we ordered some windows from Home Depot. I highly recommend NO ONE ever do it. it takes forever to get here, they confuze the sh!t out of ya, AND THEN when we got the pretty f'ing spendy casement window home and IN, I realize there is no screen or crank. yeah, they are SUPPOSED to call jeldwen and make it good, but it is now going to take MORE time. what a crock. GEEZ
Lowe's and the local lumberyard is about to become my new home improvement store, this is PATHETIC
blast from my past. not sure I like it, but I had an inkling it was coming. no clue why either. ex b/f I have very rare contact with contacted me tonight. I had men suck up on my msn, and was listening to shakira. he popped on and asked why men suck. typical, no prelude. I don't know why I talk to him. he poked me a couple times, and he got the same. we aren't even necessarily that nice to one another. is like we know what buttons to push and push em. but, this time, he wasn't as bad as usual. :wtf: he is getting "old" too. 40 yr old wanna be a playboy. guess he is getting tired of being alone. says he found someone, if she will have him. makes me think back to when it was him and I and I hope for her sake he has totally changed. is possible I guess. honestly I am glad he isn't alone. been there, it really sucks too. anyhow, he calls Brian Opie, which I no longer thing is an insult. so I asked if he had seen Alex and put the pic of the two boys and I up.
he said the strangest thing, he said I had some "good looking boys momma"
I about fell over. hmmmmm. maybe he has changed. good for him, I hope she tells him yes.
I am insane. and most likely I shouldn't even talk to him, but I do. I remember the friend he was before he and I royally screwed things up by sleeping together. he COULD be a catch if he wanted. hope he wants!
more later. just.....bowled over by the conversation.
EEK! how busy can a person get? ah well, is good to be busy
this week is no exception. I have jewelry to make, I have an order! Mark me and the boys have been planting lots of stuff, a few annual flowers, trees, and a really good start on a veggie garden! gotta figure out where the pumpkins are going to go. still working on things around the house, all new windows are in, just need to order the rest. Mark needs to finish some trim outside, but they are IN. both of us are working on getting the insides done, but it involves caulk and lots of it. Brian loves to dabble in it tho *sigh* so we are having to be creative! next is to finish plantings, clean up the flower beds, and clean house! OH YEAH, and Sat Mark and I got to go on a date!!! got a new sitter, and I like her
and on top of that, Weds is shearing day. Mom is going nuts. what else is new Fri we might go play, not sure. Thurs I might head down and work on her yard, will see.
and getting ready to do another quickie buy. real quick. will see if there is much interest!
and for tonight, Ken is coming for dinner. so I had best go figure otu the rest of dinner!
man, what a whirl wind. don't think I mind tho, things are coming together AND starting to look really good
oh yeah, and sMIL and BIL will be here next month! I am jazzed about that too
now, if we can just get the addition done before they get here! *YEAH RIGHT*
oh man, it isn't pretty. I just totally lost my temper. after another night of very little sleep, Brian being brought in WIDE F'ING AWAKE at 6 am, and Alex already being awake.....again.....for the third time.....I knew there was no more sleep. oh yeah, quick update, thought I had a UTI from hell, that it had gone into my kidneys.....it was PAINFUL, I mean, to the point of talking to Mark about going to the emergency room. it was BAD. no UTI. the lil orange pee pills helped, but it WASN'T a UTI. no clue what it was. it was amazingly painful, that's what it was. so I was "out" for two days last week. I mean OUT. day after Mark had his surgery on his knee. THAT went very well. he is doing way better then before he had the scope ALREADY. good thing too. I needed him
Mom took Brian. there was talk of all sorts of thigns, cysts, irritation of this or that, could it be splenda yadda yadda
so instead of being ready for company, who btw is coming a day early, I am scrambing to get there.
so at 6:30 I evicted Brian and hissed at him to go to bed or I would get the spoon. I knew he wouldn't go, but I tried. tried another 10 mins to get Alex to sleep, in vain, and finally put him in the crib and muffled him by "hiding" under the pillow. it is now 8:30. he has been asleep MAYBE 5 mins. he was so mad at me. I about bawled about letting him cio but something has to give. NOTHING else is working. he is STILL nursing, which is ok. he can't have cows milk, which he likes. or cheese, which he loves. and he loves to nurse and I am not taking that away too.
so anyway about 7:45 I hear Brian clacking away in the living room. so did Alex, who HAD been on the brink of sleep. back up he comes. blood in my eye and I am gonna kill him. come out and he is in deep doo doo and he knows it. gets spanked cuz the toy he had he dug out of the work in progress dog room. he KNOWS he isn't supposed to be in there
so I send him to his room and told him to GO TO BED, and if he didn't stop his sniveling and crying I was goign to get the spoon. I ended up screaming at him. yeah, give me the good Mom of the yr badge. fork me, I am done. I had to walk away cuz the next step was to lay hands on him. so a couple mins later he starts yelling he has to go potty
and then he goes potty in his pull-up cuz he is mad at me. that got him spanked. again.
he is talking now. I get lil blips now and then about wanting to get up but at least he is talking nice right now
and Alex is asleep
I should let him get up, get a breakfast bar and milk and see if I can get any more sleep. damn, I am SO tired I hurt. I can't do this much longer. I just can't
it's none of your business *****. the toy in question was an age inapprop toy that was dangerous to his brother, was taken away from him cuz he had CLOCKED his brother with it, AND he dug it out of the dog room where he ISN'T allowed because he almost inspired the dog to bite him, wacked on the cat, and there are some semi-heavy power tools in there. he had to go thru a closed door to get them, and he KNOWS he isn't allowed to go in there
as for the potty, he goes in his pants because he is mad at me, or because he doesn't want to go in the house. you can go to hell. I don't envy the teachers that are going to have to deal with your ****ed up kids. and I am in no way hard to find. call CPS. also know in the state of WA I can file harrassment charges.
for anyone that reads my journal, because of angie's ****ed up antics my journal is going private. if you want access you are now going to have to ask. there are a few that I can add automatically, but for the most part I don't know who all still reads this.
thanks angie. what a worthless hole.
