WOW! headaches are GONE!!! did plenty of stretching yesterday and Mark rubbed my neck and back...tension from bad position at the sewing machine!
got plenty to talk about, just not at all sure if I should actually write it down...ACK, I feel like a total idiot
OMG, I just tried a recipe for Chicken Scampi per Olive Garden style and guess what, IT TASTED LIKE OLIVE GARDEN! OMG it was soooooooooo good....Mark and I both ate way too much...down to the breadsticks (but not the salad)...went to the farmers Market this am and got fresh sweet bell peppers and think that made all the difference.... :shock: I gotta say I have no idea HOW I did it, but it was GOOD!
nothing else really new...still being stalked by some of my yahoo theif's buddies....tried sic'ing my ex bf on them (they would be right up his alley)...not sure what he will do, but hey, may as well at least put his ...um...talents to work...still not sure why I am talking to him...to be honest I feel so very sorry for him...I have everything he never will...great spouse, wonderful child, good extended family...and STUFF...and it looks like we will last the rest of our lives too....ex is in this silly no kidding club...no surprise...just wonder sometimes what I saw in him in the first place...guess I am still hoping he will say something like how he was wrong the way he treated me but last I checked hell hasn't frozen over :roll: and it shouldn't matter to me anyway...
sides, I am fat and happy now...*sigh* guess he is one of my unfinished projects that I wish I could finish....nonono :nono: not in a relationship...I just notice sometimes how lonely he is....he was a "fixer upper" type relationship and on occasion it really bugs me when the bigger projects aren't finished...he COULD have made someone ELSE a good mate...personally I would kill him....damn he could make me so angry....I imagine it won't take him long and he will good and piss me off again and I will ignore him for another couple years.....it gets longer every time....he was a really good friend at one point...we NEVER should have gone any farther...
hindsight is almost always 20/20...too bad I didn't have foresight
oh yeah, I DO have more news! Brian has a thing with Daddy's and Momm'y's crest powered toothbrushes...was brushing his teeth and he was opening wide...MORE TEETH! and, ARG, looks like his canine's are coming in...no WONDER he has been in a nasty mood! he has four on top AND bottom now, 4 premolars and looks like more on the way....I knew he was either teething or growing...he isn't sleeping well either...FUN...NOT
on the other hand, he is growing up so very fast.....got him a new book by Sandra Boynton...I LOVE LOVE LOVE her books! got him "Horns to Toes, and in between" and "Moo Baa LaLaLa"...he makes quite a palethera of barn sounds too...he also got a barn mega block set (he will occasionally yeehaw too! :ROFL: ) and he got some new mega building equip toys...that boy is spoiled, and we know it!
isn't that what you do with first children?? anyway, for the most part he is getting so much fun to play with...tonight the three of us were playing in the kitchen...I grabbed his "prefered" binky and stuck it in my mouth and he TOTALLY abandoned Daddy (HEY!) and RAN to me! :lol: I swooped him up and plucked the back up out of his mouth as he assaulted me to get the one he wanted...I put it in my mouth, Dad took it with his mouth, Brian squeeled and dropped the "prefered" binky and started to laugh as Daddy (no hands) passed it to Brian...we did that for a few rounds (all three of us giggling like ...well...small children!) then we did some dip to Dad and after a bit he wanted down.....
he is now comfortably jamjam'd and playing with his barn set and new tactrrr, also tac or ta for short :doh:
oh my, isn't being a Mommy the BEST thing in the world....Mommy to a wonderful and smart boy, wife to my best friend...it just doesn't get that much better than this!
