Random Happenings

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Random Happenings

My life is usually fairly uneventful but its how I like it and how I want it. DH and I have been married for 4.5 years and just had B 3.5 months ago. We're happy most of the time and motherhood has come pretty easily to me. I thought it would be less sleep and more stress but so far so good. He’s such a good natured baby and he sleeps from 8:30 to 6:00 with maybe 1 waking to get his sucky or be rewrapped. I was impressed yesterday when the day care center said he ate 9 oz in one sitting, his norm is 7 oz and they couldn’t even believe he took that much on a regular basis. He’s making up for being so tiny when he was born (4 lb 11.5 oz), I guess the only way to gain over .5 lb a week is to eat, eat, eat!

We both work full time and B has been doing really well in daycare. He seems to do better each day so it's made it easier on me. MIL and FIL are totally against us doing daycare, I’ve received the “a woman shouldn’t work full time and have children” speech a few times but they don’t pay our bills so it’s really none of their business. I’m not cut out to stay home everyday, I need the release of getting out of the house and having my own time and my own thing plus I provide our health insurance and that’s a necessity with kids. I’ve tried to explain reason to them but they think that because it worked for them it’s the only way to raise a family. Why can’t people acknowledge that each family is different and what works for one may not work for another?

My parents are coming up this weekend and I’m really looking forward to seeing them, it’s been too long since they’ve had one on one time with B. Mom’s great about taking B for the morning feeding so I can sleep, oh it will be nice! I love that my parents are so supportive of us and that my mom gets excited about the little things. I hope I’m as good of a mother for my kids.

Other than the visit I’m hoping to get the Halloween decorations up, some pictures framed and hung, and my garden cleaned out for the winter. The carrots should be nice and sweet since it’s been freezing at night. I can smell winter in the air and I’m so excited for our first snow, better not get too anxious since it’s going to be in the 60’s this weekend.

Well this is enough for my first entry I'm not sure why I've decided to start this and I don't know if I'll do very well at keeping it up but it's worth a try.

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Random Happenings

We had a great weekend with my parents; I always have so much fun with them even though we don’t really do much. B gave them lots of smiles, stories, & giggles and gave mom what she needed to de-stress from work, it was nice seeing both of them so happy with him. B decided he’s going to start sleeping 11 hours at night, no complaints here, so I had to up his bed time so I can have him up at 6:00 and ready to go in the mornings. It worked out well today and I think we have the feedings planned so he won’t lose out on any calories. It’s just a constant adjustment, I’m worried he won’t see as much of his daddy since DH works until 6:00 and isn’t home until 6:30 at the earliest but this won’t last forever.

After mom & dad left B and I played then took a nap as DH ran to the store to get a project going – downfalls of owning your own business. I cleaned up the house, did laundry, and started packing for our vacation on Thursday. I can’t wait to get out of town for a few days and visit M & R, let’s just hope all of the flights are on time and B does well on planes. I’m doing B’s laundry tonight and then he’ll be packed, I’ll do the rest of our laundry Tuesday and we’ll be packed and then we’re off! The one thing I didn’t get to was putting the Halloween decorations up and vacuuming so that’s my goal for tonight, should be easy enough.

I’m so happy our car insurance issues have finally worked out. Insurance companies try to make you feel like you’ve done something wrong when you’re the innocent party and I won’t tolerate it. After weeks of calling and complaining I finally got them to agree to reimburse us for the out of pocket loss we took when we were side swiped in a rental car. Insurance companies say they won’t pay the administration and loss of use fees we were charged by Hertz but if you call them enough and keep stating your side (like I can’t refuse to pay this because it will go against my credit) they’ll eventually get sick of you and give in. We also finally are getting the full amount we’ve requested from being rear ended and that was no easy feat either. It’s not like we’re being unreasonable or trying to rip anyone off, we just want to be compensated for our loss. This is a huge weight off my mind and I’m really happy with the results. Guess we need to start car shopping soon but I just don’t have the motivation yet and I’m not too excited to drop a ton of money on a car, not that I won’t enjoy driving it. Now I’m just waiting for the replacement part to fix the dent in my new oven and we need to get an electrician to put the new lights in the kitchen and my “headache” list will be empty. Oh the fun!

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Well I didn’t get my Halloween decorations up, maybe tonight. DH worked late trying to get things done before we leave so B and I spent most of the night playing and giggling. Nothing does a heart good like hearing your baby giggle. B is mostly packed except for things we’re still using and he almost takes up one big suitcase on his own, oh well just more crap to lug around with us.

We finally got snow and I’m so happy to see the clean crispness of white on the ground. The roads weren’t even too bad so that was a nice surprise this morning. Some how I managed to avoid the morons that think icy roads don’t require one to slow down so that was a great start to the day. I slept horribly last night, I couldn’t get comfortable or stay asleep and that’s not typical of me. B also decided to keep waking up (10 times!) from about 2:00am through 5:00am, this is so abnormal for him when his average is once or twice a night. It was DH’s night to get up and get him the sucky but I felt bad and got up twice for him. Needless to say none of us are well rested today. I just hope this isn’t a new trend for B, he was doing so well.

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Our "fun" trip

We’re back from our vacation and the sad thing is the main descriptive word for it was stressful! It’s not good when you come back to work to de-stress. First off one of our flights was cancelled on Wed so we were informed we weren’t leaving until later and only had 1 layover, the good news was we got to sleep in the bad news was we wouldn’t be there until after 10:00 pm. We check in at the airport and are “randomly” selected to go through extra security screening so for B’s baby book I get to enter in his first pat-down, let me tell you it’s not too fun watching your baby go through that. We get to our layover stop and decide to check and make sure our bags will be arriving at our destination. Low and behold the morons at the ticket counter tagged our bags under someone else’s name and were sending them to San Antonio (this was not where we were going). A side note, if they’re so strict on security isn’t it a major security risk to mark luggage under the wrong name and wrong destination? Anyways, we run to the counter going to San Antonio and the woman there gets the information entered into the computer to correct the name and location and guarantees us the bags will be removed from the plane but didn’t know for sure if it would reach our destination that night. Of course the bags aren’t there when we arrive so we get the baggage claim number to check on the status the next day.

Friday comes and all I hear is “still pending”, not very promising words and I’m pretty sure they’re the nice way to say “still lost”. So we go spend $103 on the bare necessities and I keep calling. I stumbled upon finding out I could ask for customer service at about 8:00 pm so I talk to the helpful woman there and she lets me know the bags did go to San Antonio, so much for my guarantee at the airport, and she leaves a message saying they need to send us our bags ASAP. I’m not sure what they were doing with them all day Friday and I’m not pleased they didn’t check on them. On Saturday morning I call and get a really helpful woman again, thank God for these helpful people, and she can’t even find where the luggage is but she gave me some flight times to look for if the luggage was sent from San Antonio. A few hours later I call to try and find out if the bags were sent to us and I got 3 of the rudest women and the supervisor hung up on me after I told her their customer services and security were pretty poor. At this point I’m livid and was getting ready to drive to the airport to talk to someone face to face and try to find out where my luggage was when the airport calls and say they finally received our bags. I was so shocked and so happy it was unbelievable.

The stress does not end there, first we’re informed that our bag weight 53 pounds and we can only have 50 pounds or we’re charged $25. I explain to them that the reason the bag weighs too much is because they lost our luggage for 2 days and we had to buy extra things. That doesn’t sway them at all so I have to remove the diapers, formula, and wipes we bought to bring us down 3 pounds. I wasn’t happy throwing those in the garbage because they cost so much but I sure wasn’t paying $25 to keep them. We then are again “randomly” chosen for extra security screening and I really believe it’s because we were traveling with an infant. Not too pleased with profiling right now and anyone that goes through it repeatedly I really feel for them because it’s a total crock. We knew we had a 33 min layover at our first stop and did some running/fast walking with DH carrying B and his car seat and me carrying our 2 bags, quite the workout there. We made it to the gate and thought we were in the clear since we had a 60 min layover at our second stop. Well that’s when our plane has something wrong with an air hose (or something like that) and it took 40 min for them to fix it. Of course we arrive 40 min late (they never make up time like they say they will- well at least not when you really need them to) and we have 20 min to run/speed walk to our gate which isn’t close by. DH finds one of those carts and the guy agrees to give us a ride to our gate so we lucked out and made it on time, I don’t think we would have otherwise. We arrived got our luggage and stopped by the ticket counter that caused our luggage issues in the first place and I explained what went on and gave them the receipt for the items we had to buy (they refunded all $103 so that was a relief) and do you think we get an apology for our inconvenience? Of course not! I would have been much happier with a little I’m sorry but apparently manners aren’t exercised in this country anymore. They first say we have to mail the receipt to our original destination because they’re suppose to fix the problem, I informed them they said we could go to any NW ticket counter to receive our reimbursement. She then says they’re just passing the buck and not fixing their problem, and I informed her they weren’t the ones that caused the problem her ticket counter was. So at least we walked away with a check and our luggage.

On the happy parts, we did have a good time seeing M & R and DH was able to have some fun with his buddy. I got two holes in one at miniature golf with B sleeping in the baby Bjorn so I thought that was pretty talented. I also got the high score at bowling and that never happens. B did really well flying and it was cute seeing his eyes get really big the first time the plane took off and landed, wish I could have taken a picture. He didn’t cry a lot and when he did fuss it was because he was tired and just wanted to sleep in peace. His sleep patterns were really thrown off but I think he’ll get back to our routine easily. I was also very proud of my boy when he rolled onto his side. Considering he likes to just kick and punch his arms when he’s lying down getting him to even try to roll over was exciting. I have to remind myself that I’m not going to be able to force him to do anything so I’ll take every milestone I can and try to be patient.

After we got back from the airport we set up our new CD/DVD cabinet, took naps, ordered pizza, and watched Click. At least the end to our vacation was relaxing. Well this is much too long so until next time.

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B was happy to be back at daycare yesterday, he finally giggled for them and he wouldn’t let anyone but A feed him. If daycare is so bad for kids then why are they happy there? I’m glad he likes being there because it tells me they take care of him and his needs are being met, and really that’s all I ask. When I was putting B to bed last night he started fussing when I tried to read to him and then when I tried to say our prayers. So I put him in his crib and a big smile pops up on his face so apparently it was just time to go to bed. He must take after me on loving being in bed; thank God it’s his own bed that he loves to be in! I’m trying to get rid of his cradle cap and I hope the tea tree oil works, I thought it looked better today but that could have been wishful thinking. He sure loved getting his hair washed this morning. He kept slowly moving his head from side to side in the water, he’s too precious.

I’m excited for Halloween and I hope we get a good turn out of trick or treaters. It’s supposed to be relatively warm so we should see quite a few. Since B is too little to go out we’ll just have to enjoy the kids that stop by, but I’m still dressing him up for the day. I can’t decide between the pumpkin outfit or the chili pepper outfit, I guess which ever one fits best. Last year a guy came by with his little girl and he was drunk, it was so sad to see and she was too young to understand but what the heck’s wrong with people? Put the bottle down for a night for your kids, it won’t kill you. Oh well, he was more appreciative than the kid that complained he only got one piece of candy. We’re carving pumpkins this weekend so I need to pick a couple up before all of the good ones are gone, hopefully I can get to it tonight along with my other shopping.

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Still haven’t bought the pumpkins because B had a stinky diaper on the way home so it was straight home we went. DH was really cute, he stopped by the store to pick up a few things on his way home and he bought a Superman costume for B. He’s adorable in it and DH was so excited that I figured we’ll survive without using the pumpkin or chili pepper costumes we have, they were hand me downs anyways so it’s not like we lost out on money. B is pretty much back to his routine so that’s been fast and easy. He’s been talking a lot lately and has really expanded his sounds in just the last week. His hair is also coming back in really thick and I don’t think it’s going to be blond like we originally expected. It’s more brown than blond so we’ll see if he keeps his blue eyes or if he goes to green like mine. It’s funny looking at pictures of him a few weeks ago and seeing such a thick head of hair, I didn’t realize how much he lost. Well I best get back to the grind.

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B got his first pumpkin from Daycare; they went to the pumpkin patch last Friday and picked one up for him. I let him pick from the two little ones so we’ll have to carve something special into it for him. DH took the day off so they’ll have a boy’s day together. I put B back into his crib after I fed him this morning and I hope he fell asleep so his daddy can sleep in a little today, he seemed content so I’m sure he crashed quickly.

FIL called last night and said they miss B and wanted to see us soon, I just hope they don’t want to come up this weekend because I’m looking forward to having a couple quiet days at home to clean, carve pumpkins, roast pumpkin seeds, harvest my carrots, recycle, file, and sleep. If they do come up it will be fine but it would be better to try for next weekend when we’re back into the swing of things and have been able to rest a little. I wouldn’t even mind going to see them at the cabin next weekend if they’d prefer, all I ask is for a weekend off.

I want to get into the habit of prepping meals for the coming week on the weekend so I don’t have to spend my evenings cooking. Then I will have more time to spend with B and to exercise after he goes to bed. I have the Winsor Pilates DVD’s and I really enjoy them I just need to stop being lazy by sitting on my butt instead of working it off. I also need to try to be in bed by 9:30 at the latest so I can get at least 7.5 hours each night, 8 would be preferred by there’s just not enough time to get to bed by 9:00. I need to get rid of these 10 pounds from the pregnancy and then lose another 30. I want to first get into the habit of exercising daily (pilates/walking/yoga) and then I’ll start working on my eating habits. I hope if I do this in steps rather than a drastic change that they’ll actually stick for once. So my goal is to track my progress here on exercising daily through November and then in December I’ll start working on making changes to my diet. Great month to start with all the Christmas treats, at least last year I had morning sickness so bad none of the sweets looked go to me.

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We had a good weekend overall. I of course didn’t get everything I wanted done but I got to most of it. We went to pick up our new TV stand and it was damaged during shipping so now we have to wait another month for a replacement to come from the factory. I don’t know what it is lately but our luck on buying things has been really poor. I sometimes wonder if it’s God testing me on my main weakness and the one thing I really want to change about myself, but it’s also one of the hardest. I have to work on keeping my cool and not blowing up over things, big and little. I refuse to let people take advantage of me but I need to just calm down before I react and I know I need to stop obsessing about these things to the point where my blood pressure goes up. When I’m annoyed about something I start talking about it but then I feel like I’m not being listened to (mostly by DH) I start talking louder and just keep egging myself on. I don’t want B to think this is how to handle situations and this runs in the family so I hope I can be the one to stop this generational continuum. I need to try writing down what’s bothering me and what I can say to the people the problem’s associated with and then in a calm voice I can discuss my concerns. I also need to stop yelling at the morons on the road and just not care about their poor decisions. This is such a hard thing for me to change because I’ve always reacted like this and I really do hate myself when I’m out of control. I wish I could magically correct this behavior but instead it’s going to take a lot of hard work and I’m not quite sure how to fix myself.

Anyways, B has a major stuffy nose and he’s developing a cough now that I don’t like the sound of. His 4 month check up is on Thursday and I hope he doesn’t get worse and require a doctor’s visit before Thursday, I guess if he does he does. He did roll from his tummy to his side on Saturday, I was very proud, now he just needs to figure out he can keep going! We carved the pumpkins yesterday and I carved a baby ghost face in B’s little pumpkin, it’s really cute. I did laundry, cleaned the house, and even got on my hands and knees and scrubbed the floors (rather than my usual swiffer job), they really needed it. DH brought the books from the store home so I spent 2 hours trying to get everything balanced last night and I still have about 2 hours of work to do tonight. At least it’ll be done for awhile now. I stayed up later than I wanted last night because DH wanted me to play a video game with him. This is not something we’ve done before but I don’t feel like we’re as close as we use to be and I’ve been missing him so I need to work on getting us back to where we were before B. We played for about an hour; mostly he was just helping me get use to controlling the guy and figuring things out. It was nice doing something with him and I know he enjoyed it so now if I can just get him to be physical with me I’d be happy. I know he’s stressed, he always is, but sex is a stress reliever, right? I hate bringing this up because then he feels bad and that doesn’t help the situation so I’m going to try to implement some things for us to do together that will de-stress him and hopefully get him in the mood. Before I got pregnant we took dance and Qigong classes but we don’t really have the time or a babysitter so I’ll have to find something we can do at home or with B in tow. Boy do I have a lot of things to work on!

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Well I’ve been working on not getting annoyed with people while I drive, road rage isn’t attractive for anyone, and I’ve done well the last day. It’s a start at least. I worked through lunch yesterday and went home an hour early because my stomach was killing me; I feel better today but I’m not sure how long I’ll last. At least I can get a few things done and make it through my meetings. DH woke up with a stomach ache this morning so he’s going to take the day off after the auditors leave. B woke up at 5:00 am screaming and his pacifier wouldn’t calm him down so I held him until he fell asleep and let him sleep until 6:00 when he wanted to eat. At least I was able to get ready while he slept that last 45 min. His nose is still stuffy but not quite as bad, I think the Vicks vaporizer is helping, but his cough is worse. He at least smiles after he coughs so it can’t be painful.

We received a pleasant surprise yesterday, another TV stand arrived so they delivered it and we now don’t have to wait another month. Yippee! It doesn’t have any damage and it looks really nice. I can’t wait to get everything set up but I’m not sure when we’ll have the time to unhook and move everything.

It is a cold one today, 3 degrees this morning but it didn’t feel that cold on my way to work. Hopefully it won’t discourage the kiddies tonight but I’m sure it will make some parents cut it short. I’m really excited for winter this year and hope we get tons of snow; we’re due for it at least. Maybe it will run off some of the warm bloods that have invaded us, I can always dream. I still need to break in my snow shoes, it didn’t happen last year with me being pregnant but we can bundle B up and go for a hike. Hopefully my bum won’t be too heavy for them. I better kick that diet into gear!

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I left work after lunch yesterday and am home sick today. The further in the day I get the worse I feel so hopefully rest today will take care of this. B woke up at 6:15 for his morning feeding and we stayed up until DH went to work then we slept from 8:00-10:00, it was nice and hopefully just what I needed. I'll try to sleep when B takes his afternoon nap but that's no guarantee.

We had a good turn out of trick or treaters and were giving 3 pieces of candy to each kid because I bought way too much, darned that Costo. One little boy kept asking me for an orange one, took me awhile to figure out he wanted a peanut butter cup too, so he got 4 pieces. We got the T.V. stand set up last night and the darned thing wasn't deep enough to hold the media center, surround sound system, or CD/DVD player so we had to remove the back panel. We didn't even think of checking on that measurement. It was a pain digging the staples out but it still looks good from the front, good thing the back is meant to be against a wall!

I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to start my daily exercise routine today, I'm going to try to do my walking DVD and just take it easier than I usually do. If it wasn't so cold out I'd take B for a walk but thus is life. Well back to laying on the couch.

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I’m back to work and feeling quite a bit better today, a little stuffy and some pressure in the ears but it’s tolerable. There are some major rearranging issues going on at work and I’m not sure I like what’s being done. Hopefully it will be better than we’re expecting and if not then the only option is to find something else. My new supervisor is an ok guy and maybe he can’t be any worse than my previous but you just never know.

B must be going through a growth spurt because he ate like a horse yesterday. His 4 month appointment is today and I’m looking forward to see how big he’s gotten. I wish he was showing more of an interest in rolling but I can’t force the child. He’ll get there when he’s ready.

I have some more testing going on to see how calm I can remain. DH is getting no where trying to get the insurance company to compensate us for their customer rear ending us, the car has been totaled (it’s still drivable but costs too much to fix it) and they want us to give them the car when they give us the money for it. We are not going to give them the car and this is legal as long as we pay them the amount a salvage lot would pay for the car. They haven’t gotten back to us over the past 2 weeks so I’m going to call multiple times a day until I hear from them and get this settled. 2 months after the fact and we still have no compensation for the damages, that’s just ridiculous. So I’m going to work really hard on staying calm and keeping the blood pressure down.

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I’m very proud of myself, I stayed calm when I got a hold of the insurance company and we’ve worked everything out. After we send a copy of our title to prove we own the car they will send us our money, woohoo! I know DH doesn’t have the time to constantly call these people to bug them to death but sometimes that’s the only way to get things taken care of. We’re also getting the replacement part for our dented oven installed today so that’s one more “problem” off our list. These two issues should empty my annoyance list, happy day!

I found out yesterday that the guy we initially thought would be our supervisor isn’t going to be our supervisor, which is good news. We’re going to work more in a group rather than a hierarchy and now it’s just figuring out who’s going to do what. Our true boss will oversee our group and I’m not sure how he’ll want us to work out keeping him updated on projects but that will be sorted out eventually. Of course this could all change overnight.

B’s checkup went well; he’s 13 pounds and is looking better on the chart (up from the 5 percentile 2 months ago) but is still only in the 10 to 25 percentile. His head is only in the 5 percentile so hopefully that will get better by his 6 month appointment. I think the flat spot on his head is looking better, I just hope it evens out more so I don’t feel guilt about my low amniotic fluids for the rest of my life. We talked about solids so I’m going to watch him and see if I think he’s ready yet for cereal, I think he’s close but not quite there yet. I’m sure we’ll be there within the next month.

SIL & BIL are staying with us tonight; I hope we can go out to eat since we haven’t for awhile (good for me) and I’m craving seafood enchiladas, but we’ll see. I need to take my Halloween decorations down and do a quick cleaning of the house. That’s about it for my weekend chores so maybe I can get some Christmas things done. If I’m really motivated I could bake my Christmas molasses cookies and freeze them so all I have left to do is frost them around the holidays, and I can get my list together for the other goodies I’ll make. Also there’s the Christmas letter to work on. I’m planning on finishing my Christmas shopping on Tuesday since we get the day off for the elections, if I could get DH’s family taken care of then we can ship the presents off with everyone at Thanksgiving, that’s such a great feeling.

I still haven’t started my daily exercise routine because this cold is not letting me go, I know excuses, excuses. I’m still stuffed and have some lovely snot issues going on but hopefully tomorrow I can get this ball rolling. It’s at least a bit warmer out so I should be able to get some walks in if nothing too strenuous is doable.

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The stove didn't quite get fixed yesterday, DH waited for 2 hours for the appliance place to show up. They arrived slightly late, opened the box and the replacement part was horribly damaged. So DH was very upset that they wasted his time and he made a few phone calls, that's not like him so I know he was mad. Now we get to wait some more.

We did go out to eat last night but I didn't get my seafood enchiladas because the wait was an hour, so we went to a restaurant in the mall and had to wait 50 min there. At least we could walk around during that wait though I spent the whole time feeding B and trying to get him to fall asleep.

We played Cranium last night and discovered BIL does not like board games. It was a little painful at how much he didn't care so it ended fairly quickly. We love the game but we'll never try to play with BIL again.

B and I hit Target and Michaels today, I bought a few necessities and some Christmas presents. My goal is to put a few pictures on the wall, work on the Christmas Letters, start some scrapbook pages, and get my Christmas molasses cookies baked. If it all happens great, if not there's always later. MIL called while I was at Target so they may want to see us tomorrow, if so I definately won't get everything done.

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I got the pictures in the hallway hung so that’s finally finished and I fixed one of our cabinet doors that wouldn’t stay closed. DH kept putting it off so I decided to do it myself. After church we went to Costco and got some grocery shopping done then MIL & FIL came over for a couple hours to see B. After that I did laundry and crashed on the couch at 7:30 so none of my Christmas stuff was taken care of.

It feels worthless coming into work today since I have tomorrow off for the elections, but there’s no point in using my vacation when I really need to build it up again. Tomorrow should be a good productive day for me; I know I won’t get all of my Christmas shopping done but if I can reduce it to 3 people left that would be great. I also need to start wrapping the presents so I’m not overwhelmed.

B has been waking up at 3:00am the last couple of nights and he’s up for about an hour before he falls asleep again. DH picked him up the first night and held him until he fell asleep because he kept fussing but last night I was able to just give him his pacifier and shush him for a couple minutes and he’d quiet down for a little while. I’m wondering if feeding him some cereal during the day would put the kibosh on this so I’m going to try to give him some tonight. I was so proud of him this morning, I put him in his activity center and he was reaching the balls and flinging them around the room then he was moving the turn wheel that plays music and lights up. He’s really starting to figure out he can grab things and move them and it’s really fun to watch him do things he wasn’t able to do a week ago. He almost rolled over this weekend, I put him on his stomach and immediately he pushed himself up with one arm and if he would have just leaned back he would have rolled. I know he’s close so I better start baby proofing the house soon.

DH and I didn’t spend much time together this weekend. He worked Saturday and on Sunday he spent most of the day playing video games. I go to bed so early that if he wants to spend time with me later in the evening I’m sleeping or ready to go to sleep. We did have sex on Saturday morning and that was nice & needed, though I had a hard time getting into it at first because I just don’t feel beautiful or sexy. I know it has to do with me being overweight and my self image issues with that, but it’s also because he’s not as physical with me and I feel that I must repulse him. Hell I repulse myself so why not him too? I know that I need to work on my self image and that brings me to still not starting my daily exercise routine. I am going to start tonight, come hell or high water, if I don’t start now I never will. It’s too easy to be lazy.

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B is in bed, DH is down stairs on the computer again and I'm all alone. I'm actually not tired right now and would love to snuggle with him or talk or something, but apparently it's more important for him to be on the computer. I haven't gotten a kiss, a hug, a "how was your day", nothing really. He came home and I was talking to my mom so he held B and fed him 4 oz, then we fed him his first bowl of rice cereal and he did really well. I was actually surprised at how much went into his mouth and stayed there. After B ate I put him to bed, ate my dinner and DH put my dishes away (I can only figure it was so he wouldn't feel guilty going downstairs) and then he went downstairs. I feel like the flame isn't there anymore and I hate it. A few days ago he IM'd me an "I love you" out of no where and it was so nice and unexpected, but for the most part it's like this. I know he loves me and cares about me but I feel he just gets so short sighted of my basic needs that they get ignored. Or is he just too stressed out?

I feel like I come in second to the computer and it's a horrible feeling knowing that your DH enjoys the computer more than your company. I've explained these feelings to him not more than a month ago and apparently nothing's going to change. I just don't know what else to say or do. Should I ignore him in return and be busy with my own things in hope that he'll feel left out and then want to spend time with me? Or should I try talking to him again, cry my eyes out and end up in the same spot a month later? I know I'll talk to him it's just finding those words to break the ice and then doing it. I just want to feel like I'm not in second, that I'm more important than a game and that he really wants to spend time with me. I don't want to guilt him into spending time with me because then I know it's not genuine. I've explained this to him also and I feel like it was all for nothing.

I'm probably just emotional right now but some attention isn't too much to ask for at any time of the month. I'll probably wrap some Christmas presents until I decide it's bed time, oh the excitement.

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I’ve stopped my moping and I feel much better about everything, must have just been an emotional moment. DH was really stressed out on Monday from having to deal with some customers; I don’t understand why people think they should be able to return things after they’ve broken them. It’s the whole “I’m a victim” mentality of our country and frankly I’m sick of people not taking responsibility for their own actions.

It was nice having yesterday off. B and I headed out of the house at 10:00 to vote then we stopped by Pier 1 and I picked up a few presents and a candle holder for me (marked down to $20 from $60). We then ate lunch with DH and hit the mall to finish our Christmas shopping. I only have 4 people left to shop for (they’re all men need I say more?) and a gift package for Day Care. I’m also hoping to have B dedicated on the 19th so I need to make sure MIL & FIL can make it up, then it’s planning a meal and a cake for afterwards. I would just order a cake but my dad can’t eat wheat or gluten so I’ll have to make one so he can enjoy it too.

I also wrapped the Christmas presents for BIL J’s family and sent them home with him last night along with 2 very late birthday presents. I always make sure I get the kids’ birthday presents to them on time but the adults I slack on a bit.

B ate like a horse yesterday. He ate at 6:00 then was hungry again at 9:30, I fed him at 2:00 and he demanded more at 4:30 so I topped him off with 4 oz before bed at 6:45. He ate a total of 34 oz yesterday and he had a little bit of cereal, most of it landed on his bib or face. He at least didn’t pull his “up at 3:00 am and not wanting to sleep for an hour” last night so I think he just needs more food during the day. I’m going to feed him 4 oz when we get home tonight and then try cereal and finish the bottle after that. I’ll top him off right before bed with a few oz and hopefully this will tide him over until he gets better at eating the cereal. On Friday I’m going to start feeding him cereal twice a day and see how it goes through the weekend. I just don’t have time in the mornings to feed him cereal and a bottle so Day Care will probably have to do a late morning cereal feeding for him.

Well I have a ton to do; finish billing, count inventory, and finish a few little projects here and there, yippee!

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I gave B’s day care center a thank you for a little stuffed dog they gave him and they said it was the first thank you they’ve received. I was surprised but not shocked since it seems people have lost the art of thanking others. They at first thought it was our 2 weeks notice and when they opened it they were pleasantly surprised. It’s sad that people don’t spend the little bit of time it takes to let people know you appreciate them and what they do.

B did really well eating cereal last night, toward the end he started opening his mouth bigger for the spoon so we’re getting there. DH and I had to pick up SIL S’s car from the airport so I had dinner ready when he got home so we could get there and back before 7:00. B fell asleep on the drive home but he ate his 8 oz and went to bed fast. The cereal must be doing the trick because he didn’t wake up once last night and I actually got to stay in bed the whole time. It was lovely! He also didn’t wake up until 6:45 so I changed him and fed him a little before waking DH to finish him off so I could go to work. DH is taking the day off, I’m a little disappointed he can’t take tomorrow off with me but he has on-site out of town tomorrow otherwise he would have.

DH’s business partner is coming to town tomorrow so I need to make sure the guest bedroom is cleaned and ready. I’m going to clean the house and then wrap presents or make cookies. I also need to finalize my plans for B’s dedication, I think we will do it on the 19th so I stop putting it off, and I need to figure out what to have for food. I guess it depends on if we have it at the 8:30 or 10:45 Service. We always go to the early Service so I would prefer it then but if we have it later MIL & FIL can make it up from M town if they go there that weekend. So I’ll see what the pastor thinks and we’ll go from there.

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Yesterday was a productive day for me. B slept the whole night again and he woke at 6:45 to eat. Since I had some things to do I didn't go back to bed so I was awake to see DH off to work. B and I headed to town and did a bit of shopping then we came home and I cleaned the house. I still have the floors to do but they're nothing since all I need to do is vaccum and swiffer (I did the on the knees scrubbing recently so the swiffer will suffice). B ate the whole bowl of cereal and is really getting the hang of opening his mouth and swallowing. He's hilarious because he'll give me a big smile and talk while he's trying to eat, he's such a ham.

I also rearranged my decorations in the livingroom since we bought a couple new pieces of furniture. I'm happy with everything but the piano though I'm not sure what I don't like about it. DH and I then watched Saving Silverman, it was funny and I stayed awake so that was a plus.

Last night B woke once around 1:00am and went back out after I gave him his pacifier. He woke for food around 6:30 and I put him back down around 7:30 and I slept until 9:00am, it was the first sleeping in I've done in months. My goal today is to clean the floors, do laundry, pay bills, wrap presents, and work on the books for DH's store again. That is plenty to keep me busy and we'll see if I have the time, there's always tomorrow. We also need to recycle this weekend but that will probably be a Sunday chore.

I think DH is going to get me a buffet/cabinet for the dining room for Christmas. I've been wanting something to put my nice dishes in, they're currently in our bedroom closet, and something to display my crystal on. We did some measuring last night and it would fit so we'll see if I get one for Christmas.

The sky's pretty grey today and I'm hoping we get some snow, though it's in the 40's so I doubt it. What happened to having snow from mid-October through May? I'm getting tired of these wimpy winters.

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Well I got most of what I wanted done today. I couldn't finish the books because today's back up from the store didn't copy over right so we'll have to get it tomorrow after church. We're also going to recycle after church so I need to load everything into the car because DH isn't doing it even after my subtle hints. All of my Christmas presents are wrapped and piled in our bedroom so they're out of the way for next weekend when we have B's dedication.

C and her son D are coming over tomorrow afternoon to see B so that will be fun. I should be able to have all of my "chores" completed before then so I can relax the rest of the day.

Well I'm calling it a night and hitting the hay, pretty sad that I'm going to bed before 10:00 pm on a Saturday. Just part of the exciting life of a mom though I wouldn't trade it for anything.

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B had a nightmare on Saturday night, I don’t know what a 4 month old could have a nightmare about but it was pretty sad. He started crying about 2.5 hours after I put him down so I went in and gave him his pacifier and he settled. About 1 minute later he really started to cry, it was one of distress, and it just kept building. So I went in and nothing I did calmed him so I picked him up and he still was crying and hadn’t woken up yet. It took a little time but he finally woke up and calmed down, I felt so sorry for him. After that he slept the whole night so that was great.

Sunday was a good day. We talked to our pastor and we’re having B dedicated on the 19th during the 10:45 Service. My parents will already be up for the weekend and MIL & FIL will be driving down from M town that morning, they don’t want to miss the big game on Saturday and I don’t blame them. My SIL W and the kids will make it up but my brother has to work. I don’t know if any of DH’s siblings will make it up but either way we’ll have plenty of food, I always over do it. I’ve decided I’m going to make a cross cake for him and it’s going to be interesting to see if I can pull it off, I’m not very good at decorating cakes.

After church we did a little bit of shopping then C and her son D came over to see B. After they left I finished the books for the store and did laundry. D must have worn B out because he fell asleep during his last bottle and didn’t even wake up when I was burping him. He only got about 5 oz down so of course at 3:00 am he woke up and was awake for about an hour. DH settled him the first two cries and I settled him on his last cry. He did spend about 20 min talking, that’s better than crying at least. We’re having day care start to feed him cereal in the mornings and then I’ll feed him some when we get home around 5:00pm. He’s growing so fast, it’s exciting and sad all at once. I just need to remember to stop and enjoy him at this stage while I can because he’ll be out of it before I know it.

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Yesterday was pretty uneventful though it felt really long, at least at work it did. We took SIL S’s car to the airport since they’re flying back today. They were suppose to come back last night but since Denver’s being dumped on their flight was delayed. I also finally shaved the forest off my legs last night; well I used the Epi-lady. My legs are a bit sore from going so long between shavings but I’ll get over it.

B ate a lot of cereal last night and he did really well “chewing”. I added a little bit of apple juice and I think he liked the flavor change. When he gets better I’ll try adding some different fruits but I’m in no hurry. He slept really well last night, he woke up at 4:30 am wanting his pacifier, and when I put it in his mouth he grabbed onto my hand for a little bit. It’s so sweet when he holds onto my hand for reassurance that I’m around. He was out until 6:00 am and I got the biggest smile when I went in to get him, so far he’s a morning person.

Last night DH said he had thought about how hard it would be if he lost me and had to raise B on his own. I told him he’d find someone else to help him out and move on. I was thinking about our will yesterday before this conversation. We really need to sit down and get our will set and we need to figure out who we want to take B if we were both to pass away. I’ve thought about this a lot and really there’s no perfect couple because they aren’t us. I think we’ll list the couple’s we’re considering and do a pros and cons list and decide that way. SIL S and SIL C don’t go to church and that’s a requirement for me. BIL J and his family are Catholic, we’re not but at least they go to church, and they are too sports oriented and alcohol is a staple at all of their gatherings, otherwise they’d be good. My brother and his wife would be good except she has a tendency to not take her antidepressants and freak out. I’d prefer to stick with a sibling but I don’t know if DH and I can come to an agreement. Maybe if we required in the will that SIL W never quit her antidepressants in order to have B Smile . I doubt that’d go over well. I hate thinking about things like this but it has to be done. We at least already have the will software so we can do this on the computer at our own pace, which is slow.

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Yesterday was a busy day at work and today is going to be the same if not worse. I at least have a hair appointment to look forward to, I’m considering trying something different that is easy to do, but we’ll see if I have the courage. I just don’t have time in the morning to put a lot of work into my hair, getting up at 5:00 am is early enough so I am only willing to add on 5 min of primping. I’ll probably just stick with what I’ve been doing, though it’s been about 5 months since I last cut my hair so it will at least feel new.

I found out last night that my SIL and the kids are coming up with my parents this weekend so I got the guest bedroom prepped last night and have the air mattress ready to put up in B’s bedroom. After my hair appointment I have to stop by the grocery store and then vacuum, clean out the fridge, water the plants, and maybe even do a quick cleaning in the kitchen and bathrooms. Tomorrow night I’ll finish whatever I don’t get done tonight, Friday night will be one last quick clean and I’ll make the cake. Saturday I’ll have to do all the prep for the meal on Sunday, decorate the cake, and get the breakfast casserole made. This is going to be hard with my nephew L wanting me to play with him but I’ll get it all done, at least B will have other people keeping him busy.

When I picked B up from day care last night he was giggling up a storm because Miss A was tickling him. He seemed a little bummed when I took him from her but he’ll survive, I tickled him when we got home so that should have made up for it. He ate all of the cereal I made last night so I’m going to make a bit more and see how he does tonight. I sing to him a lot and I think he tries to sing with me because during a lot of the songs he hears frequently he chimes in here and there. I also finally got him giggling a lot on the video camera, usually he stops when the camera comes out so I was pleased last night.

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It’s been another very busy non-stop day and all I want to do is go home! Thank God it’s at least Thursday. DH and I got free flu shots through my health plan today and I think she hit a muscle. When I was walking back to the office my shoulder and neck started aching and they haven’t stopped. I also have a headache now so I’m not too impressed, at least I didn’t pay for this pain. Now let’s hope the shot doesn’t give DH or me the flu.

Last night was pretty uneventful. I did get my grocery shopping done but then I realized I forgot carrots and celery, so that’s on my list for tomorrow. I have quite a bit to do tonight to get ready for the weekend but it shouldn’t take me long.

Well I better cut my lunch short and get some of this work off my desk, I haven’t done a thing I wanted to do yet today, too many meetings, blah!

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I forgot to mention my hair cut yesterday. Since it’s been almost 6 months (why do I put it off so long?) I decided to get 2.5 inches off and kept the same hair style but added more layers, now my hair is about 1 inch below my ear lobes. I’m really happy with it and my hair feels bouncy again. DH knew I was getting my hair cut but do you think he noticed? Not until I said something about B not really recognizing me at first and then he said “Oh, it looks nice.” Boo to husbands that don’t notice these things! He’s usually good about it so I guess I can let it slide this one time.

I got my list of things to do completed last night and then some, so I’m a happy camper. I’m working through lunch today so I can get out of here at 3:30, then I’m hitting the grocery store and maybe the gas station. I noticed gas went up 6 cents this morning at most of the gas stations so if I can still get it at $2.23 on my way home I’m going to stop in before it goes up even more for the Thanksgiving travelers. I’m so tired of this price gouging around peak travel times, just more motivation to get a car with really good gas mileage when we buy a new one. When I get home I need to set up the second air mattress in B’s room, make the cake, and get the food out of the freezer. This weekend should be really fun and since SIL isn’t bringing their dog up, yeah, I won’t have to de-hair my house on Sunday. That’s the only upside to my brother not coming up, not that I don’t like their dog I just don’t like cleaning up afterwards.

B is a little backed up from the rice cereal, poor kid. Last night I fed him 2 T of cereal mixed with a little formula and lot of apple juice. He ate it all up so I think I’m going to increase the amount of cereal and see how he does. He prefers the cereal to be a bit on the thicker side so that’s progress, we’ll be able to do veggies soon and that’s exciting but scary too. He thinks he can now sit up so he’s trying to pull his upper body up and it’s pretty darn cute. He’s also at the standing stage (with help of course) and last night he would lift one leg then the other as if he was trying to walk to the stuff he was looking at. He’s such a doll; I could just eat him up!

For a report on my self improvements I have been really good at not blowing up about things or at moronic drivers. My voice level has remained low and calm and the cuss words are mostly out of my vocabulary. I’ve had a few slip ups but they’ve been minor and I’ve kept my middle finger to myself. I’m very happy with my progress and I hope that I can keep it up. I have done absolutely nothing to start my exercise routine and I don’t see it starting before Thanksgiving, so the new goal (after putting this off for 3 weeks) is to start the Monday after Thanksgiving. At least I’ve improved something.

We did receive the check for the damages to our car on Monday so thank God that’s over with. We’re still waiting for the replacement part for the oven to arrive but since it’s aesthetic it’s not hindering my cooking options and I can be patient, don’t really have an option. DH called to get an electrician in to put new lights in our kitchen (haven’t had a working light in the kitchen for about 2 months now but a small recessed light has been doing the job) and in the stairwell. The guy we use is booked until January but he does a good job so we’re going to wait, more patience practice.

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What a crazy weekend, I was so tired yesterday I’m amazed I was able to clean up after everyone left. My family didn’t arrive until 9:30 pm (1.5 hours later than expected) on Friday night and I was pretty tired but I stayed up until about 12:30 talking with my dad. On Saturday morning my patience ran a little thin but I think I did an ok job of not showing it, I at least didn’t blow up. My mom put my niece E on the counter top and she was sticking the cooking utensils I was going to use in her mouth and on her nose. I wasn’t too please with this and after washing all of them over and over I had had enough. Before this she threw a fit about something and screamed and stomped her feet so DH woke up, she’s definitely in the terrible two’s stage. Another issue with her was that she kept putting B’s pacifiers in her mouth (she was coughing a little so I really didn’t want to share germs) so I made my mom find all of the pacifiers and clean them all since she didn’t know which one was in E’s mouth and which ones weren’t. Serenity now!

After everyone ate and got dressed we headed to town to do a bit of shopping and to feed the ducks at the duck pond. Those little buggers get aggressive if you don’t give them bread fast enough. DH and B stayed home to watch the rivalry game and finally the Griz won again so that made DH happy. When we got home I played some with my nephew L and E and then spent the rest of the day in the kitchen prepping for Sunday’s meal and Saturday’s dinner. I was finally able to sit and relax at 9:00 pm. I ended up doing everything myself even though my mom offered to help; SIL W didn’t really offer but I expected that. It’s just easier sometimes to do things yourself and that was basically my weekend in a nutshell. I was constantly cleaning in the kitchen and cooking (water puddles and crumbs drive me crazy on my counters and I kept finding them everywhere) along with constantly cleaning/picking up the rest of the house. I’m normally not this bad but since I was having a nice dinner with people over at the end of their stay I had to keep up on cleaning so the house wasn’t a mess for B’s dedication lunch. DH did help me quite a bit and I couldn’t stop saying thank you to him last night. He’s so good to me, I don’t know what I did to deserve such a great guy. Once I had all of the food ready for Sunday (the cake turned out ok, it didn’t look quite like I wanted but it tasted good) we watched Monster House. It was too scary for L so we had to wait for him to go to bed and I thought it was really cute. Then everyone but my dad, DH and I went to bed so I cleaned up some more while my dad chatted with me.

Sunday morning I woke up later than I expected (7:20 am) and got the roast in the crock pot and the breakfast casserole in the oven then showered. E pooped in her diaper and had diarrhea which leaked onto my carpet so I spent a good 10 min scrubbing that out (after I discovered it by stepping in it), not sure why W didn’t bother scrubbing it but when their dog puked grass on the carpet and peed in the basement and on B’s car seat (while he was still in it) last time they were up she didn’t scrub those either. Another thing that bothered me was when W put E on my kitchen counter to cut her bangs (I’m not a big fan of hair in my kitchen either), well E kept throwing a fit from the hair falling on her face so my mom grabbed a kitchen towel to cover her eyes while they trimmed her bangs. I was fine with this until my mom hangs the towel back on the oven after it had hair on it. That didn’t stay there long and apparently I was the only one practicing common sense or at least anal retentiveness. I’m glad I gave myself plenty of time to get ready without having to rush and we made it to church a bit early but at least we got a pew for all of us to fit in.

The dedication was nice and simple and luckily it was done right away because B passed out afterwards and didn’t wake until we left. Lunch went really well (all that hard work paid off) and was ready to go 30 min after we got back from church so I was happy. My family left right after we ate and MIL & FIL stayed another 45 min then took off also. As soon as everyone was out the door I finished cleaning up from our lunch, organized and started laundry, and held B since I hadn’t spent any time with him all weekend. He was beat and slept a lot yesterday but I got some snuggle time in. I feel like the weekend just went too fast and that I didn’t really get to spend quality time with my mom. I expected this since it’s usually the case when my brother’s family is around during our visits. I love my brother and his family but sometimes I need time with just my parents.

DH and I watched Cars last night, it wasn’t as good as I expected but that’s the way it goes. I did like it just not as much as I thought I would. B puked up close to his whole bottle and luckily I saw it coming and was able to get him to puke on a blanket rather than the couch or carpet. It was an absolute mess. I thought he was going to wake up at 3:00 am and want food but he was out until about 4:50 and then he just wanted a pacifier and slept until I got him a little after 6:00.

I started gathering and packing things we need to take with us over Thanksgiving, I can’t believe we’re leaving in 2 days and I have a ton to do the next couple nights. I have to finish laundry tonight and buy eggs for the devilled eggs I’m supplying (I’m making 2 dozen so I have a lot of boiling to do!). Tuesday night I’ll have to finish packing and boil the eggs. Wednesday we’re leaving after I get home from my eye doctor appointment. We’re having a 45th wedding anniversary dinner for MIL & FIL on Wednesday, at least now we can stay home over New Year’s hopefully. We’ll be at the cabin through Friday morning then we’re driving 5 hours to JH to meet up with M & J. I am really looking forward to that and I hope B does ok traveling that much, I’m sure he’ll be fine since he likes to sleep in the car and I’ll sit in back with him if he needs some attention. I figure this should be easier on him than when we flew so it should be a breeze. He’s such a good baby. Well that’s enough babbling for the day.

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All the laundry is done so tonight I have to pack everything up so we’re ready to go tomorrow afternoon and I have to get the devilled eggs ready for the trip. It is so quiet around here with all of the people that are taking time off and tomorrow will be even more so. It makes it hard to stick around and work when everyone’s gone.

B has slept really well the last couple nights. Sunday night he woke at 4:50 am to get his pacifier and this morning he woke at 5:01 am for the pacifier. DH thinks he knows when I get up and that’s why he sleeps until around 5:00. I thought maybe exhaustion from the weekend had something to do with it but it could also be from him eating so much cereal (3T now and I’m going to try 4T tonight) in the evening. Either way I’ll take it happily.

I have several meetings today, including the dreaded weekly meeting with my boss, and I need to get out to our storage shed in between to organize some of our parts so I better get back to being productive.

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We are packed and ready to start our Thanksgiving vacation! I do have a few last minute things to throw together but we should be able to hit the road at 4:30, then I can feed B at the cabin at 5:30 and we have dinner reservations for the 45th anniversary at 6:30. Not sure how getting B to sleep will work but it’s going to be a go with the flow kind of weekend.

SIL S asked me to bring my crochet stuff so I can teach her, that will be fun but I’m sure I’m rusty since I haven’t crocheted anything for over a year. I really need to get back into my hobbies of crocheting, scrap booking, and quilting. That would mean less TV time and that’s always good.

Well I better get some of this stuff off my desk so I’m not burdened on Monday, woo hoo to Thanksgiving!

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Thanksgiving break was really nice, pukey and poopy but nice. Wednesday we left, after DH doddled some, mostly on time and we just went straight to the restaurant where we had the 45th Anniversary dinner so we could feed B oatmeal before the meal. Everyone showed up and B finally met his Uncle B for the first time, it was about time since he works in our area. When we fed B his bottle at the restaurant he ended up puking most of it up on my sweater so that was fun. The food was good and we were sneaky and covered the bill before everyone showed up so FIL couldn’t try to pay, he threw a little fit but not as big as he’s done before. I had a hard time keeping people from peaking on B and bothering him while he was trying to fall asleep in his car seat, so he didn’t fully sleep until about 9:00pm. We stayed at the hotel in RP, it has an old time theme and is pretty cute. I was annoyed with everyone bothering B and ignoring me when I told them to let him be so I was a bit cranky when I went to bed. I’m also tired of FIL talking about giving B things like ice cream and whipped cream; he does this every time we see them. I’m not sure if he’s serious or not and it makes me not trust leaving him alone with B because I don’t feel like he’ll listen to my requests and I really don’t feel like he respects the decisions we make as parents. It’s like he thinks he knows all because he’s raised kids but he needs to remember that #1 things have changed since he’s raised kids and #2 B is not his child to make these decisions for. I also don’t feel like he respects me just from conversations we’ve had where we’ve differed on opinions; I’m very opinionated and don’t back down without a fight especially when I know I’m right. I’m probably being too sensitive but it’s hard to forget comments that make you feel like you’re some stupid youngster and what you think can’t be correct. I think his “go with the masses and don’t think for yourself” mentality is stupid but I don’t tell him to shut up. Ok, rant is over.

Thanksgiving Day was gorgeous when we got up but the wind picked up and gave a chill pretty fast. We slept in as much as we could then dtd after we woke so there is no better way to start the day! After we were dressed we headed to the cabin and hung out with the family and helped prep some of the food. We headed to DH’s aunt’s house at 2:00 and hung out with them until the food was ready. I was disappointed because there weren’t any mashed potatoes or gravy and that’s a staple at Thanksgiving. After we had pie B was getting sleepy so we headed back to the hotel to get him to bed. B slept a lot during the day because he didn’t get to bed on time the night before and I know MIL was put off by it but I’m not going to make my baby be sleep deprived and cranky because she wants to see him more. We did the oatmeal/formula mix that night and B puked on DH and the floor so we’re not sure if the oatmeal’s filling him up more so he can’t take as much formula and pukes up the excess or if his body isn’t handling the oatmeal and that’s why he’s getting sick. This never happened with the rice cereal. He didn’t puke after we fed him oatmeal in the mornings and more time lapsed between the morning cereal and his next bottle so we’re not sure what’s going on. We decided to cut out all cereal until we get back from vacation and then do the rice only for a while. When B was down for the night we had some time to burn before everyone else got to the hotel (we play poker in the bar downstairs and keep a tab of what we take from the bar since it’s closed for Thanksgiving, got to love small towns) so we dtd again before the family showed up. I played poker with the girls and won $1.90 (woo!) and DH played with the serious table (the guys) and lost out after about an hour.

Friday morning we were out of the hotel by 9:45am and headed to the cabin to see the rest of the family before we left for JH. MIL knew we were leaving at 11:00am and when we started to say goodbye she commented that she didn’t even get to hold B. He was awake and available so I’m not sure what she wanted from me. She also asked if they could keep him while we went to JH and there is no way I am going to be 5 hours away from him the first time we leave for the weekend. DH said no so at least it didn’t seem like it was only coming from me, not that they gave us any time to discuss it in private. It took us about 5 hours to get to JH, there were a few icy spots on the road near WY and in the park and we saw 2 bad accidents which looked like they were from the icy spots. Outside of Ashton on a very curvy and hilly farm road (it made DH lose his stomach a few times) B puked all over himself and the car seat so we had to pull over and do some major clean up. The poor kid was very upset and I think it was because the formula had been in his tummy long enough to get the acidic smell and I’m sure it burned his nostrils. Then he had a dirty diaper and at this point his poo was really runny so that was extra fun for me. We then hit the Teton pass and it was snow packed and icy and at a 10% grade it was very slow going on the way down, thank God for 1st gear. Once we got to JH we met up with M & J and did some strolling down town. During dinner B was really tired and cranky so we had to cut it short and head back to the hotel where we got him down and then hit the hot tub. It was at least a relaxing end to the day.

Saturday we slept in a little bit and had our only puke free day, it was great though there was plenty of runny poo to make up for it. We shopped a little and bought FIL’s Christmas present (finally done with this so now I just need to wrap his and DH’s and I’m finished) and picked up a few birthday presents for some people. We spent the afternoon relaxing at the hotel, went out to eat for dinner, and hit the hot tub after B was sleeping. Then we chatted at M & J’s room until about 12:30am and hit the hay. B woke up around 3:30 and had a poopy diaper so I changed him and then a major stomach ache/cramp hit me and I had to wake DH so he could put B back into the crib. I don’t know what caused it but it sucked and luckily it was gone when I woke up on Sunday.

We got up earlier on Sunday and started getting our gear packed up and in the car. B puked on DH and the hotel room floor that morning so we were both in crabby moods for most of the day. DH also didn’t feel good and I think we all caught a stomach bug since none of us were feeling 100%. We left JH around 11:00 and made great time home, the roads were pretty much clear the whole way so we were home by 4:00. I did laundry, put things away, and sat on my bum. B wanted to be held most of the evening and had a little bit of a hard time falling asleep but once he was out he slept hard last night.

Now it’s back to work and the daily grind, not necessarily a bad thing either. I’m hoping to get our tree put up this week then we can save the weekend for Christmas baking and putting the lights on the house. We’re suppose to get snow the next couple of days, maybe 2-5” and that would be great, hopefully it stays around if it does come. We do at least have snow covering the ground and we had a great surprise when we got home yesterday, someone shoveled our sidewalks and driveway for us but I’m not sure who. Hopefully I can find out so I can thank them.

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We got about 1.5 inches of snow last night and it’s a cold one out there. It was -3 when I came into work and the high is single digits. Its funny how some times the cold just bites in and I can’t warm up but other times it hardly bothers me. Today is a hardly bothers me so that’s good.

B did a lot of laughing at day care yesterday so even though he didn’t eat much at least he was happy. I hope his appetite increases today and that his tummy starts feeling better, I sure don’t want to see him lose any weight over this. He ate a lot before bed last night and didn’t stir until 5:15 and didn’t fully wake until 6:15, I hope that keeps up. Once he starts feeling better I’m going to work on getting him out of the habit of being wrapped tight while he sleeps. First I’ll try the looser blanket each night approach and then if need be we’ll CIO, I’ll have to reserve that for a weekend though. I put him on his tummy last night and he pushed up with one arm and rolled over. He only did it once and I’m not sure if it was just a fluke because of how he was put down. Either way I cheered for him and hopefully he’ll do it again tonight.

Day care is offering (at extra charge of course) to take kids for the next 3 Friday nights from 6:00-11:00 pm. DH and I are going to use one night to go to a movie and another night for his stores Christmas party. I’m really looking forward to going to a theatre and having a “date” with DH without B in tow.

Well I have a ton to do today and meetings to prepare for so I’m off.

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I forgot to mention that on Saturday B had his first bath in the big tub. We laid him down and he kicked his feet and startled himself with the sound and the water droplets. Then he realized it was fun and he splashed with his feet the whole time, it was so cute. We’ve been trying to teach him to blow raspberries and he’s been watching us closely and trying really hard to blow them. Last night we were practicing again so I got the video recorder out and he was trying and then succeeded, I’m glad I got it on camera. We didn’t wrap his arms up last night and he fell asleep fine but woke first at 2:30 then at 4:00 and we had to wrap him up to get some sleep. I was not happy with DH when he picked B up, he wasn’t crying inconsolably so I’m not sure why he took him out of the crib. Oh well I suppose I shouldn’t complain when he at least gets up with him but I am so tired it’s hard not to be cranky.

It’s still cold today, -4 when I came into work, but it’s suppose to warm to the teens tomorrow. DH and I shoveled the driveway and sidewalks last night, we didn’t have a whole lot to do since he shoveled everything while it was still snowing to make it easier on us last night. I just want the snow to stick around and keep everything white and pretty, here’s hoping.

B ate really well this morning and did better yesterday at day care. He had a really runny diaper last night when we got home so he still has a bit of a bug but I think he’s getting better, poor little fella. I need to motivate myself tonight to get organized for finishing up my Christmas to-do list this weekend. I’m not sure why I’m procrastinating, maybe because I’m exhausted.

Another busy day and 2 meetings back to back so I best be going.

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B isn’t doing as well at night since we aren’t wrapping him tight in his blanket but we really need to break this habit sooner rather than later. I think having a pacifier is a good enough habit to have to break down the road, yippee! I had to settle him 3 times before he finally fell asleep, I think he tries to suck on his pacifier and hand at the same time but the hand gets rid of the pacifier and he gets mad. He got me out of bed around 4:00 am twice and it was the same issue with the hand knocking the pacifier out. I know this is only temporary and he’ll adjust soon enough. He was so tired when I picked him up from day care so I fed him 4 oz because I knew he was hungry and he slept for about 30 min then he was up and happy until bed time. He sure was dishing out smiles to DH when he got home; he’s such a joy to watch every day.

I have a huge list of things to do this weekend and I need to first start by cleaning up the house tonight (water plants, put laundry away, file, dust). I also want to buy our tree tonight so I’m not sure how much I’ll actually get done. Tomorrow night we’re utilizing day care being open from 6-11pm and we’re going out to dinner and then a movie, I’m not sure what movie we’ll watch but either way it will be fun. Saturday and Sunday I need to clean the house, decorate the tree & house, wrap a few presents, write thank-yous for B’s dedication, bake my Christmas treats (fudge, choc covered cherries, peanut butter balls, & molasses cookies), bake the treats for work, and start my Christmas letter. DH needs to put the Christmas lights up on the house too but hopefully he won’t need my help until he’s on the roof. It’s going to be a busy weekend.

DH has an appointment with the dermatologist today so I showed him a few moles I want to see removed next, not sure if the Dr. will agree with me but eventually they all will be removed. He’s such a trooper. Since DH will be home early I think he can either pick out a tree or we can go when I get home, I love the smell of pine trees in the house.

The temp was above 0 degrees this morning when I left for work and we may get more snow this weekend. They’re predicting temps above freezing next week and that would be a bummer since the snow would go away but it’s typical of our winters the last 10 years so I won’t be surprised.

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It’s a warm balmy day at 23 degrees this morning, good Christmas light hanging weather. DH picked B up from day care last night so they were home when I got home. DH is having 4 moles removed in two weeks, three on his back and one on his leg, that’s going to be a pretty bill! When I got home I played with B for a little while and then we put him down for a nap and dtd. Fell asleep for a quick 15 min nap then got up to get dinner going and B fed. We didn’t get the Christmas tree last night and I did nothing I wanted to do so that just means I have more to do this weekend. B went down easier last night than the previous 2 so that was good but he woke up a lot last night. He had 28 oz of formula yesterday and cereal in the morning but I think we need to get back into giving him cereal at night too. Hopefully that will keep him asleep longer because last night was brutal. DH was holding him while he was on the computer last night and B had his intense concentrating look on his face like he was reading the computer screen with daddy. Two nights ago I sang “Head shoulders knees and toes” to him while doing the motions to the song and he got such a kick out of it, not sure why it was so funny but I kept doing it until I was wore out. It’s amazing how many stupid things I will do for him and not even think twice about it.

DH took today off so we’re planning on leaving for our date around 5:30, if we can drop B off before 6:00. Not sure where we’re going to eat but I think we’re going to see Stranger Than Fiction, should be a fun night. This means we won’t get our tree until tomorrow so I’m a little bummed about that, I prefer to get the tree up the weekend after Thanksgiving so this is a little hard on me. I’m really excited to see how B reacts to the lights; I think he’ll love it.

I have billing and estimates to work on today and I’m just ready for the work week to be over. I also have a pre-construction meeting to attend and hopefully it will be fast and not complicated. Well motivation time.

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What a busy weekend, at least it was expected. Friday night was great, we had Mexican and I finally got my seafood enchiladas then we watched Stranger Than Fiction. It was a good show, funny and kind of sad. It was nice just hanging out with DH outside of the house without B but I was really tired when we got home at 9:30pm, I’m so lame. B slept really well Friday night and didn’t wake up until 7:40 so I got to sleep in a bit.

DH had to work Saturday so his alarm went off 20 min after I came back to bed from feeding B but we got a quickie in and then I figured I better get out of bed to start my busy day. I cleaned the house, bought groceries, brought the Christmas gear upstairs, wrapped DH’s presents, made chocolate covered cherries, and made the dough for the molasses cookies. B napped a lot of the day so that was helpful for my productivity. When DH got home we went Christmas tree shopping and it was a clear night and cold so we didn’t dawdle on picking a tree out. We set the tree up when we got home and by morning it had drank a full thing of water and the boughs were coming down.

B slept really well, he didn’t make a peep the whole night but he woke at 5:53 am screaming, he didn’t even ease into it like usual so I’m not sure what was going on. I got up and snuggled him then fed him and went back to bed for about an hour before he was up again. DH put the Christmas lights on the house and since there’s snow on the roof and our ladder isn’t tall enough to reach the top of the house he just outlined the garage door, front door, and B’s window with lights and garland. It looks ok, nothing too fancy that’s for sure. He was happy I suggested he do an easy job since it was cold and he really didn’t want to be out there. I got the double batch of molasses cookies baked; I love my new oven and the convection bake option. I was able to bake three racks of cookies at a time and it really cut down on my time spent in the kitchen. I also frosted and decorated all of the cookies, it was a long day but they taste yummy. I cleaned up the kitchen again, did laundry, put my Christmas decorations up, put the presents under the tree, vacuumed the needles up, put away my storage boxes, paid bills, and balanced the check book. I didn’t crawl into bed until after 10:00 pm so I’m feeling pretty tired today.

DH didn’t put the lights on the tree until about 8:00 pm and at that point I was beat and still had some things to take care of so he did all of the decorating and I didn’t get to put anything on the tree. I was a little miffed about it last night and I think he could tell. Then he went downstairs and played video games, which is what he did most of the day while I had my long to-do list and a baby to take care of, so I’m hauling the Christmas boxes back downstairs to the storage room and on my last trip he finally asks if I need help. A little late now but thanks for pretending to care. I know he misses having the time to play online and he says days off aren’t really days off with a baby. I just wish he would realize I’m in the same boat, I have things to take care of around the house plus B and I don’t get any time “off” either. Last night I mentioned that I hadn’t done one thing for myself this whole weekend and he says sit down, I told him I still have a ton to do I can’t just sit down. I wish he would acknowledge that I work full time and have the house to take care of when I’m home and that I need him to take B some times without me having to ask. At least he does take him when I ask but it would be nice to be able to just get something done without having to check on B while I’m in the middle of it. I’d like to clean the bathroom or bake cookies without having to sing Old McDonald.

B slept really well last night, he fussed a tiny bit after DH put him down but we didn’t have to go in there. He slept the whole night, I sure hope this is a new trend and I’m really glad we broke him from the habit of being wrapped tight, and woke at 5:30 am. I kept trying to get him to take his pacifier and be happy in his crib but as soon as I left he’d yell some more and then smile when I checked on him. So he hung out in the bathroom with me while I finished getting ready then at 6:00 am I fed him. He apparently took too much formula because he spewed a little bit on my shirt and on the couch so I spent some time scrubbing.

My work day started with an e-mail that really torqued my shorts and then I was reminded I have a meeting I’m not looking forward to so I guess it’s just another lovely Monday!

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B slept the whole night again without being swaddled (4 nights in a row now), just one little peep and he put himself back to sleep, and he even did the whole night without his pacifier. I’m so happy & proud of him, I tell him every morning  I think he’s gearing up to start teething so that may throw a wrench into our sleeping heaven but I’m hoping that he will be an easy teether. He’s been great when he’s been sick so I’m crossing my fingers.

I found out day care is closed the day after Christmas so I’m definitely taking that day off, I was planning to anyways but now it’s a guarantee. It’ll be a good day to put the Christmas decorations away. B’s Christmas play at day care is on the 20th, he’s going to be an angel, so I’m pretty excited. Santa will also be there to give presents so it’ll be fun to see how he handles the big guy. I think we are also going to take him to see Santa at the mall but I need to double check with DH.

Last night I baked the brownies for tomorrow’s bake sale and I’m going to frost and decorate them tonight. I also finished my laundry, just need to fold it and put it away tonight, and cleaned the house up a bit. I was excited because I received Babywise II and the Secrets of the Baby Whisperer. I started Babywise II last night and hopefully can be through it in a week then start the Baby Whisperer. I’ve really enjoyed the Flex Scheduling board; it’s nice to talk with other parents that are following the same parenting style as us.

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Last night when I got B home I mixed up 3 T of cereal, put him in his high chair and he starts to cry/yell. Up to this point he hadn’t shown he was hungry but apparently he was about ready to waste away. I couldn’t fee him fast enough, he was trying to suck/chew the food before it was in his mouth and as soon as it was gone he’d cry again. He cleaned out that bowl in under 5 min and was still hungry so I gave him 4 oz of formula and then he was happy. We had some tummy time and he actually seemed to enjoy it for once. He kept bringing his knees up and would try to kick him self forward and at one point he had his lower body halfway over but didn’t get the upper body going with it We gave him another 4 oz right before bed so of course at 4:30 he woke up and was ready to start the day. I did get him to settle down with the pacifier, he kept kicking and flailing his arms so it wasn’t conducive to getting him to calmly fall asleep again, but at 6:00 he was awake, hungry, and angry. I was scolded by him on my way to the fridge to get the bottle then to the couch and until I got the bottle in his mouth. Little stinker! After that he was pretty happy and I had him giggling before I left for work.

As I was on the interstate driving to work I was almost hit by an a-hole in an Audi with dealer plates and though I’ve been really good at keeping my cool and controlling my temper I didn’t do so well this morning. What ever happened to people looking behind them before they change lanes and/or using their blinker to let others know what their plans are? It’s the whole “I’m the center of the universe” mentality and it just ticks me off. So I had a lapse and those will happen but all in all I’ve been doing really good and there also hasn’t been much going on to get me riled either.

I’m going to start using sign language with B, I want him to be able to communicate with us before he can talk and I think this will be a really good way to do it. The signs I’m going to start him with are bottle, milk, eat, all done, yes, no, thank you, please, play, toys, mommy, daddy, love you, grandma, and grandpa. At this point my plan is to start signing when I say the words and hopefully in 3-4 months he will start to copy me. Once he gets these down we can expand our signing but this should be a good start.

I have a construction meeting in a ½ hour then I have to prepare for the bake sale and help with the selling. Hopefully we can get some funds earned so we don’t leave the benefit organization broke after the winter party. I’m actually looking forward to being done with the organization; it’ll just be nice not having to worry about the extra things and having to put in extra time to prepare things. I’ll be done after the winter party and I’ll be happy about it!

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I just can’t seem to get myself to concentrate on work this week. I’m not sure if I’m physically tired or just tired of work. I need a swift kick in the butt.

We made a little over $150 at the bake sale so we’re happy about that. There were some really tasty treats there. I have my Christmas letter mostly done, DH will need to read over it and then I have to find some pictures to put in it. I may have to shorten my letter when the pictures are added and that’s fine by me. I want to get them sent out the beginning of next week and I’ll mail off the candy packages I have then too. That will make me officially done with my Christmas to-do list, yeah!

Well I’m going to tackle some renovation plans and the estimate for our work maybe that will get my brain focused. I think I need to go to bed at 8:00 tonight, that can’t hurt.

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Day care called me yesterday at 2:30 saying B had cried all day and had diarrhea. This is so unlike him so she asked if I had any ideas how to calm him and she had tried all of them so I left work to get my little guy. He’s decided to start teething and was sleeping when I got there and was fine until I got home. I did pick up some teething tablets and gel and the tablets calmed him with lots of snuggles when he was hurting again. I’m not sure I’m ready for this. He did sleep well last night, woke once at 4:00 am and I gave him a tablet and held his hand until he settled down, he seemed happy this morning and I hope today goes better for him and day care. I think with the tablets and his vibrating bee he should be ok. He also has some major diaper rash going so we’ll have to do some naked time tonight when we get home.

DH came home early too but he didn’t help me at all, just played games and said he was working. We ordered pizza since I wasn’t going to make anything and he wasn’t helpful, that was fine by me. He did put B down but that’s because my best friend from high school called.

My SIL W, niece, & nephew were rear ended by a drunk driver last night, they’re ok but the van is totaled. This is her 3rd rear ending in 5 years and she’s tired of it, sometimes it seems it just never ends. Of course the guy will receive a little slap on the hand and be sent out to drive drunk again and maybe even kill someone. I have no sympathy for these jerks and I’m tired of the state just rolling over, maybe I need to get involved with a group to raise holy hell over drunk driving.

Well since I missed an hour of work yesterday I better get to it.

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DH just informed me that MIL and FIL are coming up tonight and staying with us because they're driving to Msla for the game tomorrow night. So I have to make sure the bathrooms are clean and get some hamburgers and salad ready for dinner. At least they won't be here until around 7:00 so that gives me some time. Now I just need to be a good girl and not get into any "discussions" with them, I also need do my best to not take things personally. They are good people I just have had my feelings hurt in the past year so I'm more sensitive about comments than I normally would be. I don't feel like they respect me or our decisions and it upsets me. FIL made a comment last time they were up comparing a guy to DH. He said something like, "So&so has a usable degree like David but he's decided to do something that doesn't use his degree." Now this bothered me because DH has a degree in Creative Writing, he's a poet, and that doesn't bring money in to pay bills though there's nothing wrong with that degree. So after he graduated he started working at a computer store and he did so well he and his boss partnered up and opened up a second store where we now live. FIL made a comment (in front of my dad and it made him feel like FIL doesn't support DH's decisions) when we were planning this move that made it seem like he thought DH should be doing something in his major and it made me feel like they didn't support our decision to open up a store. The store has been very successful and I'm very proud of my DH with the hard work he's put into it and I just wish FIL would see how successful he is and stop comments like the one he made last time they were up. But this is just an example of things he says that bothers me. The other main two recently have been about giving B food he's not ready for and how horrible it is that we've decided to put him in day care so I can keep working. So I need to work on not obsessing about these comments and just letting them slide off my back, it's not easy when I feel like someone is putting down my husband and my mothering.

I called day care and B is doing a lot better today, I'm interested to see if he was crabby, how he ate, and if they had to give him teething pills. Hopefully he's not too crabby so I can get ready for the IL's. I'm not sure how I'm going to get some naked time (for B of course) in while I'm prepping for them but I'll find a way.

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Well it's 1:12 am and I'm awake and not happy about it. I was sleeping until DH came to bed and was loud enough to wake me up. I couldn't fall back asleep and after laying there for an hour I figured screw it, I'll get up and do some things around the house. I'm really happy he didn't even bother to apologize for waking me up. Oh that's right, I don't need sleep.

When I got home I was rushing around getting the bathrooms cleaned up and dishes/recycling put away. DH said MIL and FIL were going to be here around 7:00 pm, well 5:32 pm and they're here. Thank God I got the necessary things done in time. I made hamburgers, beans, and a pasta salad but guess what, I didn't get a thank you from any of them. I'm not happy that DH can't seem to help around the house either. On Wed, trash day, I took the garbage to the can and the can to the street. I pulled a trash bag out and put it near the garbage thinking DH would put it in the garbage. I get home that night and he's put garbage in the bag but sure hasn't put the bag in the garbage. I was not happy and after this whirl wind of 20 min to prepare for his parents staying the night I'm really not happy. He's going to hear my little bitch fest tomorrow whether he likes it or not.

He's leaving work early tomorrow (today) and is going to pick B up. I think I'm going to stop by Target on my way home and get a few things we need, he's just going to leave as soon as I get home to go sit at a bar and watch the game tomorrow night so why rush home? I'm just tired of him having all this time to do what he wants and I'm left to take care of the house and B with no thank you's or what can I do to let you enjoy some free time. Why are these men so spoiled and feel that they're entitled to it?

I'm just tired and cranky and I can't believe I'm still awake, blah!

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I am so flipping tired today, I’m pumping the coffee in and I’m going to see how I’m doing at 2:30 to see if I want to leave early. MIL did thank me for everything this morning, so now DH just needs to be appreciative and maybe I’ll be happy. The one good thing is I unloaded my dishwasher last night/early this morning and I started adding pictures to my Christmas letter. I have one picture of B on Halloween and if the pictures with Santa turn out this weekend I’m going to put that on the letter also. I haven’t told DH I’m taking him to see Santa Sunday and I really don’t care at this point if he comes along or not, he can do whatever the hell he wants he always does anyways.

I talked briefly with my mom last night and the accident from the drunk driver was more severe than I thought and by the grace of God no one was hurt. My SIL W saw him coming so she stepped on the gas a little hoping he’d see her in time and not slam into the back of the van, of course he was drunk and just kept going. His vehicle smashed the back of the van so bad that it came within an inch of taking out the back seat which my nephew was sitting in. If she hadn’t gone forward my nephew may have died. They towed the van directly to a junk yard and my brother picked up their personal effects the next day and the guy at the salvage yard told him they were lucky she wasn’t in a car or they wouldn’t have made it. The guy had received a DUI prior to this and big surprise he was out of jail the next morning. W did chew his butt and I don’t think she held back on the language, good girl! It makes me so angry that people are so damn inconsiderate for the lives of others and especially children just so they can get drunk. Of all the drugs out there I truly believe alcohol is the worst and I’m tired of our country idolizing it. I can’t even imagine losing L, he’s the most precious child and it makes me sick to my stomach to even think about it, what the hell is wrong with people? I think the guy at least has insurance so hopefully she can skip the hell I went through when I was hit by an uninsured motorist.

On the rant of alcohol (I do have a beer here or there but I don’t get drunk anymore, I’ve out grown that desire and I’m sure I will cut it out all together when B gets older because I don’t want him thinking it’s a staple at gatherings) FIL always brings some Wild Turkey where ever he goes and sets up a little bar, heaven forbid we go a night without alcohol. Well MIL was feeding B his cereal last night and he’s saying she should have a beer while she feeds him so he can get a picture of her drinking and feeding him at the same time. What the hell? If that’s not the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard then I’m not sure what is. And then they were talking about how my BIL J was flying back from the east coast today and if it’s foggy like it was yesterday he’ll have to fly into Hlna and he has some friends that have stated they will get a 12 pack and go pick him up. Let’s all be good examples for our children. That comment ticked me off so I shared with them that a drunk driver had hit W and the kids just to shut him up. DH’s family sees nothing wrong with drinking a few and getting behind the wheel (even in front of their children) and I will never allow my child/children to get in a car with them even if they’ve only had one, we have to teach them at a young age that this behavior is not ok.

On a bright note it’s Friday and all I can think about is sleeping tonight. Tomorrow I’ll make the fudge and peanut butter balls and work on my Christmas letter some more. I’ll probably do a quick cleaning and I need to organize my Good Will donations so I can get those out of the house. The garage also needs to be tackled and I think it’ll be warm enough to do some work out there, so my weekend should be plenty busy. Well I have to count some inventory and go over more construction plans, yippee!

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I left work early yesterday and picked B up, I called DH seeing if he could come home early (those plans went down the tube) so we could see Santa at the Post Office and he says unless I meet him there there's no point in driving home then back to town because he's going to Specs with his co-worker to watch the game. So at this point I'm still flipping tired and I just break down, of course not on the phone with DH, and poor B is just looking at me like "what's wrong?" so that pulled me out because I did not want to see a look of worry on my baby's face. We had an uneventful night, fed him cereal, gave him some naked time (his bum is so red it just breaks my heart), had some tummy time, fed him again and went to bed. He was passing out at his last feeding and the burping didn't even wake him up so there was no bed time routine and that was fine because I was right behind him.

I fell asleep around 9:00 and DH called me to let me know he was on his way home, I'm guessing it was after 10:00 but I was sleeping so I'm not sure. B woke up once last night at 4:00, took a pacifier and went back out until 6:00. I'm starting to change his feeding a bit, when he has his first three bottles I'm going to give him cereal at the same time, then his last feeding will just be a bottle. For breakfast I did the bottle then cereal and he only had about 1 T of cereal. For lunch he had 1/2 a bottle, cereal (about 3 T with sweet potatoes mixed in), then 2 more oz from the bottle. That seemed to work better for him so I'll keep trying that. He wasn't too sure about the sweet potatoes at first but he ate it all, in a few days we'll try some green vegetables.

So DH went into work because one of the guys has on-site and he doesn't want his other worker to get over whelmed, he said he's also going to buy the rest of my Christmas present so I probably won't see him until later this afternoon. He'll be home by 5:00 since that's when his on-line tournament starts, at least the tournament for tomorrow is cancelled and I may actually see my husband this weekend.

B is napping and I'm going to take a shower then make some fudge and get the peanut butter balls going. I also want to do a quick clean in the house and get my donations organized. Then I plan to read, I'm about halfway through BabyWise II then I'm starting the Baby Whisperer. Tomorrow is reserved for visting Santa then finishing my Christmas letters, I may start the envelopes today, we'll see.

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Another Monday and I’m still tired, what a shocker huh? Well the IL’s stayed with us again on Saturday night on their way back so I didn’t get as much as I wanted done this weekend. I cleaned the house up, made fudge, and labeled my Christmas envelopes before they arrived. We had a good time with them and since I was refreshed from the 11 hours of sleep I got on Friday I wasn’t too sensitive or crabby. We ordered Chinese food and played 99, I was the first loser and that was fine by me. DH worked the whole day since the on-site W was on took the whole day. He got home a little before his parents arrived and played his on-line tournament until about an hour after they arrived, I was fine with that since he states that he never gets to play his games anymore. I do want him to have his own time and do things he enjoy I just wish the same was done for me.

Sunday morning I was up with B at 6:00 am and he had explosive poo up the back of his diaper so I had some cleaning to do. We were out the door at 8:30 am for church and MIL and FIL left the same time since they needed to get back home. After church we fed B (he’s doing really well with his half a bottle, cereal, the rest of the bottle and he’s enjoying the sweet potatoes still) then we headed to Costco and Target. We took him to see Santa and the line wasn’t too long so that was nice and he did really well, I’ll have to post a picture when I’m at home. He was a little crabby this weekend from teething but all in all did well. He wakes about once a night but that’s understandable when he’s in pain.

After we got home DH just headed downstairs to play more games and left me to take care of B all on my own while trying to get things done, I was pretty miffed and he doesn’t ever consider that I need a break, it’s always only about him. These men are so selfish and don’t stop to think and we’re tired, we’ve been taking care of EVERYTHING, we need time to ourselves, we need time with our husbands, we need a break too. I’ve been pretty upset this last weekend with him starting with not receiving a thank-you for the work I did on Thursday for his parents to stay with us, I received no help on Friday when I was literally exhausted and needed help (granted I was glad he was able to get out with the guys and enjoy himself because it’s important for everyone to do that now and then), then on Sunday he doesn’t even take our son so I can get things that need to be done accomplished without distraction. Him helping me consists of feeding B then putting him down at a play center, that’s great until he needs to take a nap, have a diaper changed or needs some attention. DH’s gotten so lazy he won’t even put his dishes in the dishwasher, I feel like a maid, a nanny, and a cook but mostly I don’t feel appreciated. So I’m going to try to talk to him tonight to let him know how I feel, I just need to organize it in my head so I can be sure to cover everything. I just don’t feel like our marriage is as strong as it used to be, we need to get “us” back because I miss “us”. I also need to find out if there’s something I’m not giving him that he needs because I know this isn’t a one way street.

I did get the peanut butter balls made and finished the Christmas letter (I have some embellishments to put on the letters tonight and then pack them in their envelopes) and got all of our laundry done so at least my to-do list was mostly taken care of.

B slept ok last night, around 2:00 am he fussed a little but never woke up, I still went in to check on him because he made a really wet sound and I wanted to make sure he didn’t puke on himself. He woke again at 4:00 am and once that pacifier went in his mouth he was out until 6:00 am. We had another explosive diaper, thank God his pajamas didn’t have to be pulled over his head, there was poo everywhere. I got him cleaned up, put his sheets and clothes in the washer, and then fed him. He ate 4 oz of formula, 2 T of cereal, then 3 oz of formula, I was pretty pleased. His diaper rash has cleared up, I think the naked time helped this weekend, but now he’s got a really runny nose from teething, poor baby. Poo and snot, that’s the story of our lives. I better get to the grind and see what financial reports I can get off my desk, oh happy day!

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I talked with DH last night and I didn't feel like it did any good and I felt liek he was mad at me. This morning was fine but that's because of the night we had we B.

When I picked B up from day care they said two of the babies in his room and the woman that usually takes care of them all have a viral respiratory infection that is very contagious. It's not RSV but it's related and the two babies are on inhalers. So we were put on the alert to watch him for coughing, wheezing, and greenish boogs. He went to bed without a problem but at midnight he woke up crying, he usually fusses/talks first then start wailing but last night it was wailing from the beginning. I got up checked him and he took the pacifier and went out with some soothing. An hour later he was up again and we went through the routine again. 2:00 rolls around and DH gets up and soothes him, at 2:30 I get up and hold him until he falls asleep then I put him down again. 3:30 I got up again then at 4:30 I noticed he felt warm enough to take him temp and he was at 100.1. I gave him Tylenol and brought him to bed with me since I hadn't gotten much sleep and I told DH I was calling into work today. His temp came down and he was happy for his breakfast and playtime afterwards. Around 11:00 his temp was up to 101.5 and I gave him Tylenol but it didn't seem to do anything so I got him out from under the covers and stripped him down to help him cool off. He's now at 99.9 and isn't so out of it but he's crankier. He's coughing a bit, not wheezing, and his boogs are yellow. I called the doctor's office and they think it's likely an ear infection so if he's the same tonight DH is suppose to take him in tomorrow. The day off is nice but I'm not getting squat done, except for what I'm suppose to be doing and that's babying my baby.

I finished Babywise II and have started the Baby Whisperer, so far it's a good read. My Christmas letters are ready to be stamped and mailed but I'm not going to make it out of the house today to get that done.

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B did a lot better last night. He fussed a bit within the first 3 hours and then only woke once at about 4:30 am. His fever was still there this morning but DH said he’s normal now. DH took him to the doctor’s at to see if he had an ear infection but his ears and lungs are clear so he just has a little virus. I’m at least happy to hear it’s nothing major.

Work’s been crazy today and I have so many meetings it’s unbelievable. I have a few phone calls to return from yesterday and have been at meetings all day so not too much is being removed from my desk. Thank God DH has tomorrow off so I can make sure I’m here to get my billing for the month completed and finish up the projects I know I’m not going to get to today.

DH and I sat and watched tv together last night and it was nice having him spend some time with me. He’s such a good daddy and does so well with B, I hope I tell him enough. He took B to day care for a couple hours today because he’s getting 5 moles removed today, 1 on his shin and 4 on his back. That means we’re going to go through band aids like there’s no tomorrow. At least this doctor stitches them up, the first time he went in was terrible. The doctor was new in Msla and he removed 3 moles on his back then cauterized them. One of the moles wasn’t cauterized enough and it was pouring out blood so I had to remove the bandages and there was fatty tissue hanging out of the wound, it was so gross and I panicked a little, so I made DH call the hospital to see what we were suppose to do. After applying pressure for 15 min and re-bandaging it was fine but I remember it took forever to heal. I love stitches!

Well my boss is riding my butt, I can’t wait until she retires she’s so high strung and really stresses me out.

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B was up a lot last night and since DH took today off he only got 2 hours of sleep because he was up with B so I could sleep, what a honey. I feel so bad and hope he can sleep when B naps. The fever is still there and he has a little cough, I just hope it breaks soon. I was hoping it would break last night so I could come into work tomorrow but I don’t think that’s going to happen. Oh well, at least I can prepare and get the necessary stuff done today. I’ll probably bring a few things home and see if I can get them done there; it’s at least a good thought.

My boss is still stressed out and she easily stresses everyone around her. I just have to keep reminding myself that I only have 7 days left with her and then we can all relax. She’s a great person with a wonderful heart but she just gets too worked up about things that she has no control over. Mistakes can be fixed and she needs to remember that.

I have only gotten 2 things on my list completed today and now I’m working on billing, the big thing for the day. Then I’ll return some phone calls and try to dwindle down my list.

