Thread: So many trials, and so many blessings

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I'm the ex-wife of a man with narcissistic personality disorder. Wondering if I can get some counseling 'cause it's been 6 years since our separation and he's still trying to inflict control, and it's driving. me. nuts!

When my spirit grows faint within me, it is you who watch over my way. In the path where I walk people have hidden a snare for me. (Psalm 142:3)

I can empathize with King David, who wrote about his spirit being faint within him. The attacks on me, on my hubs, on my family are weighing me down. I know this isn't what God intended, and I know my emotions are lying to me big time. I've done everything I know, so having done that, I stand and am still and know that God is God. The crushing, the feeling of being pressed on all sides... I'm simply feeling overwhelmed and need some time away from my family and my work right now so I can stop and refocus on things above. God, I know you're here with me even right in this moment, so I need your peace and joy and contentment above all. Nothing is impossible for you. Nothing can be against me because you are for me.

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. (2 Cor. 4:7-9)

Well... DH got fired from his job yesterday, after only being there two weeks. We don't understand. We went to court with our former landlord, only to have him not show up, so the case was dismissed... only to have the landlord file a new case the following day. We've never seen attacks like this... so we continue to pray, and trust our Father, and look forward to God being glorified through all of this. I will stay inside of peace and joy and trust. I do identify with Job right now, though. We will push, we will pray until we see our promised inheritance.

So here's the dish: Ryan felt led to stop at this company on Wednesday to put in a resume. They had just lost an employee and hadn't even advertised yet for the position. He got called in for a job interview Friday morning. They didn't even interview him! They gave him the job on the spot, offering him 22 cents more an hour than the job he just got fired from. We only have a 10% copay and the company he works for covers the rest of the insurance premium.

Even THAT was enough for us to rejoice in Christ! We knew that was God. But then, God decided to show off, which is just like him.

They called back Friday afternoon. They offered him 77 cents more an hour than his last job, and instead of insurance in 90 days, we'll have insurance in 30 days. We haven't had insurance since October of 2008! And then, when he went in to fill out his paperwork to start work today, they told him he can get OT every week if he wants it and he won't have to work any weekends until the holiday season. And he also gets a 5% bonus every month the store makes bonus. And when (not IF) he becomes a manager, he'll get 10% bonus.

That's all God. My husband has never had this incredible of a job offer before. I'm completely astounded. But yet, that's how my daddy works. He gives us the best, just because he can.

Wow... It's been a month? Okay. DH had his 30-day evaluation and he said he about bawled when his boss told him that they could tell that he wasn't intentionally making mistakes and they'd do whatever was necessary for him to keep this job. This is exactly what we've been praying for, for a boss who understood his learning disabilities.

My baby turned two yesterday!!! He's getting to be such a big boy, too... and he and Hannah are always fighting. Hannah is getting to be a biter and man is she backtalking. I wonder where my sweet little girl went. Whenever she's mad at me, she says, "Fine, then, you stupid turd!" Between getting swats for that and for climbing out of her carseat belt without even unbuckling it, the little Hoodini, I'm sure her toosh hurts some days. But then there are days when those two are like this...

Note to self. AF showed up 10/30. (And I hate her 'cause ever since I got Essure, she waits 5-6 weeks to show up, and when she does, hello cramps and a very heavy AF, darn her)

My kids came in with a 13-gallon trash bag full of candy between all of em. Anyone want donations? lol

DH got fired again today. I think it's time we got SSDI for him. I'm not mad at him, because I know it's his learning disabilities. I will say I've probably cried my eyes out for quite a while tonight... but I'm not letting DH see that. I'm sure he probably feels disheartened enough. Still trusting God that this is a setup and not a setback.

Doncha hate it when you write a long post and then your wrist hits something on your mouse and wham! It's gone.

So anyway... DH got approved for unemployment and he started a new job yesterday. He told his new boss about the learning disabilities up front, so they told him that even if it meant they had to set him to sweep the floor, they'd give him a job.

I started a new job yesterday also, which is helping people get out of debt and then planning for their future. If anyone reading this is interested in hearing more, let me know. I'm training and I sure can use people to help me learn presenting!

In a season where I am really seeking God on all areas of our life... finances, marriage, my role as a wife and mom, whether or not to make a huge move... the list goes on.

Noting, for today, that we began seeking God out on whether or not to move to a different city about a week ago. The hubs and I, we're in agreement. It's a big NO from God. But we also know that where we currently live isn't it either. So God, now where are we moving coming February?

The new business with Primerica is off to a huge start. God is definitely showing us favor there... and I'm not even a salesperson. I hates sales. But this is where it's at for us. I really long for the day when we are off state assistance and can kiss that goodbye. I hate it. But when you have 7 kids, trying to make it on our income, with both of us working, it doesn't stretch very well. So here's thanking God already that my first bonus of $1250 is in the bank!