Last night started out great. DH was home since he wasn’t feeling well and I started dinner right away so we could eat early and do a movie night. We watched Toy Story 3 and the kids like it. L got scared when the clown was talking about Lotso and she was sweet when she said Mommy in her worried voice. After the movie I was hoping L would just fall asleep but that wasn’t to be. She was up until 9 at which point we put her in the pak n play and put B down. It was 9:20 before they were in bed and it was just way too late for me to exercise. I didn’t sleep well and poor DH had to get up 5 times, I hope the end of his stomach bug is close.
I’m not feeling 100% today. On my way to work my stomach started aching and then my back started aching. I had one pass of a hot flash, not major, and I hope things will get better as the day goes on. I have my first official midwife appointment this afternoon. I’m about 9 weeks 5 days so I’m not expecting to hear a heartbeat. I think it will mostly be the basics and medical info. I am going to try, as long as I remember, to minimize my purchases this year. To keep things simple and not buy stuff I don’t need. Of course that didn’t stop me from buying some belly bands yesterday. This is going to be a struggle.
I’m having a hard time with a friend of mine. The last several months all I’ve heard about is this messed up relationship she’s in and our conversations are 99% her talking about this and maybe 1% me getting in a word. I keep telling her to walk away because it’s not healthy but she doesn’t want to hear a thing I say. I’m at my wits end. I can’t tolerate continuing to listen to the same cycle over and over but I don’t want her to think I’ve just ditched her because that’s not my intention. I guess I need to tell her I don’t want to hear about him anymore, she knows how I feel and I’m over it.
I had a great appointment with my midwife. Lots of paperwork and questions plus she checked on the basics. Too early for a heart beat but I expected that. I was happy when she said I have great abs, too bad you can’t tell under this spare tire I carry around. She’s going to send in my first payment to insurance and we’ll see what they’ll cover, I hope midwife care is covered but if not we’ll survive. DH was home because he was still feeling ill and both kids were tired. B’s been so quick to cry and I think part of it is being exhausted but I think another part is that he’s trying to play us. I’ll give him warnings then get on him and he starts crying over it, but as soon as I walk to another room he’s back to playing. Little terd! I had a great day with food. No unhealthy snacks and I was able to avoid snacking on bread, that’s been a big struggle for me lately. I got in 60 min of kickboxing and had plenty of time to my evening since the kids went to bed early. Only one downer to my day, I had some bright red blood right before bed. It was just a little but it still got me nervous.
This morning first thing there was no blood and I was relieved but then a bit more came after an hour of being up. I’m scared to go to the bathroom now and I’m trying not to worry. I know it can be normal and there’s no cramping as of yet so I’m trying to stay positive. Also there’s nothing I can do either way so I’m just praying for the best. If it does continue I’ll call the midwife to see what she says. Nothing too exciting expected today. I have bills to pay and am hoping to do an arms workout tonight. I should do a load of laundry and start cleaning the house but I’m not in the mood, maybe that will change.
Positive thoughts and prayers for you and your little bean! Hugs and loves!
Thanks Kelly, I appreciate it!
On the bleeding front all was back to normal by noon yesterday and I was feeling really good. We had a nice evening and I was able to get an arms workout in before heading to bed. Chatted with my mom for a bit and we’re pretty sure SIL is pissed that I’m pregnant. Because of course this is something I’m doing to her, the sad thing is I think she truly believes that. I was commenting on how she has blocked me from seeing her Facebook all comments. I can still see pictures and her basic info but no posts. How else can she bad mouth my horrible self?
This morning started off great and then right before I left for work, and with a BM BTW, more blood showed up. Bright red again and making my stomach sink. Shortly after this I had nausea and was feeling light headed. Once I got to work I called the MW to let her know and she called me back to reiterate what I already knew. She said we could do blood tests or an ultrasound but if I am to miscarry nothing can stop it. I told her I’d prefer to just see how things go and hope for the best. I wasn’t feeling well but had a meeting and decided if I still felt cruddy, almost crampy, then I’d head home after the meeting. Happy news was that I felt great after the meeting and no signs of new blood so far. Maybe this is just going to be something I have to deal with this pregnancy, it sure is nerve wracking. We’re doing an easy dinner tonight since I have a HOA meeting at 7. Once home I’ll either go to bed or start cleaning the house. It’s been really hard getting out of bed in the morning, may be pregnancy exhaustion, may be that I haven’t had enough sleep since New Year’s Eve, or it may be that working a full week after 3 prior weeks that were not 5 days is really rough on my system.
Prayers for you... and perhaps you might want to tone it down on the exercise till you know what's going on. (HUGS)
Ryan and Rachael
Parents to Chase, Abby, Hunter, Rachel, Caleb, Hannah & Nate
~Remembering sweet baby Oliver, born to Heaven October 20, 2009, & keeping Carole in our prayers~
I made sure to sit on my bum last night J Thanks for the prayers.
Last night was busier than I planned. N invited us over so the kids could play and it’s been weeks since we’ve been able to sit and chat so we had a lot to catch up on. We didn’t get home until 6:40 so I immediately rushed to make pancakes and get out the door for the HOA meeting. We weren’t able to vote on anything at the meeting because of majority issues but we did at least talk through some issues. I was home shortly after 8 and then I made myself a latte (decaf) and watched Real Housewives. It’s one of my guilty pleasures. I should have gone to bed earlier but oh well.
I’ve had just a light tinge of pink a couple times today but not as bad as it was previously. Cautiously optimistic is where I’m sitting. After work I’m meeting the girls at Plonk to celebrate S’s birthday. I have no idea how late we’ll be, if we’ll eat there, or what kind of virgin drinks they can make me but I’m looking forward to getting some girl time in. Once home I need to clean the house and mix some dough for cinnamon rolls tomorrow. I know they aren’t clean but the kids have been begging for them so why not? I have a lot of chores to take care of and some shopping plus we’re doing glow in the dark mini golf with the play group so that will be fun. I hope to get some relaxation in this weekend and some easy exercise like yoga. Plus I will be freezing cinnamon rolls so I don’t eat them all.
Friday I started bleeding a bit more, still nothing more than a panty liner could handle but it didn’t make me happy. I met up with S and L at Plonk and we chatted and had drink and snacks until 9. A few of her co-workers also showed up but they didn’t stay very long. It was nice to have some girl time. Once home I cleaned part of the house and then relaxed for a bit with DH.
Saturday the kids were up at 6 and I tried to go back to sleep after they were settled in front of a movie but there was no sleeping for me. We had blueberry waffles and had a great morning but my bleeding picked up again and light cramps followed. They didn’t last long but I was crying over it, not the pain just the loss I was feeling. We did a grocery store run, out of almost everything, then had naps early and I fell asleep for a bit with B until L was up. I then slept more on the couch while she watched TV, man I was lazy. We had the playgroup at the mini-golf place and that was a lot of fun but exhausting. Once home we did dinner and a movie before putting the kids to bed. I’m at a point where I have a major muffin top going on with every outfit so I look and feel like a fatty, not fun when I don’t think if it will stay or go.
Sunday the kids were up at 6:45 and I made cinnamon rolls and cuddled while waiting for them to rise. My bleeding was much more mild, back to panty liners, and there weren’t any cramps. I actually felt great all day. We did a Costco run and then hung out at home. I worked on laundry and made some bread so it was a nice day overall.
Today has been busy, which is good because it’s keeping my mind mostly off things. First thing before I left the house I filled (sorry for the TMI) the panty liner so I’m back to the big guns. I hate feeling like I’m wearing a diaper. It’s been dark and light since then but after my meeting this afternoon I’m going to have some blood drawn to check my hormone levels. It’s time to find out since my body is taking its sweet time. I kept praying all weekend that if I would miscarry it would happen on Sunday and if not that it would just stop. No answer either way and I need some answers. Tonight I’ll try to get more things done around the house. I need to get the guest room set up and I’ll probably make some granola bars. Early to bed is on my plan too.
I had a busy day at work with all my meetings, almost the whole day, and left early to get my blood work drawn. Once I found where I was supposed to go, the building was confusing, I was in and out. I picked the kids up a bit early and we had a nice night. Once they were in bed I prepped things for today and watched some TV while DH went for a run, in -3 weather. Brrr! I was in bed early and wish I would have gone even earlier. I haven’t been sleeping all that well, I’ll wake and thoughts start running through my mind. Oh well.
Both kids were up right as I was brushing my teeth, an hour early for them is not a good thing. We had a good morning and my midwife called first thing. My hormone levels are in the low normal range so I’ll go back on Thursday to draw again. Obviously if they’re lower then we’re looking at a miscarriage and if they’re higher she thinks I’m having placental attachment issues. In case it’s this I’m running to Huckleberries at lunch to see if I can get some wild yam cream (or vitamin E if I can’t find this) to help encourage my placenta to stick. After Thursday we’ll see if an ultrasound is needed. I’m relieved that my levels are normal and am still cautiously optimistic but I’m also a bit freaked out. If my placenta isn’t attaching properly does this mean I’ll be on bed rest? Will I even be able to carry this baby to full term and still get the birth I want? Can I exercise? I feel like these are somewhat selfish concerns but it’s what’s going through my head. What I’m finding online really isn’t too informative and so my happy thoughts are now more concerned. Tonight I’ll be taking it easy again.
Tuesday night I felt incredibly good so I used my energy to get some things done. I watered plants, cleaned the guest bathroom, and cleaned up and organized the basement. It was so nice getting some of that stuff out of the way and I felt productive, that's a mood enhancer for me any day.
Yesterday turned out to be a pretty good day. My spirits are up and I’m hoping they stay there. I was really productive once I got home. I did a load of laundry, cleaned everything but the floors, and mixed some bread dough together. I didn’t get to bed as early as I wanted but it was at least a great night and I felt fantastic.
Today I had to help my crew pull 200 pair telephone cable in a building, I had the job of feeding the cable and it was an arm workout but not bad. I worked through lunch so I can leave early and have my blood drawn. I’ll then get some grocery shopping taken care of and N is coming over with the girls so the kids can play. Dinner is going to be fish tacos and chicken nuggets for the kids and then I’ll clean the floors and hopefully get to bed early.
I have such amazing friends. There was a time when I felt like I had no one to call on to even spend time with and go to lunch but now I am so blessed to have such amazing women in my life. The concern and care they’ve given me over the last week has really made me feel better. This has also pointed out to me the friend that is so absorbed in herself that what’s going on in my life means nothing. Not once has she asked me how things are since Monday (and we’ve been in contact every day). True colors I guess. I am so excited because S and L and I are going to go to GF in March to see The Pioneer Woman. We’re going to have a girls trip and overnight stay and it will be so much fun. I’m really looking forward to it.
If your placenta isn't attaching well, it means that your progesterone could be low. BTDT. ((HUGS)) Awaiting news...