it can only get better from here on out. I may not be as far as I think though since I can't even really type what it is but I would think most people can take a good guess.
B had his first play date at Aidan's house on the 6th, he was so excited and had a lot of fun. I talked with Shannon for awhile then went to the mall to do a little shopping before picking him up. I'll have to reciprocate and have A over one of these weekends, they are just 2 peas in a pod. On the 7th we went to the cabin so DH could cut firewood. B and I were watching them cut a tree down, keeping our distance, and when the tree fell it bounced off a wire fence and did a see saw movement. I looked over at FIL and DH after it bounced and watched the bottom of it come down on FIL's head, it scared the crap out of me. DH didn't realize it had happened so I hollered down asking FIL if he was OK, once DH turned to him, there was blood already showing, I turned with B in my arms and ran for the cabin. B thought the run was fun which I was happy about since I didn't want him to panic at all. I found MIL right before she and L were going to join us and she took the med kit to them. They did go to the ER and DH felt horrible about it, it was just a cruddy situation. FIL is fine, he had a big bump and the skin was scratched off but they couldn't really stitch it. It put a damper on things that's for sure.
L had her 2 month appointment on the 8th and she's a big girl. 21 inches long, 11 lbs 1.5 oz, and her head was 15.5. She did really well with her shots, screamed and cried of course for a bit but no fevers so that was nice. She also did a laugh, only one so far, after I had kissed her under her chin on the 3rd, it was so sweet. She's such a smiley girl and she's doing so well. Yesterday she weighed in at 13 pounds and her EAS routine is perfect for the most part. She's even doing 9 hour stretches at night so I can't complain about a thing.
On the 10th B and I had a date night. I was hoping this would help with his tantrums lately and I've found I just need to spend a lot more time with him to keep him feeling happy and fulfilled and thus behaving. We met up with A & S at McD's to have dinner and let the boys play for a bit. I then dropped L off with DH at work and we met up with A & S at the Veggie Tales show. Those two were dancing up a storm and just wild kids. It was a lot of fun.
We started our vacation to Springfield on the 12th. We had 3 flights to get there, first to SLC then to Minn and then to Branson. It ended up being about 14 hours in the airports and then another 1.5 hours until we got to Mark & Regina's. B freaked out for 5 min (it was painful) when we first got on the plane. He screamed, cried, hit, clawed.. it was just a bunch of fun. The second flight this lasted for about 2 min and the third flight it lasted for about 1 min. We were all just happy to be done for the day. We didn't fly in until 11:30 pm so it was late once B finally fell asleep. Our vacation was really nice, we did sleep recovery on Saturday then Sunday we went to Lambert's. I was pretty good controlling my eating while there so that was nice. Monday the guys went to the batting cage so B and I did some putt-putt then we headed to Chuck E Cheese and B was in heaven. He was dancing around before we even got checked in. He had a lot of fun but I think M & DH had even more fun. We flew back on Tues having to get up at 4 am our time to get there on time. B did well until DH had L in the bathroom for a diaper change and he just freaked out, cried up a storm and I'm sure I know what everyone was thinking because I was thinking it too. I almost burst into tears over the ordeal but he eventually calmed down. This time we boarded first and he did fine with the planes, I think the cramped quarters and all the people freaked him out. He was an angel for the rest of the flight and he's been so sweet and well behaved since our vacation, I'm working hard to maintain this by giving him lots of attention.
On Saturday we had a BBQ at our place for the play group and once the rain let up we were able to enjoy the back yard. The kids are all so great and I had a lot of fun talking with everyonee. We then had a Pregnancy to Parenthood Reunion at Kimmelin's house last night and that was a lot of fun too. B was running around playing well without me, this is something else I'm working on, and he did great with the other kids. We've been working on not letting the neighbor kids walk all over him but I've been trying to get him to stand up for himself. He's doing a lot better at not letting them take things from him unless he's done playing with them and he's also still sharing really well so I hope he's found that delicate balance. He's at least not crying when they take things from him so that's a good thing.
Well Kelly just called to do a walk around the mall so I'll be back to finish this up later.
