I've put off starting a journal on this site for some time. First of all, if you want to "journal," why not just get a notebook and do it instead of doing it on a public forum? Seems kind of "look at me." But, the thing is, I really felt a little stupid writing things in a notebook or even in Word on my computer. This way, I feel like I'm talking to someone. Maybe someone will acutally read it, maybe not. The point is, when I'm feeling really unacceptable (i.e., whiney, really angry, insecure, etc.) I don't want to talk to friends or family - too risky. And I've been feeling unacceptable more often than not lately. So, this way, I'm kind of talking to myself, trying to work things out in my head - but if anyone should choose to read/comment on something I've posted, it's still safe since I don't know you and you don't know me.
Like the subject says, I'm getting to be of a "certain age." I'm a wife and SAHM (2 boys - 4 & 9). I am the oldest mom in either of my boys' groups. I have lost over 100 pounds - the problem is, it's the same 5 lbs over and over and over . . . . Right now, the best way to describe me is an unhappy, overweight matron, with a touch of bitterness thrown in for good measure. As you can see, today I am feeling really unacceptable.
I guess the purpose of all this is to help me like myself again. I'm not quite sure when I stopped. :violin: