I was anxious to get out of work on Friday so I worked through lunch and realized on my way to get L that it was her first day of dance and she was busy from 3:30-4:30. So I went to Costco and the grocery store to get the things I needed then dropped everything off at the house before getting L. She didn’t want to play when we got home so we went inside and cuddled while watching Peppa Pig and then we started making dinner. She helped me by taste testing the cheese and fruit then did most of the work making the Mac & Cheese. We ate dinner outside and she enjoyed the cheese and fruit I had selected then we did a bath and cuddled in my bed to watch some TV before calling it a night. We did talk with DH and B and they stopped in Msla to have dinner with SIL S, C, & big B then went to SIL C’s house. The kids were missing each other and very cute giggling on the phone together. Right before bed L said “I really miss my best friend, Brodie.” It was so cute! We were asleep by 9:30 and didn’t get up until 8:00, I haven’t slept that long in ages!
We were out the door an hour after getting up and stopped by the Farmer’s Market, L was expecting there to be cows and horses to pet but she was disappointed. We then went out for brunch at Vera Fare and stopped off at Olivelle on our way home. L took a nap and I prepped things for the play date. The girls had a great time playing and S’s mom C was going to drop her off but we got to talking so she stayed and we had a nice afternoon. We went to N & M’s to roast marshmallows in the evening and DH and B joined us once they got home, it made for a late night but we had a great time.
Thankfully the kids slept in until 8ish but once L knew B was up she was giddy saying “I’m your sissy sis!” They cuddled on the couch while I made bacon and pancakes. We had a nice breakfast outside and had a lazy morning getting ready. We did take a walk that ended badly when B was zig sagging his bike on the gravel road. He bit it and scraped his knee to where it was bleeding but no rocks were stuck in the skin. He screamed and cried like his leg was broken, I had to dump my coffee and carry him home. It was ridiculous how much he overreacted as he yelled it’s gushing! Good grief it was frustrating. I spent the day doing DH’s books, laundry, and making pickles. DH and I ended the night watching Paul and then it was off to bed.
Yesterday morning I had some pain that felt crampy but once I saw blood I knew it was another cyst. Last month I don’t even think I ovulated and I had some bleeding that was abnormally long so I think I had a cyst then also. It’s a bit depressing. I’m starting to think this is just my body now and that does not make me happy. I did order an herbal remedy that is supposed to help with cysts and I hope it works. I sat the kids down and ordered their Halloween costumes, I know it’s early but we keep talking about it and I decided to just get it over with. B is going to be a ninja which surprised me because I expected a Storm Trooper. L liked every cute costume she saw and couldn’t make up her mind so I encouraged her to go with a cute witch costume. I’m excited to see them. I made elderberry juice last night so tonight I’m going to make jelly. I am also going to force myself to get a short workout in, I have to start somewhere! B has his swim lesson tonight and I have chili in the crockpot so once we get home I won’t have any cooking to do, woot! Another focus tonight is to not snack, I am gaining still and it has to stop before I don’t fit in any of my clothes. I’m feeling pretty disgusted with my body right now.
I still haven’t gotten off my rear to get back into the exercise mode AND I’m eating like I have the metabolism of a teenage boy. It’s not a good combo if you haven’t already guessed. I feel like a lard *** and I need to focus on that so I can start showing some restraint. I have been somewhat productive on the day to day/week to week things but still a lazy bones all in all. DH has decided to take the kids to Msla tonight after dinner and then they’ll all go to the football game tomorrow. My weekend has been opened up! I’m making dinner for them tonight and will see them out the door. N and I are then going out for dinner and wine and once home I’ll clean the floors then hit the hay.
Tomorrow I’m meeting S at 9 for the 5K, I’m so thankful we’re walking it this year but I also feel like a loser for not being in the shape to run it. I have no idea what will happen after that. S and I may hang out and have some wine but I don’t really know. I would like to get some things done around the house like a bit of baking, organizing, and lounging. The family should be home around 7/8 and the rest of the weekend I think we’ll just hang out and play it by ear.
B brought home his first golden ticket, which is a pat on the back for being extra good, for giving one of his classmates his seat. He also told me they did some testing but he wouldn’t go into any further detail. I’m interested to see what the results are and where he gets placed, hopefully it will be challenging for him.
Time is passing too quickly, heck it’s October and we’re still seeing 70/80 degree weather so I don’t feel like it’s as late in the year as it is. My sweet little tomatoes are happy and need the extra time so no complaints here, I don’t want it cold until November. Things have been busy and got even busier this past weekend but I’ll get into that in a bit.
The weekend of the 5K N and I had a great dinner out and I enjoyed sleeping in a bit before the race. S and I did some speed walking with a little bit of running because we wanted to beat the other two walkers and I noticed they were running a little bit. 44 min was our time and we were happy with it. It was a nice jump start for me to start exercising again so I was thankful for that. We met up for lunch later in the day and then I looked for some shoes, didn’t find any, and spent the rest of the day being lazy waiting for my family to return. DH had his hands full with the kids asking to go potty every 15 min, he wound up leaving early because he had had enough. They did have fun and after a major meltdown when they got home we got them into bed and had a nice weekend after that.
We had our Wine Club BBQ on the 24th and it was really nice just hanging out with everyone’s families. We all get along really well and that is a relief. Sunday we decided to get the kids their winter gear and that was a bit of a shock on the pocket book. I think they’ll be able to wear their stuff for two years, maybe not the boots but everything else, so that should make it worthwhile. I have gotten back on track with my food intake and exercise. I’m having to ease into my workouts a bit but at least I’m active and feeling really good. Food has been easier and I’ve lost weight this past week so I’m looking forward to stepping on the scale tomorrow. I am dedicated to see 135 on the scale and I’ll do what is needed to work my way to that point.
This past weekend was Homecoming in Msla so we drove up on Friday night and were staying at the same hotel as the opposing team so the pool was empty. It made it nice for the kids to go down the slides and have their run of the place. We did get to see the family for a short while then I dropped DH and B off at campus and L and I went out to lunch, played at Dragon’s Hollow, rode the carousel, hit the mall and the Good Food Store, then parked on campus to wait for the boys because she fell asleep. Once the game was over we went out for pizza and then hit the road for home. It was 9 when we got home and I was ready for bed but surprise, surprise we walked into a wet house. The rugs were all soaked and at first I figured the fridge leaked a little but when we opened the freezer we saw that the ice cube maker had ran nonstop and froze inside but leaked out. DH made a comment that I had caused it by putting too much in the freezer and I felt some major guilt especially when he said some drywall had been damaged. I was crying and the kids started crying because I was so we got them to bed and started cleaning. I realized I wasn’t the reason for this happening and wasn’t too pleased that he blamed me but I’ve moved on. We have to move all of the appliances to dry behind them along with all the items in the pantry, I threw a lot of things away. Once the upstairs was wiped up we went downstairs and moved items from the shelves and dried up what we could. I’d say at least 6 drywall panels need to be replaced. The next day we got a hold of insurance and they said to pull the carpet back where it got wet and this is when we saw how extensive that damage was. We had to pull the carpet into half of the dining room and removed the soaked padding. We also had to pull toward the west and into the closet removing about 3’ of padding there. L and I picked up some fans and we had it sit for a couple days. The linoleum is bubbling and a few spots so that will have to be removed but the insurance people seemed to think we should keep it as is until the adjustor could arrive. I’m nervous about it being wet and molding. I have kept busy throwing things away, boxing up give-aways, and boxing up what we want to keep. I still have a lot to do since I plan to use this time to really go through everything and do a thorough clean up. Insurance will be by today and will cut us a check, hopefully I won’t be disappointed with the amount, and then we’re going to look at carpet and tile options. I am getting the desire to paint while the house is in shambles and I think this is a good time to move our fridge to the garage and get me a new one. We’ll see if we can afford all of this. My dad will help with the drywall and tile so we should save some money there. I’m pretty calm about the whole thing and I’m thankful it wasn’t worse. I did want new floors just not this way, I’ll take it and do the best that I can I guess.
C’s divorce is final as of this morning and he moved her out last weekend. It was no surprise when he informed me that she’s pregnant with her boyfriend’s child. She’s such a mess. I think L & B are taking it OK, maybe the pregnancy will at least force her to stay home and not party it up like we expected.
DH talked with B’s teacher and she said he’s doing well in school. She said he’s smart and funny and that he’s been placed in her writing class which means he’s above the curve. That’s always nice to hear. L seems to really love her classes and has been showing us some great dance moves. She also went under water at swim a couple weeks ago and can touch the floor, she’s getting big.
I’m happy to report I’m doing well with my diet and exercise. I’ve been active, though the flood has put a damper on actual exercise videos, and I’ve been avoiding sugar (no latte’s) and my snacking has easily been decreased because of this. Well after the first 4 days of detox. I lost 4 pounds last week and plan to keep it going. I will see 135 and I won’t stop until I get there. I did some online shopping for boots and clothes last week so I need to make sure I can not only fit in them but also rock them. I will reach my goal.
MIL is coming up tonight to watch the kids for us. She’s going to meet us at B’s swim lesson and then we’ll have the crockpot chili and put the kids to bed. We are hitting the Filling Station to see The Super Suckers and I’m excited to get out for a bit and rock with DH. I’m hoping it’s over by midnight because a girl does need her sleep. MIL called yesterday thinking we wouldn’t want to go because of the flood but there’s not much more we can do right now. She also thinks we should pay someone to do the work for us and that the drywall should be OK. I’m guessing she’s just trying to make me feel better but illogical comments don’t tend to do that for me. She expressed some concern about whether she could handle both kids on her own so I’m glad we will have them in bed before we leave. Makes me a little bit apprehensive about asking her to watch them for much more than this.
After work DH and I met at a carpet place to look at samples. Of course I want something that will last, be cushy on my toes, and has to be stain resistant. This results in an expensive carpet and I haven’t even looked at what getting a nicer padding will cost. Bottom line the roughly $4500 we’re getting from insurance will maybe cover my carpeting. I know with 12 year old carpet and linoleum it’s not like we’re being compensated for top quality parts but if we’re going to do this we’ll do it right. At this point it includes painting all of the main room, touching up paint in the bedrooms, and re-carpeting the whole upstairs. We’ll then replace the subfloor and tile the kitchen and entryway and lastly we’ll focus on the drywall. Demo will all be done by us, my dad will help with the drywall and tile, and the carpet we will pay to have it installed. There is so much work coming up and I am planning to complete all the little things that I’ve been wanting done. So much to do but so worth it. First off I’m going to focus on getting things organized and purge the things we don’t need. Plus I need to pick the color for the walls and plot out how we’ll attack the painting. My goal is to have these things done by this weekend.
MIL met us at B’s swim lessons and both DH and I were frustrated that he didn’t listen to his instructor almost the whole lesson. We talked with him about it on the drive home but we’ll see if anything has sunk in. MIL played with the kids while DH and I moved the furniture back into place and after they were asleep we went to the Filling Station. We had a fun time, Super Suckers are so full of energy and the crowd was a bit older than last time so it wasn’t rowdy. That was a pleasant change from the last mayhem when we saw them. I was in bed by midnight so my sleep wasn’t too short. Tonight I will get a kickboxing workout in and I’ll work on organizing/packing. Oh the fun!
Exhaustion from only getting 5.5 hours of sleep hit me last night and has really hit me today. I guess I’m on a bit of a time delay. My new boots and clothes arrived. I like the boots even though they are a tad tight in a stop on my foot, I don’t think it’s anything that will cause me pain or issues but it’s just different. They are leather so there should be some loosening up with them. I like my two shirts but I’m not so sure with the skirt. I think I need to be feeling good and in a cute mood when I try it on next. That mood is of course tied to dropping some more weight so I need to stay focused. Chocolate has been finding its way into my mouth and that’s not good so I need to work on that tonight. Because I was tired I didn’t work out, poor excuse I know, but I was productive. I went through my closet and drawers and threw or donated clothes and shoes that needed to go. DH even joined in a little bit. I think went through the coat closet and linen closet and boxed up donations and put aside things that can go in storage. That’s mostly baby things because I hate to get rid of anything just in case we do have another baby. I feel like we won’t but I know DH is still on for trying to get pregnant again this winter. We both have commented over the past 6 months that it’s good we don’t have a newborn, so much has been going on and it really would have added stress. Things happen for a reason. This morning I was on top of things even though I was exhausted. I managed to go through my kitchen cupboards to organize and clear some clutter. My wok is being donated since I have never used it and some of my rarely used pans will be put downstairs. Tonight I need to move some things to the storage room and go through my VHS tapes. I need to do a quick clean and hopefully I can get to bed a little early. I need sleep.
I wound up with a 3 day weekend because L started complaining about her stomach hurting on Thursday at the dinner table and shortly after she hurled all over the carpet. Good thing we’re getting new stuff. As DH moved her to the kitchen she splattered puke on B and he started screaming and crying like it was the worst thing ever. I had a hard time not laughing and threw both kids in the tub. Funny thing was he wanted to help me scrub after his bath, silly boy. I figured she had what has hit a lot of kids in the area and it’s a short lived puke once and things are fine after. It stuck to her a bit longer but was short lived. She did puke in her bed so we moved her to an air mattress in our room and she woke every couple hours either crying about tummy pain or puking. At least it was just water and easy clean up. I used Friday to get a lot done. I cleaned the house, did lots of laundry, organized more things and the kids’ room, and put up Halloween decorations. L and I then picked B up from Kindergarten and it was a lot of fun. After a trip to the grocery store we headed home and that’s when things went south for me. First B and I heard a loud thump in the garage and then I couldn’t open the garage door. The kids then started acting up and tore their newly cleaned room apart. I was so frustrated and because they weren’t listening our prospect of making it to the corn maze was looking low. DH could tell I was stressing and I think adding to my stress was from my conversation with my dad earlier in the day. For years he’s said he would help us tile the kitchen when the time comes but during our conversation he said he’d leave his tile saw here along with a book on how to lay tile. It’s fine if he doesn’t want to help, it’s his right to not help, but it just really put me in stress mode. We did opt to watch Gnomeo and Juliet and I made peanut butter cookies that were delicious but not good for my weight. Oh and we discovered that the loud bang in the garage was the tension spring breaking in half so the door wouldn’t open at all and my car was trapped in the garage.
Saturday the first thing DH did was call a garage door place that did emergency service and they came out to do a temporary fix so I could get my car out of the garage. The kids and I had a play group at the Hay Bale Maze and the dreary day turned out to be really nice so he had a great time. After the maze we did lunch at McD’s and then it was home for naps and I chatted with my mom but wasn’t in the mood. I was still feeling a bit stressed and then when my mom was laughing off all the crap we have going on it didn’t go over well with me. I get the feeling they’re so worried and absorbed with what’s going on in my brother’s life that my troubles seem minor and in comparison they are but it made me feel abandoned. It sucked. DH was really understanding and he helped get me back into a happy place. Once he was home we ate dinner then headed to Target to get a few things and went back to the Hay Bale Maze to do the flashlight walk. The kids had a lot of fun and made a friend in the corn bin. Once home they went to bed and DH and I watched Bridesmaids and enjoyed a couple glasses of cider. It was just what I needed.
Sunday was a very lazy morning and B asked for cinnamon rolls so I tried a quick recipe for cinnamon muffins and they were OK. DH decided to head to the cabin to cut firewood so the kids and I wound up at the neighbors playing and we had a normal evening. My stress seems like it’s coming and going. I was good until last night when I got frustrated with DH talking about the estimate for the carpet & tile. I’m just crabby. It also didn’t help that I started snacking which makes me feel like crud AND DH was dinking around on the PC so I didn’t have access to the TV to workout until after 9 and that’s too frickin late. I was very crabby.
Tonight I have a Tastefully Simple party at S’s and my focus is to keep my food under control. I’m letting my dinner be the treats at the party and will allow myself 1 glass of wine. I’m not sure if I’ll get any exercise in tonight, I did take a 30 min walk during lunch so I won’t feel guilty if I opt for bed once I get home. I think it will be good to have some girl time and hopefully relax.
S’s party was fun but L is giving me a hard time and will not listen with lots of “no’s” when I ask her to do something. It’s a bit exhausting and since my stress is still elevated I’ve been doing my best to keep my cool. Sigh… I’ve done well the past couple days with food and last night I cleaned the house so I haven’t gotten in any formal exercise. I tried some clothes on last night trying to put together some new outfits and nothing looked good because I need to drop about 15 pounds in order to get them to look good. It was depressing and frustrating but I need to keep those thoughts in front of me snacking and/or overeating. If I don’t make sacrifices now nothing will change, other than I’ll get fatter. And really what’s wrong with telling myself no? If I tell myself no for 3 months, 3 little months, I can be at a more comfortable place. Easy, right?
My parents will be up tonight with my niece and nephew. I plan to get to bed early because I’m exhausted right now. Tomorrow we’ll go to the pumpkin patch and the corn maze, that should wear everyone out nicely. Once everyone is gone on Sunday I want to start cleaning, patching, and taping the walls. Then I’ll start painting but I still need to buy all of my painting materials, I should get a move on that.
DH and I talked a bit more about having another baby. I’m sure it’s not a good time right now to discuss it because we’re stressed to the max. DH is a little slow at the store right now, this is happens from time to time but it stresses him out big time. I told him it doesn’t help that we have a lot going on right now and said I’m OK with waiting on the carpet, etc until we know things are in a good spot. Our house is livable and clean so a bubble in the linoleum and spots with missing carpet padding aren’t going to be put at the top of the list if they can’t be. Anyway, DH seems to be where I am that it would be nice to have another but also OK if we don’t. This made me panic a bit because I’m not sure I’m ready to not have another one. I’m so confused.
Crabby Cindy left for the weekend and I really enjoyed our time with the family, it was nice! No stress and just a good time overall. Friday night we had eaten dinner and cleaned up from that when my parents and L & B arrived. The kids played really well and were running around in the dark backyard for quite some time. B’s General Grievous swords were looking very cool. They got to bed late and I had our morning stuff prepared and went to bed shortly after 10.
