slide show, I NEED A SLIDE SHOW!
ah yes, the insanity that is my life.....it just gets crazier by the minute, kwim?
today didn't start off bad....it just went to hell in a hurry...last night, Alex only got up once......getting to be norm, but I am so not counting on it :roll: and went in to check on Brian....I found him half way there on the couch, poor guy.....no clue WHY he ended up on the couch and NOT in our room :?: I put him back in his bed, and he was awake enough to say Mommy lay down? twice and he was out! slept thru til quart of 6 when Daddy gets up....he came in like 1-2 mins before Mark's alarm went off, and then had a mini melt down when Daddy got up to go to work, so he helped Daddy with the dogs etc had breakfast and had a lil of a rough go fo it when Daddy left, but rebounded and we all went back to bed, AND back to sleep
I should have known it wasn't a good omen
Alex got up on the WRONG side of the cradle AGAIN....and I was frazzled at the start...he fussed and fussed...I got him calmed down some, and he fussed off and on....I barely got breakfast before his fussing turned into OMG I AM PISSED crying...Brian ate most of #3 breakfast bar and was playing and yelling.....he was cautioned AGAIN to quit, which, of course, he didn't
SO, I get Alex calmed down.....again....rocked him some.....trying to keep Brian at bay somewhat (trying to jet his brother again) got on the puter, checked mail, checked my badness on ebay.....is all good....checked Alex who was happily watching the fan, chased his brother off (violently "rocking" him in his bouncy, AGAIN) and sent the big oen to his room...screaming again *sigh* starting to slow burn, it isn't a beautiful thing, and the spoon is calling me
Mom called.....how lovely...she be here somewhere between 11 and 11:30 (translation, 11:30) Dad will drop her off
ok, it is screaming at me from his room and I want to apply the spoon, but instead I menaced him with it
he got the pic....silence....the evil woman doesn't menace w/o meaning it
so, I move the bouncy to the doorway into the kitchen...I Want COOKIE DOUGH!
I made it thru the sugar, butter, soda, salt, and vanilla before Alex decided I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!!!!!!! and gets really pissy, and even the now slightly entertaining big brother won't do it
I grab the snugli, throw it on.....btdt and usually being packed around calms him down nicely
put him an and go to wipe off the spit up off my arm, nice, eh? he has already done that twice to me this am....dang that kid can miss ANY burp rag/towel etc
it wasn't spit up.....it was AN EXPLOSION....there is shit everywhere, literally....hey, at least it ISN'T on the floor.....so I figure, WHO CARES, everything washes and go look to see how bad it is.....it is bad, I decide to hop in the tub....he needed a bath anyhow
we get in, I managed to hold a wiggling poopy nakid baby while I got undressed WITH the 2 yr old supervising...Mommy's BUTT? Mommy's leg? Mommy's belly button? MOMMY IS GOING TO LOOSE HER COOL BUD, SHUT UP!
got the water running
not too hot not too cold....aaaaaaahhhhhhhh
Brian wants in
OMG, I WAS SOOOOOOOO STUPID
in he came...it ended up being a fight cuz he wasn't sure about the bubbles......tough, he was nakid and not going to be streaking thru the house
period.....the evil woman is back *sigh*
we played a bit in there, it is now 11.....I am worried Dad is going to walk in and I will be nakid....as in buck, as in....let's not go there
he didn't, I was safe....got a diaper on Alex and Brian, a shirt on both, and managed to get dressed myself
and sat down to nurse Alex, who obviously had more room now that he had room, right? he then promptly burped, but not spit up.... :party:
and went to sleep
G-ma and G-pa show up, we are ready for em, we are looking out the window when they drive up, Brian is waving like mad......chanting G-ma....she hasn't looked that beautiful and G-pa hasn't looked that fabulous in yrs....I can't begin to tell you how happy I was to see them......I was out and out giddy...I even encouraged Brian to run out sans shorts and shoes to see em...it worked...I was saved *whew*
I finished the cookie dough, and it is FANTASTIC...we rearranged our plans for the day....that works, and we might be rearranging them again......that works too
I got Brian packed and he was happy as can be to be headed out without the evil woman, altho he did give me a hug and kill goodbye
honestly, right now I can't imagine why we decided to have two.....but then I couldn't imagine life w/o them either....
still, having my sanity back would be pretty nice too
and sorry Tiff....I wasn't ignoring ya.....thought Alex had awakened.....pm me your # and I will call ya later on, k?
HUG AND KILL!! fraudian slip KISS! I GOT A KISS!
and plans DID change, we WERE going to go to G-ma's today, dh meet us there....NOW, it is tomorrow....I gotta un pit this house and do laundry....this has so gotten out of control!
and damn that dough is good :twisted: YUMMMMMM
now I gotta go figure out lunch.....Alex is recouping his sleep now that his gut is empty....asleep on me again.....ah well, at least he isn't screaming, right?
WHERE ARE YOU!!! I WANT TO PUT IN AN ORDER!!!!
I AM CLEANING! only one boy
call me, do you still have my cell # dang, will see if I can find yours
many many thanks to Robin, who made this mega post possible
and may the bucket gods bestow many happy thoughts on you too.......man this is sooooooooo easy!
more later on
Oh look how cute he is! ADORABLE!
Did you get the money yet?
YUP! it got here Thurs or Fri and we got it mailed out Sat.....it should be there maybe as soon as tomorrow
let me know when it gets there, please?
and I mailed Robin's out at the same time
GREAT! I can't wait! I will def. let you know when they get here. I am sooooo excited.
OMG Cindy he is breathtaking!
so I sell my stuff on Ebay...she sends payment 2 or 3 days later w/o contact or anything ....that was a Friday eve, so Monday morning I ship it, and Tues am I get some note explaining the $ had been withdrawn BACK out of my account! and so I send her and email trying to figure out WTF is going on
turns out she is having problems......OK, BUT IT IS ALREADY IN THE MAIL! she says to remind her to pay in a couple days and she will remit payment then....has been a couple weeks! :angry4: my FIRST freaking sale and the bitch is bailing on me! I did EVERYTHING right.....I made the auction immune to those with non-paying status, I checked her feedback (at that point totally 100% + ), I waited until payment
I am so steamed....problems or not, I just reminded her AGAIN and will be contacting Ebay Friday....email today said 3 days....I am sorry she screwed up her bank account but she isn't returning emails and isn't being a good ebayer....I can see if she was in constant contact but she isn't
damn.......my first sale.......and a nasty taste.....peachy
on the other hand.....Mom is going to show up here in 30 mins or so and I am headed outside to work on the fence....I have more errands to run this afternoon and am going to see if she feels ok can she take Brian home and I will come get him and the utility trailer tonight.....if not, *sigh* ah well, will see what I can do (NO PROMISES) but I need to get the dogs in for shots, wormer all around for the cats too (they don't go tho), go back to the linoleum place, drop off the samples (and hopefully get my forgotten sunglasses) and maybe head to the bead place (but ONLY if things go VERY well!)
sooooooooo.......guess I had better get us all dressed.....Alex is being a sweetheart this am and is crashed on our bed....Brian is another story :roll: but he is also 2.5 so what should I expect :doh:
oh yeah, and red is gonna get a hair cut today and that'll thrill him to pieces.....I should just take him to Walmart....I don't much care to do it.....altho Mark trusts me and says I can cut his when I am ready....he is getting shaggy too :shock: am still pretty scared to do his.....ah well, it looked really good last time.....maybe I can do it again
but then again if I screw it up he won't ask me again naw......I wouldn't do that to him :? ok, not on purpose!
oh man, been a LONG week.....yesterday Brian was SUPPOSED to go to G-ma's house, and he has been CHANTING it since he left her house last weekend.....NAW, she doesn't spoil him at all :doh: so anyway, we invited them for dinner, fresh corn (sugar sweet), tomatoes, sauted zuccini, rotis port loin.....OMG good let me tell ya!
right before dinner, Brian gets even more clingy then he had been the last couple days and sits in G-pa's lap and passes out cold.....so we put him down for a nap and he is hot.....not REALLY hot but def not feeling good either...decision is made he isn't going
he wasn't happy about it either.....but also didn't wake up til about 8:30 when I GOT him up :? and fed him dinner......he went back down about 10ish and came in the room sometime later....when I woke up to feed Alex Mark was gone.....that was 2ish (I think?)
so Mark came back later on, and this am at 6 something Brian was back and Mark got up.....
at least I think that was last night :roll: I am a bit tired, did I mention that? *sigh*
so anyhow, he had a slight temp again this am but it cleared right up with Motrin and I honestly just chalked it up to teething (droolin too ya know, ICK)
his girlfriend (Merrick the wonderful) came to watch the boys for us today and off on a date we went :woohoo: MEXICAN FOOD omg it was SOOOOOOOOOO good......and then off to look at linoleum, tile and formica.......we ACTUALLY have the linoleum picked out, will see about the rest.....but had a ball getting ot where we are anyhow....we were out about 3 hrs
the boys were good for her too.....even did a tandem sleep for her *grrrrrr*
that ISN'T fair! ah well, at least we weren't called back early :!: and we DID have a great time out....got home shortly after Alex woke up and he took a lightish snack and went BACK to sleep after having the third explosion in two days :puke: AND THAT was after he power spit up
ah well......and I did cut Brian's hair the other day.....it looks bad, but then it was a fight from the beginning and it doesn' tlook THAT bad I guess.....ah well
had a great talk with Merrick too.....and now Mark is out mowing the lawn, soon to be back in for Monk
is nice that Brian is with G-ma, but I feel guilty cuz she said he isn't feeling that well....I honestly don't think it is much, and if he does have something it most likely came from down there....I am still not conivinced it ISN'T teething....tomorrow we head to the Art show (maybe) and possible the farmers market
we will see.....I don't care.....sex would be nice, THAT I care about.....we shall see.... :twisted:
so today was a pretty good day, ended up getting a much needed nap, but awoke in full psycho bitch mode...and I mean REAL bitch mode...and after such a great night I DON'T understand why! Brian stayed with G-ma last night and Mark and I had fun!! :sex: TWICE :woohoo:
and yet, here I am contemplating strangling my son who REFUSES to even attempt potty training, fighting more anxiety attacks, and having to deal with rage issues
this isn't good...I at least got Brian to pee in his potty....of course he missed more then he got that shitty lil trainer of his....I don't know what MORON developed it but he needs to be shot....several times....creating a very slow and painful death....
and then he starts to wail.....like I had taken every toy away from him he has ever owned....but I have had it....he is 2.5 and MORE then old enough to start, AND can communicate and from here on out I am sticking to my guns.....after breakfast in the am he is GOING to sit on the potty until he does SOMETHING...until SOMETHING gets into his brain
damn, I need to go out, get semi to fully loaded and dancing....so I can remember just how fat I am if nothing else.....and then I wanna screw Mark's brains out.....and not be so tired that yeah, it is good, but ALL ya wanna do is sleep.....dang, I don't even remember getting snuggle time afterwards....and this am...more.....it was better, but I was still pretty tired and then in the middle of snuggling, Alex wakes up, and of course I leaked some
I feel so f'ing sexy
I want a vacation...one from life.....one from anxiety.....I want to be an adult again.....contributing to the coffers and not just a boob and the spoon bearer (the spanking spoon)....not just the poop patrol and laundress.....I want to be able to go shopping w/o worrying about OH SH!T I FORGOT MY LILYPADZ...and not worrying about Alex and is he starving to death....or Brian and his damn teeth....
I need some valium or something......really.....fork me, I think I am done
oh hey, I know this will offend many, but honestly I don't care......sue me
Dad sent it to me and I like it
Subject: bill of rights/wrongs
The 2005 Revised Version of The Declaration of Independence
"We The People Of The United State s"
The following has been attributed to State Representative Mitchell Kaye from GA. This guy should run for President one day... ( Hey, I would vote for him. (Jim))
" We the sensible people of the United States, in an attempt to help everyone get along, restore some semblance of justice, avoid more riots, keep our nation safe, promote positive behavior, and secure the blessings of debt free liberty to ourselves and our great-great-great-grandchildren, hereby try one more time to ordain and establish some common sense guidelines for the terminally whiny, guilt ridden, delusional, and other bed-wetters.
We hold these truths to be self evident: that a whole lot of people are confusedby the Bill of Rights and are so dim they require a Bill of NON-Rights as such:
ARTICLE I: You do not have the right to a new car, big screen TV, or any other form of wealth. More power to you if you can legally acquire them, but no one is guaranteeing anything.
