DH had yesterday off so he picked the kids up from DC and I grabbed a few things from the grocery store on my way home. The kids were pretty sweet and I had to improvise on dinner so I may have gone over on calories but I did the best I could. Overall I think it was a good day with food and I had energy so B and I did a kids yoga workout then I did 30 min of a Jackie Warner workout. It felt great and things seem to have fallen back into place.
Tonight I’m having the kids make their own tortilla pizzas for dinner, I think it will be fun and we can get some time together. I then have a wine club at Ferraro’s that I’m really looking forward to. I think only 4 of us will be there, of course C isn’t coming and that’s fine with me. I’m still really frustrated with her and the one sided conversations we ALWAYS have. It should be a great time and I’ve allocated the wine flight plus an appetizer into my calories so I should be OK for the day. Yay!
I’ve been temping off and on for the past few weeks to try to see what my body is doing and to try to prevent a pregnancy since I’m not on the pill. My temps are low so I’m expecting to start my period within the next 1-2 weeks. That would be great so I can know what my body’s doing and where I’m at in my cycle. I don’t plan to try to get pregnant for a few months, I’m so undecided upon timing and when I’d like to aim for the baby’s due date. I don’t want a holiday baby since it’s so busy that time of year already. I would prefer a spring baby but I have FY end at work that will require me to be there to wrap up billing and get inventory ready so that could possibly require me to put some time in during my maternity leave and that doesn’t sound fun at all. I probably won’t be 100% happy with anything since it’s not what my original plan was but it’s out of my hands so I have to do some thinking.
Last night didn’t go quite as smooth as I had hoped. B had a temper tantrum/melt-down because I showed up and he didn’t get his choice. I did my best to calm him down then ignored him and just got things ready and left. I was explaining to him why his behavior was unacceptable in the car and he fell asleep. He didn’t wake for 45 min and not until I finally forced him to wake up since dinner was ready. After dinner I got the kids in their pj’s and some milk with a movie so I could finish getting ready and left as soon as DH got home. We had a lot of fun at the wine club and I stayed in my plan so I was very happy about that. Once I got home I mixed some bread dough together and went to bed.
My main boss is working on getting me more money which means more responsibility but he’s wanting me to do some training on project management. I’m actually excited about it and will work on seeing what I can do next week. The 4% raise info was a nice incentive also. My legs are so sore that all I plan to do tonight is clean the house and put together the cinnamon rolls B requested for breakfast. I have a lot of things to do around the house so that will keep me plenty busy this weekend. I do have a play group scheduled for Sat but no one has RSVP’d yes and I’m not going if no one RSVP’s. So frustrating. My main goal this weekend is to stick to my calories and get some exercise in. So far I’m down 3 pounds and I really want to hang onto that and not blow it out of the water this weekend, like I usually do.
I had the most productive weekend I’ve encountered in a long time and it felt great. Friday I cleaned the house and was a bit on the crabby side, I ticked off DH when I spilled a bunch of rice and things kept falling off the counters yet DH showed no interest in how I was doing so I said “no, no don’t bother helping me.” Of course then he came over to help I didn’t want it so he wasn’t pleased with me.
Saturday the kids were up around 7 and I got them settled with a movie then got up to pop the cinnamon rolls into the oven. The first of my kitchen disaster happened shortly after. The cinnamon rolls filling started to boil over and burned like there was no tomorrow. We had a smoke filled house with the windows up and vents going, thankfully it was in the 40’s so it wasn’t too terrible opening the windows. It also took forever for me to bake those things since I had two batched going, it was not a smooth start. By the time I was ready for the day it was late morning and since no one RSVP’d for the play group we skipped it, I would have been late anyways. The IL’s stopped by on their way to Butte and MIL suggested we just jump in the car and join them. I wasn’t up for it and didn’t say anything, really it’s a DH decision and he wasn’t even home from work yet. Needless to say we didn’t go. I got a ton done on Saturday. I did most of the taxes (only 3 things left to gather), paid bills, balanced the checkbook, did DH’s books, organized the pantry and basement storage, did the kids’ Valentine’s cards, and baked & frosted Valentine’s cookies for DC. We did get in a movie night with the kids and watched Despicable Me, it was good though a few too many butt and poo words, oh well. I guess this means I did sit down for a bit on Saturday. By the time I was done it was 11 and I was exhausted, straight to bed with me. I was very proud because I stuck to my calorie intake and only had 3 bites of a cookie, just to make sure it tasted OK.