The IL's just left so I'll finish my update. My AF is keeping me quesitoning and I don't really like it. Since DH and I DTD before my 6 week appointment I had to wait for AF to start before starting the pill. On the 10th I started some light spotting so I started taking my pill, well it was so light I never even needed a pad and it was gone that day too. Then on the 13th the same thing happened and now yesterday and today it's been the same. It's so light I can hardly even call it AF and I'm thoroughly confused. DH said I had the same types of issues with B but I don't remember them being quite like this. Part of me is worrying that I may be pregnant again, I guess I could just POAS to put my mind at ease.
I've been working hard to lose this weight also and so far I'm down 5 pounds. I feel great, my clothes are fitting better, and I'm feeling motivated. I really feel like this is it and since I'm not on a diet, I'm just making healthier choices with food, it's something I can keep up forever. I need a lifestyle change not just a temporary diet.
I'm going to work on finishing my birth story since K asked if she could have it, I'm more than happy to share with the world.
I POAS this morning and it said what I expected, it was still a relief though. I would happily welcome another LO but I'm just not ready yet and I really want to give L her time before we bring another baby into our lives.
Some cute things B is doing lately. When he finds something he's been looking for he says "There it is, I find it". It's just too cute. He helped me dig up carrots yesterday and was taking bites out of them with dirt still on them, his dirt covered mouth was pretty precious.
Here's my birth story for L, it took me long enough.
As my second pregnancy I did a lot of research into natural child birth and came across the Hypnobabies Home Study course which I decided to try with this birth. I was determined to go into labor on my own with this pregnancy and I knew if I could avoid an induction I could handle the rest without medical interventions. I was also planning to not go into the hospital until I was close to pushing, I figured the less time I was there the less time they had to intervene with my birthing time and I was nervous about the hospital trying to force something on me that I was not comfortable with. On Friday July 11th I had my weekly appointment and I was where I was the week before, 2-3 cm & 50% effaced. I had had a few days of mild cramping lasting only an hour each day so I wasn't surprised I was in the same place.
Sunday afternoon I noticed a slimy discharge when I’d wipe, it continued through the evening and had a very light red tint to it. I was hoping it was my mucus plug but didn't really know since I never lost mine with Brodie. I also knew that even if it was my mucus plug it didn’t necessarily mean I’d be having the baby soon so I didn’t get too excited. Early Monday morning I woke around 3:00 am to some cramping that was more intense than I had previously had & there was now bright red when I’d wipe. I went back to bed since nothing seemed too serious and I turned my internal light switch off so I could catch some more zzz’s. At 3:40 I woke to a small gush of water. I jumped up thinking it was my water breaking so I sat on the toilet and did what I thought was peed but didn’t notice anymore spurts or a trickle. I grabbed a towel and went back to bed not sure if it was my water or not. I woke a few more times to cramping until my alarm went off at and I got up to get ready for work. The shower felt great but the cramping continued and I kept visiting the toilet after each cramp so I decided to skip work for the day figuring I wouldn’t be too productive going back and forth from the bathroom to my cubicle. When a wave would hit I would give myself the Peace cue to help direct my anesthesia and breathed deeply.
Brodie was up shortly after 6 and I cuddled with him for a little bit and got him some breakfast. When a wave would hit at this point I continued my peace cue and was on my knees on the floor leaning on the couch cushions. My regular journeys to the bathroom continued and Dave was up at . I told him that I was having pressure waves and was not going into work for the day. He thought about going back to bed for a little bit longer but he saw that I was feeling the pressure waves quite a bit so he decided to shower. I remember him asking me if he’d need to come back from work and I told him at some point he’d need to be with me.