ARTICLE II: You do not have the right to never be offended.This country is based on freedom, and that means freedom for everyone -- not just you! You may leave the room, turn the channel, express a different opinion, etc.; but the world is full of idiots, and probably always will be.
ARTICLE III: You do not have the right to be free from harm. If you stick a screwdriver in your eye, learn to be more careful, do not expect the tool manufacturer to make you and all your relatives independently wealthy.
ARTICLE IV: You do not have the right to free food and housing. Americans are the most charitable people to be found, and will gladly help anyone in need, but we are quickly growing weary of subsidizing generation after generation of professional couch potatoes who achieve nothing more than the creation of another generation of professional couch potatoes.
ARTICLE V : You do not have the right to free health care. That would be nice, but from the looks of public housing, we're just not interested in public health care.
ARTICLE VI: You do not have the right to physically harm other people. If you kidnap, rape, intentionally maim, or kill someone, don't be surprised if the rest of us want to see you fry in the electric chair.
ARTICLE VII: You do not have the right to the possessions of others. If you rob, cheat, or coerce away the goods or services of other citizens, don't be surprised if the rest of us get together and lock you away in a place where you still won't have the right to a big screen color TV or a life of leisure.
ARTICLE VIII: You do not have the right to a job. All of us sure want you to have a job, and will gladly help you along in hard times, but we expect you to take advantage of the opportunities of free education and vocational training laid before you to make yourself useful.
ARTICLE IX: You do not have the right to happiness. Being an American means that you have the right to PURSUE happiness, which by the way, is a lot easier if you are unencumbered by an over abundance of idiotic laws created by those of you who were confused by the Bill of Rights.
ARTICLE This is an English speaking country. We don't care where you are from, English is our language. Learn it or go back to wherever you came from!
ARTICLE XI: You do not have the right to change our country's history or heritage. This country was founded on the belief in one true God. And yet, you are given the freedom to believe in any religion, any faith, or no faith at all; with no fear of persecution. The phrase IN GOD WE TRUST is part of our heritage and history, and if you are uncomfortable with it, TOUGH!!!!
If you agree, share this with a friend. No, you don't have to, and nothing tragic will befall you if you don't. I just think it's about time common sense is allowed to flourish.
Sensible people of the United Statesspeak out because if you do not, who will?
when it rains it pours
got up this am at aroung 7-7:30 (I think)....Mark got up with Brian and they had breakfast and I vegged (aka semi-nursed) Alex for a couple mins....got up, put Alex in his swing and got breakfast (I was STARVING!) Mark headed outside to set sprinklers, and Brian and I stayed in the house :roll: and no, that didn't go over totally well but we managed (he doesn't like getting wet, that water is COLD)
and I run to the bathroom in time to see a huge cloud of dirt, a raised pick-up in the ditch and a sm car sitting crossways in the road with a steam cloud going pretty good (popped the radiator)...Mark is headed down the driveway and I yelled GO HELP I GOT 911! and off he goes at a good trot (he wanted me to know where he was headed)
the guy in the truck was ok and I could see him trot over to the car...obviously HE wasn't under the influence and was ok.....so, the short version is the guy in the car was trapped, and everyone said he was on something (one said something to the effect of the f'ing crackhead is tripping...a neighbor)...he wasn't hollering or anything.....no clue what is going on there....the other guy was just out early going shooting before it got too hot.....his wife :?: and two SMALL kids show up and she is fussing all over him....he made the comment had she or the kids been in the truck he would have killed him (me too, boat races or no there is NO excuse to be out wasted or high in a car) Mark got back after fire and rescue showed up (and police) and it took them a lil to get him extracted...I took a cooler with water, ice, dr pepper (hey, it's what I got!) and cups for rescue etc and it made me feel pretty good to see em running around with the water
and once again, I am seriously battling anxiety.....Mark drives a lil car...NO, he doesn't do it intox or wasted but going mano e mano with a full sized truck or suv scares the hell out of me....
at least I don't need a nap.....nope, higher n a kite on adrenalin still and here it is a couple hrs later....just what I needed
on the other hand, I do have more jewelry stuff....I DO have some stuff to take care of....I need to work on Chimmy's bracelet too....AND Mark and I are seriously talking about an addition
just when life starts to calm down life spins up again
this is not what I need.....I need a drink dammit
OMG, IT WORKS!
check out my siggy it appears to have a link in it :woohoo: I finally got it semi figured out
next: prices!! more jewelry and better graphics
ok at least text with prices....it is mega late and I am gonna suffer for it tomorrow
AND CONGRATULATIONS ROBIN!!!
I hate this house.....and Mark thinks he can make it all better by remodeling and updating
he can go to hell.......I will still hate this house.....it has one of the most stupid set ups known to man....and it is SMALL.....remodeling won't fix that.....it has a big feel in places like the openness from the dining to the living room, but said "open" space makes things difficult to decorate
this house sucks
I wish it would burn down....I just don't want to loose my stuff or my pets
am not having a good day.....and I want to visit harm on Mark as well....not good
and not good just got even better
the sacrificial animal, formerly known as Brian...just got into the Desitin.....it was all over him and the couch...yes, the one I just had cleaned
I am gonna throttle that kid......he dances on my every raw nerve every chance he gets....even Daddy isn't putting up with his antics
hey, at least we had a good dinner....ravioli and sghetti type sauce.....yummmm
wish we had bread sticks....am gonna get some when I go to the store tonight....WITHOUT sacrificial animal
here is hoping you have a better day tomorrow!
ah....the day got better....went to the grocery store and bought an obscene amount of groceries...with Alex in the front pack...Mark took the boy lest I kill him publicly...things went smoothly and some rough looking angel (driving a Ford dually no less :woohoo: ) helped me load them into the truck...bless that man, honestly he made my day
off to Walmart....where 3/4 of the way thru things I wanted to get Alex explodes....OH SHIT...literally....SO I quickly but deliberately get things paid for, forgot a few things, but left anyhow
went home, got it cleaned up *sigh*
what a day, at least it is over
and Robin, I AM SERIOUS!
a chapstick monster resides here.....it finds lil tubes of chapstick here and there and DEVOURS it....
it has red hair
it has been spanked again this am (first time was for chasing and assaulting the cat, second was for assaulting Mom and Alex with the flashlight) and is currently very pissed off in it's bed cuz it DOESN'T have it's binky and it has been told to GO TO SLEEP
I am about to brandish the spoon in it's general direction
hey, at least I am having a better day today....he was oh so careful to fish it out w/o wasting it, and he didn't get that much....guess he likes cherry :roll:
bring it on baby......last night I got some sleep, and today I am feeling better :woohoo:
bring it on!
I should start a ticker....18 days until I get to sit in a very fancy cottage WITH a hot tub IN the mountains, WITHOUT the toddler (Alex yes, Brian goes to G-ma's FOR TWO DAYS :woohoo: )
oh man I can't wait!
well, sleep does do wonders....today had been a hairy day but I am more or less handling it....of course, Brian has been hell on the pets again...this am he was pulling Sockie's whiskers and fur, and this afternoon he clocked Katie with his cup FOR NO REASON....not to mention he head slammed my boobs.....and Alex has been giving me some nipple abuse (we are really working on that STOPPING)
STILL...I am handling it rather well.....ok, I don't feel like I am on the verge of a major meltdown
and been making jewelry at a pretty good pace.....and rather pleased with a couple peices I made.....one was my first try at a tied one, had to totally take it apart and redo it, but it looks GOOD....is a necklace
and yes, will have them on my "website" later on this weekend
and honestly, I really really really wanted Mark to go to Yakima with me tomorrow, but I CAN do it by myself....and I am EXCITED to do so too...I can't wait, and I finally get to meet Robin as well!!
I have this mental pic in my mind...down to the framing...am gonna go over it on paper with Mark tonight to see if I am forgetting anything....it really shouldn't take long, and we are gonna get all my tools in the truck tonight...
damn, wish WE were moving....or at least serious about building....*sigh* guess pining over it won't help
on a better note, 14 days and counting!! Mark was like, does the hot tub mean that much to you? and I was like, um...NO, it is part of it yes, but we are going somewhere, we AREN'T taking Brian, we BOTH will probably really enjoy it, and we BOTH need to relax!
he is working at his "regular" office tonight after his contract job....said it would be another hr at least....he is really good at giving me an honest opinion on my jewelry and I am looking forward to what he thinks of the newest one
dang, I am all but giddy....feels pretty good for a change...gotta love the hormonal swings
oh yeah, and how long am I going to be going bald? ok, maybe not bald, but holy hell, I am loosing a SHITLOAD of hair and it has gone so far beyond annoying...it is EVERYWHERE......yuck!
OMG I just worked up a necklace....ok, reworked! it is looking really good....I am trying to gear up for a bazaar in Nov and am trying new stuff (I have a zillion ideas running around up there, and copies to make as well!)
here is the necklace (the pink one)
here is the threaded one I am in love with! (it needs some finishing still)
and been working up a few bracelets too
oh man...I feel old...I feel tired...I am sore
I FEEL SOOOOOOOOO GOOD I haven't worked like that and felt like such a contributing adult in ages....really sad, but it felt good to BE an adult...and with Alex there (but taken VERY good care of!) I wasn't anxious about leaving him....I am so silly abou t that...geez! and he was SUCH an angel for Robin too...he is RARELY that good for anyone (ESPECIALLY me!)
and it didn't look bad at all.....not fantastic either, but being a cheap job and since I didn't have all my tools hey, IT WORKS!
honestly, on the drive home my total attitude is bring on the addition...I am so psyched about what I did I am ready to tackle a TON of projects....now if Mark could handle Alex I could DO them...of if I had a great babysitter WE could do them
Robin, you should move to Tricities!!!
well, it is getting late....Alex is asleep...Mark is in with Brian and I need to get him to our bed.....he wasn't stressed at all about my being gone all day....other then the $ spent on the washer etc today he was actually happy to see me, and I was rather happy to be seen....NEXT time I really want him to go with...we DO make a great pair, and it only WOULD have taken him and I a couple hrs to get it done
on the other hand, I wouldn't have been able to go play either.....ah well, I didn't as it was and I am sure he was rather happy about that!
I am still running on my feel good fumes.....hope they last a while....I could really use em!
ack...he was up THREE TIMES last night.....think it was gas, not sure what did it, but I DO know I really hate it when I get no sleep....didn't get to sleep til about 11, and of course Brian was up at 7:15...BUT he was om a fantastic mood...his first word was chin-chilla (a tickle the chin word his Dad started)
*sigh* damn but I don't function on lil sleep.....I need a nap....at least I got a nap yesterday....maybe I can get one today!
I wish I could meet Robin! You lucky Bitch!
Ok, here it is all painted! You did good! Keep in mind I am needing to paint the wall!
:woohoo: Looks good!
Why aren't you posting in your journal?
Anyway, I didn't want to hijack T's journal. I think a bday club for us old hags is a brilliant idea. We could do a master list of our addresses and bdays and anniversaries and what not. It is so cool to get something in the mail from someone that isn't someone asking for my money.
cuz every time I go to post, Red throws a tantrum cuz he ISN'T getting cookie dough this morning! NEVER MIND he DOESN'T get it that often, TODAY he is being A BUTT
Alex is being so good this morning....and he actually let me sleep last night, and Brian didn't come in until Alex was up at 2...I am starting to suspect more molars (we only have 2 to go!)
and brace yourselves, I just cooked up my cookie dough :shock: :cry: but on the other hand, I eat way less if I cook it :roll:
anyhow, 9 days til I go tubbin!! :woohoo: AND Mark and I have a "date" tomorrow for lunch...God Bless you Merrick, you are an ANGEL! and altho I like to whine/tease when they tandem nap, I am also very glad they are good for you, lest you STOP watching them
and Kym, I wish you could come meet Robin too, means I can meet YOU! honestly Robin, I can't wait til school starts and the house sells....I am REALLY looking forward to seeing how much trouble I can get into shopping with ya and we can go to lunch at Sea Galley
ya know what? other then that, I really don't have a whole lot to post....that isnt' a bad thing really, it is actually GREAT...it means I got a lil sleep last night and have very little to whine about.....the weather is FANTASTIC outside, hot but not painfully so...Mark has the weekend off (or most of it anyhow) and altho I really wanted to go out on the watercraft, that isn't going to happen.....at least Mark ISN'T threatening to sell them....I haven't been on the water at all this year and that is sad, but doable.....will make it happen ONE time before summer is totally out....and Merrick, you are still invited when we do
well, better go figure out which cat just complained...sounds like Max....Brian is at it again :angry4:
oh cool, he just brought me the ball and asked AWI OUT? TATIE OUT? PLAY BAWL? PWEEZ?
all is forgiven....dang he is so cute sometimes
ok, forget cute...he just got his 4th spanking of the day for one hell of a temper tantrum....for what? for being told no, don't play with the beads etc! WTH IS UP WITH THAT?!?!?! he has NEVER been allowed to play with the bead stuff GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :blowup:
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TOMORROW, WE GO OUT ON THE WATER!!!!!!
ack.....my day with the 2.5 yr old didn't go well....I am fast closing in on needing time and space apart from him.....and Mark has to work over tonight, ick.....
on a good note tho, Chims did get her bracelet today, and I am so happy! made esp for her GOOD news, and should be an appropriate color too (I hope!) AND it got there FAST.....gotta love USPS :roll:
well, here is hoping Mark only has to work over an hr and is on his way
and we are going out tomorrow....both for lunch AND THEN out on the water craft.....oh man I SO can't wait! I NEED THIS! and a good stiff drink :doh:
OH MY GOD!
WE WENT OUT ON THE WATER TODAY!!!!! and altho yes, sex is good, for some reason today water crafting was BETTER! I was out there squeeling and yelling and having a ball, and I wasn't even out long....the Reilly's went with us, so did Merrick and OMG it was FANFREAKINGTASTIC! we even got Brian out with me and later on with Mark!! big craft only...he is TOTALLY hooked and threw a fit when we went out w/o him :roll: THAT'S MY BOY!
and of course, Alex was a jewel as well....and Mark and I got to go on our "date" at lunch time too....Merrick is a GODDESS....oh wow.....and I am SO tired.....but it was SO worth it....came home, had guac burgers, semi fried/sauted zuccini, dip etc....holy cow, it was GOOD
and I showed Cory and the girls my baubles and they were THRILLED...I needed that too....make sure the new stuff is stuff other's like....am gonna make Cory and family etc stuff for Christmas....already know what I wanna do too, and I can't wait...gonna pack up my beads and head to Mom's Monday probably and Mom can watch the boy(s) and Cory the girls and I are gonna have some fun I can't wait......
ya know, the lows are so low, but HOLY MOLY THE HIGHS ARE WAY UP THERE
gotta love life
that and sleep, and it is LATE....>I am off to bed!
oh yeah, will try for more pics tomorrow :woohoo:
peachy...it is 5 :censored: oclock in the am and I am up from a bad dream....gotta love it....
I dreamed they came and took my son (Red) from me and he was happy enough to go....
I really don't need this...what I need is SLEEP
well, Brian's life is going to get pretty darn short if he doesn't stop constantly throwing temper tantrums...he is showing off for Daddy today....that in itself will got him spanked pretty good...at least Mark knows why I am so frazzled when he gets home......I don't know WHAT is up with my boy.....honestly he was really good up til about a week ago
on an up note....the riding lawn mower blew a pulley (pretty impressively too) and the SOONEST we can get the repair guy out was Thurs.....NOT good, we mowed the lawn with the push.....1/2-3/4 an ac is quite a job! HOWEVER, our neighbor, the semi-problem one, turns up with EXACTLY the pulley we need :shock: HOW COOL IS THAT? Mark is gonna go put it together here shortly.....I should ask him if he wants me to do it.....I just don't want him to feel unmanned or anything....that and honestly I am not THAT interested in doing it :roll: I have worked on vehicles PLENTY in my day, and I don't WANT to anymore!
Cindy, just so you know...I am now private
I have FUCK!ING had it with this sh!tty house. just found out that was I was TOLD would take $200-300 for a survey is now $500 and out of reach. what a total FUCK!NG CROCK OF SH!T. it shouldn't take some stupid f'ing goober more then an hr or two with a good gps to determine if that post is ON or OFF.....that is all I need. they don't even have to do the other 3 fuc!ers, I will. and I am not paying some sh!thead that kind of money for an hr. SO, now we can't put fences in w/o the threat of a pissy neighbor taking them out. we can't put on the addition on cuz we don't know WHERE the f'ing easement starts and ends. peachy. f'ing peachy. ALL BECAUSE some d!ckhead can't let go of his past. him and his f'ing exwifes house is too precious to let go.
and to top things off, Brian is back in A$$ mode. he is currently gated into his room for his refusal to take the rest of his nap. would let it go, but EVERY time he has got out of his room (or up from his bed) he has chased the cat, harrassed the dog in her kennel, chased the other one (the one that will bite him eventually if he doesn't quit tormenting her, and I do mean TORMENT), then he wants to poke his brother, throw an tantrum and play with the fan
yes folks, and this is all in the span of about an hr. I haven't beaten him yet, but I am itching to grab the spoon. if I lay hands on him now I am afraid I might hurt him.
the day didn't start out so bad....really it didn't....I even got started on the bathroom cleaning. gotta have the house cleaned up before the house sitter gets here or she feels obligated to do it :nono: and she won't let me pay her so nope, gotta clean it
it isn't like it is a pit or anything, but it sure is getting there in a hurry.
and Brian isn't letting up. I should just call Whistling Jack off, save us the $$ and G-ma's sanity. I don't even really want to go now. too much sh!t to do, never enough time to do it, and even tho we have a sh!t load of savings and a good chunk in the checking I am not allowed to do one f'ing thing. screw this, I can go get a job. SOMEONE has to keep this house up, and PART of that means fixing things like the torn really crappy linoleum and fast wearing carpet. someone needs to get in line with replacing the windows that no longer stay open or seal. SOMEONE has to do SOMETHING or I am f'ing leaving
today is Aug 19, our 5th yr aniversary. I am very pleased that either that day or by this, no one has been killed....5 yrs ago I was going nuts and wanting to kill him cuz he INSISTED on a wedding....yes folks, I WANTED TO ELOPE....I still think that would have been a good idea :roll: anyhow, by now I was awake, think I was taking a bath and shaving etc....Yvonne did my hair for me...Jana and her dh did the sound and it was beautiful. the motorhome was parked at Leslie Park and that is where I got dressed, and my mil and matron of honor (Cory) Mom and I were giggling and cutting up like crazy entertaining my Grandmother. I was terribly pleased she was there, even by then we weren't sure of her health....I started the day off wearing one of Mark's shirts cuz it buttoned down and wouldn't mess with my hair/makeup....yes, I spent the night with him, but no we hadn't had sex for awhile (not nice story but hey, water under the bridge)....
my "surprise" for the day was my brother's best high school friend showed up. David was as much my brother...he was our neighbor for awhile and I was so happy to see him! it was a BEAUTIFUL August day. we got married at the park by the Columbia River. the man that officiated at our wedding was they guy we were going to buy a house from and we had got to know them better, I wish we still knew where they were (Spokane somewhere?) he and his family were there and we couldn't have asked for thigns to go better. the only thing I remember forgetting right now was the lil plastic "goblets" to toast the bride and groom and that was NO big deal, and when Doug, Mark's brother made the toast he had a can of rootbeer. we got a pic, how cute/funny is that? hey, it WASN'T a big deal at all
I remember Jana's son Tanis had pestered a few folks and they caught him and was gonna throw him in the river. Jana laughed and said NOT THE SHOES (NEW school shoes). he was screaming like a little girl and sounded SO scared NOT...he ended up being dunked in one of the big tubs with ice the pop had been in. we wanted things to be laid back and relaxed, so Maurice bbq'd ) along with Gary a then state patrolman, his wife helped with the wedding, they are good friends of my folks, she is a sometime wedding coodinater....they raise(d?) sheep as well and used to go to the folk's church
it was not too bad. the stress and anxiety was pretty intense, but we got thru it. and here it is, 5 yrs later. I haven't killed Mark, he hasn't strangled me...the boys are doing great today, Alex greeted me with a smile, I climbed into BRIAN'S bed for a change this am...before he totally woke up...he thought that was cool and I got a kiss WITHOUT having to ask for the binky
they are in playing with Dad, I can even hear Alex talking
and once again, it is A BEAUTIFUL day outside......we are headed to the mts, gotta call Liz for an eta...for all my complaints about having to do the wedding it wasn't bad...personally I am just tickled we won't have to do it AGAIN
wow, what a night!! BOTH boys slept thru! :shock: I don't expect this to last, even thru tonight, but still.....OMG! Alex got up at 5:30 and Brian wasn't up until 6:30! both boys went back to sleep (actually I sorta went and got Brian, he slept with me in our bed after that) and I got to sleep until about 8:30ish (ok, off and on) but HOLY COW!
man, a taste of life again...I can't wait for this to be NORMAL!
well, Alex isn't sleeping thru the night all the time, but he DID do it again Saturday night, and then last night it was just up once.....Brian came in and crashed on the floor sometime and Mark took him to back to his bed at 3something when I was nursing, and he got scared and RAN back in crying at 4...it was blowing outside pretty good and we did expect it, i was pretty surprised Mark took him back :roll:
HOWEVER, on a much better note WE ARE MAKING PROGRESS!!!!!! my boy has peed several times in the potty...never mind he isn't asking to go YET, he did POOP in it this morning! OMG I can't believe I am so excited about poop! I just about shreiked this am...if I could buy that kid a car I would HEY, at least it is PROGRESS! been working at it all weekend, not giving up now
and more progress...got a wild hair the other day and went measuring for the survey pins I was told was out there...actually found ONE, but it has been hit by (probably) a road grader or tractor...peachy :doh: BUT, measured off that one and FOUND ANOTHER ONE! that that one is OURS and is ON MARK! that means we are putting in a fence this summer and we AREN'T getting raped by some dumb sh!t surveyer! :woohoo:
AH YES, and we ORDERED the linoleum Saturday, it gets laid in a couple weeks when it gets in, so I have a TON of things to get accomplished this week, including taking down a non-bearing wall, moving the fridge etc
AND! I have been ordering an obscene amount of beads as well. I AM going to list a couple of my pieces on Ebay here shortly. sadly, one of them will be the celtic one as it was NEVER paid for, even tho it was special order and yes that has me peeved some. not too much tho, I do like it and might keep it for myself! wish I had time to bead too, but for now we are working OUTSIDE...isn't so hot we are gonna fry Alex in the front pack so out we all go
man, all this in one weekend. it started out VERY badly, but got OH SO GOOD very quickly! AH YES, we went out for dinner Fri night too......that was YUMMY! but I did pay for it :cry: it had peppers and onions in it
guess Alex isn't ready yet.....*big sigh*
I am taking a preg.org break!! I might check journals (lurk) now and then but for now I am going to be mostly MIA
the drama around here is just getting out of hand....and honestly I am sick and tired of everything being Bush's fault....and the back biting, and the drama....I don't remember hearing the whining when Clinton won a second term and I always thought he was an out and out crook/con man....I never voted for him, had so little good to say about him, but not EVERYTHING that happened on his watch was blamed on him.....
enough already......time for em to take a time out!
You go girl! I have to deal w/ it at work all the time and I just want to scream!
I LOVE BUSH AND I AM A PROUD REPUBLICAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Spirits up, at least there are others who agree! :bigarmhug:
well, been an insane weekend! we did find all the survey pins we needed too, and even picked up some rr ties and cement AND actually put one in :woohoo: I also got to play on the tractor awhile, which was so much fun....I know, I am such a weirdo, I LOVE playing on tractors...big or small nothing like the smell of freshly opened earth and diesel in the morning :roll:
and we made arrangements to have a sitter for part of Sat and that went really well, made the most of our tractor rental that way...found not one but TWO damned black widows out there.....who knows how many more there are.....we are going to spray the sh!t out of it later on.....
also had training camp start this weekend and Mark (me to actually!) is really excited about hockey coming back...we are headed to Spokane for hockey for my b-day, will most likely take the boys to the zoo too....I like zoo's, so it works all the way around! make a trip to Maniteau park as well
and Mom came up today...they are back from AK and it is good to get together with her and brave the ever changing almost done remodeling/super sizing Walmart....finding things is a feat unto itself
and the beads......OMG, the beads! I am in on 3 buys so far working on another one....I really am having a blast doing this beading stuff and looking forward to doing more....am still debating on doing a bazaar or not....just not feeling confidant enough, altho I DID get a bunch of stuff for Liz....will see if she will do it with me, I sure hope so but I also honestly don't see it happening!