Sunday the kids were up shortly after 7 and I made DH get up to get them settled with a movie. They just kept interrupting us so it was pointless but that’s OK. After we were all dressed and ready to go we went to town to pick up a few items (got L some big girl underwear on a whim) and DH had to meet a guy to get him his computer, got to love working on Sunday. The kids and I made use of our time waiting in the car. We wiped their seats and the car down to clean up the dust, then we had a lunchtime snack of cashews while I chatted with my mom for a bit. Once home the kids burned some energy outside then came in for a late lunch and went down for naps. I bought a ton of fruit from Costco so I prepped fruit to be eaten, dipped strawberries in chocolate for tonight, wrote thank-you’s for Christmas (yes I’m behind), moved the love seats from the basement to the garage (can’t wait to get rid of them), and made stuffed pork chops with Brussels sprouts for dinner. This was when kitchen disaster #2 happened. I was using three burners to make everything for dinner and try to have it all ready at the same time. Things were cooking and I was folding laundry when I looked at the stove and saw flames. I couldn’t figure out why on earth flames would be coming from the steaming Brussels sprouts and it took me a bit to register that I needed to get over there and do something. A plastic bag of dried herbs for tea had fallen onto the flames and were burning up, the first thing out of my mouth was “the house is going to smell like pot.” I turned everything off and stubbed out the burning herbs while rushing to get vents turned on and windows open. B kept going on about how everything stunk and it still stunk in the house this morning. DH escaped outside with the kids while I finished dinner, it was a rough weekend in the kitchen. Once everyone came in for dinner L spotted her big girl panties and put some on. We went over that she can’t go pee or poo in them and we took the risk, has to happen eventually. We got one pee in the potty and two poops in the potty, it was awesome! She’s been scared to poop in the potty and hopefully that’s now gone. I love that she told B and I that she needed privacy, whatever works! She’s so proud of her panties she slept with a bunch of them, pretty sweet.
We put L in panties this morning and she did start to pee a little bit in them but caught herself and put the rest in the potty, seems promising. DH did send her to school in panties and we sent an extra pair. I hope she does well, she was really proud of herself and excited so we’ll see if she remembers. Tonight I’d like to get the guestroom set up so there’s an air mattress in there for L & B. I also need to get some exercise in and should do some kickboxing, I need to get it started at some point.
Well L didn’t do well with the panties at DC. When I picked her up I picked up a wet and a poopy pair of clothes. I had a feeling DH was pushing it a bit too soon and we really need to put more time in at home before doing the move to DC, oh well. The kids were on sugar highs and fought the whole way home, I was ready to throw in the towel before we even got to the car. We did head down to N’s to give the girls Valentine’s and we chatted while the kids played. Once home it was a rush to get dinner made but I was able to get laundry put away while things were cooking and we had a nice meal. DH joined me with a glass of wine, a bit too red for him, and the chocolate covered strawberries were delish. Once the kids were in bed I was on my way, I was exhausted and DH started the P90X Lean program but after a glass of wine I was not going to exercise.
I am happy to report I lost 4.4 pounds last week, woot! I don’t expect the same this coming week but it sure is a great start. If I can average 2 pounds a week I should be down to where I want to be before we TTC. I’ve been planning my calorie intake to be around 1200-1300 calories, it was hard at first but now I’m at the point where I know how to plan my meals to adjust for treats if needed and the hunger I feel now and then isn’t so bad. Heck today I had to add food to my daily intake because my dinner is so low in calories, that’s a nice chore. I’m going to join DH in the P90X program tonight, it is Cardio X so it won’t be bad. I also need to get the air mattress set up downstairs so that’s out of the way. I’ll have plenty to keep me busy the rest of the evenings with laundry and cleaning plus getting exercise in again. Back to the busy life.
DH picked the kids up from DC which was nice since I was 10 min late leaving work. B wanted me to play outside with him so we play soccer for a bit and then it was in the house to get dinner made. We had a nice evening and after baths the kids were in bed and DH and I exercised. I wanted so badly to just go to bed and not bother with it but I was happy I pushed through, even though I was a big grump about it. I felt great afterwards and need to just keep pushing through to get this back into my routine.
We had a rough morning since B didn’t want to get himself dressed and that’s never a good start. I’m going out to lunch with a co-worker and a vendor so I had to plan on having soup again for dinner since it’s low calorie enough to compensate for a more than likely high calorie lunch. Wherever we go I’ll have a salad but I’m still worried it will take me over on calories. We have an arms workout tonight and I think it’s pull-ups and push-ups, the one I hate the most. Oh well, I’ve got to do it. If I can keep things going the same I should be down to my goal weight by May. DH and I are thinking about getting away to Chico again for our Anniversary so it would be nice to rock my bathing suit and feel great about myself rather than feeling loose and flabby. How fantastic would it be to rock a 130 lb body? Here’s to focus and keep on keeping on. And to seeing a weight I haven’t seen since Middle School. Tonight I need to get the air mattress set up and start some laundry before I exercise, it should be doable once L is in bed.
