well, I did it...OMG...be right back, I already forgot the stupid pill...SHEESH
oh goody goody...another pill to take...I am now on Zoloft...it is supposed be ok to do with the breastfeeding, but alas that too is going to come to an end soon...on a better note, Weds night the phone rings and it was Cynthia (my midwife)....Mark had dropped off the pump for me, canceled my apt in Aug for an exam and shot and picked up my preg belly cast...Jen her assist knew sh*t had hit the fan and had a lil chat with her...she called and appologised and we managed to get things straightened out...it certainly didn't help that I am hormonal, but I felt like I was being swept under a rug (my problems) or just patted on the head (so don't do that, I find that sooooooooooo offensive..downright rude and infuriating)
did I mention the hormonal part? so anyway, I went over what I had found out, what had been going on and the fact that mentally and emotionally I was crashing very hard very fast. we discussed many things from a different pill vs the shot to some testing to zoloft...I almost requested the testing, but since this has happened before and I have a history of being....an....emotional roller coaster....I agreed to the zoloft
dam but that makes me feel like a failure...I can't control it...isn't like it doesn't run in the family....depression and hormones...I just feel like I should be able to get a handle on it...so on zoloft I went...no clue for how long and I am hoping and praying it isn't for long...just what I need, another expense...ug
so I decided that maybe a big part of my problems were just my being hormonal....I found out a pump I could rent (holy schmidt, it is 55+ a month!! OUCH) AND it was the last one avail at the ONLY place that had any left...wowza...so after a mad dash to make it before they close I have a pump....is definately well used...it sounds funky but it works...I have a few of my fenugreek left, will be out of them in a week or two...and after that it just isn't worth that much to me...Brian nurses on a very rare basis and about a third of that time he chews on me or fights me...I am still fighting just to maintain what lil I have now, but I give up...enough is enough and we do NOT have the extra $ for the lactina...I will see what I can do with the double ease I have and if that isn't good enough then it just isn't enough...
on a different note tho...I have no idea if I am just on an upswing or I am getting psycho placebo effect but today I had a not too awful day...I also got up early but slept pretty good...am still a bit tired and we were going to clean house, but I am in no mood to clean a thing and couldn't get myself motivated...I cleaned at the kitchen, but never finished it...I did wash a load after Brian yaked on it (hmm...unusual) and he was fussy today so I did actually spend plenty of time with him...and altho he was fussy at times, he was pretty happy when he wasn't and we played quite a bit with him....man that boy sure is beautiful....it does make a difference to spend time with him....
oh yeah, and not only did i get to kill plenty of bad guys on the puter, the gopher war is going very well...hopefully we got the lil terd before he ate the arborvitae....but I did finally get him with the new trap we got...spent a whopping $8 on the trap but we got him before he wiped out 30-50 worth of bushes
AND we have been walking a bit...taking a trip down to the river and walking 1-2 miles...been great to get out, altho we didn't walk today...still, is good for me and Mark and Brian loves the ride...
so anyway, it is getting late and I still need to pump and shower...and check on Brian one more time...*sigh*
wow...been awhile since I have made a journal entry...but then that doesn't surprise me all that much...
well, not tons new stuff...just the everyday stuff...both my boys are asleep...the big one in our room the lil one in his crib...my lil grumpasaurus...once again there is a bump in his mouth...am so not holding my breath that it is a tooth coming in...and Mark was saying it feels like it is going away again...harumph...I am not nursing anymore :cry: but still, this fake tooth thing is driving me nuts! ah yes, as for the nursing thing...we had a huge fight...I had Brian nursing in the am (the only time he would) and Mark and I discussed what to do next to keep it going...needless to say that was pointless as it only took Mark a week or less to screw that up and VOILA! no more nursing...I had to get to the point where I had to figure it wasn't worth being mad anymore and also decided that things will be written down in the future :roll:
so I give up the lactating thing...I started pumping for less time and didn't pump in the am...and then Sun night was the last time to pump...haven't since and I am totally amazed...I am a lil full/sore, but only when I pick up Brian and he does a major squirm...my lil wiggle worm :shock: but even then it isn't bad and so far no leaking that I have noticed...if it does get bad I have my double ease...the lactina is going back soon...oh man is sooooooo nice not having to do that anymore!
