a lil sleep will work wonders. yeah, the lil bugger was up several times last night, but at least he didn't get up and stay that way! I finally gave in and just nursed him when he woke up. he isn't hungary, and he rarely nurses more then a min or two, but he does go right back to sleep. lil bugger. I feel a lil better, but still really stressed out. the bank does have enough docs right now to draw paperwork and we are signing today, so hopefully we can start drawing next week. Mark and I are tentatively planning on going to the Home and Garden Show in Yakima Sunday provided boys are good to go and we aren't too tired/sore/sick
yes Robin, I wanna see ya! will call you later on today
oh yeah, and need to email our new contractor. got that all straightened out as well. and someone to pout the foundation. now we just need to figure otu windows, seamless gutters etc. good excuse to go, right
anyway, Alex is in the kitchen. that is never a good thing. maybe more later, might wait a couple days!
well, finally got things figured out. got the specs for the dormer on the house. going to build a spec around it for the addition, can do that with all the stuff we have here now. so, tomorrow I get to head to LNI AGAIN with the proper paperwork
oh wait, that's right. AGAIN. I asked Mark if he knew how to handle the paperwork, he said he would work on it. he wanted to do it so I let it go. he "did" all the leg work for it, talked to the inspecter and "figured out" what needed to be done and "did" it. did it all wrong, Brian stayed with G-ma last night so I didn't have to corral BOTH boys IN the office, just Alex, who is so darn cute
lil Octopus is more like it
of course, it was ALL WRONG. good news is that altho I did loose SOME sleep, it wasn't like things haven't calmed down the last couple nights. he is FINALLY sleeping thru a lil. so anyhow, tonight, AFTER I go tanning, get groceries, I am going to do the drawing.
guess if I want it done right......GRRRRRRRRRR
I just want to get this whole thing started in the next few days. will settle with what is probably to be weeks, but I am impatient. and it helps to have an attitude on my sleeve. the Silvercrest folks ponied up the "generic" dormer when I asked for it. think he was afraid I wold put Alex down
anyway. both boys are in a mood. Alex didn't want to take a nap and I finally gave up and put him in his crib to cry it out. Brian isn't any better. better go deal with him. he is INSANELY pissed right now that he had to return from G-ma's house. *sigh*
OH ROBIN! you so made my......month!! thanks to our lovely Robin I sold a bracelet. at a good price too. not overpriced, but NO discount either! OH MAN that felt REALLY good. ok, it isn't a done deal yet, but even if it falls thru, for today it feels PRETTY DAMN GOOD!
and going to head to a friend's Mom's house tonight and finish fixing the shower. needed to do that earlier, but it didn't happen
oh yeah, and Brian is PT. he is even dry most nights now. Alex is learning the meaning of NO NO BABY AWEKS (and working on it and gentle). been a much less stressful weed almost end. loan funded yesterday, found all the info I needed (I think) for the permit, turned it in. will see how it goes from here. have a zillion things to do too.
but hey, at least we are making headway. dug more stuff out of the addition "area" flowerbed. felt good to play in the dirt. annoying that the damn shovel gives ya splinters *OUCH*
still, things are starting to look up. even staked out the new addition. made me feel good. had to stay on top of Brian who was pretty insistant about trying to run them over with his "tractor" (toy)
I work at not involving myself in drama. and I hear about depression. someone is frantic. I see red flags. it sucks me in, I worry and try to figure out what is going on, do I need to do something, prevent something. and I am like WTH is going on. and I get sucked in. like some great sucking maw I get drawn in. after I so worked at getting myself out of most of it. I get sucked in.
I am in one nasty-assed mood today. I shouldn't be, I have 3 "sitters" coming to "watch" Brian and Alex. ok, maybe entertain is a better word. I have my jewelry out there. the permit SEEMS to be going thru. I have things showing up at the house from all the orders so I can make lots more stuff. I love the stuff I am getting.
yeah, there is a lil stress on the stupid bead board, but think it is handled. I like that gal, but sometimes she just doesn't think. ah well, it IS handled
and I honestly don't feel much of a tug here anymore. there are places I want to go and be a part of, but they are pretty much dead. there are other places that are moving but I honestly don't want to deal with the drama etc.
we just need a vacation. or a change of scene. not thinking ID, but maybe a weekend getaway. not to see bro and sil, don't need that sort of stress, but who knows, somewhere would be nice
oh yeah, and MIL and BIL are coming in May. how sad is it I am REALLY psyched they are coming and I don't care about my own family? ok, I wouldn't mind seeing my sister and kids (her dh never comes with) but I am not going to AK to do it, and I doubt she is up to coming down. can't say as I blame her. she lost her baby about a month ago, m/c. she was about 19 weeks when they induced, they figure he was gone somewhere between 14-16 if I remember correctly. Dear God, I don't know how she deals with that. I know I couldn't have!
off on a tangent again.
feeling nasty, I am going to take two advil and get the boys dressed. the girls should be here somewhere between 11 and 12. I am going OUTSIDE to play today.
oh yeah, part of it I think is my indecision on when or how to wean Alex. I want to, I don't want too. EEK
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