Not totally happy with work right now, my coworker just found out from our supervisor that our supposed “equal” is going to be making comments on our yearly evaluations. We don’t get to make comments on his evaluation so how does this make him our “equal” and not a supervisor to us? His lack of communication with us is just one issue and he’s the type of guy that will nit pick stupid things because it’s not how he works or does things. I just wish we would be told what is really going on because we need to know.
B is puking and other than that he seems fine and happy. DH fed him last night and he puked everything up along with some of the cereal I had given him earlier. DH did get 6 oz in him before bed that stayed in but at 4:00 he was hungry and awake. I got up to get him a 4 oz bottle and first spilled formula on the floor then almost smacked my head into the cabinet door because DH left it open. I fed B and he proceeded to puke the 4 oz all over both of us so DH tried and he took 2 oz then puked those back up. I decided I should stay home in case he gets worse so I can get him to the Dr's office. I made him eat very slowly this morning and did a lot of burping, he took 7 oz and puked about 2 oz back up. He's napping now and once he wakes up we're heading to the grocery store to get him some Pedialyte and I need to pick up my bc pills. The good thing is he's not crying and upset so that's something to be thankful for. He didn't have near as much snot this morning so that's going away.
I'm still not 100%, my nose is clogged and I have the lovely nasal drip still. I'm hoping I can get a nap in with B today, I sure could use it. I've been productive while he's been napping, I showered and got ready, talked with the nurse, did a quick clean of the house (still need to vacuum), folded the laundry I did last night and put a new pukey load in. I'm hoping to do my walking video today and organize my linen closet, I saw some great ideas in the BH&G magazine. I'm also going to try a low cal meat loaf recipe I have and I think I'll make potatoes too. My calorie intake yesterday was bad, 1359, I need to just say no to those Skinny Cow fudge bars.
B did pretty good today, he slept 3 hours this morning and we headed to the grocery store to pick up some Pedialite. He was so cute when he woke up, he had his big eyes on and gave huge smiles. He did puke during his second nap and I couldn't tell how much because it had soaked into him, the sheet, and his blanket. We got 2 oz of Pedialite and 4 oz of formula in him the hour before bed so hopefully he can hold through until 6 but I'm sure I'll be hearing from him around 4:00. He was really snuggly today but also played really well on his own so I didn't feel over whelmed and we had a great day considering.
DH has tomorrow off so it will be nice spending the whole weekend with him again. We need to go to Target and Costco tomorrow and DH wants to look at tvs. I spurred this interest because I was complaining that I couldn't watch my recorded shows all the way through because the screen would cut out. This apparently has to do with our tv being on the older side and not being totally compatible with the media center, so now we're going to probably get a new tv. I told him I didn't care what he got, he can spoil himself since I've gotten a lot over the past year (a piano, dining hutch, oven, and dishwasher). So now it's just him finding one that has all of the hook ups he needs.
I'm expecting a good weekend and I hope that B is over his puking tomorrow, I feel so bad for him because I know he's hungry and wants more than I've been giving him. I don't really have a choice right now so I'll get over it.
Yipee to a puke free day! I got up with B around 4:00 to feed him a little and I made DH get up at 6:30 to feed him again. It's only fair and at 4:00 I gave him the option of which time he wanted to get up to feed pur boy. We were out of the house by 10:15, DH made a deposit for the store then we went to Target and Costco. I found pants (jeans and khakis) for $2.50 each for B so I picked up a bunch of 12-18 months. It started snowing while we were in Costco and the roads were pretty slick, the moron drivers are the worst part of that. DH looked at some tvs and then we stopped at Albertsons. They are the only store we can find Lemishine at (it works wonders in our dishwasher with the very hard water we have around here) and now it's the only place where I can find Aquaphor baby wash. This stuff got rid of B's rash that was on his chest and tummy, I think it formed from the dry air but at least I found something that helps him.
We met a neighbor from 2 houses down, first time in 2 years though I can never remember seeing them ouside when I've been out. He has a plow on his four wheeler and he plowed the sidewalk in front of our house so DH talked with him a bit, he then plowed the rest of the driveway. When I was wrapping the hamburger we got at Costco so I could freeze it I discovered something that drives B crazy. I was tearing squares on tin foil for the hamburger and B started whining, initially I thought he was just being fussy but when I tore some more off he screamed at me twice and it sounded a lot like NO! He must hate the sound of the tin foil ripping so I went into the pantry and took care of the rest there. It was pretty cute.
