a lil sleep will work wonders. yeah, the lil bugger was up several times last night, but at least he didn't get up and stay that way! I finally gave in and just nursed him when he woke up. he isn't hungary, and he rarely nurses more then a min or two, but he does go right back to sleep. lil bugger. I feel a lil better, but still really stressed out. the bank does have enough docs right now to draw paperwork and we are signing today, so hopefully we can start drawing next week. Mark and I are tentatively planning on going to the Home and Garden Show in Yakima Sunday provided boys are good to go and we aren't too tired/sore/sick
yes Robin, I wanna see ya! will call you later on today
oh yeah, and need to email our new contractor. got that all straightened out as well. and someone to pout the foundation. now we just need to figure otu windows, seamless gutters etc. good excuse to go, right :twisted:
anyway, Alex is in the kitchen. that is never a good thing. maybe more later, might wait a couple days!
well, finally got things figured out. got the specs for the dormer on the house. going to build a spec around it for the addition, can do that with all the stuff we have here now. so, tomorrow I get to head to LNI AGAIN with the proper paperwork
oh wait, that's right. AGAIN. I asked Mark if he knew how to handle the paperwork, he said he would work on it. he wanted to do it so I let it go. he "did" all the leg work for it, talked to the inspecter and "figured out" what needed to be done and "did" it. did it all wrong, Brian stayed with G-ma last night so I didn't have to corral BOTH boys IN the office, just Alex, who is so darn cute :roll:
lil Octopus is more like it
of course, it was ALL WRONG. good news is that altho I did loose SOME sleep, it wasn't like things haven't calmed down the last couple nights. he is FINALLY sleeping thru a lil. so anyhow, tonight, AFTER I go tanning, get groceries, I am going to do the drawing.
guess if I want it done right......GRRRRRRRRRR
I just want to get this whole thing started in the next few days. will settle with what is probably to be weeks, but I am impatient. and it helps to have an attitude on my sleeve. the Silvercrest folks ponied up the "generic" dormer when I asked for it. think he was afraid I wold put Alex down
anyway. both boys are in a mood. Alex didn't want to take a nap and I finally gave up and put him in his crib to cry it out. Brian isn't any better. better go deal with him. he is INSANELY pissed right now that he had to return from G-ma's house. *sigh*
OH ROBIN! you so made my......month!! thanks to our lovely Robin I sold a bracelet. at a good price too. not overpriced, but NO discount either! OH MAN that felt REALLY good. ok, it isn't a done deal yet, but even if it falls thru, for today it feels PRETTY DAMN GOOD!
and going to head to a friend's Mom's house tonight and finish fixing the shower. needed to do that earlier, but it didn't happen :doh:
oh yeah, and Brian is PT. he is even dry most nights now. :woohoo: Alex is learning the meaning of NO NO BABY AWEKS (and working on it and gentle). been a much less stressful weed almost end. loan funded yesterday, found all the info I needed (I think) for the permit, turned it in. will see how it goes from here. have a zillion things to do too.
but hey, at least we are making headway. dug more stuff out of the addition "area" flowerbed. felt good to play in the dirt. annoying that the damn shovel gives ya splinters *OUCH*
still, things are starting to look up. even staked out the new addition. made me feel good. had to stay on top of Brian who was pretty insistant about trying to run them over with his "tractor" (toy)
I work at not involving myself in drama. and I hear about depression. someone is frantic. I see red flags. it sucks me in, I worry and try to figure out what is going on, do I need to do something, prevent something. and I am like WTH is going on. and I get sucked in. like some great sucking maw I get drawn in. after I so worked at getting myself out of most of it. I get sucked in.
I hate that.
I am in one nasty-assed mood today. I shouldn't be, I have 3 "sitters" coming to "watch" Brian and Alex. ok, maybe entertain is a better word. I have my jewelry out there. the permit SEEMS to be going thru. I have things showing up at the house from all the orders so I can make lots more stuff. I love the stuff I am getting.
yeah, there is a lil stress on the stupid bead board, but think it is handled. I like that gal, but sometimes she just doesn't think. ah well, it IS handled
and I honestly don't feel much of a tug here anymore. there are places I want to go and be a part of, but they are pretty much dead. there are other places that are moving but I honestly don't want to deal with the drama etc.
we just need a vacation. or a change of scene. not thinking ID, but maybe a weekend getaway. not to see bro and sil, don't need that sort of stress, but who knows, somewhere would be nice
oh yeah, and MIL and BIL are coming in May. how sad is it I am REALLY psyched they are coming and I don't care about my own family? ok, I wouldn't mind seeing my sister and kids (her dh never comes with) but I am not going to AK to do it, and I doubt she is up to coming down. can't say as I blame her. she lost her baby about a month ago, m/c. she was about 19 weeks when they induced, they figure he was gone somewhere between 14-16 if I remember correctly. Dear God, I don't know how she deals with that. I know I couldn't have!
off on a tangent again.
feeling nasty, I am going to take two advil and get the boys dressed. the girls should be here somewhere between 11 and 12. I am going OUTSIDE to play today.
oh yeah, part of it I think is my indecision on when or how to wean Alex. I want to, I don't want too. EEK
off to go nuts
this lovely bracelet needs a new home! it is $30, free first class shipping shameless advertising. it's almost owner couldn't afford it it is made of Bali Silver and Swarovski. authentic Red Cynders designs
p.s. I can make it in any color Swarovski makes too
my Cindyism for the day
don't ask a question when you REALLY don't want to hear the answer.
and gotta love Teddy
"walk softly and carry a big stick"
can be translated to a Cindyism
why carry a big stick when you have an attitude like MINE?
CALGON TAKE ME AWAY, PLEASE!
we ordered some windows from Home Depot. I highly recommend NO ONE ever do it. it takes forever to get here, they confuze the sh!t out of ya, AND THEN when we got the pretty f'ing spendy casement window home and IN, I realize there is no screen or crank. yeah, they are SUPPOSED to call jeldwen and make it good, but it is now going to take MORE time. what a crock. GEEZ
Lowe's and the local lumberyard is about to become my new home improvement store, this is PATHETIC :angry4:
thanks to Michelle (a semi local person) my new artist of the day is Shakira. I LIKE dance music. NICE!
her voice is so sensual. and the guy.......OH BABY, he has one of those "f" me voices. OUI!
blast from my past. not sure I like it, but I had an inkling it was coming. no clue why either. ex b/f I have very rare contact with contacted me tonight. I had men suck up on my msn, and was listening to shakira. he popped on and asked why men suck. typical, no prelude. I don't know why I talk to him. he poked me a couple times, and he got the same. we aren't even necessarily that nice to one another. is like we know what buttons to push and push em. but, this time, he wasn't as bad as usual. :wtf: he is getting "old" too. 40 yr old wanna be a playboy. guess he is getting tired of being alone. says he found someone, if she will have him. makes me think back to when it was him and I and I hope for her sake he has totally changed. is possible I guess. honestly I am glad he isn't alone. been there, it really sucks too. anyhow, he calls Brian Opie, which I no longer thing is an insult. so I asked if he had seen Alex and put the pic of the two boys and I up.
he said the strangest thing, he said I had some "good looking boys momma"
I about fell over. hmmmmm. maybe he has changed. good for him, I hope she tells him yes.
I am insane. and most likely I shouldn't even talk to him, but I do. I remember the friend he was before he and I royally screwed things up by sleeping together. he COULD be a catch if he wanted. hope he wants!
more later. just.....bowled over by the conversation.
EEK! how busy can a person get? ah well, is good to be busy
this week is no exception. I have jewelry to make, I have an order! :woohoo: Mark me and the boys have been planting lots of stuff, a few annual flowers, trees, and a really good start on a veggie garden! gotta figure out where the pumpkins are going to go. still working on things around the house, all new windows are in, just need to order the rest. Mark needs to finish some trim outside, but they are IN. both of us are working on getting the insides done, but it involves caulk and lots of it. Brian loves to dabble in it tho *sigh* so we are having to be creative! next is to finish plantings, clean up the flower beds, and clean house! OH YEAH, and Sat Mark and I got to go on a date!!! got a new sitter, and I like her
and on top of that, Weds is shearing day. Mom is going nuts. what else is new :roll: Fri we might go play, not sure. Thurs I might head down and work on her yard, will see.
and getting ready to do another quickie buy. real quick. will see if there is much interest!
and for tonight, Ken is coming for dinner. so I had best go figure otu the rest of dinner!
man, what a whirl wind. don't think I mind tho, things are coming together AND starting to look really good
oh yeah, and sMIL and BIL will be here next month! :party: I am jazzed about that too
now, if we can just get the addition done before they get here! *YEAH RIGHT*
oh man, it isn't pretty. I just totally lost my temper. after another night of very little sleep, Brian being brought in WIDE F'ING AWAKE at 6 am, and Alex already being awake.....again.....for the third time.....I knew there was no more sleep. oh yeah, quick update, thought I had a UTI from hell, that it had gone into my kidneys.....it was PAINFUL, I mean, to the point of talking to Mark about going to the emergency room. it was BAD. no UTI. the lil orange pee pills helped, but it WASN'T a UTI. no clue what it was. it was amazingly painful, that's what it was. so I was "out" for two days last week. I mean OUT. day after Mark had his surgery on his knee. THAT went very well. he is doing way better then before he had the scope ALREADY. good thing too. I needed him
Mom took Brian. there was talk of all sorts of thigns, cysts, irritation of this or that, could it be splenda yadda yadda
so instead of being ready for company, who btw is coming a day early, I am scrambing to get there.
so at 6:30 I evicted Brian and hissed at him to go to bed or I would get the spoon. I knew he wouldn't go, but I tried. tried another 10 mins to get Alex to sleep, in vain, and finally put him in the crib and muffled him by "hiding" under the pillow. it is now 8:30. he has been asleep MAYBE 5 mins. he was so mad at me. I about bawled about letting him cio but something has to give. NOTHING else is working. he is STILL nursing, which is ok. he can't have cows milk, which he likes. or cheese, which he loves. and he loves to nurse and I am not taking that away too.
so anyway about 7:45 I hear Brian clacking away in the living room. so did Alex, who HAD been on the brink of sleep. back up he comes. blood in my eye and I am gonna kill him. come out and he is in deep doo doo and he knows it. gets spanked cuz the toy he had he dug out of the work in progress dog room. he KNOWS he isn't supposed to be in there :blowup:
so I send him to his room and told him to GO TO BED, and if he didn't stop his sniveling and crying I was goign to get the spoon. I ended up screaming at him. yeah, give me the good Mom of the yr badge. fork me, I am done. I had to walk away cuz the next step was to lay hands on him. so a couple mins later he starts yelling he has to go potty
and then he goes potty in his pull-up cuz he is mad at me. that got him spanked. again.
he is talking now. I get lil blips now and then about wanting to get up but at least he is talking nice right now
and Alex is asleep
I should let him get up, get a breakfast bar and milk and see if I can get any more sleep. damn, I am SO tired I hurt. I can't do this much longer. I just can't
it's none of your business bitch. the toy in question was an age inapprop toy that was dangerous to his brother, was taken away from him cuz he had CLOCKED his brother with it, AND he dug it out of the dog room where he ISN'T allowed because he almost inspired the dog to bite him, wacked on the cat, and there are some semi-heavy power tools in there. he had to go thru a closed door to get them, and he KNOWS he isn't allowed to go in there
as for the potty, he goes in his pants because he is mad at me, or because he doesn't want to go in the house. you can go to hell. I don't envy the teachers that are going to have to deal with your fucked up kids. and I am in no way hard to find. call CPS. also know in the state of WA I can file harrassment charges.
for anyone that reads my journal, because of angie's fucked up antics my journal is going private. if you want access you are now going to have to ask. there are a few that I can add automatically, but for the most part I don't know who all still reads this.
thanks angie. what a worthless hole.
