Of course I didn't get to sleep in! lol Wishful thinking. Merry Christmas!
My husband prayed too hard for a white Christmas. He's never had one. What we got was a blizzard and 14.1 inches of snow. And a 2 foot snowdrift right in front of our garage this morning. And my silly DH didn't listen when I told him we'd have to dig out the driveway before he tried backing the truck out of the garage. Sure enough, it got stuck and after about 1.5 hours of shoveling snow, I managed to get it back in the garage. Then my ex and his wife showed up and he got it out of the driveway and down the street. As it turns out, our truck is equipped with posi-traction and it doesn't make for good snow driving. You should see the roads and highways around OKC! I saw two cars that had caught fire. Countless numbers of cars left right in the middle of not only the road, but in the middle of major highways! And of course, my eldest child had to push my DH's buttons and it turned into a knock down drag out fight and DH was cussing up a storm outside and he actually told me that I had to control my child or he wasn't allowed to come back to our house. I calmly told him that I was a package deal-if my kids couldn't be with us, then I wouldn't stay. I told Chase he needed to let go of his anger and start praying. And I finally got through to my husband and told him that he needed to pray. I couldn't change Chase, he couldn't change Chase. Only God can. His responsibility as head of the household was to pray. Of course, when I got out of the car I was told I was being a big baby. I do think my DH has some serious inner self esteem issues. After about 30 minutes or so, he came up and hugged me and asked me how it is that I'm able to deal with him. I really don't know how I do. It's gotta be a God thing. Underlying issues were the fact that he's not been able to work the past 2 days b/c of this blizzard and he wants to make sure we can pay the bills. God always pays our bills. We always have more than enough irregardless of what happens. January will be a great month for us anyway b/c we've got plenty of funds coming in. I'm just thankful we got to spend Christmas Eve & Day together as a family. I see it all as a gift. However, I'm so thankful this day is over, and the boys are off to their dad's for a week. It's exhausting trying to play mediator some days.
My Essure is going in sometime during the month of January. After my last couple of pregnancies, I know my body just can't do this anymore. That, of course, didn't stop the OB from joking with me when she said "Are you sure you don't want to try for number 8-it's an even number!" and she grinned at me. lol And we feel done, that's for sure. We're both definitely ready to get to the raising part and are done having kiddos.
Anyone around here have an 11 year old boy? I'm trying to discern what is normal development in his behavior and what is flat out disobedience. He's driving me, Ryan, my ex and his wife insane with his behavior and I'm also interested in hearing what you gals do to curb the teenager in your kids.
Nate is now up to 9 lb 13 oz and 20 3/4 inches at 2 months. Hannah weighs in at 17 lbs. I think he's going to pass her in weight soon. lol He's been diagnosed with scoliosis and we'll be doing physical therapy soon to help him want to turn his head all directions-he only wants to turn it to the left and its mishaping the back of his head. He will turn it facing us and to the right but not often. He's begun smiling and has become vocal at times.
Hannah is 16 months and loves Nate. She takes the opportunity to 'help' when he cries-usually by putting his paci in his ear or covering his face up with a blanket. She is such a happy little girl! She garners attention wherever we go. And she's so smart! She keeps us entertained on a daily basis. Whenever Ryan chases her and says "I'm gonna get you!" she squeals and plops herself down on the floor. She also loves the Itsy Bitsy Spider Song now.
Caleb turned 4 and we're STILL struggling with potty training. I just don't get it!
Rachel is 6, has lost numerous teeth, and generally manages to stay in everybody's way. lol
Hunter is 6, has lost 4 teeth, and man can he throw some serious sulking fits when things don't go his way. He has such a sensitive heart that one.
Abby is 8 and we struggle some days with the fact that her pre-teen hormonal stage is beginning to kick in. Top that off with the Asperger mood swings, and you get the picture. Heaven help us when it kicks in full swing. She is such a wonderful help to me.
Chase is 11 and like I said before, he's baffled all of us. None of us can figure out why he doesn't do what he's told. It's like having a 2 year old with a teenager attitude. We've discussed several times among all of us sending him to a redirective academy where they take away all privileges and they learn to respect those in authority. The best I can figure is that I know God's got a call to preach on his life, so the devil is working overtime to fudge that up any way he can.
We finally moved into our bigger house 2 weeks ago. It's 6 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. And must I say, it's NICE having a dishwasher and an indoor laundry room! We can't figure out why the kids always want to play everywhere else in the house except in their new playroom. We're trying to keep the mess confined to one area. lol
The kids got a white Christmas. 14.1 inches of snow. Our driveway was buried under 2 feet of snow and it took us 2 days to get our truck out of the garage! But the kids are having fun playing in it.
And last, but not least, pictures!
The whole bunch, minus me and Nate:
Me and Nate (do you gals ever look at your picture and think My Goodness, I'm HUGE!)
Well, Monday begins our yearly 21 day fast. Which means no internet for fun and cutting down to fish, chicken, fruits, veggies and water for us. And no caffeine. This year, we're both praying that God will change us within and get us prepped for full time ministry.
I'll miss seeing you around for the next 3 weeks! But I know it's completely worth it and I'll pray that you receive all that you need and more during your fast.
Let's think of each other as we eat our meat and veggies. We can pretend that all meats are fluffy cupcakes with piles of your favorite fluffy icing on top At night let's dream about being in the old version of "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" and we can swim in the chocolate river and eat whatever else we want. Mmmmmmmm.