B hasn't napped well at all today so I'm trying to get him to sleep a bit now before bedtime. I'm also hoping to get some cereal in him before bed, not sure if that will be successful or not. I hope we can get B back on his schedule tomorrow and that we can get more food in him too.
I did good yesterday with my calorie intake, 1254. Today is going to be bad because I had a Costco sausage for lunch, 570 calories right there. The sad thing is it's less calories than their salad, welcome to America land of the fat.
I got my Toddler Whisperer book today so I'm hoping to read some of that tonight and tomorrow. I'll do the credit card report for DH's store tomorrow but I still can't balance the check book because he hasn't looked for the register in the truck, I need to practice patience here. I also need to do laundry tomorrow but other than that I think I'll relax, drink coffe, and enjoy my lazy Sunday.
I had a good weekend but I sure could have had a longer one. I’m in a bit of a crabby mood this morning and it all started when I got to work, surprise! People were apparently cranky on Friday and since I was gone it flowed over to this morning. Oh well, most everything is taken care of and I’m really beyond caring at this point.
We had a nice Sunday, went to church and heard the same old same old on gays. It really bothers me to hear someone (and I know majority of churches are like this and I do understand it but it still bothers me to not have them push acceptance and love) state the perils of homosexuality and then turn around and discuss the story of Jesus addressing the woman caught committing adultery saying, “Let he without sin cast the first stone.” Shouldn’t that same practice go with gays? A sin is a sin and whether its adultery, stealing, etc they are all sins in the eyes of God. We are not the ones that are meant to judge people so why can’t churches leave the judgment of the homosexual up to God while accepting them into the church community with open arms like they do with adulterers and the rest of us sinners? It’s a double standard and it has bothered me for some time. B was fussy during church so DH took him into the cry room but we both said the same thing when we got into the car, at least someone else agreed with me in the crowd.
After church we headed home and relaxed. I did laundry, read, and made dinner. B puked about 1-2 oz up after his lunch bottle but I hope it was just from the cough he had at the moment. He also had diarrhea and major explosive butt this morning so I’ve been feeding him bananas with his cereal, I sure hope he gets better soon. Between the leaking diapers and puke I’ve done a lot of cleaning and used a lot of Resolve this weekend. I also updated B’s webpage but I didn’t get around to DH’s books, oh well.
I did horrible with my calories this weekend, both days were bad. Saturday was because of that damn Costco polish dog and yesterday I just kept eating and the cravings wouldn’t go away. Saturday was 1772 and Sunday was 1681. Of course I didn’t exercise at all either to try to balance out my indulgences; I will be a better girl this week.
I have a construction meeting today and then I need to finish the estimates I was working on last week and hopefully I get some of the finances consolidated later this week.
I’m really enjoying the Baby Whisperer for Toddlers, hopefully this will help me be prepared for when B starts acting out. I’m going to have to practice and start now with what the procedure is she recommends and what to say. That way I won’t look like a bumbling idiot to B as I’m trying to help him behave. I’m also really excited about the “potty training” at 9 months. It’s mostly a premise of making it part of your schedule so they become use to sitting on the potty and eventually figure it out. I think it will be less stressful for all of us and I won’t feel so rushed to perfection either. I also hope this will prevent the power struggle potty training usually brings about because it’s done during the 2’s. I probably won’t tell anyone that we’re starting to condition him for potty training because I don’t want to hear or see the disapproval or judgments. I know my mom would be more than supportive, she always is, and once he’s starting to show progress I’ll tell daycare but I figure the fewer that know the less pressure he will feel also. Now I need to start shopping for training seats because 9 months will be here before I know it.
I would also like to get more involved with other parents of kids close to B’s age so I started looking around the area to see what kinds of programs and play groups they have and most everything is geared toward SAH parents. Things aren’t held late in the afternoon or on the weekends and I’m really frustrated about it. We live in a 2 income society so wouldn’t you think they’d try to accommodate the working parents too? I’m going to look into Kindermusik and see if they offer anything on the weekends or later in the day, otherwise it won’t work for us. I also found a Parent Place Resource Center in Blgrd so I’m going to look into that and see what they provide/do. I know they have a lot of services I’m not interested in right now but they do playgroups and I just need to find out if they’re broken up by age. I had a hard time falling asleep last night because I kept thinking about these groups and the potty training, who would have thought I’d get so excited?
B had an explosive butt at daycare, just like I figured he would. The diaper rash has gone down so that’s a positive at least. He didn’t eat very well for them and it’s a bit frustrating. I think he’s getting too distracted but what can you do when there’s lots going on? The bananas don’t seem to be doing their job of plugging him up so I think I may just do veggies with the cereal. If this explosive butt keeps up I’ll probably call the dr. to see if I should be concerned.
His Twilight Turtle arrived yesterday and it’s really cute, I just need to find a better place to put it. We played on the floor a bit after getting home then took a bath and got ready for bed. He didn’t get to bed until a little before 8:00 because we had a diaper blow out so I had to clean him up and change him again. When he was in the tub he was whining a bit and every time he’d do a grunt/pout he’d toot, it was pretty funny especially since nothing came out while he did it. He went to sleep fast but woke at 4:00 and I went in just to check and see if he needed a diaper change, well he started crying after he saw me so I ended up feeding him 7 oz before he’d calm down and sleep more. At 6:00 he was out cold but I woke him up and changed the explosive diaper he had on (I’ve never done so much laundry before in my life) and then fed him 7 oz again. At least he’s taking full feedings. We played on the bed (sit up and fall down) for a couple minutes then I had to head out, he’s such a sweetie.
DH woke me up when he came to bed last night, I don’t know what happened but he did something and the sound startled me awake so I had a hard time going back to sleep. I was a bit of a ***** after that, not too surprising.
I talked with my mom last night and it seems things aren’t so well at my brother’s home. SIL had gone out with a friend a few nights ago and my brother asked her if she had been smoking when she got home, the smell must have been fairly strong. She said no but then he found a pack of cigarettes in the van yesterday. Now my brother has smoked/chewed secretly (from my parents) for years and I’m not sure if he still does so she could have been honest with him. They got into an argument because she lied to him and this is not the first time (an example is about a year ago she over spent on the credit card and hid it from my brother so they paid a few hundred dollars in interest because she didn’t just tell him about it) and he’s having a hard time being able to trust her. She’s mad at him because she feels he’s too controlling (he now has her on an “allowance” so she can’t over spend their money and put them into debt). Well they discussed their issues and she packed a bag and went to her parent’s house last night, I’m not sure if this is just a night separation or if it’s going to lead into something longer or divorce. My brother wants to do marriage counseling and I think that’s been needed for some time. C & my SIL started dating when she was 16 and got married when she was 21 because she was pregnant. I truly believe she feels that she has missed out on the stage of her life where she was young, available, and free to do what she wants when she wants and to sew some wild oats (not that she hadn’t sowed some already before they met). I think she believes she’s missed out on something and must feel the need to experience that in order to be happy, I just wish she’d realize the grass is always greener on the other side and she needs to stop and think about what she’s risking. I’m praying that they both open up and work through their differences and that what’s best happens, whether it is them staying together or getting a divorce. My heart is just breaking for my niece and nephew, they don’t need this in their lives and there’s really no way to protect them. I worry that if they do a separation SIL will go out and “cheat” on C, and I know a lot of people believe when they’re separated they can’t cheat but if I was in that position it would feel like I had been cheated on. Then again maybe this is for the best; she does tend to freak out at times (when she’s not taking her antidepressants) and in the past she threw a glass at my brother’s head in a fit of rage. I don’t know, I thank God it’s not me in this position and all I can do is pray.
DH and I tried to watch Nacho Libre last night but it didn’t work out because the DVD kept freezing and then jumping way ahead. We’re sending it back today which means we won’t get the replacement until next week, the one annoying thing about NetFlix is the closest shipping center being in Denver. I didn’t exercise yesterday, yes it’s a shocker, and I did really badly with my calorie intake but the weird thing is I was down a pound this morning. We ordered pizza last night, my idea so I did this to myself, and my total intake was 1848, OUCH!
I’m going to lunch with Tamra today, I haven’t seen her for 3 months (good grief!) so it will be nice catching up. I was starting to worry about her and I hope all has been well.
It was great seeing Tamra for lunch and this spring we're going to plan a girls night in Blgs, to shop, eat, drink, and be away from the DH's and kids! It will be nice to do a girl trip and I think much needed.
