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    YAY! I have been getting up around 6:30, when DH gets up, since last week sometime. Today I was up when he left, but I never got out of bed. He came in and hung out in bed with me like he usually does 10 minutes before he has to leave, so I knew what time it was. I ended up staying in bed when he left tho and then FELL BACK ASLEEP!! WOO HOO!!

    We both went to bed last night around 8:20 or so b/c DH was SO tired from work. I ended up getting a phone call around 8:30 from Lori and we chatted for about 45 minutes, then I watched the rest of Law and Order, so I didn't get to bed till 10:00, but DH had been sleeping since 8:30. Grrr, I was so tired but wanted to cuddle. I know why I slept in so late this morning...9:00 is definitely later than I've been sleeping since we've been in Chicago!

    Not feeling too ambitious today...as usual. The days when I sleep late I have no ambition or energy to do anything but sit at the computer all day.

    I think I'm going to call Kohl's and yack at them for my pants I bought last week. I got them home from Chicago and found a hole in them that someone had attempted to sew up. GRR!! I looked SO CLOSE at the other pants there and couldn't find anything wrong with these, but when I put them on there was a "fix it" spot right on the middle of my left leg! Ho hum, DH was NOT happy about it, let me tell ya. He was torked that I even bought the darn things, but then wore them knowing there was a spot on them. What else could I do? I needed pants to wear to his parent's anniversary party on Sat. He said I should have gone shopping on Sat morning since he had to work, but I really didn't want to go out that morning, I was tired and wasn't feeling good. SO, now I'm going to call them and ream some butt since THEY SOLD those pants that had obviously had a flaw in them. I'll give them the whole story, I don't care what they say. If they give me crap, I'll tell them I won't shop there any more. My mother had their card, she'll just stop shopping there too!

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    Oh crap, can my week get any worse? I had to go to my parent's house this morning for some field tile to put around my burning bushes to keep the rabbits from eating them. I get over there and chat with my dad, who is transferring corn from one wagon to another to store in the machine shed. He helps me get my tile and then tells me the most startling news in awhile.

    Background, he had prostate surgery 2 years ago this December. It was bad, he might have died had they not found it when they did. So, I've been a little worried about my dad since then. OK, so he helps put the tile in my car and then tells me he has to go to the Doctor this afternoon to get a growth removed from his cheek. He said the doctor thought it might be cancerous. NOT AGAIN!!

    I told him that the spot wasn't changing colors, so why were they so worried? He then explained that the cancer might be UNDER the skin and could be moving quickly. Nope, not again I said. He would go in to the general doc and would have it removed, they would do a biopsy, and then get back to him next week. As you can imagine, this week will be pretty tough. I hope I can find things to get my mind off my dad. I had to question him about the prostate thing back in November of that year...he didn't tell anyone till he knew it was cancer. Being a crim major, I know to keep an eye and ear open and ask questions when things sound fishy. I hate having a criminology degree sometimes, ignorance is bliss!!

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    Dad's minor surgery went OK. He has a mini patch of gauze over the incision the doc made. He didn't have too much to say about it, other than the doc will be calling him back next week with the results. Here's to good news!!

    DH and I had a rather uneventful night last night. We rented "Longest Yard" and "Star Wars 3" on DVD. We watched Longest Yard first and we both thought it was really good. We then started Star Wars around 9:00 and I didn't make it through awake. We got up to go to the bathroom after the first movie and it felt like the kid was hanging out in my pelvic region. Now I understand what everyone was *****ing about when they spoke of sciatic pain. OUCH!! It hurt to move!!

    So we started Star Wars and we both thought the beginning was rather boring. I know they had to lead into the ending, but it was so boring I fell asleep. I finally felt so crummy with my hip that I went to bed and left DH to watch it on his own. We went grocery shopping in CF this morning and when we got home I put it back on. Not too bad, but the ending was MUCH better.

    The IL's will be here tomorrow all day. The FIL will be helping DH wire our upstairs bedroom. We have to go buy the wire first tho, so looks like the IL's will be joining us on a trip to Lowe's in the AM. I told DH he better take me or I'll be doing some butt kicking tomorrow night. Don't he DARE leave me here alone with his MIL!!

    I think tonight will be a rather quiet night again. I feel all bloated and like I'm retaining water for some reason. I think I might be eating too much salt or sugar...who knows. DH is playing his online game, UO, so I'm bored. I already made the No Bake Pumpkin Cheesecake for dessert tomorrow and I have everything ready for dinner when they're here tomorrow, so not much else to do but laundry. WOO HOO :P Looks like I better get at it, I don't want my MIL seeing my preggo undies.

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    Last night DH made me cry!! He had finished his shower while I was on here reading up from the weekend, so he sat down on the couch and told me that he wanted to cuddle. Awww, how cute! He knows how much I enjoy it when we cuddle.