As Dave was showering I started making brownies for the nurses and when Dave came out to the kitchen I was doubling over with the wave’s and strongly using my peace cue and deep breathing. Most of my waves I would get on my hands and knees while tucking my tailbone down. Dave asked if I had timed anything and I hadn’t so he started timing me. I reminded him of the 411 rule and the next thing I knew he told me that they were lasting about a minute and were about 4 minutes apart. This put him in a bit of a rush because he dumped out his cereal after 2 bites got Brodie dressed and started heading out the door to take him to day care. I felt the need to go the bathroom again so I gave Brodie kisses before he left and told Dave I was going to go to the bathroom. I called my mom to let her know that I believed it was time and that she’d need to pick Brodie up from day care anytime after 3. I then sat on the toilet and quickly realized I was feeling pushy at this point and did not need to have a bowel movement. Then transformation hit me with full body sweats & this was when I realized how far along I really was. I knew Dave was still a ways out and there was no way I could travel in a car like this. I contemplated getting our neighbor but realized I didn’t have it in me to put my pants on to go over there and panic entered my world for about 5 seconds before I told myself that panicking isn’t helping. I didn’t know where to be in order to have the baby (I knew my current location on the toilet wasn’t ideal) so I put one foot in the bathtub and it just didn’t feel roomy enough. I sat back on the toilet to collect myself and reached down to see if the baby’s head was there, it was. This was a surprise since I hadn’t felt the baby move down. I put the towel I used to wipe the sweat off my face and body on our bathmat and got on my knees. I remember thinking I’m going to have an unplanned unassisted homebirth, this both frightened and exhilarated me. The wave’s kept pushing the baby without my help and I knew there was no stopping this freight train. I reached down again and felt the head crowning even more so I started pushing with my hand cupping the head the whole time. I remember 2-3 pushes and the head was out (this was an easier position than the normal stirrup position I had with Brodie) then the body slid right out. It was empowering catching my child and an experience I will never forget. I did not feel the ring of fire with Lily but I wish I would have pushed her out a bit slower in an attempt to prevent the tearing, I think if someone would have been there to help guide me this would have been more feasible. I said a prayer at this point that the baby would be breathing and OK, and thank God the cries followed shortly. I wiped off Lily’s nose and mouth and she gave a little choking sound so I patted her back and she was fine after that. Looking back I now know that my water did break at but it must have been a high leak with Lily’s body blocking it from releasing. Since my water’s weren’t released until I pushed her out (there was a huge gush of liquid when she came out and Dave said the floor was soaking wet) I believe this kept me from feeling her moving down like I did with Brodie. I was also “fooled” by how far along I had progressed because I was expecting more intense waves because my only other experience was from an induced labor which had very strong and close together contractions.
I wanted to somewhat contain the mess so I got into the bathtub and held my sweet little baby to my chest. About 20 min had passed since Dave left with Brodie and he showed up about 1 minute after Lily was born. He heard me talking in the bathroom and figured I was on the phone, when he walked into the room and saw the two of us he said “Holy crap, holy crap” and ran out to get his phone, he did heard her cry so he knew things were OK on that manner. I hollered that we were OK and he was next to us pretty quickly. He asked what the sex was and I didn’t know yet so I looked and saw we had a baby girl. The 911 operator told him how to tie off the umbilical cord (which he did with my hemp rope) and then said I needed to deliver the placenta. He told her that that was up to me and asked if I felt the urge to push, I didn’t, so he told her I wasn’t ready. The EMT’s then arrived (5 min was pretty impressive) and checked both of us. Lily had an Apgar of 8 about 10 min in and was doing great, her color was wonderful. We deducted at this point that I delivered her around . I lost a bit more blood than is normal with a vaginal birth but my stats were also normal. Dave was asked if he’d like to cut the cord and I was surprised when he did it because I knew he had no plans of cutting it. He later told me that he felt a little pressured with 5 guys standing around expecting him to do it. They asked if I wanted to go into the hospital and I told them I should be checked so they helped me out of the tub and took me away on a stretcher in the ambulance. I did get Lily to latch on in the ambulance and as we were arriving to the hospital my uterus started contracting again. The EMT’s were really excited to be involved with this call & they went on and on about how happy they were, I was happy to start everyone’s Monday on such a good note. They even stopped by later on to bring me flowers and Lily a blanket. Dave grabbed our hospital bag while we were on our way and took care of a few things around the house (like turning the oven off since my brownies never made it in there). He threw all of the linens in the washer and the EMT’s cleaned up most of the mess (there were a few splatters here and there but otherwise they did a great job).