B had explosive butt 5 times at daycare and went through 5 outfits, 3 of them within an hour. So I made an appointment for him tomorrow morning, DH is taking the morning off and then I will have him the afternoon. So I'll be at work for the first part of the day and I'll probably try to bring some home for the afternoon, I don't want to risk running out of outfits with B at work with me and I don't know how I'd entertain him the whole time. I just hope the Dr can do something to help his tummy out.
More unsettling news on the work front, I'll try to make this somewhat short. My coworker was talking with another group that does things similar to us but for a different aspect of campus and basically with my bosses retirement at the end of the year they were hoping our "jobs" would dissolve and they could take over all of campus and have more revenue. This didn't happen but the guy in charge of their group (who has been around for quite some time and knows the politic ways to get what he wants and is willing to fight) is working very hard in many aspects right now to still try to make that happen or to at least phase us out as much as he can. We unfortunately don't have anyone with a back bone to stand up for us and fight to keep us and our jobs around plus we don't think they will take seriously what we've heard through the grapevine. So we're not sure what will happen and it's going to be a very interesting ordeal. I'm not going to worry about it because I'm in the union which means if my position is dissolved I will be placed in another job on campus. If this were to happen I would try for a job that is 1/2 or 3/4 time, that way we still have the health insurance and my benefits but I can have more time to spend with B. This could be a good thing and it could be bad, who knows?
I talked with my mom and she said SIL is back at the house but her comment this morning was that my brother needs to do some changing, implying that she doesn't need to change. They both need to compromise and work through this and I pray she agrees to marriage counceling. What a mess.
We talked with our supervisor and he is aware of the conniving that is going on against our group so he’s going to talk to some higher ups and see what can be done. I still don’t have a whole lot of faith on this but whatever happens happens. I’m going to try to work with B here and see how long he lasts (behavior wise and explosive butt wise). I’ve put an extra blanket and 2 extra outfits in the diaper bag so hopefully I can get through part of the day. Day care made me promise to call them and give an update on B, so I’ll have to remember to do that.
If I leave early I think I’ll pick up the rolls, salt, and pepper I need for the work party on Friday and I’ll also get gas. If we’re in a rush I’ll just get gas and the salt & pepper. Excitement!
B has norovirus and the doctor said it should only last about 1 week so we should be close to the end of it. I called daycare and told them what the doctor said, they said other parents said it was just the flu and I got the feeling that they were a little peeved at those parents. DH is taking tomorrow off so B will stay home and we'll play Friday by ear.
I've started getting a really light headed feeling like I'm about to pass out when I move it, DH said he's feeling the same way, just what we need another bug going around the house. I do have to go to work tomorrow but Friday isn't quite as critical.
B was on the floor when we got home and he first tried to army crawl then he rolled over, I was so proud. He also got the ball out of his cupholder on the activity center this morning so I was proud about that too. He tried for so long and concentrated really hard on that task.
I'm going to try to do a bit more work but we'll see, a nap sounds more tempting.
Happy Day! B didn’t have explosive butt this morning, it was somewhat firm and I am so happy! If he continues like this today we’ll take him to day care tomorrow. He’s so cute in his activity center, he’s been bringing his head down low while sticking his lips out to concentrate on what he’s doing and half the time it looks like his eyes are crossed. We’ve been sitting down to just watch him play with stuff here and there, he enjoys the attention and I hope it reiterates to him that playing by oneself is good and fun. He was typing messages last night with DH while I was getting dinner made; apparently I was very funny because he was laughing up a storm. I really enjoy his personality and look forward to watching him grow and become a great individual that hopefully doesn’t inherit my outbursts. I’ve been doing a lot better with not letting my emotions run my mouth and the loudness of my voice. I’m not perfect but I’m doing well and I’m proud of myself. I’m not proud of the way I’ve been eating, I didn’t even track the calories the last 2 days because it was so bad. I have had no self control and I find myself eating just to eat, that’s something that needs to be worked on. AF is here and it may be because of that but whatever it is I have to overcome my weakness.
I’m starting to get excited about getting a new car. DH wants us to wait until the new tv is here and I want him to get his gun cabinet bought before we go car shopping. I’m also not sure where we’ll be standing with taxes this year since we’ve had a baby but also paid less in estimated tax, so we’re definitely waiting to see what the outcome is before we buy. I think we’re only waiting on one form so I need to get the dividends and estimated tax payments together this weekend so we can be finished. We also need to look into having someone finish the fence for us and expand the deck this summer and I need to motivate myself to get the entryway and hallway painted. There’s always something to do!