    So we were watching the Law & Order movie when it switched to commercial. He had moved to my chest to put his hand on my tummy since baby had been pretty active while I was sitting at my desk. During the commercial he leaned down to my tummy and got really close and started talking to baby. He has done this so many times before, but it's usually "don't kick mommy" or "Wake Up, Daddy's home". He said something like "Don't be too rough on mommy tonight" when baby gave a swift kick. I told him that baby must like Daddy's voice and he just beamed! He said he didn't feel it (Boy I sure did!) but then he leaned back down and whispered "I LOVE YOU" to baby! OMG! Talk about waterfalls!! He thought it was cute that I was crying. He even went and said something else to baby, but I was too busy trying to get the tears out of my eyes.

    DH can be so sweet at times, but then there are times when he's a major pain. We were in bed talking last night when I told him that hearing him say those things to baby made me feel better about having the baby. He asked me why I said that. He doesn't understand that finances really are frustrating with not having this daycare baby like I'm supposed to. I was supposed to get the baby full time this week, but the mother doesn't want to let her baby go and be away from him.

    So I told this to DH and he admitted that he was scared to. He is afraid of not making enough money and not being able to provide baby with anything s/he needs. I know this is scary for him, but he needs to understand that we can fix things around here, like where we spend our money, and that will help. I think I may need to go over my expenses and cut back on the piddly stuff. No big deal if it makes DH feel better. He was pretty excited to get a bonus from work, so that helps. He gets paid twice this week (His regular check on Friday and his monthly bonus on the 10th) so that will help a little too. Thank goodness, I feel a little better about that.

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    I don't know what the deal is but my week has been a total waste. I've felt like crap all week, like I'm coming down with something. The only thing is I don't know what it is b/c IT'S NOT GETTING ANY WORSE!! I don't have a runny nose, I don't have stuffed up sinuses, I don't have a headache....I just have body aches. No fever, no nasty cough....NOTHING!! Grrr, I feel like an old person who just needs to get a cordisone shot in the hip.

    Talked to my friend Tara from college today. She told me that I needed to get fitted for my cap and gown by Nov 22. WTF?!? No one from the university ever bothered to send me any info about it!! Grrr, how crappy is that! I'm going to call in the morning to see what the deal was. The building where the Registrar's office is located had a fire during Homecoming weekend, so maybe they aren't caught up yet. Who knows, but I'm calling anyway.

    Nicole and I think my Bro are coming home this weekend. They have a wedding on Sat for a cousin of hers that I graduated from HS with. I think she's preggo too, just b/c they got engaged in Aug and are getting married Nov 12th. Doesn't make much sense to me b/c in HS she was such a planner and ALWAYS talked about how BIG of a wedding she wanted. There's definitely something going on, but I don't know what.

    Not much else going on, as usual. Baby freaked me out this morning when s/he didn't move like s/he normally does. Thank goodness s/he went nuts around noon. I felt MUCH better. Well, now I'm off to watch Will & Grace. Talk later!!

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    Just thought I'd share with you all my "eventful Saturday".

    8:00 AM: DH and I head to "the big city" to look for tools, baby stuff, and to buy groceries. Nice combo, right?!? We found what tools he needed and then went to buy groceries since Toys R Us (We don't have a Babies R Us) wasn't open till 10. While getting groceries, he told me he was buying me the steam cleaner I wanted. YAY!

    We go to Toys R Us and they're having a huge sale on stuff. Didn't find anything I wanted tho, we were just there to look over the travel systems, cribs, etc. We were extremely disappointed with their selection, but figured it was because they were getting ready for new inventory. (Heard from some of you that BRU was getting rid of stuff too.) We did, however, find a diaper bag we both could handle.

    http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/tg...=glance&s=baby

    We left there without knowing what we wanted for a travel system, but figured it would be best to wait till later to get it anyway. I can register for stuff that my family may want to get us for Christmas, but they can always get us gift cards or other things for baby too, doesn't have to be any big ticket items, we figured.

    So we got home and DH put the steam cleaner together right away. We moved stuff around and he immediately started cleaning the carpets for me. He said it was like an oversized power tool. HA!!

    So after lunch and a fun time of steam cleaning, we sat down and watched Return of the Jedi, since we had just watched the other 5 Star Wars movies. It was nice, we finally got to relax and sit together and enjoy the movie.

    Around 4:30 or so, we finished the movie and DH decided it was time for him to shower, since we were going to the hockey game that night. I was practically ready to go anyway. I turned on the TV and was hit with a
    "TORNADO WARNING" sign on the bottom of the screen. Oh great, just enough to freak me out. The major issue...it was for the county that my bro and his fiance go to school, where they were having a major college football game (Against Colorado U). I wasn't sure if my bro had come home or not, he had argued with his fiance that he wanted to stay for the game but she wanted him home for her cousin's wedding. I frantically called his cell (I think preggo/mom hormones kicked in right then) and he didn't answer!! WHAT?!?!?

    So I called my parent's cell (they have season tickets) and by this time the TV had said there was one on the ground near Ames and that the school was evacuating everyone to Hilton Coloseum (SP??). Whew, at least he would be inside. So I called his fiance and she must have been at the wedding b/c she didn't answer either. Oh grr, so neither my bro nor my parents were answering their cell phones and I couldn't get anyone else who would know what in the H was going on. Grr!! DH got out of his shower and told me to calm down, it was no big deal, they were safe. HOW COULD HE ASSUME THAT?!?

    So finally we left for the arena when I get a smart idea in my head. I called my friend who I knew was going to the dance and told her to have my bro or his fiance call me so I knew they were OK. Yup, I'm a paranoid sister/mom-to-be. So we settled into the game and realized that yes, we were probably out of the woods with any tornados coming near us. They were all supposed to be heading northeast of where DH and I live, but were also on track to hitting my OTHER bro's house. Oh grr, I decided to just GIVE UP and let my fears subside instead of driving me and DH nuts. My bro ended up calling me around 7:45 that night, but I was at the hockey game and the sounds in the arena were deafening. At least I knew he was OK.

    So this morning I called my mother and (halfway) reamed her butt for letting me get scared like that. She should know better, she is a mom too!! At least my dad had called our home phone last night to let us know they were making wreaths for the tree farm owners/friends they hang out with. She told me not to worry, but that's just not possible right now being pregnant. Grr!!

    And to top the night off, the darn hockey game sucked!! (Pardon my language.) The home team played like crap, the fights were a joke, and DH got soaked in beer b/c of the idiot drunk a-holes behind us and my purse got wet from the beer the morons spilled sitting beside us. Grr, we finally just LEFT the arena and came home with 5 mins left in the game. I was too tired and baby did NOT like the noise from the sound system. It was a constant 3 hours of kicking!! Finally, we just had enough.

    So we get home and the wind starts around midnight. Yup, this woman got maybe 4 hours of sleep all night. I was freaking out that the wind was going to rip the roof right off our house, that the trees were going to fall on the house, etc. It was not a good night, by any means. I think I'll get a nap in today, my nerves are shot!!

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    Felt like crap, I have the flu. YAY! Might have gotten it when I helped my Dad watch the nephews, but maybe from somewhere else too. Who knows.

    Feeling a little better now, but I have a situation to deal with. Makes me even more crappy feeling, but in all different reasons. I won't be writing about it in here, but if you have been reading this, I'm sorry. I'll be making this journal private as soon as the moderator can arrange it. I should have done it from the beginning, but decided I'd let my pregnant friends keep track of me. I find out the hard way that that wasn't the way to go about things.

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    Yup, sent a msg to missyj too, just to speed up the "privatization" process. I still have a blog, but you'll have to get the website from me, I'm no longer posting it in my profile. Unfortunately, I already sent it out to some people, so I can't take it back from them. It's highly censored, so it's not all my truthful preggo thoughts. I guess those are only allowed in MY head now.

    Thanks a bunch everyone, I appreciate all the honest lurkers out there. (Stressed out at 25 weeks, 6 days)

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    Now I'm venting...I'm really stressed out and upset.

    I want SO BADLY to write my thoughts here, but I know I can't. I'm so upset that I have to censor everything I say here and on the Feb 2006 board. It is driving me nuts that I can't get my thoughts out. Frustration is saying the least.

    Well, I'm still planning on making this private, but I just haven't had the time. Having my daycare baby now makes it somewhat difficult to get on here for any major length of time, which includes writing e-mails to Missy. Hope you all don't mind I'm still posting on here, but it will be going private soon.

    Love & Hugs to all of my friends...

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    Just wanted to extend a warm "HAPPY HOLIDAYS" to everyone on here who has read my journal. You all deserve the very best in your lives.

    Life at my house has been pretty interesting lately. I graduated from college (UNI) last weekend. I had finished classes this July but actually walked through Commencement Exercises (and let me tell you, it WAS a workout) on Saturday. It was hot and I was stuck between 2 bigger guys. I felt like they were sitting on me!

    DH has been having issues with his job...they're idiots, as usual. He might be going back to his old job if he can talk to his old boss. I saw an ad for a tech in the paper and DH looked pretty excited about it. $26 an hour looks good to him!

    Other than that, I'm just stressing about the holidays as usual. I made Puppy Chow and a different kind of sticky trail mix last night. I'll be gaining weight this month, that's for sure! Hope you all have a safe and happy holiday season and hopefully I'll see you all on the flip side of the year!

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