Charlie and the Chocolate factory? For some reason that doesn't sound good. lol Must be all the meat and veggies. lol
Nate: He's now 3 1/2 months old and is such the charmer! I love his baby smiles. They just melt me. He's trying hard to sit up when you lay him down. He's doing better with his head control but we're still waiting on the PT to get him to use his neck muscles properly when turning his head. Our favorite play time now is sing the MMblatt went the little green frog song. He actually squeals at the end of it. lol
Hannah: she's still adorable and her favorite song is The Itsy Bitsy Spider-she even knows all the actions now. She's quite entertaining-she loves to spin around until she's dizzy and squeals with delight when Chase plays with her. She shows her likes and dislikes very well now and she's beginning to pick up words. When Nate sneezes, she says 'bess you' in her cute way. I love having a daughter.
Me: working on weight loss, sorta. I've lost 10 lbs now but I'm not too motivated this past week thanks to crappy weather and cabin fever. Got our Essure done last Tuesday. Really, if you're going to go permanent birth control it's the way to go. I was amazed at how quick I was back on my feet.
Ryan: is still my lovable goofball husband. We're excited to see what this year brings to our ministry. His window washing business is getting back into the swing and he's also taking 6 hours for his sociology degree at rose state. I'm proud of him!
Abby: new school, new IEP. And they don't think she has Asperger's. They think it's simply learning disability. The rest of her struggles have to do with self confidence due to all the trauma from being in the state foster care system. I'm not quite so sure yet, but we'll see. She is blossoming into a pre-teen, that's for sure. She's still my loveable, wonderful daughter...but she's also getting moody and mouthy.
Rach: She's six and wants to be a part of everything going on in everyone's lives. Still incredibly slow getting around...sigh. We love her but we're both at a loss on how to handle her most days.
Hunter: He's six and he's the most well behaved kid we have-usually a stern warning or corner time corrects him. I need to get him enrolled in some type of physical activity sport-maybe karate-because that child is WIRED. lol
Caleb: Finally. He's potty trained! I thought it was never going to happen. I guess all my threats of him not being able to go to pre-k finally worked. He wants to go to school so badly next year.
Chase: He's a pre-teen boy and we're having major issues with him listening and being disrespectful. For now, I've got him memorizing verses in Proverbs. He hates it. He's also discovered ChaCha, the free text answering service that I work for. Good thing I have unlimited texting on my phone or we'd have a huge bill. lol
And that's all of us, in a nutshell. Or maybe we're just a bunch of nuts anyway...
Nothing beats having 7 kids and being sick. Well, wait,to top that off my DH is also sick with the crud I have. Which means zero down time for me. I'm up for 5 minutes before I want to go crawl back into bed.
The bone doc thinks Nate's going to have to have surgery...I'm not thrilled about him having surgery on his spine. Speaking of which...he's hungry again.
I would never have much time to go back to re-read all the things God has brought me to...through...since I began this journal. How a child I've never met started this amidst a stupid decision I made...but this journey will never end, will it? There will be days with trials and there will be days with blessings. That's just the great risk you take when you get to know who Christ is and put Him in the driver's seat.
We have Al Furey at our church the next few days, and something he said this morning has really stuck with me...no where in the Bible does it say God is called Jehovah Jireh (The Lord Provides). If you look back at the story of Moses sacrificing Isaac on Mount Moriah, it says:
So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, "On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided. Genesis 22:14 NIV
In different situations, the PLACE we are on becomes Jehovah Jireh. Like when you get detoured from the usual store at which you buy groceries only to find that the store you've just walked into has the very items you were planning to buy on sale? That grocery store just became Jehovah Jireh. Talk about taking a new twist on who God is! I was blown away just thinking about that today. And the speaker also mentioned that it's in the every day parts of life that God orders our footsteps into the doors He has opened for us. A lot there to think on. (As in, a man plans his ways, but the Lord orders his footsteps!) He's here for 2 more days and I tell you what, NOTHING will stop me from going.
I'm also perplexed right now. I have a servant's heart. Cathedral wants people involved and not just sitting on the pews. I know my giftings...and God, I need you to get me plugged in somewhere. I need for my sphere of influence to expand outside of the walls of my home! I know you know where that PLACE is, God. Get me there! No matter what it takes, get me there!
I also am so excited to see that I'm in a house (aka church) that really longs for God's presence. After I read Tommy Tenny's The God Chasers, my life has been changed forever. Right now, it's like God and I are playing hide and seek. I know I will find my Father. I know I will. And when I do, it will forever change my life and the lives of those around me.
My eldest child, who has really been perplexing me with his poor attitude and horrid behavior, really surprised me tonight. He told me the truth about something after he'd been lying about it for most of the weekend. I'm proud of him and I told him so. Of course, it was dampened when I was told I was 'stupid' all because I wouldn't let him have his own way. Man, he can push my buttons. I'm trying to do the very thing I did with my husband when we were struggling-I'm praying. Only God can make a change in his life. I'm so thankful the prayers are working. I continue to stand on the Word-we have chosen that our household will serve the Lord. That means Chase never had a chance to live with the world. But do pray for him everyone. It's sometimes a minute-by-minute struggle with him.
I'll take my straight jacket and an one way ticket straight to the nut house. Not one, but TWO of my daughters have head lice. So here we go, all over again. I'm going to shave all of us bald. I mean, it's nice knowing my daughters have wonderfully clean hair and all, but my eyes are twitching now and I just want to cry. Of course, being up until 2:00 a.m. getting everything treated isn't helping. And Nate and Hannah both have had 100 degree temps. Oy. God, feel free to show up anytime now.
Ryan and Rachael
Parents to Chase, Abby, Hunter, Rachel, Caleb, Hannah & Nate
~Remembering sweet baby Oliver, born to Heaven October 20, 2009, & keeping Carole in our prayers~