We have a walker AND a clapper. My gosh, Nate is such a ham. He's got this lop-sided smile (thanks to Bells Palsey) and one dimple. It always manages to melt my heart. Hannah is still cute, too. She's so adorable that it's hard to punish her sometimes. She's really talking all the time. I about lost it when she started singing a different version of Jingle Bells that my oldest son taught her, apparently.
Today will be filled with more work and more laundry. Yay, right? I think that pretty much sums up my day. My mom is here to give the kidlets their presents for Christmas, and then she's off to my grandma's this afternoon. I only wish I could send some kids with her! lol
I'm so thankful for my mom, who did a lot of thorough cleaning for me yesterday. I really needed the help. As a mom, that is the absolute best gift I think people can give me. Time and help. It doesn't cost a thing, really.
Today, I'm back off to working. I have 3 files to complete: a 63 minute B-roll, 123 minutes and 124 minutes. Hopefully, I can get the b-roll done quick. I hate those. However, since this one is going to exceed the audio minute length in number of pages, at least I'll get the hourly rate instead of $1/am.
It's a joke, really. The landlord's fix-it gal called yesterday to finally see about fixing these floors. He has 11 days left. 11. Why should our lives be upended because our landlord is a procrastinator and thinks he'll just wait until the very last minute to fix things?
We have an appointment tonight to look at a new house in Yukon tonight. It's only 4 bed/2 bath but I'll downsize to get us out of this nightmare of a neighborhood and landlord. I'm so thankful God's blessed us with this 6 bed/1.5 bath house, but it's been a nightmare with the landlord and the gang-infested neighborhood. I'm ready to get the kids back into a good school district. The new school shouldn't be too far from the new house, but I'll have to wait and see if the kids will actually end up walking there, as I think they'll have to cross a busy street.
I've picked up moving boxes off of freecycle and have the U-haul reserved. 31 days to go time.
Good luck with your move!!!
We're waiting to find out on the house... yuck. It's all up to God, now. That 63 minute file almost doubled in pay because it turned out to be 92 pages. My hands are so sore.
Nate started playing peek-a-boo yesterday :)
I'd really like to know where my AF is. My last one started Nov. 27th. PMS sucks. Husbands need to understand that when their wives are PMSing, they need to stay away. Leave me in my own hormonal world and stay away.
WE GOT THE HOUSE!!! (And AF finally reared her ugly head 12/30, thank goodness) So instead of New Years Resolutions, I have a to do list for moving 9 people. Yay!
It's 4:00 a.m. and I'm up because well, I just am. lol In all seriousness, though, I'm up because God's really got me reflecting on people. More and more these days, I find myself really wanting to go home. Home in the sense that I don't view this world as my home; I view heaven as my home.
Sadly enough, 2011 is going to be a scary year if you don't live under Christ's protection. The economic part of it will be the worst. If you've accepted Christ as your savior, there isn't much for you to worry about because He promises peace that passes all understanding and joy unspeakable. I can look around at what's going on in the world and know without a doubt that all of this was foretold in the Bible hundreds of thousands of years ago. While that may strike fear in your heart, it brings joy to mine because I know that this means that my Abba's return is so very near.
But it also breaks my heart for people in general. Even compared to 50 years ago, our world is full of sin. It's a morally downtrodden world. People have become self-centered and set in their life of sin. People are chasing after meaningless winds, trying to find something that will satisfy. I'm telling you now: everything in your life will never fill the God-shaped hole you're trying to fill. Living as a Christian doesn't mean life is hunky dory all the time. All you have to do is go back and read through my journal from the past three years to know that. Even what the enemy has thrown at me, God has turned around and used it for my good (Romans 8:28).
At the heart of it all is people. People who are being fought over from a spiritual standpoint every single day. Jesus wants you to be with Him forever; Satan wants to stop God's plan for you and keep you from being with Jesus forever. Because you're God's creation, and Satan and God are at war, Satan will stop at nothing to make sure that he throws it right back in God's face that God created you, but you're destroying your life and snubbing God. Satan loves this, but it breaks God's heart.
Why? Well, because Christ died so that all may have life, and have it abundantly (or to the full)! He would that you would choose life over death; an eternity that promises love, peace, and unfathomable joy over one of pain, darkness, and fire. And see, the thing is, right now, time is on your side. You still have time to make a choice for Christ.
"But I've done such horrible things! God can never love me or forgive me after what I've done," is what you might be thinking right now. There isn't a person in this world that hasn't felt this way at one time or another. But I'm telling you a truth: NOTHING can separate you from the love of Christ. While Jesus was dying on the cross, a criminal hanging next to him was the first person Jesus welcomed into heaven under the new covenant! Nothing is to horrendous for Christ to forgive, and the best part: God forgets our sin and removes it from us as far as the east is from the west! We may remember and the enemy may help us out and condemn us yet again for it (and there is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus), but it's removed from us and never remembered again.
Sounds simple, doesn't it? Yet this is the one choice that both heaven and hell will fight over. It's the very reason that, as you're reading this, you might feel incredibly conflicted. You feel this pull on your heart towards Christ while you feel tortured over the fact of what you've done in your life, your sin. If I could make the choice for Christ for you, I would. But I can't. It's all up to you. "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (I John 1:9)
Right now, it's between you and God. But He is running quickly towards you, waiting to welcome you home! All you have to do is tell Jesus how thankful you are that he died on the cross for you, tell Him you know that you're a sinner, ask for His forgiveness of your sin, and tell Him that you want Him as the Lord of your life. It's that simple. And then your life really begins for the first time with a fresh start. If you've accepted Him even now as your savior, there is one major party going on in Heaven! The angels rejoice every time someone new enters the kingdom! In other words, God loves you so much that he will stop heaven and Earth just to throw YOU a party!
That's the best thing about who God is: He is a father first, and he has the heart of a father. I know how much God loves me, and I hope you know how much He loves you. And know, whether your moment to meet Him is right now or months from now, I am praying. And you don't even have to know Him for me to pray for you. I will gladly pray with you or for you. Just let me know what I need to pray about. I'll keep it between you, me, and God. I consider it a huge privilege and blessing.
Yep, up at 1:30 a.m. because I'm having a hard time sleeping. I had a rather confusing issue with one of my contracts yesterday, and it's keeping me up simply because I'm confused and don't get what's going on... and I feel absolutely terrible. That being said, the confusion all over it helps me recognize the enemy at work, because God isn't the author of confusion. What I do trust is that God will turn this around for my good. It's also given me the opportunity to pray and act in love towards another, and that's been a tough lesson learned for me over the past year as I experienced my Father's love and have yearned to love others more. Naturally, since I prayed that God would cause me to love people more, He sent people who act horrible at times and need His love the most. It's been absolutely tough to learn to lay aside my own personal feelings about things and see people as He does. Nobody's beyond the love of Jesus. But I am so very thankful for the peace that passes all understanding. I know once I do get back to sleep that I will do so completely at peace and full of joy yet again.
And then, as I was reading through some scripture, the first place I opened up to was Isaiah 54. This scripture passage has been very near to both the heart of my husband and I. It's given us so many promises and we both know this is God's work in our lives both individually and as a married couple. At different times in our lives, we have watched the promises of this chapter of scripture come alive in our lives (and more to come on this later). So early in the morning, I rest in the promise of Isaiah 54:10: "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the Lord, who has compassion on you.
I tell you what. I'm wiped out. The past couple of days have been a bit stressful thanks to another lovely CPS visit. My husband is right. The enemy is back trying to work in our home, and we're not going to allow him. All of this after praying that God would give us more wisdom and discernment in raising our children well.
Let's see. Trying to figure out what to do about Rach. A friend and I packed up the girls' bedroom today, and I found several notes where she hasn't gotten homework done and has been in trouble with her teacher for refusing to do her work. At the moment, she's grounded until we do some praying about how to handle this.
I've been awake since roughly 3:30 a.m. this morning. I'm so sleepy. My body is responding to it with the cruddy cold kinda stuff.
I swore I updated the other day, but I guess not. We're moving. We found a house that will be ours, and we start moving in a week. I've got a few rooms packed and have managed to get rid of two sets of furniture, a dresser, a mirror, and a desk on free stuff on craigslist. Other than that I've just been working. I'm so tired. *yawn*
7 Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. 8 He will also keep you firm to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9 God is faithful, who has called you into fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord. (I Cor. 1:7-9, NIV)
Have you ever heard that prayer uttered (or, perhaps, uttered it yourself) of, "God, I'm doing so well today. I haven't cursed, been angry, gossiped, lied, cheated, and I've served you. Of course, I haven't gotten out of bed yet, so I need you to help me through this day!"? It reminds me that as much as my perfectionist side wants to get it all right, I often fall far short of my expectations simply because I need to measure myself against God's expectations. Today, I live thankful that His grace covers me, and that He promises to be faithful and to keep me firm to the very end!
In other news, it snowed 12.1 inches here yesterday and everything has shut down. Nate is now walking and talking, and he has his own little amazing personality. We did finally get moved, although we spent a week without internet (Hi, I'm Rachael, and I'm addicted to the internet! :) ) and so, I couldn't work. Which means I'd better get right back to it.