OH YEAH, we are making SOME progress with PT, AND the last molar is poking thru, just not all the way....he is acting out more now, but we are dealing with it...his biggest problem is not having Mom to himself
I still need to get into a play group.....or something.....we will see!
and with that, I am off to check on my bead boards.....I have a yen to buy MORE BEADS! :doh:
DAMN IT I am NOT a spit up rag! I am so sick and :censor: tired of being spit up on all the fing time! it isn't like I am not covered up, it is like he can find or make a hole and yak in/on it in a split second
and pt....I am gonna strangle that boy if he pees on my carpet....now he holds it til I put his pull up on and then lets the flood gates open.....OK FINE.....he can spend the rest of his bleeping life on the damn toilet for all I care!
the stickers aren't working anymore.......I am so sick of this....I feel....like getting a job and rejoining the adult world....damn I miss work! :blowup:
ya know what I want? I wanna be normal. I want to be able to conquer my house. I want a nice house, not one that is constantly in flux, needing add ons and burn downs. I want girl friends I can hook up with and go shopping with, be frivilous with, go to lunch with and get into trouble with. I want couple friends that Mark and I can have fun with that live here. that have kids about the boys age that they can grow up with. someone we can go camping with and watch the kids eat bugs. have big bbq's with, go to games with. I want a girl friend that wants my company, not just my money and my talents. I enjoy doing things for my friends but damn, the ONLY time I get called now is for what I have or what I can do for them. for ONCE I want my "girlfriends" to call w/o asking for a hand out, ME to pay for lunch or do something for them. I just want to go do something. I dont' MIND paying for lunch (or not) but I hate feeling like they dont' feel like I am worth the effort. can't get Liz to return my call, let alone come over at all. I know she has NO money, and I understand that, but DAYAM girl, we can do things WITHOUT spending $$! I can do that with Yvonne sometimes but it is exceedingly rare, and Mark gets peeved cuz I always seem to pay for lunch. it never used to be that way ya know, she used to pay for mine now and then (she had the $, I rarely did)...but now she is divorced, she does live WAY the hell out there, and that road is SO hard on vehicles, as whitnessed by her constant change in vehicles. that and did I mention she lives way the hell out there?
and I want to get out with my husband more. as in go play...with or without the boys...we are so stressed here it isn't even funny. me with the boys, him with his fear of being laid off....and money...he can never save enough money unless he REALLY wants something. and his Dad having just passed away doesn't help, our vacation was burned going for the funeral. no, I am NOT complaining about going. I am glad we did...we also HAD planned on maybe going to CA or maybe KS (yeah right, I so didn't expect that one, want yes, expect no) to see family. I need to get away from here on a real vacation. I want to remember what it is like to be an adult. to spend time with my husband. to feel like I am not just a huge lactating diaper changing spit up rag.
I gotta do something. the highs are pretty good, but OMG the lows are so bad. I hate this. welcome to post partum, lack of sleep, not getting things doneness
there is much excitement here tonight, seems sweet Nadine (ok, sweet? many things she is, including wonderful, she is spicy, spunky, but sweet?) is going into labor
I worry about her, what she is about to do is the greatest gift, but no matter how much she thinks she is ready to give T that baby, it still isn't going to be easy
honestly I DID dream I went to Boise, I did get to meet the "Cool Canadien". and I worry about her as well. I hope her priceless gift doesn't haunt her, as I know how blessed T will be and how empty it can leave Nadine. I have seen both sides. I hope L&D goes smoothly and N is at peace with everything, knowing how much love and affection Mathew will get cuz he won't be any less loved, but it still isn't that easy
God bless Nadine with peace as much as she has blessed T and J with Matthew
I am so not opposed to what she is doing, I just worry about her.....I think it is THE greatest gift she can give M...a Mom and a Dad together...that is the most wonderful thing to give a child......
I do that well....worry....
well, here I am hovering over Nadine as much as our remodeling is allowing....I am like insanely busy and yet I constantly check in to see how she is doing. I am sure she is tired of me asking how she is doing. I so worry about her...how great is the gift she has given
and I want to give her something. SO, in lieu of knowing what to get her, I am going to anon send her something. I am currently playing some serious IM tag to get her paypal addy, and for those of you that are following what is going on and are interested, PM me and I will give it too ya (yes, this is a shameless plug to help Nadine, and yes I asked first!)
and no one is journaling anymore? either that or I am missing posts somewhere....Kym is out for now, she hasn't called me back! Robin is hard to catch and not online...Tara hasn't even checked in that I know of but I see she has a COOL new siggy good grief, NOT EVEN Sweatpea is journaling! JD is long gone, and can't say as I blame her....and the other two I followed long ago don't either
sad...how am I supposed to be nosey if no one posts?? I miss you all.....really I do
SO, I entertain myself by harrassing IDIOTS that im me for a peep show: see below :twisted:
hesahotty4u: Hi! My name is Jeff. I'm smart, fun, and a nice person. I'm told I'm very good looking and have done some modeling. I happened to notice your profile and was wondering if you'd be interested in watching me?
Ghostess: I see that literacy isn't one of your strong points
hesahotty4u: lol why would you say that?
Ghostess: cuz obviously you DIDN'T read my profile
hesahotty4u: of course I read it, but you can't blame me for asking
Ghostess: I can fault you for asking, what did you read that would make you think I would in any way be interested
hesahotty4u: I saw your picture and I guess I couldn't resist asking...I didn't mean to offend you, I'm sorry
Ghostess: btw, look at the pic, do I look unhappy? NO, I look VERY happy with my life, my husband and my boys. there is NOTHING and NO-ONE worth loosing that
Ghostess: ah yes, but I AM offended
hesahotty4u: well you shouldn't be...lighten up
Ghostess: you shouldn't be out hunting married women, wise up
hesahotty4u: I wasn't hunting married women...I simply asked if you cared to watch. As far as I know, the it's ok to look, but not touch rule is in effect
Ghostess: you are one arrogent PIA, we already went over this....what, your brain doesn't think for you your penis does?