THIS is why I don't come to preg.org much anymore. what a total crock of sh!t
I don't know what to do. honestly I have had so many people I didn't really think cared ask me not to go. in a way I want to say. I was bawling when I made the decision to leave. this isn't the first time I have left because of stupid ****. yes, STUPID S H I T
damn this place has more *****es and idiots then a soap opera sometimes. a bad soap opera. on the other hand, I ALSO heard from some gals I REALLY care about. many said the same thing. don't go, stay the hell away from the anything board (and debate board) etc etc
still haven't made my decision. I have company. I will keep an eye on things, but for the most part have decided not to post much anywhere.
and I have plenty to say about what has been going on IRL the last few days. away from the pointless drama that is gonna get someone's stupid *** booted. but I digress. will post more later. Mom and Doug are going to leave early tomorrow am and I NEED sleep!
back to life. the last few days have been (for the most part) pretty relaxing, dotted only with the drama here. but we had a fantastic time with Teri-Mom and Doug. the boys were jewels too. we went out on the water craft (jet skis) on Thurs when the temp was 95-100 degrees. we were setting records with those temps, in MAY no less! YIKES! but it was hot enough to go and go we did. DAMN that water was like ice tho good contrast to the air temp, and we had a ball. Brian was ultra cute in his lil life jacket, and is a bear to get off after he goes one round. got to slather both boys up with SPF. Alex learned that walkin down hill isn't near as easy as it looks! he also learned how to totally retract his feet when they touched the cold Columbia River! only did it once, he didn't like it so we didn't push it. Brian was fine with it as long as he was getting on :rofl:
and then we came home, decided to hit Applebees for dinner. YUMMMMMMM......smothered steak and Mark picked up the tab. oh yeah, it was GOOD
planned on a bbq for Friday night. Mom and I went shopping. she sure can shop with the best of em! GEEZ impulse buyer. not me, not that I didn't want too, but I didn't find anything I really wanted. looking for some embroidered capri pants. didn't find any. what is with the cuff look? looks like white trashy to me, tacky and unfinished. yuck. and then we were driving around and talking. she misses Dad so bad. so we ended up driving for a "tour" and I just let her talk. then it dawns on me that that big black cloud rolling in is doing just that. ROLLING IN. FAST
so I called Mom who was at Winco, being undecisive and she will call me back. came home, went inside and 5 mins the power goes out when a WALL of really strong obnoxious wind hits and hits hard. Mom calls. she is in it trying to unload groceries. she is going HOME. so since we have no power, we ended up going to TS Cattle Co. OH BABY, PRIME RIB!!! sweeeeeeeeeeeet! I didn't overdo it too much, REALLY we did watch Nanny McFee too, nice!
now mind you, I have scales now. and with my lil round with whatever that was last week and going to the midwife's office, I knew already I had lost about 10 lbs. goign to try to keep that going. I am feeling pretty darn good about it, and if I can keep loosing, slowly, maybe by summers end I can loose another 10 or 20.
so anyway, Saturday rolls around. more shopping only we took the boys and Doug with us. Doug was nice to have around, the boys were.......well, boys, and not so thrilled so by noonish we were DONE. time to go home *sigh*
so we did the bbq last night. Ribs, mashed potatoes, salad, artichokes, Ken came over....and so did Mom and Dad, brought the strawberry pie. not bad either!
sm piece, but not bad!
so anyway, the got off bright and early this morning. I did manage to go back to bed. slept way longer then I intended but it felt good. haven't got tons done today, but I did get a cake in the oven, mostly for Mark who is off slaving at moving Ken. silly man, I knew he would be doing most of the work and it would take damn near all afternoon. it is. he doesn't learn, but, it could be worse!
Alex is back up too, so I should stop while I am ahead, right? he has been ultra cuddly today. nice! Brian is taking a nice long nap too. am considering pulling out some stones and crystal and creating a few more pieces. made myself and showed Teri-Mom how to make an anklet Friday, and made her a time piece illusion necklace she is madly in love with. something new and I had a ball too. so I am on a roll, maybe I should keep rolling!
WHOA!!!!!!!! so Mark ordered some cabinets here about 4 weeks ago. ones to match what we have. quite a price tag too. but beautiful! promises to get new countertops and everything! so we impatiently wait, and about 2 weeks ago I had him call and ask, they said only been two weeks, you have 4-6 to go!! *sigh*
so we go on our merry way. Mark gets into work today and finds out that had we been home Thursday (we were out on the water) we COULD have had them Friday!!!
I AM glad we weren't here Thurs, I wouldn't have wanted to have to store them in the garage and drool on them!
ON THE OTHER HAND! they WILL be here tomorrow!!!
guess I need to head over to the counter place and find us a counter guy! oh man I am SOOOOOOO excited!!
we still don't have a general contractor to get the addition started, but who knows, maybe the counter guy can make a recomendation!!!