At the hospital Lily went to the nursery and I was taken to the postpartum section to be checked, we were the talk of the nursery and PP unit and I think every nurse visited me at least once for the story. Since I had lost more blood than typical they hooked me up to Oxytocin and once the placenta was out the doctor saw that I tore along the same place I tore with Brodie. These stitches weren’t nearly as bad as Brodie’s were, that was good. After about 2 hours sitting in the room still covered in blood and not having seem my daughter I had had enough and told Dave (he’d been spending most of his time with Lily) I wanted to see Lily. I got to hold her for a little bit and then they moved me to a shower and my room, this is the part of the hospital experience that I was not happy about.
Lilian Mae was born July 14th, 2008 at weighing in at 6 lbs 14.9 oz and 19.5 inches long.
I can't believe I only have 1 week left of maternity leave, 3 months just went by way too fast. It will be good for all of us to get back to normal but I'm going to miss all the time I have to myself. This morning I woke at 4:50 to do a trial run of my morning routine to make sure I have enough time. I am going to start my day with 20 min of a morning yoga routine then I'll get ready and feed L at 6 and cuddle/dress B at 6:30. I found out I need about 5 more min to my morning so I'll have to adjust a little bit, otherwise it seems like things will work out. I will need to have lunches and clothes ready the night before and in order to give myself time after work to enjoy the kids I am going to prep dinners the night before. I already know I'm going to be exhausted but this won't last forever. I have decided that after I've been at work for a month or so and have been able to get things back to where they need to be I will then talk with my supervisor and director about moving my FTE to 3/4 time. I think this request will be a bit more feasible and realistic but it will also give me 2 extra hours a day that will really be needed. The only down fall is we'll have to pay for full time day care, this could be a good thing when I have appointments and errands because I can just pick the kids up later.
Since I'm ready to go for the day and have already started laundry and taken care of dishes I'm going to do some weeding. I need to clean up the house, pay bills, and finish some thank you's later on today. Our weekend should be decent, we have a play group tomorrow afternoon and then on Sunday we're heading to the cabin again to chop more firewood, hopefully this trip will be more uneventful.
I had a great day with the kids, Brodie was such a good boy and that really helps with the whole day. We played outside for a bit in the morning then it was time for a nap. I cleaned the house (except for the bathroom) and then we headed to the park for our play group. He and D had a lot of fun and after 2 hours there we then headed home.
L has been fussing in the evenings and tomorrow night I'm going to try cluster feeding her when she starts, hopefully it will help because it's hard on all of us and keeps me from getting anything done. B has been copying the Lord's Prayer at night when I say prayers, it's pretty darned cute hearing him repeat the last work of each line. He's also been praying God great, God good, he's too darned cute.
I've been a huge slack *** on my eating and exercising this week, I don't know what my problem is and am wondering if hormones are throwing me off. I'm spotting again today and I've been feeling up and down. It will be so nice when my body is back to normal. I'm not expecting a loss for the week and it bums me out but I need to not give up. I am going to work hard at making good choices tomorrow. On a good note my butt is sore as all get out from the yoga I did on Friday.
It's been a good week and I've been busy. Monday I ran to town to look for a red skirt for L to wear with her PJ onsie, of course I didn't find anything. I then spent Tuesday morning looking at the mall and ended up buying things for me, oops. Wednesday I went to the dentist for a cleaning, got the oil changed in the car, and worked on laundry. Yesterday I went back to the dentist for a sanding and sealing on a spot on my tooth that would turn into a cavity if it was left. That went really fast so I then ran to town to get a coffee and then did my shopping at Costco. I spent my afternoon making casseroles for K & D and cut up lots of fruit.
B has been a really good boy for me and L has been in good spirits, even sleeping 11 hours some nights. I'm still tired because I think that just goes with the territory of being a mom but things are going well. I've been doing better with my exercise and food intake and have seen a pound loss, that's always a good motivator.
Darren is with us for the morning since K went in for her c-sec at 6:30. He and B are entertaining each other and we'll be heading outside soon, it's a bit chilly but they'll stay warm enough running around.
DH has the weekend off so we're going to do the hay maze and pumpkin patch. I'm looking forward to it and I think B will have a lot of fun, especially when pumpkins are involved.