My temps have been very low and I thought AF started on Monday but it was just a little bit of spotting. I'm hoping I'll start this weekend. I expect my body to pick up close to what my normal cycle is, starting on a Friday and being toward the end of the month, this weekend would be right on track so here's hoping normalcy will arrive soon.
I had a good day. Went to lunch and chose the veggie sandwich I usually get at Sola and skipped the chips. Once I picked the kids up we did some kid Yoga and then I worked on dinner. L was crabby as all get out and wouldn’t eat so she went to bed early, didn’t fall asleep of course but that was expected. B had his first root beer float and he had big eyes when I poured the root beer over the ice cream. He gobbled that thing down and when I asked him if he was in heaven with that thing he made the funniest contented grunt. Once the kids were down we did our P90X workout and I was so thankful it wasn’t pull-ups, I just wasn’t in the mood for those. I worked on laundry and then we dealt with B’s nightmare/night terror. The past 3 nights around 9:30/10:00 he starts crying and gets hysterical. We think he’s having a nightmare but I don’t think he’s waking up when we go in there. We had to say his name really loud to get him to pull out of the nightmare and calm down. It’s like he’s 9 months again and I hope it doesn’t last long.
I was disappointed to see a .4 pound gain this morning, I know I shouldn’t weigh every day because of little fluctuations but really it does help keep me focused to continue seeing losses (and wanting more) plus to see if the prior day wasn’t quite as good as it should have been. I think what’s most frustrating is that the past two days I’ve worked out hard and to see the scale go up in even the slightest manner just sucks. I’ve gone over my food from yesterday and I feel confident that it was good enough to constitute a loss and I’m wondering if it’s water retention. Probably and I’m not going to dwell and instead stay focused and work on seeing the scale down tomorrow. No official exercise for tonight, I need to set up the air mattress downstairs, clean the house, water plants, and put laundry away. Plus I need to try to catch up on sleep, we’ll see how that goes.
I had hit crab apple city last night. Does this mean I’m PMSing and AF is coming this weekend? I sure hope so! It would be right on track with my normal body cycle and with a full moon tonight things are looking hopeful! The kids were really good for me when I picked them up and they played while I made dinner, I love that they cook in their kitchen. Always GF and DF when cooking for DH of course! They then dressed up as Darth Vader and Spinerella, that’s what L calls her ballerina outfit because she’s a princess you see. After dinner we did baths and the kids have been stinkers lately not wanting DH to do anything for them and demanding me. I know it hurts DH’s feelings a bit and I’m not that much gentler on them. Once L was in bed B went downstairs with me while I set up the air mattress. It was the biggest PITA and I was mad. Everything was buried under piles of stuff we have shoved out of the way while working on the basement. A very clear reason why it is not a convenient time to have L and B up this weekend. I was so frustrated. I did get the rest of the house cleaned up and laundry put away but the crabbiness didn’t leave. I asked B if he remembered crying in his sleep the past three nights and he didn’t remember a thing. I told him what had been going on and he thought it was funny! He said he’d try to not have any bad dreams for me and happily he didn’t. I went to bed shortly before 10 and DH went to the store to do billing. Around 11:30 I woke to B’s face right next to my head and he informed me he hadn’t had any bad dreams. I’m not sure why he was up but I got him back in bed and slept great the rest of the night. I did fall off my diet bandwagon by eating more cookies than I should have. I think the PMS (if that’s what it was) just too over and the good news is my weight stayed the same.
DH has today off and is getting the basement cleaned up a bit so they have room to work. We had a great morning and I’m leaving work early since my parents will be up mid afternoon. I’m making easy meals and will try an apple pie galette tonight, I hope it’s delicious. My food is planned out through Saturday and I will stay on track this weekend. Saturday we’re heading to the Museum and then we’ll go for lunch and head home for naps afterwards. Sunday I’ll do work around the house and try to wrap up some things. Monday I have off but the kids will go to DC and I will be going there also to talk to B’s class about GF, I hope I don’t flub it up. I’ll just spend the rest of the day relaxing, I should have scheduled a massage.
This weekend felt long, I guess the good thing is I was ready to come back to work. Friday I left work early and DH and I were hoping to get some time in before my parents arrived but they beat me home, darn! It was really good seeing L and B, they are so tall and such great kids. B is doing better with talking but still really behind, it’s heart breaking watching her struggle. I need to pray extra hard for her to catch up and get to where she needs to be. I had to stick to the “clean your plate if you want dessert” rule and B had a hard time with it, like I knew she would. She just doesn’t eat meals like she should and I’m not one to tolerate it. My parents kept making excuses that she was given too much. L was given the same amount and cleaned her plate and she’s 4 years younger, I don’t think it’s the amount.