Saturday I was up a bit before 7 and immediately got ready for the day. I had planned to be up at 6 but DH woke me when he came to bed and I had a fitful sleep the rest of the night. I made French toast and we had a great morning and were out the door by 9:20 for the Pumpkin Patch. The kids all had a great time and got to “drive” the tractor and burn some energy. Once home Gabe was there loading up the wood stove my dad was giving him. I talked him into having lunch with us and we visited while I made a ton of sandwiches. My kids wouldn’t nap so we headed to the corn maze and had a blast. The weather was perfect and we found all 5 clues with in 30 mins. It was a lot of fun and once home I made dinner and we had a movie night and just vegged. My kids were exhausted so they went to bed on time and I was right behind them.
Sunday we went out for dinner and had a long wait for our table, it wasn’t terrible but some in the group were tired of waiting. After we parted ways we picked up paint and supplies, found some Halloween costumes for DH and me, and hit Murdochs to use a gift card. I really could have done some serious shopping there but will have to go back sans kids. The rest of my day was filled with laundry, scrubbing the north and east walls, cleaning decorations as I took them down, and taping. I was beat by 9:30 and still had to put laundry away but at least I got to watch some Real Housewives.
L had an accident last night and didn’t let me know so she had slept in a wet bed. I’m guessing she was sleeping too deeply but she does tend to hold it too long and have little accidents here and there. I got her cleaned up and threw the bedding in the wash then cuddled a bit with the kids before getting breakfast on the table. Tonight we’re having a quick soup for dinner and then I’ll start painting the walls. My plan is two coats behind the oven and fridge and one coat on the rest of the walls. I’m already exhausted and this fun has just began.
I’m dragging today so I made some strong coffee to perk me up, it may be a little too strong but I’ll get it down. I was hungry last night and picked at food a bit too much, hopefully I won’t have those issues today but if so I will tell myself no. Once the kids were fed I started painting and initially was crabby and stressed but I pulled myself out of it quickly. B had a meltdown because he wanted to help so I promised both kids they could help us paint the big wall this weekend, L asked if it was this weekend this morning so I think they’re excited. The paint dried quickly so I was able to get two coats on the north wall and behind the appliances in the kitchen. DH had to run to get more rollers (including two for the kids) and then he painted the east wall. Once we were done I prepped lunches and went to bed exhausted. This morning I was able to remove most of the tape and put the outlet covers back on the walls. I did see one spot that didn’t get the proper overlap with the second coat so I’ll fix that tonight, do touchups in the hallway/entryway and help DH put the second coat on the east wall. I also plan to get things in the kitchen back into place or close to it. If there is time I will start taping for the trim and maybe take the door off the hinge. Sleep may over rule that but hopefully not.
On Sunday L was playing with the neighbors outside while I was washing walls. She came in a little early and I said she should go play with her friends a bit longer. She responded with “I want to be in here with you mommy because I like being with you”. It was so sweet. Last weekend when we were walking in Target B wanted to get a pack of pink baby clippers. I told him no because we don’t have a baby. He then says “I want to have another baby but we don’t have one because God stopped giving us babies”. I almost teared up but I held it together.
Progress on the painting is about where I expected, maybe a tad behind. DH had yesterday off so he went over a couple spots that were thin and he took my car in for a tune-up. They reprogrammed my car to fix the starting issues it has every now and then, apparently it’s common and it shouldn’t happen anymore. That’s a relief. I had Wine Club last night and it was nice getting away with the girls. We got home later than I had planned so I’m a bit tired today. It didn’t help that L woke around 3:15 saying she had an accident. She was soaked but I think she had slept in it for a bit. I got her cleaned up then stripped her bed and put some blankets down for her to sleep on. I was thinking she had some milk after dinner and maybe that’s what was causing it but DH said she didn’t have anything to drink and went potty twice before bed. All I can figure is she’s sleeping so deeply she doesn’t wake it’s just confusing because she usually wakes up. Anyway I started my morning with laundry and a mild headache. I’m going to try to get a ton done tonight. I have to finish taping, paint two (hopefully) coats on the doors and trim, get the kitchen back in order and cleaned, put the decorations back on the wall, and possibly wipe down the bathroom. I really could use a 3 day weekend but that’s not going to happen. We received two quotes on the carpet/tile and they’re about what we were expecting, coming in about $3-4K out of pocket if we pay someone to lay the tile for us. If we do it ourselves there’s a $1500 savings. Better be worth the headache of laying tile.