So many emotions...no longer my own
I am starting this journal b/c I wanted to have something to show baby when s/he's old enough, to learn about her/his parents and what we went through while pregnant. I also wanted to have a place where I could leave my thoughts without being drawn and quartered for them. I have already started a Blog for my family (Which is censored) and at the beginning of the pregnancy I was pretty good about writing to baby using MS Word, but I haven't been as good lately. I seem to be on prg.org all the time anyway, so it seemed like the smartest thing to do.
I am 21 weeks and 5 days pregnant today. DH and I had a minor setback last night...we didn't get to see our baby. We were scheduled to see baby at 4:30, but Doc got called into L & D. The post from the Feb 2006 board is as follows:
OK...so baby is still a surprise. DH and I get there 10 minutes before my appt and the receptionist tells us to have a seat. We hang out and the couple sitting next to us goes in. (Happens to be DH's 3rd cousins or something) It's now 4:35 and they come out. The cousin tells me he just got paged, a woman is in labor. I laugh and say she'll be in labor for 14 hours, it's her first. (Joking, not meaning to be rude or anything.)
So as soon as they leave, I see him walk past the lobby windows in the outer hallway. WHAT?!? He didn't even bother to tell us himself? Then the "Witchy" receptionist tells me "He just got paged". Well no duh, I just saw him walk past the damn window!! "Would you like to wait, sometimes it's just a quick push and he'll be back within a half hour." So we hang out. 10 minutes later the receptionist gets a phone call...uh oh, I know this isn't good.
The baby is "de-celling" (Heart rate is slowing during contrax, I guess) and Doc would have to stay there and either watch or deliver via emergency C. Ho hum...by that time I knew we would be coming back. The woman offered to reschedule us for tomorrow morning at 9:00. Oh yes, I would LOVE to go at that time, but the whole purpose for going at 4:30 today was so DH could make it. He only has 1 week for vacation and that is saved up for when baby comes. We can't afford for him to take any more unpaid time off this week or any week for that matter. (Long story, work is screwing him over right now.)
So we explain to witch woman that tomorrow won't work. She asked about next week Tuesday and we told her that we would be in Chicago till Wed night/Thurs AM. She proceeds to ask us if Wed afternoon would work? NO YOU %)*&(^*) IDIOT!! Finally, DH agrees to work next Friday at 9 AM into his work schedule. He needs to give his boss a week's notice for time off, so this was the earliest we could have done it. He was totally po'ed since he took an hour and a half off just to make it today. Couldn't they bump another woman out of her 4:30 spot? GRR!!!
So yes, I am better now, I realize that if I were in the same situation I'd want my doctor there by my side too. I understand that the baby is in danger and the doctor should be there. I do, also, understand that I am a VERY hormonal pregnant woman who was told she'd see her baby today. I don't ask for much, I am relatively healthy and I don't call past office hours (Yet...I think I feel an illness coming on a Friday night or Sat afternoon ). I JUST WANTED TO SEE MY BABY TODAY!!
I had my nephews today. I had to get up at 5:30, which was torture for me. I usually get up at 8:00 or after so being to B's by 6:30 was definitely tough. The boys were OK tho...Carsyn didn't want to eat for anything. Cael pooped 3 times, so he thought he needed 3 "prizes". Sometimes I wonder about that kid...he had such a sugar buzz today.
DH and I leave for Chicago on Sunday. He has orientation for the kind of vehicles he works on. We'll be there till Wednesday, so I better find enough stuff to bring to work on. DH just called on his way home and said the dealership he works for wanted to give him a small car to drive the 5 hours to Chicago. Thank goodness my sweet DH told them that "it wouldn't be a good idea" to cram my preggo body into a small car like that. They gave him a larger car then, like the one I drive, so I'm happy.
Figuring out what we need for food is going to be crazy!! I eat tons of smaller meals, like cheese and cracker, celery and peanut butter, and carrots with Ranch, so I don't know how I'm going to wing those smaller meals. DH will be gone for the entire morning (From 8-5 probably), so I'll have a lot of time to get fat hanging out in the hotel room. I already told Charlotte that I might be calling her since I'll miss talking to her on the boards.
Well, I know this is a LONG journal post...I better wrap it up now and write more later. Baby is still doing well with a ton of kicks in the last hour. DH still hasn't felt any but he should start feeling them soon- they're getting HARD!! Like others have said in their journals, it does feel better to get my thoughts out, even though no one may ever read this.