THIS is why I don't come to preg.org much anymore. what a total crock of sh!t
I don't know what to do. honestly I have had so many people I didn't really think cared ask me not to go. in a way I want to say. I was bawling when I made the decision to leave. this isn't the first time I have left because of stupid shit. yes, STUPID S H I T
damn this place has more bitches and idiots then a soap opera sometimes. a bad soap opera. on the other hand, I ALSO heard from some gals I REALLY care about. many said the same thing. don't go, stay the hell away from the anything board (and debate board) etc etc
still haven't made my decision. I have company. I will keep an eye on things, but for the most part have decided not to post much anywhere.
and I have plenty to say about what has been going on IRL the last few days. away from the pointless drama that is gonna get someone's stupid ass booted. but I digress. will post more later. Mom and Doug are going to leave early tomorrow am and I NEED sleep!
back to life. the last few days have been (for the most part) pretty relaxing, dotted only with the drama here. but we had a fantastic time with Teri-Mom and Doug. the boys were jewels too. we went out on the water craft (jet skis) on Thurs when the temp was 95-100 degrees. we were setting records with those temps, in MAY no less! YIKES! but it was hot enough to go and go we did. DAMN that water was like ice tho good contrast to the air temp, and we had a ball. Brian was ultra cute in his lil life jacket, and is a bear to get off after he goes one round. got to slather both boys up with SPF. Alex learned that walkin down hill isn't near as easy as it looks! he also learned how to totally retract his feet when they touched the cold Columbia River! only did it once, he didn't like it so we didn't push it. Brian was fine with it as long as he was getting on
and then we came home, decided to hit Applebees for dinner. YUMMMMMMM......smothered steak :drool: and Mark picked up the tab. oh yeah, it was GOOD
planned on a bbq for Friday night. Mom and I went shopping. she sure can shop with the best of em! GEEZ :shock: impulse buyer. not me, not that I didn't want too, but I didn't find anything I really wanted. looking for some embroidered capri pants. didn't find any. what is with the cuff look? looks like white trashy to me, tacky and unfinished. yuck. and then we were driving around and talking. she misses Dad so bad. so we ended up driving for a "tour" and I just let her talk. then it dawns on me that that big black cloud rolling in is doing just that. ROLLING IN. FAST
so I called Mom who was at Winco, being undecisive and she will call me back. came home, went inside and 5 mins the power goes out when a WALL of really strong obnoxious wind hits and hits hard. Mom calls. she is in it trying to unload groceries. she is going HOME. so since we have no power, we ended up going to TS Cattle Co. OH BABY, PRIME RIB!!! sweeeeeeeeeeeet! I didn't overdo it too much, REALLY we did watch Nanny McFee too, nice!
now mind you, I have scales now. and with my lil round with whatever that was last week and going to the midwife's office, I knew already I had lost about 10 lbs. goign to try to keep that going. I am feeling pretty darn good about it, and if I can keep loosing, slowly, maybe by summers end I can loose another 10 or 20.
so anyway, Saturday rolls around. more shopping :woohoo: only we took the boys and Doug with us. Doug was nice to have around, the boys were.......well, boys, and not so thrilled so by noonish we were DONE. time to go home *sigh*
so we did the bbq last night. Ribs, mashed potatoes, salad, artichokes, Ken came over....and so did Mom and Dad, brought the strawberry pie. not bad either!
sm piece, but not bad!
so anyway, the got off bright and early this morning. I did manage to go back to bed. slept way longer then I intended but it felt good. haven't got tons done today, but I did get a cake in the oven, mostly for Mark who is off slaving at moving Ken. silly man, I knew he would be doing most of the work and it would take damn near all afternoon. it is. he doesn't learn, but, it could be worse!
Alex is back up too, so I should stop while I am ahead, right? he has been ultra cuddly today. nice! Brian is taking a nice long nap too. am considering pulling out some stones and crystal and creating a few more pieces. made myself and showed Teri-Mom how to make an anklet Friday, and made her a time piece illusion necklace she is madly in love with. something new and I had a ball too. so I am on a roll, maybe I should keep rolling!
Hi Merrick! welcome to preg.org!
stay away from the anything board, the vultures are there to pick you apart1 :roll:
and you are still welcome to dinner anytime you can make it!
WHOA!!!!!!!! so Mark ordered some cabinets here about 4 weeks ago. ones to match what we have. quite a price tag too. :shock: but beautiful! promises to get new countertops and everything! so we impatiently wait, and about 2 weeks ago I had him call and ask, they said only been two weeks, you have 4-6 to go!! *sigh*
so we go on our merry way. Mark gets into work today and finds out that had we been home Thursday (we were out on the water) we COULD have had them Friday!!! :woohoo:
I AM glad we weren't here Thurs, I wouldn't have wanted to have to store them in the garage and drool on them! :roll:
ON THE OTHER HAND! they WILL be here tomorrow!!! :party:
guess I need to head over to the counter place and find us a counter guy! oh man I am SOOOOOOO excited!!
we still don't have a general contractor to get the addition started, but who knows, maybe the counter guy can make a recomendation!!!
OOOOOOOOOO BABY! LIFE IS GOOD! GAME ON!!!!!
Thanks for the Welcome, Cindy!
Wish life was as good with the roomie... she changed something on the DVR not knowing it and it didn't record American Idol or House tonight. And I didn't watch them thinking they'd be on our DVR. Now she's playing Dance-Dance-Revolution (loud jumping game) with her friends.... I hope the manager calls us or the neighbors (with a toddler) come up and complain.
le sigh :?
don't worry, i'll stay away from that board
ok, so TODAY the cabinets come in!!! and I got AAAAAAAAALLLLLL excited! Mark came home and I am all but frothing at the bit. started dancing about, pestering him....had dinner started, but not at all close to finished. he decided to humor me. I now have 3 of the 5 cabinets in. oh yeah, and we ordered a new fridge :woohoo: DANG it looks pretty damn good in there! got things rearranged, put the over the fridge cab in as well
HOLY SHIT it looks FANFREAKINGTASTIC IN THERE!
so now I get to go thru some of my stuff out in the garage that has been packed away for EVER and load some things up. I FINALLY have a drawer for pot holders, towels and wash rags. also going to put the measuring cups in the bottom, the knives in the bigger drawer......rearrange a lil. buy holy cow, it looks TOTALLY different in there! we got an 18" 3-drawer base, a single (20"?) upper and put the over the fridge back. the two left are the utility cabinet and the base on the other side, but that has to be cut down FIRST. *sigh*
and we are "negotiating" the counter tops. might drag Mark down to Lowe's tomorrow to see stuff over there. silly boy hasn't been listening to me :nono: they have everything we need to do it ourselves
he was surprised :doh:
we sorta have the weekend project figured out. oh yeah, gonna surprise him, on Friday Dad is coming over to put in the RO system with me, Mom is gonna watch the boys (ok, I gotta ask about that one!)
so anyway.....been a very very full and eventful couple weeks. and very relaxing, and very enjoyable!
now if the ducks would just nut up and play better hockey.....looks like the oilers are going to play Buffalo. is ok, I ma good with Buffalo too!
YAY for new cabinets and a kitchen that's YOURS finally! I can't wait to see it!
I'm ok with Buffalo, but I'm with you, Come on, DUCKS, get in the GAME!
I love you honey and I am so sorry for all the shit those wenches put you through! What a freakin crock!
((((HUGS))) and kiss the abused boys for me!
WOW, I have most of the new countertops on, and OMG they are GORGEOUS!! gonna go meet with a friend of mine for lunch today. she sold one of my anklet's to a co-worker and we are doing the meet and greet with her new beau and make the delivery
and of course, have GOOD LUNCH
anyway, we got what I hope are going to be sufficient plans to take down to the city to get the permit to get started on the addition. can't find our plot plan now, but I can make another one, no sweat. and of course they want everything in duplicate. oh nice. what a crock o shit
but we are on the verge of getting started on the addition! :woohoo:
shouldn't be long now
and yes Robin, I gave my abused boys kisses and hugs. in fact, my overly abused oldest came in this am and we played on our bed. under the covers, out of the covers. everyone was laughing and giggling and he announces "I NEED A KISS! AND A GOOOOOOOOOD SQUEEEEEEEEEZE HUG!!!"
she can kiss my now getting nicely tanned ass
WE GOT IT!! ok, we had it, then we had to get the truss thing going, and decided to make the addition 16x16 instead of 12x16 cuz the city said we coudl go another 4 foot :woohoo: but we will HAVE the permit SHORTLY!
and sitting in my back yard is a jack hammer and a "Termite" also known as a lawn mower on steroids with a front loader and a back hoe on the back. SWEET! already got to play in it :roll: Mark is working with the jack hammer. damn that man is sexy when he is workin, how silly is that? boy, God sure knew what he was doin when he put that bod together. NICE! :drool:
and the boys.....poor Alex...has a constant constipation problem, so I went ahead and made his 1 yr apt. ok, is a mo late, but I wasn't going to go at all. dr made several suggestions. we are working on it. if we can't get it resolved, there are meds to help him out. but he is still one BIG boy. his wt is dropping really fast but he ist STILL over the 90% on the rest. we are trying to move him into Brian's room. it isn't going well, but we are trying!
and for Father's Day, Mark got a compressor and a rolling tool chest from Sears. I was going to get him a NICE one, but our compresser died so.......ah well. he is pretty happy with both, so I am not complaining!
anyhow.......as soon as Mark gets back with the ear plugs he is going at the jack hammer again
I am gonna go drool watchin til it is time to get back on the tractor OR Alex wakes up. either way, betting today is gonna be a good one!
tomorrow, Tues am, a family friend and his grand kids are coming to dig the foundation for the addition. the truss place is going to fax over the truss plans, and we are going to finish the new plot plan measurements and get them down on paper, turn it in to the city and pay for the permit. I am SO excited. I couldn't hardly sleep last night. nto good, made me feel downright NASTY by this afternoon. went at lunch to get Brian, have good Mexican food with Mom and pick up Dad's tractor. rented a trailer to get it too, $30 is def affordable. and it wasn't a termite, it was a terramite and a total POS. no power. we made due mroe or less, but is also why we have Dad's tractor now! had GREAT Prime Rib for father's day, Mom and Dad came for dinner, it was GOOD. Mark ate damn near a lb of prime. yup, he liked it I guess :roll:
and we got the constipation thing figured out. dr suggested oil of some sort, I have castor and olive (and olives) and they work fine. he is at that point and grunt stage. dang he is gonna be into everything shortly. only reason he isn't now is cuz he can't reach EVERYTHING.........YET
Brian is getting back to a semblance of control. we just need to work on a few issues. like coming in the house. not playing on the tractor. not wacking his brother with his new spiderman chair *sigh*
we gave up on moving Alex out. it was beyond bad, we weren't getting ANY sleep. we will work on it gradually I think. we are getting there. or we will eventually. Brian wants in the crib now. geez, can't win for loosing
gotta slow down a tad on the jewelry. funds are being eaten left and right with all the remodeling. is ok, I have enough right now for a push for another place to list. OH YEAH, my earrings will be worn by one of the Miss Tricities pagent members!! Miss Merrick (HI BABE with the REALLY cool earrings!) has an ultra cool pr I made her, I LOVE those things! considering making ME some in blue.......hmmmmmmmm
here they are!
and been busy, here is my bucket as a whole. thinking of doing a ladybug anklet or bracelet for a member here. will see how that goes!http://s9.photobucket.com/albums/a58/Ghostess/jewelry/
The earrings are even MORE beautiful in person! They're PERFECT. I'm pretty much in love with them! (don't worry, Brian, I'll always love you more than earrings!)