and on a different note, on occasion I actually remember to take my zoloft...I forget it way more than I remember it too...I hate taking pills but I can really tell a difference when I don't take it...peachy
another thing, a good one...is the drastic decline in plants needing planting around here! things are looking pretty darn good, altho I am still fighting the grass in the back flower beds....Mark and I are both so pleased...been taking Brian out to "supervise" too and he so loves being outside...he sure is his Mama's boy! Mark is also discovering a love for gardening and it seems he too has a green thumb...
and Brian...oh my...my lil weed is growing up way way too fast...his coordination is coming together...he has what Mark is calling his motorcycle reflex (imagine reving one up) and this pretty constant arm flap...just like his Mama did at that age too...he is starting to smile lots too and laugh...what a killer...he is such a flirt...I look at him and I see so much of his Papa...his ears, his chin, his mouth and cheeks...his lil feet...but those eyes...they have stopped changing color, and the eyes I look into I also put mascara on in the morning...he has my eyes...the lil crease he has on the bridge of his nose if from MY Dad, and the red hair is MY Mom's...I look at my son and wonder at the generations that have gone before...that much is so great...every once in awhile I even see my grandfather (maternal) in his "sewious wook"...
and he definately needs another hair cut...he has this mohawk thing going...I keep threatening to buzz him with Papa's beard trimmer but Papa has said absolutely NOT...Papa has shaved his beard off for an interview a few days ago...that was quite a shocker...I liked that beard...and until we hear he has the job it is growing back in (I think...ok, I hope!)...he can't have it if he does get the job, but we will see
so, enough for the journal (more or less)...Mom and Dad are coming over for dinner...a last chance to see Brian for 3 weeks as they are headed to AK to see my sister and family...Mom says he will just about be in college by the time they get back he is growing so fast...so anyway, I have a lil cleaning to do and some preparations...oh man, steak, spud, corn on the cob, fresh peaches.......mmmmmm...we went to the farmers market this am...and with that I will go eat my lunch....
I hadn't realized it has been almost 2 weeks since last post! hehehe, was thinking it was more like 3 or 4! anyway....I reread the last post...that was on the 9th and by a week later I was pretty much dried up...I can squeeze out a drop or two if I work at it but not much more....guess it was just meant to be...so yesterday we take Brian in for his check up and all went well...Dr said he is in the moose class (as in big as a...) which doesn't surprise anyone that has to carry him for more than a few mins
and then after the visit, the exam and the shots, they give you this hand out thingie saying breastfeeding is still best at this age...no sh!t sherlock, just when I thought I made myself forget about it...whamo, I get nailed again...peachy...must be having some hormonal week...it started Sun at church...our new pastor was dedicated...was pretty cool, I liked the service very much...so at the end after we did the dedication we had a time of prayer...there was an elderly woman with her daughter helping her out and suddenly I am in the presence of my Mom and G-ma...OMG but it was so overwhelming...I was trying so hard to concentrate on what was being said but I couldn't so I left before I started crying...have I ever mentioned how much I hate crying in public? I feel so much sympathy when I see others, why should it bother me so much? they were directly in front of me and we all either joined hands or put our hand on the person in front of us...cool...rayon...the smell of a lil too much perfume...the silver white hair...I was transported back a yr...it was so vivid and unexpected...I was totally unprepared...I thought this was supposed to get better???
so we got home and Mark comforted me as best as he could...I was trying to get busy doing SOMETHING to take my mind off of it...was this time a yr ago Mom made the difficult decision to find G-ma an assist living apt...she was so overwhelmed...she felt so guilty in having to do so but it was also something she should have done for HER health far sooner than we did...I remember trying to make it something G-ma would enjoy...decorating her room, getting her lil things...helping her out...she was so angry...no matter what we did...we were "putting her in a home" and no matter how nice it was she didn't want to go...in all honesty we found out later a nursing home may have been more appropriate, but that wasn't something either of us could have handled...and she so loved and was loved by the staff there...they were so patient with her...
and it wasn't much later than this that Mom went to AK for the birth of my nephew Seth (which was a day earlier than they made it up, but...so?)...I remember that is when all hell broke loose...and was about not that I had my ultrasound and discovered my lil girl had a penis (strange, they aren't supposed to have those, right?) so I was having a boy...G-ma had guessed already and got it on the nose....she was always good at that...sometimes I am too (esp if it isn't me!)...does that make me psycho...oops, psychic? :lol:
and Mom and Dad are back in AK...I am trying not too go back more than I need too...or if I do I try to make myself remember the better times...not that I am successful but still...I don't understand this sudden overwhelming...need to touch hold hug G-ma...I talk to her all the time...tell her all about Brian having G-pa's beautiful red hair...she would so have loved that...I tell her I wish she could have seen him and hope she can...so I try to distract myself...sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't
so, for distraction (on a different note) I have been getting things done for Mom...man I notice it is Mom this and Mom that...it isn't like Dad isn't there, is more like I am not that close to him, but am very close to MOM (MomMomMomMomMomMomMomMom)...so anyway, one of the things I like to do when she is away is get something done to surprise...so I call a good friend of hers and mine (Cory, I grew up with her) and we get one of the walls painted in the livingroom and the fireplace scrubbed down...do you have ANY idea how difficult it is to scrub down a broken face brick fireplace that hasn't been cleaned in almost 25 yrs? :shock: but we got it mostly done...we decided to paint the utility room as well since another surprise she has is from Dad...a new Neptune set of washer and dryer....she has been lusting after mine for awhile...and one of the things I told her I would do is work on replacing the gaskets on the irrigation line...she was leaking more than she was squirting I think...NOT good...so I went out yesterday and got things put back into place with the gaskets I got...figured it would take me an hr to an hr.5 at most...WRONG...no block...STUPID...very very STUPID...I look like a lobster...OWIE...yeah, that will definately take your mind off just about anything...and sore...I haven't horsed around with pipes in ages either...BUT...the leaking has more than diminished by 75% and is so easy to prime....AND I was able to add another stick of pipe...AND as soon as I replace the rest (I ran out of new gaskets on the big pipe) I can add yet another AND still have a sprink to water the lawn...Mom was totally thrilled...I told her at the very very least she owed me AT LEAST one Olive Garden dinner/lunch...I have since amended it to Mark and I....after all he watched Brian for me...and altho it hurts today, it felt soooooooooooooooooooooooooo good to get outside and get wet/filthy...the sun felt good to be in for a bit anyway...even if it was HOT HOT HOT out there...so, tomorrow we go finish the fireplace...I am going to mow the lawn, replace the rest of the gaskets and Cory and I are going to see how far we can get on the laundry room painting...Thurs we go play on the water! oh man but even tho I hurt I miss the physical-ness of work....it sure felt good...wish I had put block on :oops: oh well
so, I sit here contemplating my next move...Mark and I have plans to do a lil painting...so I am back to Walmart to get the pics and paint for the bathrooms, Pasco for gaskets...oh yeah, and before I go I am going to polish off the last of the sweet and sour stir fry.....OMG that was so yummy...still is...is calling me now so off I go
oh yeah, and JD, if you read my journal, CONGRATULATIONS again...I am so very very happy things have worked out...can you send some of those good vibes my way? Mark still has no job....UG
I never ever thought I would say this.....I miss being single...and the sad part is I remember how much I hated being single...the last....MONTH has been nothing but a big fight....one after another....I don't feel like a wife, I feel like a sparing partner...a punching bag....and on top of it I am stressing out about $ and where it is going to be coming from....THIS I remember from being single...I remember crying because I was sooooooo alone....I remember thinking I would give anything to have a "normal" relationship...or a husband...so I found me one...and I broke my #1 rule...if in doubt don't....I really haven't regreted being married until now....now I have saddled my husband with a child and a needy wife and an incompetant wife at that....I can't do anything right, just ask him...I dream really weird or nasty dreams so I always am tired...I have no fuse to speak of....no, I am not totally in the wrong, but not in the right either....I can't take zoloft cuz it makes the sleep situation much worse...the dreams actually get MORE vivid...how the hell did they manage THAT one?
so I figured I would take a good long drive and show back up around sunrise so Mark could sleep....hey, least I can do, right? I never lost sight of the house...all I could think of is Brian....yup, good ol separation anxiety in full force...damn I can't even run from my problems anymore...so I head home...is ok, cuz I do actually have something that will quiet my demons...is up in the cupboard behind the oil, behind the olive oil even.....behind the Kahlua....is it the Rumple Mintz....damn I didn't remember that stuff being that nasty....at least I have minty fresh breath....one shot did it too....dont' think I can take another cuz it really made my tummy heave...yeah, that should do it....will wait another 20 mins or so maybe I will try again....but it will quiet my demon....what a light wt....one shot and I can already feel it....UNFORTUNATELY I still feel...maybe I won't wait that 20 mins...but I must admit that only after a few mins I am already feeling the effects....feels pretty darn good...I haven't felt like this in awhile....I should get out more...maybe Liz or Yvonne and I should go hit the bars....we can go shake our fat butts and scare off all the men....yeah, that should do it!
*sigh* even tho the demon isnt near as noisy as he was, he isn't all quiet...well, I am off to do some garage cleaning and maybe take another shot....a Dr Pepper sounds good too...oh cute, there goes the typing...lots of deleting....maybe one shot will do it.....
sheesh..3 in the morning and I just can't go back to sleep...THIS SUCKETH
here is hoping that tomorrow's problems can be overshadowed by a good hangover...maybe I should take my bottle of booze AND some water out to the garage...
guess I am not that much of a light wt....I can still feel....ug
wowza...amazing how productive a lil fighting can be! :shock: got the bathroom painted, have the ceiling and a lil trimming to do, but so far it looks pretty darn good...Mark sponged the master bath (yuck...we won't be doing that again, I don't like it!)....also got some more weeds pulled out of the yard, more seed down, and fought over where the sprinks go and when (not that HE has a degree in anything to do with agriculture or lawns or ornamentals or...)....what fun :x got a lil more of the garage cleaned out and some stuff taken to Goodwill...also got Brians room cleaned up AGAIN.... :evil: would it KILL him not to just throw all the clean clothes on the bed?
so next on my agenda is the ceiling in BOTH bathrooms, and then am going to start working on the laundry room....HE can clean the house...I don't want too...and I am not inclined too...you want to accuse me of cleaning NOTHING, be prepared for me to clean NOTHING!
well, a lil down the road and FINALLY a fight solved (awhile ago anyway)
ug...and yet still, nothing is normal...we think Mark has a job and suddenly I have my husband back...rather nice...still waiting to hear news but have probably at least a week to wait...and since then 3 or 4 calls for him...haven't turned anything down yet...still waiting...UG
and for the last couple of weeks I have not been feeling too good...headache and overall just not good...so I ignore it cuz I really don't want to think about it...to make a long story short, I have high blood pressure...all I have to do to make it better is eat less salt, drink less caffienne, and loose wt...BITE ME...don't you think I would have if it was that easy? sides, I like eating more than I like being skinny...I care but...I don't...so I am trying...taking some water pills (which btw aren't working) and trying to get excersise in...*sigh* like that is working...am also trying to eat less...so Mark is as well (he is in it with me which helps)...this DOES run in the family so it isn't any shock, just another DING...peachy
so anyway I am thinking tatoo...why not...been kicking it around for ages and Mark is amenable to it...got it all figured out too I think (if you are REALLY interested see my Jan 03 board)...really liking it and made me feel pretty darn good to know I can still manage a puter...looks pretty darn good even if I do say so myself...dam but I didn't think I would miss working this much...still not even close to going back, but we will see...
and Brian is doing pretty good...growing like a lil weed...he was quite an angel last night at a friend's b-day party even up very late...he was making up for it earlier....today...he has his moments...
and I still feel all run down...still having some strange dreams but at least they aren't bad ones anymore...still don't feel like I am getting much sleep and that is starting to worry me more and more
oh yeah, and how is this for a crock? I thought depo was the MOST expensive way to go for birth control...found out today NOPE...the patch is more! like 3x!!! OUCH!!! a shot is about 35-45 bucks, for 3 months
a patch for ONE month is 37 bucks! :shock: I about fell over!!! sheesh...guess we are going back on something different...I hate pills...like they say it isn't hard to remember it is just soooooooooo easy to forget!
well, gotta go...Mark Brian and Katie are sharing a seat and Mark needs to get something done..
wow...almost 2 weeks since I posted...UG...still no word on Mark's job, but I wanted to post this from my Jan board...interesting lil piece
*sigh* OH but I DO SO HATE it when life gets interesting...first off, I will start off with NO ONE WAS HURT...ok, probably some whiplash but so far not us....
so yesterday Mark made plans with Kenny (his first son) to take him to breakfast to take him to his eye apt (he has no car, in college etc etc)...
so there is this nasty intersection on 2 very very busy clogged roads...got double turn lanes even...we are waiting for the light to go green...it does...we are 3rd or 4th or so car back...second car stalls (kid probably was driving a stick and killed it) and comes to a complete and sudden stop...so did the truck in front of us, so did we, so did the jetta, so did the subaru
we weren't going that fast...light turns yellow...CUSSING occurs just as I heard it...that sickening
I looked in my mirror to see the Rodeo had hit the Subaru and then into the Jetta and
and she hit us...not hard at all...luckily cuz we had all just been stopped for the light
there was nothing she could do...I still see her face...it shouldn't bother me this much, but it is...she barely did anything to the truck...with the hitch and the higher bumper etc etc she wasn't going to be able too really...guess it is bothering me so much cuz all 3 of us were in the car...BRIAN included...on our way to get Kenny...I knew there was a reason I disliked Richland!
that damn kid shouldn't have been driving (the one in the front)...if you can't drive a stick OR if your vehicle ISN'T road worthy and you can't handle the car, you SHOULD NOT be driving...I got out got the lil Civic's lic # (not that he has ANY consequences) and chewed on him "YOU JUST CAUSED AN ACCIDENT YOU MORON?!?!?!"...he left...cop said he will call him about leaving the scene, but is all he can do...the 17 yr old in the Rodeo is considered at fault....looking into the sun with his 11 yr old sis in the car...
first day of school...the lil 11 yr old in the rodeo went to the hospital to be checked as a precautionary and was fine (we saw her and her folks on the way home a couple hrs later)...the 17 yr old driving the rodeo was really rattled and he and the woman in the subaru will def have whiplash, the gals in the jetta might too...we MIGHT, but I very much doubt it...
oh yeah, and is mostly some crunches but nothing that looked toooo bad other than the rodeo...radiator to fan to motor for fan thru radiator isn't good...was bleeding...Subaru back bumper was pushed into rear tire was the MOST damage...and get this...6 emergency vehicles...6!!! was 2 motorcycle cops (one just got off 3 weeks vacation), 2 ambulances (only one needed, the rest refused treatment), a fire truck (I have absolutely NO why they were there...precautionary? and the fire chief...we almost neede him to control traffic...when we pulled off to the park and ride we didn't give any room for the emergency vehicles ....SO, that was a total of 4 cars/suv's and 6 Emergency vehicles...
SO...that was my excitement for the week...I am so hoping and praying I don't top it any time soon...
on an up note...we got Kenny to his apt a lil early...of course not early enough to have breakfast first...but we did finally get breakfast at IHOP...was really really good...but at that point I was ready to gnaw off my leg anyway...went to the grocery store, took Kenny home and VOILA...all done...and I have absolutely NO intention of going anywhere in a car today...
so anyway...later in the day I am feeling very anxious, panic-y and just downright out of control...Mark is doing his best to make me feel better, but still... :shock: not a good thing! am supposed to get back into the explorer tomorrow and take my precious son to Mom's...think I will stick him in the Ranger...the thought of putting either of us into any vehicle is making my skin crawl...someone sure is walking all over my grave today :!:
and we haven't heard from Umatilla either...as I mentioned earlier...the guy that was supposed to sign off on the offer (cooperate) was on vacation last week which makes life that much more interesting...URG
and tomorow Mom is taking Brian for the day...no clue what we are going to do...maybe take a nap...but then we rarely sleep during nap time 8) got some bulbs to plant as well...so we can go get filthy in the dirt and then come inside...and...who knows...
and on ANOTHER note...what is it with the baby boom here?!?!?! I can so understand why my Mom didn't wait to have a second child...all of a sudden it is like....they are EVERYWHERE...and sooooo precious...makes me remember my lil mooseling at that stage...he is getting SO BIG and growing up SO fast...
I need some meds...I must be psychotic...okokok, dinner is not going to finish off itself...Mark just put the bread in and I gotta go set the table...made some WONDERFUL lasagna out of my home-made tomato sauce and OMG does it smell wonderful.....mmmmmmmm
oh yeah, please pray for JD...she is sooooooooooo close to getting a house....
another oh yeah...meds are working more or less for the high blood pressure...no clue if I am loosing wt...not going to look...and no tattoo yet...waiting for confirm on the job but found tons of pics! lots of ideas too
I am going nuts waiting for JD's housing answers.....OMG girl, I am so praying for you right now...what an answer to a very specific prayer...I need to excersise that more in MY OWN life!
not much new here...having the new Pastor and family to dinner so am a cleaning fool...having to wait for a job answer for Mark to next week at least....got an estimate for the truck and OMG it is $1200 to start...I had to sit down...I was sooooo extremely shocked...it was just the bumper! when they got it in tho they found a few other things...WOWZA...
oh yeah and Brian now purses his lips and then sticks his tongue out....oh man it is toooooooo funny...what a good day...ok, good couple of days...yesterday Mom took Brian for the afternoon and we did little to nothing...ok, we did SOMETHING and Mark has marks to prove it but still :P it was a very quiet laid back afternoon...then we went to Sea Galley for dinner...which was good, but not the fabulous it usually is, but still...I DIDN'T have to cook it! had great time with the folks, went looking at trucks after....we haven't had a day like that in ages!
okokokok...post JD post!!!
in a little over a week, I will celebrate my first b-day w/o my beloved Grandmother...the same G-ma whose birthday I shared...it just dawned on me this morning...I cried then, I cry now...my poor DH is going to have NO clue what is going on...it was one of those out of the blue things
she would have been 85...yeah yeah she is in a much better place, but today I am selfish...I want to go see her...I want to tease her, go out to lunch with her...oh God this was supposed to be getting easier and suddenly I am so raw...I can remember how cold her hands usually were...and that papery-thin skin and how it felt...and the smell of her almost always overdone perfume...and the hairspray...today it is just so vivid...as I figured much of the bad has fallen away...I remember her more before her health really took a turn for the worse...I am thinking I will cancel my b-day from here on out...I can just stay 32 forever (ok, that brought on a smirk, she would have laughed at that)
she was such a wonderful person...I miss her so much...I am glad she is no longer suffering, but still...I just want my Gramma...
wouldn't ya know it...I have a want to journal and the site goes down, MY FAULT, SORRY! :roll: urg...I missed preg.org...didn't realize just HOW addicted I was :? until Hera was shut down...OMG I missed everyone!
so, what is new...my lil man has 2 teeth...no problem...what IS the problem would be the mouthful remaining to come in...yuck...my poor lil man...he is also cruising and has a VERY fast crawl that is sooooooooo steady now...means less time on the puter for sure! on the other hand, it also means getting one of those "fences"...we need it, he has a love affair with everything he isn't supposed to be into, esp the outlets...worried he will find an uncovered one (ok, for now they are ALL uncovered, but we are working on that) or when we DO get the plugs in he can take them out...anything with a cord on it is also fair game :oops: and he is really taking exception to NO...in less than a week...more like 4 days...my lil baby went to being a toddler...WAAAAAA....I WANT MY BABY BACK!
he is so big too...and he can show you too...ask him how tall he is and he puts both hands over his head (if they are both free)...oh yeah, and we put in an reverse osmosis system in so we also got some extra plumbing parts...he loves those the most...we promptly took the RO OUT when it sprung a major leak in the faucet...another POS I DONT need...we will be returning it...another major headache...I am still plumber in the house...Mark screwed it up...then he got a tad upset and me, in my hormonal and depressed/angry state I blew sky high...got if fixed tho...and the drain no longer leaked...OMG he made a mess...guess who cleaned it up :evil:
so the anger/depressed state? brought on by some rather nasty news Sat early afternoon: no ID job...right afterwards Mark decides to put on the RO...stupid stunt might I add...he is ok with it...I am not handling it...
we also took the $$ out of his 401 to pay off the trucks and other misc
bills...and several months of the house payments...so we are minus 2 major bills, but on the other hand I have no clue what that will do to his unemployment...he was told it wouldn't do anything or it would null and void it...should be interesting...the higher-ups are saying it will be ok...we will see
and I still am having some problems finding a job myself...not that I am looking real hard, but still...am about to take a nasty fast food job...altho, still, we have plenty of $ in the bank...I am just stressing out...neither of us ever expected his unemployment to last near this long!
but, on a different hand, he did get wind of yet another job...one of the company's he has applied too as a contractor won a bid...they are waiting for something or another so maybe THIS one will pan out...not going to hold my breath
on a better note tho, some things are going well...hockey has started, and since Mark bought the season tickets (let's not go there either) on the promise of one of the first jobs that fell thru, GAME ON! they are playing well...Mom and I are doing things together as well...we are hoping to do some canning and sheeping tomorrow or this week anyway...she wants to take the lambs to market Sat...and we are making plans for Christmas gifts...going to use the baby jars I have from Brian...yeah yeah, I know, I should be making it myself but it doesn't cost too much...man I really sound like a spender, don't I? :!: lot of good that does me....am also finishing off the laundry room...got one corner all mudded, sanded and textured...oh yeah, and pulled off the wallpaper (that hadn't stuck well anyway)...got it shot today and hope to paint it tonight...got yet another mess to clean up, but hey, at least I can put my pantry shelves back up! I hate the clutter in there...I should break down and go kiss up to Dad to borrow his table saw...make some real cabinets...will have to see
and still no luck on the wt loss...well, am not sure anyway...nothing feels like it is getting that much looser...but then I got some new jeans for my b-day (finally found a pair that fit, 18 longs BLESS MOM!) AND they are stretchy...a first but man they sure fit nice :wink: would have been even better if they were 16's or if I really want to wish 13/14's...ah well... :roll: I can dream, right?
so, think that is long enough...covered most everything I wanted too...things aren't bad, but they sure aren't that good either...here is looking forward to a good hockey season and the holidays...and spending time with family!