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When I got home yesterday I relieved DH of B and DH went to do some errands around town, it was good for him to get out of the house. I'm home today and last night wasn't as rough as I expected. B still have a fever, 102 yesterday and 103 at midnight last night. I slept on his floor with him cuddled next to me, we got a few 1.5 to 2 hour stints of sleep in during the night so I'm not too tired today. It was hard getting him comfortable and happy and it breaks my heart to see him in pain. I did sleep in bed with DH for about an hour then B woke up so I went back to him, on the plus DH got a full nights sleep and he needed it.

I called the doctor's office this morning and they got us in at 10:00 with another Dr., he was good and he'll now be my second choice for appts. The wait took forever but it always does and it turns out B has an ear infection in his right ear and a sore throat. He gave me some Rx for tylenol with codeine to help him sleep at night and some antibiotics. B did pretty well while we were out so I stopped by the grocery store to get his Rx and I got a few groceries while we waited. He slept until the end then he fussed and cried but there was nothing I could do and I didn't feel bad about people having to hear him, he's sick not bratty. I gave him both Rx when we got home, he had a fever again and since his sleep hasn't been prime I thought it would do him some good to get a few hours (hopefully). I held him for a bit then put him in his crib and he's still napping.

I de-cluttered the house, put groceries away, got the mail, shoveled the sidewalks, and decorated my wreath. I'm going to jump in the shower next and try to feel human again.

The weather was crazy this morning, the wind was blowing really hard but it was in the 40's at 6:00 am. At 8:30 when DH left for work it was blowing snow and I think we got 1.5 inches in an hour. It's nice to have the snow again though the interstate was horrible when I drove to B's doctor's appointment.

I may try to do some work from home today, I'm not really feeling up to it but that's no excuse. If not then I dust the house and maybe clean the floors, that bathroom needs to be attacked also but I still have the weekend.

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Friday night went better than Thursday, B slept in his crib until around 3:00 then I tried him in our bed and when that didn't work we were on the couch. He wasn't happy if I laid down so I had to stay upright for him, it was fun! He was very clingy on Saturday and I think I had about 15 min of alone time, I did at least get a few things done. He did a lot of whining and slept almost the whole day plus hardly ate anything. I was lucky if I could get him to take 4 oz at a time.

Last night he slept pretty good, DH had to go in and calm him down twice before 1:00, he woke at 3:00 to talk and then he was up at 5:20 wanting to eat. He went back to sleep until 9:00 so I did get a decent night's rest. He is finally himself today, talking, laughing, smiling, cooing, it's wonderful. He ate good this morning but didn't do so well for lunch, oh well it's better than nothing. I'm going to see if he'll eat some vegetables for me. He did have quite a bit of junk crusted on his ear this morning so we at least know the antibiotics are working.

We skipped church today because we're both tired and B's sick and cranky. We did go to Target today and bought a few stocking stuffers and some necessities. I had had enough of the people, everyone was just standing around taking up the whole aisle so you can't get through. I'm not a fan of the Christmas crowds and how cranky people get but it's good for me to see every year so I can remember why I do my shopping early.

I got most of the house cleaned after DH got home from work yesterday, I still need to clean the floors and the bathroom. I also have to get my Christmas candy boxes packed, gather my presents for people at work & daycare, and hopefully organize my stuff to be donated. I've been in the cooking mood (didn't cook yesterday because of my clingon) but Friday I found a great recipe for potatoes and kielbasa. DH kept telling me he really like it so that's a keeper. We did left overs for lunch and I thought we could share the chicken strips (DH thinks my homemade chicken strips are the best thing ever and honestly they aren't but I'm happy to make them for him) so I told him to take what he wants and I'll have whatever's left, well there's nothing left so I'm making an egg salad sandwich for myself. Tonight I'm making spaghetti so that should be an easy one.

I talked with my best friend W last night and they're doing really well. Her oldest is doing great in his classes and I'm so happy to hear he's making progress. Her youngest is showing a tendency towards autism so they're going to start him in a class in January to help him with the language skills. I pray he isn't autistic and that her oldest has it only mildly, that's a lot of responsibility for W and she's a strong woman for handling it.

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I accomplished cleaning the house and getting the Christmas packages for people ready, what a nice feeling. B did ok last night, he went to bed without a fuss then woke at midnight and every 2 hours after that. He just wanted a pacifier and to be soothed so it was fast getting him calmed but I don’t feel like I got a whole lot of sleep. He was pretty happy this morning and ate a little bit of cereal; I think I may just do straight veggies again because he took those down without a problem last night.

It’s so nice not having the college students around, parking was great and traffic was pretty minimal. I’m sure it also has to do with it being the week before Christmas but either way I love it. My boss is taking all of us to lunch today but I have a meeting up to when we’re leaving so I’m sure I’ll be a little late. I hope the meeting goes well and isn’t too big of a PITA, you never know with this group of people, they’re fighting charges that were caused by their mistakes and incompetence, I’ll keep my comments to myself on this one.

Well I have a ton to do today so I better get going; I just love Monday’s after missing a day!

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My boss’s retirement party is this afternoon and I have to work 45 min of cutting cake and pouring punch, yippee! I’m also going to help with clean up so my afternoon is going to be shot.

I think the transmission is going to go out again on my car and I’m not happy about it. In May we put a new transmission in the car ($2,500) and about 3 months later it was slipping and froze up on us, turns out the people who installed the transmission didn’t hook a hose up and that’s what caused the problem. Lately the shifting has been rougher than usual and this morning when I accelerated on the interstate it jerked and was not a good feeling at all. I’m nervous because we have road trips planned the next 2 weekends and our other car has over 200,000 miles on it, pretty sad when that’s the reliable car. If it goes out I hope it does it before Friday and if it doesn’t I’m going to worry the whole way to my parents house. We need to go car shopping, we can afford it so I’m not sure why we keep putting it off, I won’t know what it’s like to drive a car with less than 100,000 miles. We have a 3 year warranty on the transmission but if we break down away from here I’m not sure how that works. I would assume they’re still responsible especially when their negligence has caused problems already and I know it damaged the transmission big time. I guess if nothing else we’d be taking a trip to small claims court to be reimbursed for whatever out of pocket loss we have. If we take the cavalier we won’t have nearly the room and we won’t be able to bring B’s presents from my parents back, this just sucks.

B didn’t sleep too well last night, he was quiet from 8:00 until 11:00 and the same thing happened last night that happened the night before. DH was still up but instead of taking the monitor down stairs with him to listen for B he leaves me with the monitors and when I get up to calm B he comes up stairs to “help”. Heaven forbid he take the monitor and let me get 3-4 hours straight of sleep, he’s up anyways. Last night I grabbed the monitor in the kitchen and shoved it at him then went to take care of B, I hope he got the hint but these men are a little dense at times. B woke around every 2 hours wanting his pacifier after the 11:00 waking so I didn’t get as much sleep as I would have liked, oh well. He hasn’t been eating very well and I’m worried he’s gotten use to snacking with being sick last week. It’s a chore to get 4 oz down and if I get 6 it’s a miracle. I’m not sure if it’s because he’s still fighting the infection or if he’s formed a bad habit, he at least still keeps the 4 hours between feedings so maybe he still just doesn’t feel good enough to eat normal. It’s always a guessing game with these little ones.

Well I need to prepare for a meeting tomorrow morning since I probably won’t get to it any other time today.

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The retirement party was nice, she had a really good turn out and after 28 years here I would have been disappointed with the community if they hadn’t shown up like they did. I can’t believe she’s going to be gone in a week, I am going to miss her she’s got a great heart and is a straight shooter, that’s what I liked about her at first because my last boss was a sneaky behind the back kind of person and I can’t tolerate that. I hope she really enjoys retirement and can relax for once.

The transmission didn’t give me as big of a fit today so I’m hoping it will hold out for our trip to Fsyth, if not we at least have family every hour down the road. My biggest concern is having a little one so I think I’ll pack some warm blankets just in case. The parking lot was wonderfully empty this morning, I got a spot in the front row and that never happens.

B slept pretty good last night, before DH came to bed I guess he fussed a little but was still sleeping and then he woke at 3:00 wanting a pacifier, so I got quite a bit of sleep and feel refreshed today. B did wake up at 5:00, right with my alarm, and he talked for about 30 min in his crib then I put him in the bouncer while I finished getting ready. He also ate 6.5 oz, yeah!, but I didn’t try cereal with him because DH had to leave with me so he could do some on-site at 7:30. He chowed his cereal and vegetables last night I just wish I could get everything back on track with him eating cereal in the middle of each bottle. Hopefully this 4 day weekend will help me help him. He likes sweet potatoes, carrots, and yellow squash so my next will be peas then beans. I hope he likes the greens, I may start them tonight if we have time.

The day care’s Christmas play is tonight at 5:00 and I’m excited to see B dressed as an angel. I’m leaving work a half hour early so I can get home, get the camera, and be there in plenty of time. Santa will be there afterwards and he’s passing out presents to the kids and there will be treats for everyone. It’ll be nice to meet some of the other parents because I rarely see the other baby’s parents.

My stomach has been aching off and on for the last 3 days and if it gets as bad as it was last night I may only put in half a day. I hope it’s tolerable because I’ve taken too much leave lately with B being sick last week and I’d like to build it up not use it all, oh well it’s that time of year to be sick.

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Yesterday went really slow, not sure why but I’m hoping today goes a lot faster. I stayed the whole day even though my stomach was killing me the last 2 hours, it didn’t top until I fell asleep and no longer felt the pain, this bug is no fun! B’s Christmas play was really cute and he was so sweet in his angel costume, the wings were almost bigger than he was. We stayed for him to see Santa and get a gift plus they gave us an ornament B helped make (he didn’t even try to eat the glitter has he finger painted the star) and they gave us a wall decoration with his picture in it, so precious. He did good last night, he slept straight through until 3:00 and I gave him his pacifier (I really need to break him from this and he was doing good until he got his ear infection) then he was wide awake at 5:00 and started screaming bloody murder because I didn’t want to take him out of his crib yet. He sounded so hysterical and when I went in there wasn’t one tear, I think I’m being manipulated. So I stuck him in the bouncer while I showered and got ready and he held out until 6:00 pretty easily. He’s started arching his back and hitting the bottle when I feed him and it’s getting really annoying. I had to hold his arm down and put my leg over his to keep him from constantly moving. I may just have to start taking the bottle away when he does this because I will not tolerate this behavior and I’m not sure how else to teach a 5.5 month old that this needs to stop. He did eat better this morning, he had 6 oz without too much of a fight and he ate almost all of his 2 T cereal with sweet potatoes. Once this jar of sweet potatoes is gone I’m going to try some peas so I may even try it tonight. I’m not sure why I’m so excited to try green vegetables with him but I am!

I got a load of whites done last night so tonight I’m going do a load of darks then a load of B’s clothes. I also need to get things organized for the trip and packed so tomorrow I will have minimal work to do to get ready. I talked with my mom last night and my brother and the kids aren’t coming up until Sunday then my SIL will be up on Monday. I’m actually happy about this because it means we will have one on one time with my parents and we haven’t had that for some time now. DH and I are going to see Night at the Museum on Saturday night while my parents watch B, it will be nice for us to have alone time and my parents will enjoy alone time with B even though he’ll probably be sleeping.

DH had his stitches removed this morning and he had an allergic reaction to the triple antibiotic ointment he was putting on the “wounds” so she gave him a prescription and some samples. That’s why he was itchier than usual, poor guy’s been suffering and we could have prevented it the whole time. We got Lady in the Water so we’re going to try to watch it tonight; I’m really excited since I love his movies. We were going watch it last night but I was tired and didn’t feel good so tonight should work. I’ll just have to be motivated right when I get home to get things ready to go.

I’m doing a kitchen towel exchange, it’s kind of like a chain letter so you send it to 6 people and move the person who sent it to you to the top of the list and put your name next (at the bottom since there’s only the 2 names on the list). I sent out my towel yesterday and I’m sending out my 6 letters today, it would be fun to get some new towels but you never know if people will follow through with this stuff or not, we’ll see.

Well I suppose I should do something productive today so I’ll tackle some of these piles, I can’t wait to get out of here tomorrow. Yippee for Christmas!

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