oh yeah....sometimes I still surprise and delight Mark just doing the simplest things....I love that man...he asked me if I wanted to shower with him and I jumped up and said "OH YEAH"...no, not :sex:, just a good shower, back scrub, touchy feely kind of thing
sex wouldn't have been refused, but it didn't end up there...we cuddled up in bed and talked for a lil afterwards
he was overly pleased when I jumped up like that...sadly he never had that in his first marriage that lasted 20 yrs...how can you marry someone you AREN'T ever that interested in??? I am glad I can surprise him like that (and it tickled him to pieces), but in a way that is sad.....makes me feel pretty darn good too...I have a great dh, and altho I still want to kill him now and then, I know that is just life...I wouldn't trade him for ANYTHING
yeah, I know he is a good man, yeah I do love him, but that doesn't mean I don't want to visit some violence on him when he is being STUPID :angry4:
I mean, what kind of man CONTINUES to be an *** and provoke a wanna be pregnant woman who is pms-ing and mourning the arrival of af? :banghead: and to boot, I FEEL NASTY! did some plumbing Fri and hurt from that, and haven't felt that good all week...of course, neither is he but hey MORON, that is why I told you to call the dr TWO WEEKS AGO :doh: his tendonitis is still acting up and there are things the dr can do
oh yeah, he SAID he is going to call the dr tomorrow from work
and he explodes this am about bills coming in and how he has been having to pay them...to which I responded no you haven't, I HAVE...he said no YOU haven't been, I have! so I SHOULD have asked if he had paid the bill, why was the last check in my handwriting and with MY signature? hmmmm? and why are there several OTHER bills in my handwritting in the checkbook and NOT his??? :shootself: :dry: :paddle:
I HATE it when he does this...yeah, there seems to be a major outpouring of $$ because of the HOUSE not ME...I might just shoot him...altho I am sure the state of ID would rather I not do it here, I am sure it would make me feel better :pissed:
AHA...a new saying for my siggy
don't shoot over the bow of an fully armed battleship (that would be me) w/o expecting return fire
I don't get even, I never did, why stop there?
ah yes, the joys if the desending into depression...the mood swings, the lack of sleep, the dreaming
ya gotta love it, right?
wel, quite a week...OMG it was PACKED! we went to MT to see Mark's brother Phil and decided to leave a day early...it was nice to meet and greet (I hadn't before), see and be seen...all 4 of them were there too and we had a pretty good time...the first night we stayed in a...um...nasty icky smelly all but downright scary no-tell motel...we ALMOST had another arguement, but I decided to take the "high road" and just let him pay for his mistake
and he did...we couldn't sleep much on the bed...being most likely from the turn of the centurn and rock hard neither of us did...we changed motels the next night and got one of THE best matresses (in a motel) that we have slept on so far
and it was clean, closer to the folks, not scary, and in general pretty darn nice!ah the adventure of it all
and Fri am we are going to head out and Mark announces we should just go home...as in home in WA instead of ID...that way I don't have to drive both ways alone with Brian......aaawwwwwww....the drive went well, Brian was a really good sport and it was a generally nice drive...nice and HOT HOT HOT in WA too and I gotta say, I don't mind the heat at all...he stayed the til Sun am and had to be back to work Mon so he went back...I stayed at home (he took his lil sports car, I had the truck :nono: on the other way around! I LOVE MY TRUCK!)
things got pretty insane from the moment we got there...Sat we got a some things done around the house...my housesitter, as usual, had done WAY too much (we called her on the way there)...house was clean, and she had been weeding things all over....she even went after the lilac bed, something we RARELY mess with...and a few more around the flower bed in front and side of the garage...left the morning glories but hey, she didn't know we didn't want em! so Mark left and I had a lunch apt with Brian's "girlfriend" (babysitter from hockey) and we had a really good time...I ran a few errands and back to home to play with the boy and wait for a good nap to go pull yet more weeds etc etc....had talked to my Uncle etc and decided to start trying to put up the play groudn set thing we have...BIG BIG mistake, but at least part of it is up...he and one of my cousins did lots more weeding and recleared the rose bed Liz had done a month earlier....I had also hired a friend of mine's nephew (who stays with her) to come help me and man that kid works more than most men! what a great kid, I can't say enough about him...and at 15 no less :shock:
anyway, he and I were digging and setting the posts and getting things mapped out (we mapped wrong but ok, fine, it didn't really matter at all)
so nwo we have this towering thing with NO attachments, I am slightly burnt...oh yeah, adn we put more fabric and bakr down and if he can get a ride out back to our place I will put him back to work even w/o us being there...that would be a great surprise for Mark...he would be so thrilled
and I really missed Mark...so did Brian, but overall we were pretty busy...he missed us too and it was actually sorta nice to get back...okokok, the 9 or so hr drive with Brian got a LITTLE trying every now and then but I made good time...actually very good time...I am a little burnt, but overall I really enjoy being home....I hated coming back to ID but since Mark was here it was a LITTLE easier to do....I very much wanted to be with him, I just much prefer to be WITH him in WA...
so, when I have more time, maybe I will post more...Brian is picking up words pretty quick now...his most new one is teeto...anyone want to guess what he snacked on on our way here :lol:
too cute....but, he didn't sleep well again last night....*sigh* he did the entire in WA...I know, we should just GO HOME! *SIGH* and he is now up and ready to get out of his crib...better go "rescue" him before it becomes a tragedy!
oh my...we are going to have quite a dinner today....bbq hamburgers, with corn on the cob, bacon, guacamole, onions and shrooms, and a fruit thing I picked up today! smells FANTASTIC!
got quite a hug and plenty of attention from Mark when he saw what all was on the menu....man I am going nuts smelling it!
had a really good couple of days...last night Brian slept thru the night last night (at last!) and Mark let me sleep in this morning, AND I WAS ABLE TOO!! :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo: :woohoo:
I feel pretty darn good too...I have some EXTREMELY bad wanderlust and want to go SOMEWHERE, but for now, dinner it is! oh man I can smell it downstairs...I hope it is done SOON!
oh my...something I wanted in here...yesterday am I half reclining on the sofa (is a SM sofa, I am too tall to do too much more!) and Brian walks over and tries to climb up...so I "assist" and he gives me repeated kisses (darn near broke my nose, but OMG it was so cute!!) and then snuggles into my neck for a "hug" and starts to rub my back! talk about melt...we snuggled on the couch for a good 30 seconds or so before he was off and running, but he is turning into such a snuggle bug...he also will give eskimo kisses (my teaching) and esp when he is tired he will let you really cuddle up with him....more with Mark than me, :shrug: but he IS a Daddy's boy
and the words are coming so fast now...we have a real defined doggie, Daddy, Mama and baby that come out right, and Beebee (binky) that is evolving pretty quick, beeas (please), a thank you that ever changes but the you is there...says woof, baa, moo, bock bock, lie (light) mumum (num nums), kakr (cracker), teeto (Cheeto) said milk a few times instead of signing it, tootoo (computer), nana (nono), door. truck, car, BIG truck, bye bye, airplane, a version of cookie, helicopter, ball, tickle, bed, HI!...and they are coming faster and faster.....he is on the verge of COMMUNICATING! he is getting so much fun...he loves to play WITH us now too, not just assault whoever is near...he also is starting to love on Katie (dog) altho more often than not she DOES get assaulted!
and for the most part he goes down to sleep with minimal complaint....he is also going back to being my sweet boy, altho into quite a bit more now, he is throwing less tantrums (how long THIS will last I don't know)...he loves to "fly" thru the house (just call him a swept wing jet) making a "shshshshsh" sound followed by his normal shrieking, or he can do the Daddy thing (also shrieking, deafening dear ol Dad in one ear!)
and even tho I am not sleeping so well, life is still pretty grand...gotta say it is pretty fantastic watching him grow up...
got this in the mail from dh today RIGHT BEFORE he left for home:
Got semi-official notice that there may not be much more for me to do here.... unless they want to move me on to other stuff........ the manager I work for will be asking Lisa if there is anything for me to move on to.... think they will be keeping Ercle and excessing me..... so our next trip to Washington may be with trailer full of extra stuff going home ! !
I SHOULD be excited, but all I can think is NONONO :nono: :nono: :nono: :nono: :nono:
the amount of work I would need to do between here and there is astounding and we HAVE to give notice on the house! :shock: I AM NOT PREPARED FOR THIS! (altho, I really DO want to go home!)
and I really don't believe it will happen...is just way too good/bad luck...hmm...time to go crazy :crazy: