DOWN BOOBS, DOWN!! GEEZ, THEY ARE GETTING HUGE! and my milk hasn't even come in...I am just about out of my nursing bra, and by golly I have had enough! OW...OWOWOWOW...is not good on my back either
and I did some of my stretching last night...am a tad sore this am, and my hips still hurts this am...more so than yesterday am, but am gonna keep it up...I did get some thigns done yesterday and that was a beautiful thing and felt GOOD...like 4 loads of laundry, cleaned most of the kitchen, straightened up some in our room and Brian's....and altho I feel pretty nasty today (yet another headache) it isn't as bad as it has been
altho Brian is certainly pushing it...lil bugger has had 3 time outs in his crib, had his hand spanked and his bottom...and it isn't even 11!! he has been soooo insistant on tormenting the cats today...and me...and he doesn't want to listen at all...CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!
had a great day with Mom today....she and I ran some errands, went to go get some juice for jelly and did you know Adventists are closed on Sat WE KNOW THAT! so we went to the "organic" section at Fred Meyer, got what we were looking for...then we all met Mark for lunch, which was pretty good! I had quesadillas, he had chile, Brian was mooching my stuff and G-ma's and Papa's (and even ate A LITTLE of his mac and cheese, which, btw, wasn't good ) went to Lowes to get some more stuff, and then home...Mark was busy too, went to the Yamaha place for supplies and Walmart, then got the water craft put to bed for the winter (finally) when he came home, Mom and I did a batch of jelly, I did one on my own....pomagranite and blueberry for Christmas...was pretty easy...will do more later, but I forgot more pectin, and will go check out the health food store TOMORROW when it is open
Brian is most likely about to cut more teeth as he was a butt today for all of us....oh my he was a grump! not too bad at lunch, but put away quite a bit of food, and was even allowed A LITTLE Doda bwees (Soda Please)...Sierra Mist stuff...man that boy is growing SO FAST...he is in a few 2's that are big, and some 3's that aren't so big...the boy ISN'T EVEN 2!!
and Mark has been so attentive lately...and talking to Alex...and I have ONE MONTH until my u/s!!
I CAN'T WAIT!
on a side note, haven't heard from JD in ages...I miss ya girl...you have been in my thoughts as we have been looking at some houses...nothing found, but it does remind me of the flowers and seeds way over there, and I hope you are doing well, and the lil buglets too....
also been cooking up a new scheme...more to follow later when I am given the ok too...am having fun with this..."new project" and the challenge it can provide...I could use a challenge about now...told Mark I really want a big project to tackle...that doesn't thrill him at all, but OH WELL...it isn't looking good for our move....not sure we could sell our current house, and the market out there is really starting to suck....I am not in any hurry, and wasn't really planning on getting serious til next spring, just watching things go by...we still have way too much to do here before we COULD sell it anyway.....ah well...we won't die here
ack, altho there WAS another mouse yesterday.....Tut was watching it (notice I DIDN'T say stalking it)...and I did this total recoil into a rather small ball on the couch and Mark was like WHAT? and I am trying to squeek out MOUSE! but it wouldn't come out...I pointed and he was gracious enough to kill it for me...ACK, since when did I get so girly? so missish? so....afraid of NOTHING? (Mark said it was cute, I am reserving the right to smack him later)...I am a country gal, I am the one that used to chase them down with the lawn mower (sorry, tmi, I know)...I am the one that has chased them down and "offed" them before...I am the rodent exterminater, WTH is up with THIS? oh wait...that's right, HORMONES...sheesh
what a weenie...what a scaredy cat...what a cat...Tut was insensed... too funny
ah well, he got over it, the mouse is gone, what more can I ask?
and it hit me...my last b-day with G-ma was my 32....I got to spend 32 b-days with her...ok, I am trying to make it better, but ya know, that is more than some get, right? she has been on my mind lately...I do miss her...normal I know, but my heart aches for her...
and we forgot to plant the new walnut trees today...we were pretty busy..will just have to do it tomorrow...want to go to Lowe's with Mark, and think I have the incentive to go...we should go to church (I DO want too), but will see how I feel in the am...the nerve has been silent until this afternoon...at least it isn't as bad as it has been...maybe it is a GOOD sign? one can hope
and congrats Tiffany...now all ya gotta do is get preg...
my mother is having another major dingy fit...driving me absolutely nuts......ah well, other things are looking up! yesterday I felt lil Alex MOVE!! at first I wasn't sure...been feeling things off and on and yesterday it was a for sure! 15 weeks and I feel Alex move!!
and on a different note...I have 5 cats...yeah, count em, 5 bleeping cats...at least 2 are great mousers, one not too shabby but old and not near as interested as he used to be...we won't discuss the other 2...they like to play but not sure they have KILLED a mouse...ever
we have 2 border collies...they like to chase stuff, right? Mom's bc was an excellent rodent dog...she could catch just about anything!
so, who is chasing and killing mice in my house? MY HUSBAND first one of the non-mousers chases it down, grabs it (mouth), runs under the table, DROPS THE THING, at which point it runs into THE MASTER ROOM
20 or so mins later, and several laps thru the closet, Mark got the stupid thing with a shoe...by now, it is ALMOST funny...would be if we didn't have such a problem.....I so need to set the traps back out...enough is enough good news is, looks like a teen mouse...so hey, at least we are getting to the slim and stupid pickins, right? one can only hope!
oh now this is fun.....2 oclock in the am and I am hearing things in our bedroom...more mice I assume...OR the one that got away, ya never know....I went and mowed the pasture some more so the rodent squad (we have a pair of hawks and a bunch of owls around here) can do their thing, PLUS Dad is supposed to be bringing his tractor out this spring and he will want to see better as well.....the f'ing things are now in the house....I can smell them too...I am afraid of the disease they could bring.....and now I am so tired I am about to drop, but am also pretty wide awake now....and I am worried about Brian as well.....dear God but I am starting to hate this house again.....I would ask what now but honestly, I am afraid of the answer!
I have a friend that just can't get a break....I mean honestly, she has been beaten and an attempt on her life (more than one actually) buy her ex bf (also the sperm donor of her kids)...she has major health problems and LITERALLY can't work (even tho the state says otherwise, her Dr says NO and in writing...several different dr's for the record)...then the state says they are going to find said donor and make him pay child support (yeah, right...he also has several warrants and the cops can't find him, he is most likely not in the US anymore either)...her parents (ok, Dad has Alzheimers) are in poor health and she is doing her best (dispite HER health) to help them out...she helped us out when we really needed it and that finally gave me an opportunity to do something FOR her! she was our housesitter, and I couldn't have PAID anyone to do a better job (ok, I did find SOME ways to pay her, hard as she made it!)...to top it all off, she has major problems with depression...very major...she was just starting to get things settled down, her health so she could take an office type job (maybe post office)...she just met a guy that didn't beat on her or hospitalize her, altho he did have his share of problems...they were making a go of it and he was becoming "DadaMak" (his name was also Mark) to her kids....they needed one very badly, and she very badly needed the help
turns out one of the major problems he had was his health....he passed away today at her house, and her all but 3 yr old found him, was trying to wake him up....they aren't sure why he died...he HAD been fighting with his brother and they had been on the outs for almost a moon or more....but when push came to shove, he stood up for Liz and his brother...she isn't handling life well at all right now, which I can't blame her for at all...I gave her a friend of mine's #...she lost her dh to suicide and I thought (esp with her counseling background) she might be able to help...will try to get the two together eventually...and I am trying to be there for Liz as much as I can...understandably she doesn't much want company......Mark (my dh) is so concerned for her as well
and on top of it all, I feel so.....helpless....I have so much, she has lost so much more...I so want to help her out, but understand the pride in not wanting to accept it....will def be there as much as I can for her, altho at this point I don't know how I can best be a friend and help w/o overdoing it...
please please, pray for her...and for my other friend who is so concerned for her AND still healing from her loss....
dear God, I don't think I could make it w/o dh....and it scares me to death to think something could happen to him....pray for all of us...think dh is thinking the same way...
I am hormonal
I am pissed off
I am pregnant
he is picking a fight
he can't win, he knows that (or should)
nothing new either
he has so little experience in having a good pissing contest, WHY on EARTH would he start one with ME? the woman that can do a very good pissing contest...just call me Queenie...the ammunition I have...that I don't ever use...is right there on the tip of my tongue....ACK!
I GOT IT! I know why he is starting a pissing contest! HE DOESN'T WANNA HAVE TO DO THE WIFE!!
that's it...dayam, all he had to do is say I don't want too.....is so much better then what he is doing now....geez, I know I am fat, pregnant and not dealing with it well...he doesn't have to rub it in!
WOW! got Yvonne to actually come on over and give me a perm!!
was about to shave it all off.......was driving me TOTALLY nuts, and I finally gave up on growing it out and straight...it looked terrible! ah well.....it looks good now! and not too curly...she did cut it a lil shorter, and redid my grown out top, so at least now I won't be tempted to shave it! it does look good...am just amazed it was that quick...I asked yesterday and wasn't expecting anything for a week or two at least!
and stretched tonight, even tho things were still sore...and have a head cold......ah to be able to take the medication that really works
ah well, the one I am taking at least takes the edge off, maybe I can sleep tonight!
has been what, 3 weeks since I got some? GEEZ, I was getting this much sex when I was in a long distance relationship!! SHEESH
and I tried to cancel most of Christmas...truely I did...I refuse...am not going to decorate, am not going to put up a thing...my shopping is done except for my brother and bil, oh yeah, and nephew, but for the most part, I am totally done (they will be easy, know what to get bro, just gotta go get it, nephew as well)
and to top things off, the sob has a cold sore....asked him to call the dr about getting something to make it go away sooner....he calls, they give him the run around, and he wastes $$ on the damn campho ****...ya know, the **** that does basically NOTHING...and he is supposed to be taking l-lysine as well, but he doesn't want too (and only taken one today) ...do you know what kissless sex is like?? IT SUCKETH! so, will be a month and a half before I get sex....and if it is like last time, not bad, but certainly not the greatest either
damn, I need a boytoy....I am not interesting in being his f'ing room-mate....I had more fun than this with my roomie, and we weren't having sex!!! I just want to go back to being an adult...I should scare me up a job