God, PLEASE make a way in the desert....
Ok, I sneezed about a bazillion times last night. I couldn't stop! I went home still feeling all achy and feverish, but after I sneezed a million and one times, I felt better immediately! I know this has to be a God thing, so I have to stop here to PRAISE YOU GOD for healing! No motrin today and I'm feeling much better!
My stresser today? The bills. I am seriously worried about how on earth $627 worth of bills are going to be paid on a mere $300. God tells me to not be anxious about anything, but to submit my requests to Him. I am praying for peace and calm. I haven't the slightest idea of how he is going to accomplish this, but I am trusting and praying that He will come through as Jehovah Jirah, the Lord is my Provider. And I have my boys this weekend. How I'd love to take them to do some fun things for the weekend....but I can't afford it. I hate not being able to be a fun mom sometimes. Not to mention the fact that all three of them need new shoes, and my oldest needs new summer clothes. God keeps bringing Matthew 6 before my eyes...about not worrying about what we will eat, or what we will wear....God provides for the sparrows...he clothes the lillies of the field...My Father knows I need them....how difficult it is to step out in faith and simply trust right now, when there seems not to be a way....so Father, again, I continue to pray that you will make a way....
The beginnings of blessing...
God is SO good! All the time He is good! I may just get into praising Him big time through this blog, because the answers are coming!!!
So I went to Walmart last night to pick up a $4 pair of shoes for Caleb. We got to the register, and they wouldn't ring up. So the cashier said here, they won't ring up, just take them. NEVER in my 30 years of life has Walmart given me ANYTHING. Ever. I knew this was of God. I called everyone I knew who knows God. What a blessing, hallelujah! My babies are getting what they need, not from my hand, but from God's hand! My oldest son now thinks I am completely NUTS. $4 shoes, I know, seems so small, but yet it is bigger than anything, because I know without a doubt it was God! Hallelujah!
Creaky Black Mailboxes, The Final Chapter
I reach into the rusty black mailbox attached to the outer stone wall on my front porch. Sweat pours down my face in anticipation. I reach in the mailbox with clammy hands. NOTHING. How can there be NOTHING in my mail box today??? Surely Saturday, I thought. Something would be in the mail on Saturday to cover the tyrannous, evil, Gas Company Bill. Oh, my. Yet another white envelope from the Gas Company! I open it. Whew. Just this month's bill. Only around $30. Good.
The pan sizzles around hashbrowns and sausages. Me and the boys sit down at the table to eat our breakfast. Suddenly, a knock on my front door. It's my friend Mike. I was a bit surprised to see him, I must admit. And then I'm in shock. He hands me money. At that point, you could have knocked me over with a slight push. After we chat for a bit, and I give him the world's biggest hug ever, he leaves.
Now the rule of thumb when anyone ever gives you a gift, wait until they leave to look at it. $140!!! Wow, God. Wow. I am amazed and humbled that You provided for well over half of my Gas Bill.
But stupid, stupid me. I still worry over the $23.19 that is still owed. While I'm listening to a show on TBN, I hear something that I obviously needed to hear. Never tell anyone your situation is bad. Because after you tell them that, they're going to agree with you that your situation is bad, and that makes the two of you come into agreement. So I'm here to tell you, my situation is NOT bad. It is good. I am blessed beyond measure.
I spent a good deal of yesterday afternoon praying that God would take my worry and my doubt and turn it into an unwavering faith. And Praise Him, He's doing it! For this morning, as I was telling another friend of mine that I still had $23.19 left for the bill to be covered, he offered to pay it!
And God shall supply ALL of my needs! Hallelujah!
So this makes the $60.42 I still need for car insurance by the 11th and the immediate need for gas money feel like nothing. And I have the peace, that just as He has provided for this one bill that had me fretting and worrying for nothing, that He knows that I need these items as well.