Okay so I need somewhere to put all my thoughts out there and I figured this is a good place. So it has been 3wks since we split up and its driving me nuts. We agreed nothing would change. Except we would live in different places and get some marriage counciling. We would still do family things and he would still be there for me and the kids. Well he hasnt done anything we agreed on. He doesnt call or come see us. He has taken the kids once. But I dont think thats enougH. I can count on 1 hand how many times he has just stopped to see them. And tonight was the last straw I wanted him here for Easter. He was supposed to spend the night to be here in the morning maybe that is asking a lot but its just something I wanted. Well I called him today before the birthday party and he asked him if he was still coming over he said he believes so then goes on to whine about how he didnt get to go out lastnight cause he fell asleep and he kinda wants to go out tonight. I say whatever do as you please you dont have any responbilites anymore. He tells me to call him when I get back in town so that he can come in and be with us. Well I called him at 5pm when I got home and of course he was out with his friends. His parents even asked who I was :roll: . I have been in their family for 5 yrs and they need to know who I am like he has so many girls calling for him. So its now 10pm and I havent heard a thing from him. I am dieing inside I dont know what to do I love him so much but we needed this break up so he would know he cant control me anymore and that he needs to grow up and be a husband and a father. And I think I just pushed him futher from us. I asked him a couple of days ago if he is seeing anyone and he told me no but Im not so sure I believe him. The boys are starting to call most males they see daddy and I am constantly correcting them. I just dont know what to do anymore. I think my depression is coming back and hopefully at my counciling appointment on Tues they can start me on something. His mom pulled me aside the other day and asked me what was going on with us and if I wanted him back. I told her he hasnt changed he still trys to control me and only cares about himself and we need councling. She said she hopes we get back together soon cause she can tell this is killing him. I dont think it is or he would call more or come see us. I finally had a good cry tonight too. I havent cried since we split up but tonight i let it all out he really hurt me tonight and I dont know if I can forgive this one. If he wants the single life and his stupid friends and bars he can have them cause Im not waiting for him to grow up anymore. I guess me and the boys dont mean as much to him as he keeps saying we do if he couldnt even give them up 1 night to come be with us. But this is getting long and Im crying again so Im gonna go.