Thank you so much, CIndy! looking for earrings was something I was really dreading you make things much easier
I have so much to say....and yet I have so little time to say it. addition is going good. business is......going.....I am tired this am but ready to "assault" my day I guess, will see how long that lasts, I might take a nap with the boys later on!
will try to update more later on. haven't been here in awhile!
never mind ducklings can't fly, they don't have flying feathers! Wonder Pets is just wrong on just about every level. and I am dying to throttle MingMing.
addition update, only 2 partial sheets of T-111 to go up to finish, almost half the roof is on. most of the electrical "issues" are fixed. and I am dying to get out there and do SOMETHING. yesterday, when the boys took a nap, I took off my "Mom hat" and put on my "roofers hat". turns out it bothers me less to go on the roof then to go under the house. never USED to bother me. since when did I become such a wuss when it comes to spiders?? GEEZ.
and the R girls are coming over to entertain the boys. not sure if I should hack out something on the roof or addition or just clean house. this place is a pit. on the other hand, much of the "pitness" is cuz of the addition, or lack of, and all of it's stuff.
oh yeah, this is how it will happen: once we get the roof on, we are good to go on finishing. so once it is done, we are ready for LNI inspection. then we finish the plumbing (sewer pipe is almost there already) and the HVAC (won't take much there either) and call the City out. once we are good to start finishing work, I can do that even with the boys. stapling up insulation won't hurt anything, and for drywall I can do SOME of that, just gate the boys in the house. so once we get to that point, it should MOVE pretty quick. am REALLY hoping to get things really moving once we can start the finishing. oh yeah, and I am installing the floor myself too. tile! how cool is that? I can't wait. sooooooooo close, and yet so far!!!
I wish I had a week off of work so I could come help with the boys and the TILE.... i dunno what it is about grouting, but i LOVE IT. lol.
then we can have a tiling partay! have the addition floor to do, and the back splash for the kitchen counters!
well, I am getting back on the roof PROVIDED I can haul the tin sheets up there. oh fun. this should be........INTERESTING
there are days I need to remember how blessed I am
I am very blessed
I have a wonderful husband
--yes, even when he is sick
I have 2 usually pretty good, very cute, very healthy, very headstrong boys that are smart and full of life
--even when I feel a need to sacrifice one for doing a "just how far can I push Mom today" routine
I have a decent house to live in
--even tho it is "just" a mobile home, even under construction
we have a great place here
--even when I have to weed my multitude of gardens
we have a multitude of gardens, both productive (veggie) and beautiful (flowers)
my husband is gainfully employed and he is a great provider
--even when they play useless mind games and he is stressed about it
--gainful employment ISN'T in Idaho!
I have at least one set of parents close by
--even when Dad does his "man/master" impression
--even when Mom flakes out
I have a MIL, tho not Mark's birth Mom, she is MY MIL, she isn't psycho, nasty or spiteful
--even if we don't always agree, it isn't a problem, we just......agree we don't agree!
I have some good friends. no make that REALLY good friends!
--both online and IRL. I am getting to know Yvonne and her family better and that is a wonderful thing! I am spending time with Cory more too. She is my "stolen" sister, and I love her like one
two words will say it all
need I say more? starts SOON
here is a strange one:
I have a messy house. not dirty, MESSY. it is a sign of the usually pretty good, very cute, very healthy, very headstrong boys that are smart and full of life that have a sometimes strange sense of adventure and imagination.
I should post about my Icky Robot. that would be Brian. I have NO clue where he got THAT one!
SO, even on a morning where I got up at 5:30, and dealt with a dual pronged assault that prevented more NEEDED sleep (and an EARLY morning tandem nap). I need to remember. remember that I am blessed. not just by the nap, but in life.
I need to remember that cuz I need to get back to work on the addition. and I am worn out all ready. is not too bad tho, am waiting on an inspection from LNI for the roof. it is on. we have darn near 3/4 of the insulation in the walls, 1/3 of the ceiling. can't do more ceiling until we get that inspection. Mark called the Nazi Inspector at the City and altho the news was IRRITATING it is doable. will post more about that later. but for now I need to make sure Brian goes back to sleep and get back to work on the insulation in the addition!
dang, this thing scared me for a moment! it wouldn't let me in :shock: EEK!
well, I have a zillion things to update. will do the important stuff when I am more awake tho, right nwo I am pretty wasted. Alex is teething. 5-7 teeth, two of which are fangs. *SIGH*
anyway, I do what I usually do when I am tired. I poked the sleeping dog. yup, I im'd my ex. only today I wasn't all peaches and cream. yeah right, like I am anyway. but I poked. I asked him WHY we should stay in contact. I should delete him from my list but last time he popped in it really spooked me. he didn't have a reason. I don't really have a desire to yak with him anymore, altho it would do my ego tons of good to hear I was the one that "got away". more like threw away. he won't be darkening my door, I don't want to see him anymore, I don't know WHY he would want to see me. we have nothing in common, we have nothing to yak about, and he irritates Mark to no end when he talks. so we don't. but it bugs me half to death to see him log on, and I want to delete him. but I don't. I don't like being blind sided, and that is what it does to me. :angry4:
see? this is why I don't post when I am tired. I usually just stay off the puter all together. it ends up being stupid and I regret it. I have so much other things to talk about. he didn't "get away" I left. he didn't want me til I was gone and that irritates the hell out of me.
what a stupid thing to do. :nono:
I need to go to bed. bet tonight isn't going to be too good either.
but here is a quick teaser for (hopefully) a soon entry:
the addition is mostly drywalled, we picked out the tile, the outside is mostly done! it looks FANFREAKINGTASTIC!
THE BOYS: Alex RUNS to Mama to give her hugs, and doesn't want anyone else. that really has it's good side and bad. he is still nursing. not sure how I feel about that. sometimes it is fine, sometimes it is annoying. Brian is a chatterbox. smart lil kid too. no, not proud at all.
my Husband: we haven't got along this well in awhile, and we are feeding off each other. however, something is up with his health. yes, I am worried. I still have the greatest hubby on earth, greatest for me anyway
my jewelry: I gave my first class! I LOVED it, it went great! Robin, the class I gave was for your bracelet! WOW, I am hooked. also signed up to do another one or two
life in general is going well. insane, hectic, tiring, but really good
so, why do I need to poke sleeping dogs? *smacks forehead*
I am going to bed. I need too. it is really late enough, and I am going to regret it in the am
oh yeah, HI MERRICK! you should come over soon
oh yeah, GAME ON! hockey pre-season starts in a week! WOOHOO!
so, I guess I can't say nazi (that should say na zi) on here? where did emphatics come from????
INSPECTOR NA ZI INSPECTOR NA ZI INSPECTOR NA ZI
hehehehehehe, it is 11:15 and I am going slightly nuts
OFF TO BED!!
wow, so much going on!
Alex runs now. I don't mean a fast walk either, the lil bugger RUNS. and teething like crazy. not sure who needs the drink more these days, Me Mark or Alex for that matter! looks like 4 premolars coming in and 2 top fangs. could be more, not sure anymore. thought there was a bottom fang or two but..................
but he is in 24's now, fast approaching 2T. his feet are WAY bigger then Brian's. and periodically he all but grows into them! :shock: he is also chattering up a storm, but not much is understandable. he and Daddy were reading "Barnyard Dance" and he was stomping, clapping and bowing thru the book. we will have twirl and spin pretty soon too I bet! Mark was saying there was a "baa" and a "moo" at one point too, but you know kids, they won't repeat anything when you want
and temper. HOLY COW, I have nothing on that kid. he can zero to flame on in a second. oh boy, I know where he gets that one, NOT GOOD!
and Brian wow, he is picking things up really quickly too. he knows some of his numbers, we are working on letters. got him a dry erase board to practice. he is all but grown out of his 4's too! he fixates on things too. oh fun. I THINK he is off the binky. that took some doing. we cut the end off one of them and that is the only one he gets. Alex will put it in his mouth and play with it and that drives him nuts, but he won't even put it in his mouth. he goes off on a tangent now and then about fixing it but for the most part we are done.
and the conversations we have are.....mind boggling sometimes! he tells me all about different things, like the train. anyone that asks he will tell about the Mt Hood Train we rode, about the caboose, the "robber", the red caboose that we rode in the top, the loud horn, the engine. he loved it. I about died of heat stroke, but hey, I would do it again for the boys in a min. oh yeah, the "Big Icky Robot". one morning he comes up to me with the Cosco Wipes on his head. looking out the lil handle hole and announces, "MAMA! I AM A BIIIIIIIIIIIG ICKY ROBOT!!!" and runs away giggling. I have absolutely NO clue where that comes from. NONE. he even makes zzzzzzshhhhhht Robot
abused my butt :roll:
and the boys will play with each other now and then. both have learned to "tickle". sometimes it is more painful then I would like, but.......any sort of together play is much appreciated. they will "assault" Mama and I get zerberts from Alex and "tickles" from Brian. we run thru the house, someone yelling "RUN RUN HIDE HIDE" (OR babbling), jump on a bed and dive under the covers. the mayhem begins then. oh man, I never thought it could be this much fun! and Alex is still such a lil lover. never mind he has learned to try to climb into my shirt, we still play lots!
ack, but the smoke around here. so many fires, Alex and I are paying the consequences. we have started leaving the windows closed at night, and it seems to be doing the trick. is nicer in that we aren't as stopped up but nasty cuz we can't open up. the haze is thick too. YUCK. seems sometimes like half the state is on fire! ah well, this too will pass. but we need rain. lots and lots of rain. won't get it, this is after all, a desert!
and the addition! we took a sort of sabatical for the last week, not doing much. the drywall needs doing of some sort. not sure what sort, but SOME sort. I don't wanna, but the itch to get back at it is here. so, in short, we have the foundation in, the floor in, walls up (all but the N one) and ceiling on, the tyvek went up pretty quickly, as did the sheeting and the drywall. the roof looks great, and I actually got up there and worked on it. I really amazed myself! the electrical and plumbing is in. the doorway is now HUGE. the "only" thing we have left to do is the N wall, get it inspected, drywall it and tape and texture. need to put the floor in, the cement steps and paint. the cable, high speed internet and phone wire is run but not hooked up (will see how long that one takes, not too worried about it yet) oh yeah, we need to rerun the drain for the a/c. the dryer is already out there, cuz it has it's new exhaust and having it vent into the addition made it ultra hot. oh yeah, we have the HVAC run as well.
and the jewelry front. OH WOW, I like giving classes! WOOHOO. I did my Swarky bracelet and it was fun. I probably way underestimated the cost of silver, but hey, I had fun, sold stuff and we are in the process of working out Class #2 and 3!! I NEED to get away from the addition and get started getting ready for stuff. I have a friend in FL that is doing a show and I am SUPPOSED to have several pr of earrings for her, only have a couple :nono: also looking into a bazaar in Kennewick on top of the one I am already signed up for. I would LIKE to do 3 or 4 at least. wish I could find one more I WANT to do in December. will see how that goes tho, mostly I just need to get back at it and gear up for them. but, I am having a ball doing it, AND I am now a moderator on my bead group. no clue if that means anything or not, but I am enjoying being a very active member over there. I do buys on a semi regular basis, which is insane trying to do the addition on top, but I am making it! and all that silver and Swarovski being delivered here for my "fondling" is wonderful. then I send them off to their new "parent". I know what to order next time that way, but I need to QUIT doing that. I am being overrun with beads. okokok, I do have a means to an end. REALLY. I want to have a SMALL bead shop someday. think I might be able to do that at this rate tho, I will be heading to Tuscon one yr soon, and some of the Silversmithing classes as well. OH BOY, I can't wait!!!
oh yeah, one last thing on my marathon post
I am still nursing. yeah, on one hand I want to quit. on the other I don't. Alex certainly DOESN'T want to quit! he still can't drink milk much. milk products still back him up, altho we keep that under control with the olive oil. after all, he is my last baby, and altho it is (sometimes) a royal pain, most of the time..........I still enjoy it. we will see how it goes. I am waiting for the teething to stop
ok, the boys need me, and Alex is trying to crawl into my robe :shock: :-?
OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY
MARK GOT HIS CONTRACT RENEWED FOR ANOTHER, NO IDAHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't tell you how stressed the two of us have been, we really thought we might be. but NOOOOOOOOOO, his contract for Hanford is renewed for another year, I am SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!
THERE'S MORE THERE'S MORE! IT'S FOR TWO YRS!!!!!!!!
OMG, I am gonna start bawling again :roll:
ok, I had to post this in my journal. it was too good NOT too!
Fairy Tale for Grown-Up Girls
This is the fairy tale that should have been read to us when we were
Once upon a time
in a land far away,
a beautiful, independent,
happened upon a frog as she sat
contemplating ecological issues
on the shores of an unpolluted pond
in a verdant meadow near her castle.
The frog hopped into the princess' lap
and said: " Elegant Lady,
I was once a handsome prince,
until an evil witch cast a spell upon me.
One kiss from you, however,
and I will turn back
into the dapper, young prince that I am
and then, my sweet, we can marry
and set up housekeeping in your castle
with my mother,
where you can prepare my meals,
clean my clothes, bear my children,
and forever feel
grateful and happy doing so. "
as the princess dined sumptuously
on lightly sauteed frog legs
seasoned in a white wine
and onion cream sauce,
she chuckled and thought to herself:
I don't freakin think so.
wow, 36 yrs. and life is just getting better
I don't know why, but for the last couple of days I have been thinking of my great Aunts (Grandma's sister etc). when I was living with G-ma (if I haven't mentioned this a thousand times she and I shared a b-day) on my 23-24 b-day....the phone rings. G-ma answers, says something to the effect of "oh thank you! *giggle* yes, yes, then I don't want to talk to YOU! *LAUGHS*" and hands me the phone. Faye and Edie both sang me happy birthday. silly, but I was touched. I know I know, touched in the head this morning I called someone from my beading group. the new Vintage Rose color is avail, the buy closes today and I wanted to know what she wanted before she hits the hay (she is working nights)
she sang me happy birthday. I about cried.
gotta love being hormonal. isn't being a woman grand?
might go to the fair today with Mark. he was going to see if he could get the day off. I certainly hope he can. I wanna spend the day with my honey!
they are grieving, leave them alone. they don't want media attention, just leave them alone
stop trying to turn their deaths into a 3 ring circus, this ISN'T entertainment
I am tired. I am sore. but we have half the hardibacker on the floor, probably get the other half today and MIGHT start tiling tomorrow!! just finished one huge bulk bead buy, got quite a few Swarovski, just in time for the insane season to start. have a demo/class Sat at the Women's Expo. NO BOYS :woohoo: next Saturday I have a "real" class. I have a bazaar coming up pretty quick too. GAME ON! we have HOCKEY! has been one he!! of a start to the season, FANTASTIC! IF we get the tile going really well, we MIGHT get started on the cement steps Friday (I really doubt it tho, I will need to be able to move on Saturday :roll: )
and I am sitting here listening to Serious Big '80's
dang, feeling old. I am officially refusing to let go of my youth *sigh*
AH WELL, it is good music
boys are doing.......ok
we are dealing with 2 HUGE attitudes. unfortunately they have nothing on me, but together. YIKES.
house needs a good cleaning too, but with all the construction thigns are......disjointed, disorganized and I am going NUTS. getting there tho. as soon as we get the tile in, I can get back to work on the kitchen and then VOILA! as soon as we get the cement in, OOOOLALA, it will cut the amount of tracked dirt in by MORE then half! HOORAH!
and feeling.......clausterphobic here now. we went looking at houses Sunday. Mom had the boys. we actually found houses (in town blech) that we could afford. BUT, they are large, FINISHED, and nice. SWEET. ah well. nothing that really reached out and grabbed me.
dang, now I am thinking I want Sirius in my truck. this is some GOOD stuff! Pat Benatar and all
wow, preg.org didn't like me for a bit!
anyhow, things are going pretty good. still hitting the sirius music, how pathetic am I?? :roll: ah well, I like it, I can be "old" if I want too!
the boys are doing well. we are working on weaning the lil one, my nipples have had MORE then enough! OWIE
on the other hand.....the tile is all done. LOOKS wonderful!! Mom and Dad are coming over tonight for dinner, in part to admire some more is good tho, is Mark's early day too. this weekend we are going to work on painting the outside, making arrangements for the cement steps, and some more work on the drywall. I would say we are a week or less from moving the washing machine into there too. means I can get BACK to work on the kitchen and that has me ALL SORTS of excited!!
but.......it is a lil bittersweet. all I can think is how proud Grandma would be. not just the addition, but the boys. she has been on my mind of late, and here it is 4 yrs later. I still miss her terribly. ah well, life goes on. the boys are a comfort. I am not catholic, but I still "talk" to her sometimes. not praying, just......thinks like I hope she can see.
so, now that my blah day is turning blue, I am getting back off. guess we have a Walla Walla person here now, how cool is that? more WA people. might be headed to Seattle next weekend, we will see. have to find a house sitter FIRST. *sigh*
gotta go referee. the boys are at it with the dogs again :angry4:
well, I finally posted pics of the addition!! how COOL is that?
OKOK! I DID IT!
I downloaded some "pertinent" addition codes
worn out boys (one of my favorites)
taken spring before we broke ground (I think)
facing the S side of the house post addition
our new back door, cool, eh?
got the drywall up finally
our tile, please don't mind the drywall dust! I was snapping pics as he sanded, he wasn't impressed :roll:
you can kinda see our pretty door here, and my sucky drywall job
a close up of our BEAUTIFUL tile! we did a pretty darn good job!
we paused to give the boy a much needed hair cut, dang isn't he cute!
post copied from the WA board!
dang, I have two rather handsome boys
looking at this
and it struck me as really really really cute
and Alex is getting really cute too. and he is SO snuggly. I LOVE snuggly babies, and now he gives "kisses" too. oh man, how lucky can I get?!?!?!?!
