there are days I need to remember how blessed I am
I am very blessed
I have a wonderful husband
--yes, even when he is sick
I have 2 usually pretty good, very cute, very healthy, very headstrong boys that are smart and full of life
--even when I feel a need to sacrifice one for doing a "just how far can I push Mom today" routine
I have a decent house to live in
--even tho it is "just" a mobile home, even under construction
we have a great place here
--even when I have to weed my multitude of gardens
we have a multitude of gardens, both productive (veggie) and beautiful (flowers)
my husband is gainfully employed and he is a great provider
--even when they play useless mind games and he is stressed about it
--gainful employment ISN'T in Idaho!
I have at least one set of parents close by
--even when Dad does his "man/master" impression
--even when Mom flakes out
I have a MIL, tho not Mark's birth Mom, she is MY MIL, she isn't psycho, nasty or spiteful
--even if we don't always agree, it isn't a problem, we just......agree we don't agree!
I have some good friends. no make that REALLY good friends!
--both online and IRL. I am getting to know Yvonne and her family better and that is a wonderful thing! I am spending time with Cory more too. She is my "stolen" sister, and I love her like one
two words will say it all
need I say more? starts SOON
here is a strange one:
I have a messy house. not dirty, MESSY. it is a sign of the usually pretty good, very cute, very healthy, very headstrong boys that are smart and full of life that have a sometimes strange sense of adventure and imagination.
I should post about my Icky Robot. that would be Brian. I have NO clue where he got THAT one!
SO, even on a morning where I got up at 5:30, and dealt with a dual pronged assault that prevented more NEEDED sleep (and an EARLY morning tandem nap). I need to remember. remember that I am blessed. not just by the nap, but in life.
I need to remember that cuz I need to get back to work on the addition. and I am worn out all ready. is not too bad tho, am waiting on an inspection from LNI for the roof. it is on. we have darn near 3/4 of the insulation in the walls, 1/3 of the ceiling. can't do more ceiling until we get that inspection. Mark called the **** Inspector at the City and altho the news was IRRITATING it is doable. will post more about that later. but for now I need to make sure Brian goes back to sleep and get back to work on the insulation in the addition!
dang, this thing scared me for a moment! it wouldn't let me in EEK!
well, I have a zillion things to update. will do the important stuff when I am more awake tho, right nwo I am pretty wasted. Alex is teething. 5-7 teeth, two of which are fangs. *SIGH*
anyway, I do what I usually do when I am tired. I poked the sleeping dog. yup, I im'd my ex. only today I wasn't all peaches and cream. yeah right, like I am anyway. but I poked. I asked him WHY we should stay in contact. I should delete him from my list but last time he popped in it really spooked me. he didn't have a reason. I don't really have a desire to yak with him anymore, altho it would do my ego tons of good to hear I was the one that "got away". more like threw away. he won't be darkening my door, I don't want to see him anymore, I don't know WHY he would want to see me. we have nothing in common, we have nothing to yak about, and he irritates Mark to no end when he talks. so we don't. but it bugs me half to death to see him log on, and I want to delete him. but I don't. I don't like being blind sided, and that is what it does to me.
see? this is why I don't post when I am tired. I usually just stay off the puter all together. it ends up being stupid and I regret it. I have so much other things to talk about. he didn't "get away" I left. he didn't want me til I was gone and that irritates the hell out of me.
what a stupid thing to do.
I need to go to bed. bet tonight isn't going to be too good either.
but here is a quick teaser for (hopefully) a soon entry:
the addition is mostly drywalled, we picked out the tile, the outside is mostly done! it looks FANFREAKINGTASTIC!
THE BOYS: Alex RUNS to Mama to give her hugs, and doesn't want anyone else. that really has it's good side and bad. he is still nursing. not sure how I feel about that. sometimes it is fine, sometimes it is annoying. Brian is a chatterbox. smart lil kid too. no, not proud at all.
my Husband: we haven't got along this well in awhile, and we are feeding off each other. however, something is up with his health. yes, I am worried. I still have the greatest hubby on earth, greatest for me anyway
my jewelry: I gave my first class! I LOVED it, it went great! Robin, the class I gave was for your bracelet! WOW, I am hooked. also signed up to do another one or two
life in general is going well. insane, hectic, tiring, but really good
so, why do I need to poke sleeping dogs? *smacks forehead*
I am going to bed. I need too. it is really late enough, and I am going to regret it in the am
oh yeah, HI MERRICK! you should come over soon
oh yeah, GAME ON! hockey pre-season starts in a week! WOOHOO!
wow, so much going on!
Alex runs now. I don't mean a fast walk either, the lil bugger RUNS. and teething like crazy. not sure who needs the drink more these days, Me Mark or Alex for that matter! looks like 4 premolars coming in and 2 top fangs. could be more, not sure anymore. thought there was a bottom fang or two but..................
but he is in 24's now, fast approaching 2T. his feet are WAY bigger then Brian's. and periodically he all but grows into them! he is also chattering up a storm, but not much is understandable. he and Daddy were reading "Barnyard Dance" and he was stomping, clapping and bowing thru the book. we will have twirl and spin pretty soon too I bet! Mark was saying there was a "baa" and a "moo" at one point too, but you know kids, they won't repeat anything when you want
and temper. HOLY COW, I have nothing on that kid. he can zero to flame on in a second. oh boy, I know where he gets that one, NOT GOOD!
and Brian wow, he is picking things up really quickly too. he knows some of his numbers, we are working on letters. got him a dry erase board to practice. he is all but grown out of his 4's too! he fixates on things too. oh fun. I THINK he is off the binky. that took some doing. we cut the end off one of them and that is the only one he gets. Alex will put it in his mouth and play with it and that drives him nuts, but he won't even put it in his mouth. he goes off on a tangent now and then about fixing it but for the most part we are done.
and the conversations we have are.....mind boggling sometimes! he tells me all about different things, like the train. anyone that asks he will tell about the Mt Hood Train we rode, about the caboose, the "robber", the red caboose that we rode in the top, the loud horn, the engine. he loved it. I about died of heat stroke, but hey, I would do it again for the boys in a min. oh yeah, the "Big Icky Robot". one morning he comes up to me with the Cosco Wipes on his head. looking out the lil handle hole and announces, "MAMA! I AM A BIIIIIIIIIIIG ICKY ROBOT!!!" and runs away giggling. I have absolutely NO clue where that comes from. NONE. he even makes zzzzzzshhhhhht Robot
abused my butt
and the boys will play with each other now and then. both have learned to "tickle". sometimes it is more painful then I would like, but.......any sort of together play is much appreciated. they will "assault" Mama and I get zerberts from Alex and "tickles" from Brian. we run thru the house, someone yelling "RUN RUN HIDE HIDE" (OR babbling), jump on a bed and dive under the covers. the mayhem begins then. oh man, I never thought it could be this much fun! and Alex is still such a lil lover. never mind he has learned to try to climb into my shirt, we still play lots!
ack, but the smoke around here. so many fires, Alex and I are paying the consequences. we have started leaving the windows closed at night, and it seems to be doing the trick. is nicer in that we aren't as stopped up but nasty cuz we can't open up. the haze is thick too. YUCK. seems sometimes like half the state is on fire! ah well, this too will pass. but we need rain. lots and lots of rain. won't get it, this is after all, a desert!
and the addition! we took a sort of sabatical for the last week, not doing much. the drywall needs doing of some sort. not sure what sort, but SOME sort. I don't wanna, but the itch to get back at it is here. so, in short, we have the foundation in, the floor in, walls up (all but the N one) and ceiling on, the tyvek went up pretty quickly, as did the sheeting and the drywall. the roof looks great, and I actually got up there and worked on it. I really amazed myself! the electrical and plumbing is in. the doorway is now HUGE. the "only" thing we have left to do is the N wall, get it inspected, drywall it and tape and texture. need to put the floor in, the cement steps and paint. the cable, high speed internet and phone wire is run but not hooked up (will see how long that one takes, not too worried about it yet) oh yeah, we need to rerun the drain for the a/c. the dryer is already out there, cuz it has it's new exhaust and having it vent into the addition made it ultra hot. oh yeah, we have the HVAC run as well.
and the jewelry front. OH WOW, I like giving classes! WOOHOO. I did my Swarky bracelet and it was fun. I probably way underestimated the cost of silver, but hey, I had fun, sold stuff and we are in the process of working out Class #2 and 3!! I NEED to get away from the addition and get started getting ready for stuff. I have a friend in FL that is doing a show and I am SUPPOSED to have several pr of earrings for her, only have a couple also looking into a bazaar in Kennewick on top of the one I am already signed up for. I would LIKE to do 3 or 4 at least. wish I could find one more I WANT to do in December. will see how that goes tho, mostly I just need to get back at it and gear up for them. but, I am having a ball doing it, AND I am now a moderator on my bead group. no clue if that means anything or not, but I am enjoying being a very active member over there. I do buys on a semi regular basis, which is insane trying to do the addition on top, but I am making it! and all that silver and Swarovski being delivered here for my "fondling" is wonderful. then I send them off to their new "parent". I know what to order next time that way, but I need to QUIT doing that. I am being overrun with beads. okokok, I do have a means to an end. REALLY. I want to have a SMALL bead shop someday. think I might be able to do that at this rate tho, I will be heading to Tuscon one yr soon, and some of the Silversmithing classes as well. OH BOY, I can't wait!!!
oh yeah, one last thing on my marathon post
I am still nursing. yeah, on one hand I want to quit. on the other I don't. Alex certainly DOESN'T want to quit! he still can't drink milk much. milk products still back him up, altho we keep that under control with the olive oil. after all, he is my last baby, and altho it is (sometimes) a royal pain, most of the time..........I still enjoy it. we will see how it goes. I am waiting for the teething to stop
ok, the boys need me, and Alex is trying to crawl into my robe
OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY
MARK GOT HIS CONTRACT RENEWED FOR ANOTHER, NO IDAHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't tell you how stressed the two of us have been, we really thought we might be. but NOOOOOOOOOO, his contract for Hanford is renewed for another year, I am SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!
ok, I had to post this in my journal. it was too good NOT too!
Fairy Tale for Grown-Up Girls
This is the fairy tale that should have been read to us when we were
Once upon a time
in a land far away,
a beautiful, independent,
happened upon a frog as she sat
contemplating ecological issues
on the shores of an unpolluted pond
in a verdant meadow near her castle.
The frog hopped into the princess' lap
and said: " Elegant Lady,
I was once a handsome prince,
until an evil witch cast a spell upon me.
One kiss from you, however,
and I will turn back
into the dapper, young prince that I am
and then, my sweet, we can marry
and set up housekeeping in your castle
with my mother,
where you can prepare my meals,
clean my clothes, bear my children,
and forever feel
grateful and happy doing so. "
as the princess dined sumptuously
on lightly sauteed frog legs
seasoned in a white wine
and onion cream sauce,
she chuckled and thought to herself:
I don't freakin think so.