Ghostess: if I want a peep show I can get one here
Ghostess: in person, one I can touch
hesahotty4u: look, I wasn't asking you again ding dong. I was simply explaining where I was coming from
Ghostess: so that would be a yes
hesahotty4u: you're obviously not a good listener, I've already appoligized. Have a nice day
Ghostess: I listen just fine
Ghostess: is one of the things that makes a HAPPY marriage
WTH? WHERE in my profile does it say I am a desperate woman in search of a freak show by some guy with a tiny penis?? geez!
on an up note tho! WE HAVE NEW LINOLEUM :woohoo:
oh good grief, it is so much better then that...is like
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OH MY GOD it looks FABULOUS!!!!!!! REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD
and Mark made the announcement that we are now going to do the counters too :shock: and the new cabinets in the used to be laundry room as well :shock: :shock: ...what we did was take out the wall to the laundry and expand the kitchen....it already looks really good in there! and the new bathroom too...new vanity, sink and counter all in one thing, REAL medicine cabinet/mirror thing and of course the new linoleum....WOWZA!
and I have to go pipe in the silly sink now....I should get going...Mom is coming over for dinner (Dad is working graves) to see tonight and taking Brian home with her :woohoo: and Merrick is coming this afternoon...I SHOULD be able to finish quite a bit...Alex is currently sleeping
haven't been sleeping well myself...got a cold, been dreaming again :cry: but it is all doable...have had one he!! of a ride this week and mostly good, but OMG it looks GOOD (did I mention that?)
will try to post a few pics when I get things done! I DIDN'T lay the linoleum, but we did take out the wall, we did put the pocket door in, Mark revented the dryer for me, repiped the bathtub...I am doing the vanity et al and most of the bath room put back together
OH YEAH, and I also got a necklace put together! and a WHOLE BUNCH of beads as well. the new Yahoo groups are FANTASTIC...I am getting FABULOUS prices on my beads now....maybe I CAN do the bazaar in Nov, and I CAN'T WAIT!
EEK! my boy is actually cooperating with PT!! my big boy is doing surprisingly well :shock:
and got a ton of gardening done today. I should grow mint (as in farm) as I can't seem to get rid of it :roll: did you know mint is a weed?? EVEN in shady areas :doh:
ah well, got it all pulled up anyhow, now for the next 20 yrs I can work on keeping it out, right? *sigh*
and I am feeling.....restless.....so very very restless....and almost ......er.....aimless....I have a zillion things I really need to do, but no drive to do em, either that or when I DO have the drive, I also have 2 boys, one of which always seems to need attention. Alex is growing so fast...that kid is as big as his brother if not bigger :shock: and that does give me some really good fuzzies as he is TOTALLY bf, which after Brian and all my struggles still amazes me!
his hair is comign in too. red of course. I so love it!
and the 6th aniv of my 29th b-day is coming soon. we are supposed to go to Spokane if we can, gotta call Liz for an overnighter! might get to meet Kathleen too :woohoo:
but did you know Spokane doesn't have a zoo?? that SUCKETH...ah well, guess we will still have to hit Portland yeah right, Mark will so go for that, NOT
so much to say, now sure how to put most of it in words......better go check on Alex and dinner....I am not all that good with words today....sheesh
OH MY FREAKIN HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!! ALEX IS HUGE
I need to go check his brother's stats, but :shock: HOLY COW!! he is 18 lbs 11 oz, 28 in and his head 40 somthing, all OVER 95%. as in OFF the charts in the blue area!! ACK...no wonder my back is having fits :doh:
he took his shots very well. I still feel like a traiter, I wasn't going to do shots and here we are doing them. ok, so we aren't going to do some shots, and we did them anyway
is ok, I am going to stick to my guns on one of them. I hate the dr's attitude. screw him, I am the Mom and I think our society is pretty damn shot/pill happy already. he is my kid, I gave him my very best you know where you can go look even tho I am dragging dog tired.
he is still an amazing kid. he slept thru til 7 this am, that is RARE...he complained like 2 breaths (ok, 1.5) and went back to sleep before I could get up to nurse him last night. never really did wake up, maybe a dream? Brian on the other hand got up at 2 I think. Mark ended up sleepin with him
is ok, he is with Grandma tonight :woohoo: and Merrick the angel (yes dear, you are an angel!) came and watched both boys and we went on a "date", had some good serious didn't involve the boys much conversation (notice I said MUCH) and got a bunch of errands run (or is that ran? does it matter? :shrug: )
came home, got everyone ready, oh yeah, the dealer called, we stopped and looked at a 06 Mustang GT. I drove it. OH SH!T that thing is FAST. :drool: never mind they can keep the :censored: thing, way to much $ as we are not at all willing to fork over $680 a month for it....really I was ready to let Mark have it. what the hell are they smoking? :spooked: :jawdrop: :HS: :WTF: they basically weren't going to give him anything on his trade in. what a crock of shit, they sold him THAT CAR. guess we are done looking at Stangs. I wish he would just get a truck. doesn't have to be full sized, but honestly that lil car scares the hell out of me. he is a couple mins late and all I can think of if someone extracting his body from a crunched tin can. how is that for graphic mental pic?
guess I am still a lil post partum? :shrug: :slap:
so anyhow, we have a zillion things to do. some are getting done slow but sure, some aren't. things aren't bad around here, but Mark did notice a huge drop in the checking. instead of totally blowing up, I pointed out how we have been REMODELING and about x has gone to remodeling alone. he doesn't understand that all my trips to HD and Lowes have added up. all those lil parts and pieces cost $, not accounting for the gas etc that is going up, AND groceries going up, and and and
I was so pleased with him. ok, for now...he didn't blow up. he wasn't accusatory. he wasn't a total ass. we talked about it, I am voluntarily going back into mega save mode FOR HIM, and just leave it at that. savings is still bordering on obscenely nice. and we do have QUITE A BIT to show for it. I haven't spend much (if at all) over my budget on beads etc so it isnt that. it isn't that I haven't spent ANYTHING on beads, but I haven't spent $ on quilting OR gardening or even much on clothes for anyone (currently we dont' need any, YET)
now, how long this lasts I dunno. he could melt down tomorrow. tomorrow I could come in looking for a place to go if he gets really bad, but so far so good. my b-day is next week. think I mentioned that already, and already my week is filling up fast. hope so. would be a nice change from the norm.
so, not much else to post. figure this is more then enough, right? :roll: damn long winded woman, I know. always was. hey, you are the one reading my boring journal
sometimes boring is right nice. I remember drama, I remember soap opera. boring is VEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY NICE!