We were up early on Saturday and headed to MOR so we could be there first thing. That’s when I discovered DH left the van with no gas in it and the light came while we were on the interstate. I called DH and he said I should have 15 miles and to push a button to check on my estimate time of driving. I was pissed that he left it for me to deal with and when the estimated time of driving said 0 I was really pissed off. Thankfully I got us to a gas station. The frog display was great and then the kids played in the kids area for an hour before we went to Vera Fare for lunch. B battled us again with lunch and I told her nothing until dinner if she doesn’t eat at least one waffle quarter. Once home L took a nap, B had a rest, and the rest of us just watched some TV. We had an early dinner and then did a movie night. B’s eye got irritated and I think it was from all of the putty dust in the house, my whole house had a layer of dust on it. She had also been coughing all weekend so I wasn’t sure if there was more going on.
Sunday we went out for breakfast and then my parents left. It was home for us so I could work on laundry and clean the entire house including cleaning one of my ovens. I also made cookies and did some organizing of drawers that have been neglected for a long time. Monday I went to DC to talk with the kids about GF and answer questions they had. They were so cute and kept creeping closer to me, I got some great hugs. We mostly talked about different allergies and what gluten is and is in. A asked me if people can be allergic to other people and I had to clarify that when N’s sister was given blood she didn’t drink it. I hung out for snack and then headed home to clean the guest bedroom and do some cleanup in the basement. I spent most of the afternoon watching TV and eating too much, yes the diet went out the window and I’m regretting it today. I picked the kids up a little early and DH was home shortly after us so we went for a walk and then played until I made dinner. My stomach started giving me problems so I opted for bed instead of exercise, such bad decisions I’ve been making.
Today it’s back on track with food and I will exercise tonight whether I want to or not. No AF this weekend and fertility friend seemed to think I ovulated on Friday (not good since we DTD) because my temp soared this weekend. It dropped this morning and now FF isn’t sure if I’ve ovulated or not so it’s the same ole waiting game. I can’t wait for this to be over.
Work has been crazy busy and I really should be focusing on estimates right now but I’ll focus after writing this. Food and exercise have been pretty dismal, I’m getting back on track today though. I have my calories planned for the day and I hope to get some exercise in but I also need to clean the house tonight so time will be my determining factor. Yesterday I had lunch with N and we had a great time chatting. Then my other N came over with her girls so the kids could play and since both my kids were tired it was dinner and bed right after they left. I need to find out if my parents are coming up this weekend and I need to call MIL back from Monday. I broke down a bit last night over the miscarriage, I’m feeling really cheated and have been sensitive about it lately. Fertility Friend again thinks I ovulated on Friday and I’m not ready to be pregnant so I’m praying hard to see AF next week. I’m getting impatient on this whole AF thing.
I’m trying to use up the meat we have in the freezer, it’s time it gets cleaned out and emptied again so tonight we’re having ribs. I have to fast tonight because I’ve signed up for a research study that looks at cardio vascular health. Tomorrow they’ll draw my blood and have me fill out a questionnaire then I’ll start some classes next week. I hope to use it to stay focused on my food intake and work on keeping things healthy. Either way the classes will be good reminders to keep focused. I hate this battle.
Had a great day yesterday, I felt on top of things and it made me feel like normal. I guess I haven’t really felt normal for a bit. DH picked the kids up since he had the day off and I worked on dinner once I was home. We had a nice night and I was able to clean up the house before B went to bed. I called my mom to confirm that they’d be up this weekend and then did my new Cathe DVD (High Intensity Interval Training), it kicked me in the rear. I sweated like no tomorrow and it felt great, burned but felt great. I was able to get a load of laundry done and pay bills so productive was my middle name.
This morning started with a blood draw so I had to fast. I’ve signed up to participate in a research study on cardio vascular disease and had to fill out a ton of information on how I view myself and deal with stress. For 2 months I have to track what I eat and my exercise plus I have to do two saliva tests. The first saliva test will be tomorrow and the second will be toward the end of the study. They wanted me to be part of a stress relief group but the classes are 2.5 hours on Wednesday nights at 5:45, not going to work with the kids and DH working until 6. I need to swing by a grocery store on my way home and we’re doing leftovers/something easy for dinner. My parents will be up late tonight so no exercise.
I’m planning to run errands on Saturday with my mom and the kids and other than that we’ll just relax a bit. Sunday I’ll have to clean the whole house as I expect putty dust everywhere. I also need to make granola bars for DH and stash them so they don’t get eaten. Should be a good weekend all in all.