well, I did it. last week I bit the bullet and went in for my annual. not that late I realize, but.....I knew I wasn't pregnant and I have been agonizing about getting the shot (or not). not cuz I need to to prevent preg, but cuz it makes my hormones not as bad. been having some anger issues lately. I realize some of that has to do with the lack of sleep and stress, and my periods make me soooooo pissy, close sometimes to just psychotic. things I have a tenuous hold on tend to get out of hand, like Mark and his oldest son and the whole situation. not to mention, it's a period. it is miserable, it hurts, it's irritating, messy......ya know, A PERIOD! yuck. was afraid of depression, but not near as much as some of the side effects, like something that I can't change for at least 3 months. and after a pregnancy nothing is the same, kwim? and I hate that my hair has fallen out massively. and it COULD make me dry up (sort of a double edged sword too). yeah we are wokring on weaning, but.........I dunno. and then there was that moment of waiting for the pregnancy test. I was......almost anxious. what if I were pregnant? what if I weren't? Good news tho, heart murmer was totally preg related and is gone. no I wasn't pregnant (yes it is a good thing, baby fever or not, being preg hurts, and I WORRY, to the point of obsessively)
so I got the shot. still rather angry today, having trouble holding on to the dragon. had to put Brian to bed lest I get out of control. Alex is being pretty good, and Brian is making up for it. he got into HUGE trouble yesterday for wacking the cat with his tracks. took ALL of them away, it wasn't fun, he was wailing. he got swatted for it. he had issues this morning but is currently being ultra cute. works for me. we had a talk about what Christmas is about. yeah, like it sunk in, but hey.......we did talk about what happens if he isn't good (like we will follow thru, we ALREADY have gifts for him!)
SO, Alex is still asleep. he has been a tad angry at me for weaning him. we are down to USUALLY no more then twice a day. altho sometimes his mornings are more then once. he is sleeping a LITTLE better, but on the other hand, the teething thing is getting better. we have a bit of a head cold coming thru and as long as he gets meds he goes back to sleeping better. SO, over all things are getting better. slowly, but surely. things are settling down
good thing too, I have a class this weekend, a bazaar next. oh boy. this is gonna get hairy in a hurry!
I gave a class today, and while I was gone, Mark got all the plastic up over the windows and 99% of the prep done for the walls. when I got home, had lunch, got the boys down for nap and he is out finishing the last of the texture on the walls!!!!!!!
dang it looks really good out there! REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD! PAINT TOMORROW! if it dried enough I might start today. HOPEFULLY by tomorrow we can also get the baseboards up, and MONDAY or TUESDAY I can start moving in!!
well, paint is up. ceiling too. cabinets are in or about where they go, I need to go get two more (I think, will see about #2. the washer is now out in the addition with the dryer, the old sucky cabinet is out of the "kitchen". tomorrow I am goign to work on the wall behind it, and then clean up and move the metal cabinet and figure out how to put up some bifold doors. and get all the drywall dust off of everything. and it is on EVERYTHING, yucky! anyway, if we don't kill each other fighting first, Friday we are goign to start decorating, IF things are cleaned up enough, will see. maybe he can work on the outside and I can clean the inside. will be interesting, and COLD. got the microwave OUT of the dining room (how dumb in that for placement? fighting gets things done tho, I have wanted that thing OUT of there forEVER!!!)
ANYWAY, also wanting to get the last new cabinet in the kitchen. trim up on anything we can get up. need to find a cement contractor or do it ourselves. ready to do it ourselves, want it done NOW. dirt in the houe is driving me NUTS!!!
OH HEY, walked past the nwo mowed flower garden SLOWLY, as I have a couple now very happy bulbs coming up!! no, not flowering, but......stalks. typical for bulbs. weird, but typical! COOL! weird but really cool
now, I just NEED to get the dirt down. driving me NUTS. and I want to get a new rocker/recliner too. this is pathetic. I NEED something that rocks, that I can comfortably sit in, or him, and have the boys too. jeez, we NEED a chair! off to Hermiston I guess :roll:
we aren't doing good.
but it doesn't matter
I had a post written up, but it just doesn't matter
he always wins
I don't know why I even try
something silly to do. am bored, right? ok translation: I don't want to do something, namely rearranging and deep cleaning and reorganizing and work on the addition (it's all connected) *SIGH*
so anyway, I did a quick search on palm reading. yeah yeah, I don't put stock in this stuff, but it is funny to me anyway.
so this is what I found:
Sun Line - parallel to the Fate Line, under the ring finger; believed to indicate fame or scandal
Union Lines - short horizontal lines found on the percussive edge of the palm between the Heart Line and the bottom of the little finger; believed to indicate close relationships, sometimes - but not always - romantic.
SORTA. not sure how to translate this, but I have WRINKLY hands. looks like it to me
Mercury Line - runs from the bottom of the palm near the wrist, up through the palm towards the little finger; purported to be an indicator of persistent health issues, business acumen, or skill in communication.
CHECK, altho it isn't a solid line. this one rally amuses me, altho I guess I could say I have persistent health issues, I am well aware of my lack of business acument and skill in communication
Travel Lines - these are horizontal lines found on the percussive edge of the palm between the wrist and the heart line; each line is said to represent a trip taken by the subject - the longer the line, the more important the trip is to the subject.
ummmmmm. sorta. and I should have them, I haven't traveled internationally but I have traveled the US quite a bit (even to Canada a couple times)
is interesting, my "Sun Line" splits, and I don't seem to have a divided "Head Line" and "Heart Line", it's connected and splits under the middle finger
SO IT'S OFFICIAL, I am screwed up. probably totally
oh yeah, and it seems I have a long life line, so it means I will be a bane on someone's exsistance for quite awhile :roll:
OH OH, ok, no line of mercury, but my sun line does split. seems if you don't have a line of mercury you are pretty healthy (ok, that is normal for me anyway)
looking at two different sites, one makes more sense, one has the diagram which makes more sense.
man I haven't examined my hands like this in awhile, think I can make out the difference between "head" and "heart", they intersect. thinking this would have been WAY easier to do when I was a lil younger, before I had massively abused them (ya know, milking cows, workin in fields etc etc etc)
I am feeling goofy. almost depressed, but keeping busy so it doesn't really catch me. guess there will be no more depo shots in my future. this sucks more then the rage did. and I am getting some minor break thru bleeding too, probably attributed to having the shot about a week before my period was to start
what a day. ok, I have procrastinated long enough. not looking forward to the Christmas mess. I told him not to get me anything, but I don't count on him to listen. it isn't like he ever does